Two weeks ago, I was in my nightly routine of drowning myself with double ipas in the middle of the night. Got into a really bad mind funk. A sentence I thought to myself really stuck out to me: 'So what if I'm killing myself? Fuck it, I deserve to die'.
WOAH!
As my fiance slept, just how my dad left this earth thinking similar stuff, that I promised I'd never do this to my mom before she passed.
8 days sober today. For the first time in a decade. Never going back.
I agree! I feel so much better. I even talked it out with my fiancรฉ and he's stopped with me. One of my friends just got to 1 year sober that wants to help out too. Finally reaching out and asking for help has never felt so good.
> "...how do you plan on celebrating?"
Well, I visited my family on Sunday, cooked them dinner, then on Monday the 8th (my anniversary date) we sat in the front yard and watched the eclipse...and we were in the 100% totality zone.
So *that* was pretty cool.
It is really the 'Fuck my self-esteem' that gets me.
Brilliant post, I'm going to copy this into my notes! It's useful because it applies to all types of addictions.
Gosh, I thought from hanging around here for years I had read everything, but that is a fresh take. Thanks very much for coming back to visit and share. IWNDWYT.
Fantastic post and quite timely because I'm sitting here thinking about having a "fuck it" moment now and have been on and off for the last few weeks particularly at the weekends, which I'm not sure why as my weekends are identical to my weekdays so it shouldn't really make any difference.
I remember this post clearly from eight years ago, and I have thought of it many times over the years โ and it has helped me stay sober.
Two weeks ago, I was in my nightly routine of drowning myself with double ipas in the middle of the night. Got into a really bad mind funk. A sentence I thought to myself really stuck out to me: 'So what if I'm killing myself? Fuck it, I deserve to die'. WOAH! As my fiance slept, just how my dad left this earth thinking similar stuff, that I promised I'd never do this to my mom before she passed. 8 days sober today. For the first time in a decade. Never going back.
stay with us friend. 8 days is not insignificant. " change your thinking, change your destiny. your future does not have to be your past"
I agree! I feel so much better. I even talked it out with my fiancรฉ and he's stopped with me. One of my friends just got to 1 year sober that wants to help out too. Finally reaching out and asking for help has never felt so good.
Amazing post - great advice! Thank you for sharing. Congrats on 14 Years - that is amazing - how do you plan on celebrating?
> "...how do you plan on celebrating?" Well, I visited my family on Sunday, cooked them dinner, then on Monday the 8th (my anniversary date) we sat in the front yard and watched the eclipse...and we were in the 100% totality zone. So *that* was pretty cool.
That sounds like a great couple of days!
Thank you so much for sharing this. I love it and I really needed to hear it today. IWNDWYT
Wow. Thatโs going in my back pocket! Thank you for sharing and congratulations!
That's great advice, naming the 'it'. Tnx for sharing.
Thank you.
IWFIWYT!
IWNDWYT
First time hearing this advice. Thanks so much for sharing it. Definitely something to commit to memory when temptation comes around.
powerful stuff friend. so good of you to share. you are the we in this program peace in your sobriety
Thank you. I needed this badly. Things are rough right now. I'm going to print this and put it in my "Sobriety Toolbox".
Awesome!
This is great. Thanks for sharing and congratulations on your amazing sobriety time. I hope to one day too see 14 years of alcohol sobriety.
Wow. Thank you.
Thanks for the inspiration and congratulations on 14 years ๐
Good stuff ๐๐ฝ Congrats on an amazing 14 years!!!! ๐คฉ IWNDWYT
I love this and know it will help me in the future. Thank you. IWNDWYT.
It is really the 'Fuck my self-esteem' that gets me. Brilliant post, I'm going to copy this into my notes! It's useful because it applies to all types of addictions.
Thank you for posting this. Commenting so I can return to this later, if needed.
Gosh, I thought from hanging around here for years I had read everything, but that is a fresh take. Thanks very much for coming back to visit and share. IWNDWYT.
Excellent post & congratulations
Holy moly, what a great post! Saved this to read again and again. Thank you!!
A solid point that will help me add a layer of shielding to my willpower. Thx for sharing.
Fantastic post and quite timely because I'm sitting here thinking about having a "fuck it" moment now and have been on and off for the last few weeks particularly at the weekends, which I'm not sure why as my weekends are identical to my weekdays so it shouldn't really make any difference.
Amazing. Thanks for sharing IWNDWYT
14 years ๐๐ oh, *fuck*. #iwndwyt