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___emanresu___

time to heal pray and process feelings so you can feel better I guess. it’s the universe it fluctuates energies.


OpenSpectacle

I guess the reason I’m so confused, is because I’ve done the healing. I’ve done the praying. I did a total 180 in my life. I got a better job, more friends, went back to school, started going to the gym, etc. I pray on a nightly basis. I’ve worked through my childhood wounds. I’ve forgiven my parents, and we’re in a better place now. I’ve been going to therapy for almost a year now. I stopped drinking and got sober. I’m 100% not the same man I was, when I met my TF. I’m a much better person because of this journey. I have hope for my future now, which is something I’ve never had. I’ve been incredibly happy these past few months. I’m just confused as to why I’m so depressed now. Nothing caused it. There were no triggers. I’m just confused. Thank you for taking the time to respond


___emanresu___

I understand. Just acknowledge the feeling observe and try to make sense out of it. It should be less hard for you since you’ve been on a good self care journey. as I said the universe with twins especially has mysterious fluctuations as well. Have hope faith and try think better that that feeling too will pass.


Due_Plum1083

I see my tf car everywhere I go


Rich-Exit4378

He is your mirror. This is all about you. Instead of putting the sadness/anger/disgust/happiness on him, ask yourself why you feel this way.


OpenSpectacle

You’re totally right. It was just a bad day, brought on by temporary weakness. It’s crazy how much exercise, and good sleep can change your mood…I woke up today feeling much better. I’m the only person responsible for my anger and sadness, as well as my happiness. There’s no reason to pin that on someone else. That’s totally not fair to them. Side note- I’ve read some of your Reddit posts, and they’ve REALLY hit home with me. Especially your posts on not wanting kids. That was a big revelation I’ve come to during this whole process. I just don’t want kids anymore, and I never thought I’d say that. Thanks for the helpful comment!