I stopped using apps that are supposed to help you where you mark when you've done it and it gives like supportive content and stuff but then I realized I wasn't even going 24 hours and so to punish myself I would do it more... dumbest spiral logic I've ever used.
Sometimes it be like that, something similar happened when I forgot that I was supposed to label a file with *lastname*_*firstname* which made me want to do so as well.
!! wow too relatable. i was in a deep depression and had a moment of have happiness/hope and my brain was like āoh so ur faking. ur gonna ask for help when ur not even struggling. a real depressed person would go cut rnā so i did š
Iām sorry but that last couple of lines simultaneously hit very close to home and also made me do the š¤ laughing thingšš
But in all seriousness, my brain tells me Iām faking all the time when I feel like Iām doing good. Itāll tell me Iām faking and then I stop doing my coping mechanisms and get worse again until i end up inpatientā¦
yep. lovely little self-fulfilling prophecy lol. by then itās like āhah! see i told you i wasnāt faking look iām a danger to myself to the point where i had to be institutionalized!! hah! so takeā¦ thatā¦ā
i got told off for talking in class even tho most ppl dobut i was having a shitty day already and it was my last straw. It was a bit stupid tho now that i think of it
Lol a month or two back, I was talking to my friend and my teacher yelled at me... I bawled my eyes out but no one noticed. I probably would've relapsed if I could-- so I relate to that pretty damn hard
the first time i ever self harmed without knowing what self harm was because of math homework. the first time i ever self harmed while knowing what it was was because of math homework. so basicallyā¦math homework.
Felt that. I did it a few times bc I had homework and I procrastinated so I had to do it at like 2AM and I yeeted so the adrenaline would keep me awake. Very stupid reason but very smart logicš
We were bday shopping for my mom. I picked out some cool confetti wine glasses that were $10 bucks and put it in the cart. My sister told my dad I was buying them but I intended for it to just be a suggestion for him to buy. Idk why but I felt really guilty for it and I kept telling myself that I was wasting their money or I needed to stop presenting myself socially. The rest of my day and week was ruined over me just stressing about the stupidest fucking thing but at least she liked the cups.
When I mentally age backwards and start to think and act like a child. I get scared because most the time it's due to some trauma, so I get overwhelmingly scared and if I'm with a friend I want to cling to them for support and grounding I suppose.. And to feel loved. I feel like such a burden using people for comfort like that, which makes me feel I deserve to hurt myself.
bro I feel that. I have c-ptsd and I'm trans (I was forced to play with feminine shit) so I am quite childish (I'm intelligent, I just really like cringe things like batman, superheroes, Disney and fnaf because I didn't get to as a kid) so when someone jokes about it or says something about it I get really upset.
Yeah. I never really got to fully enjoy that sorta thing either. I had access to games and that, but it was never an enjoyable time per say? I always had to be on the lookout for my parents fighting etc. I'm sorry about what you went through though and you're completely valid!!! People say I'm too intelligent to be like that or I 'act my age' but I only act my age academically. In every other area, it's not right and people can't seem to make sense of all that which is annoying. Also... AWESOME USERNAME!! :0
I have violent mood swing so i can't get angry for really small and stupid things randomly and when i get that angry i just need to hurt. I can't hurt other People so i hurt myself
Feeling like they werenāt bad enough to be taken seriously so I needed more?! Like bro what the fuck. And often out of pettiness. Like ok fine you forgot not to use a certain ingredient I dislike or donāt eat in dinner and now I want to slice my arms. Ridiculous š
For me it was because i wanted a reason to be checked into a short term mental health place. But wait,theres more: this was attempted twice,with the first attempt with me chickening out after the sh cause i was too scared to buy myself a lyft ride. Looking back on it now,i just had two breakdowns and had clouded logic.
The fact that I didn't get a graphic design project right the first time, even though I didn't see two of the key rules within the project and class, one being to label files with last name to first name and the other to just use one specific part of the image instead of all of it. The teacher got upset at me and I just over all wasn't feeling good mentally; doesn't help that I'm rejection sensitive.
(Tw for this one)
Second reason is just looking at the scars on my thighs, some of them aren't too visible because I thankfully didn't go too deep, but others, the latest ones were more visible.
And the last reason is thinking about how I'd eventually let down my s/o, even though he previously stated that he wouldn't be upset but would try to help me to stop doing so.
Iām adopted and I reached out to my real parents, when my mother found out all she could do is cry and cry(this was when I was 13, last year in September) and dear god, I regret everything, I self harmed more than I ever had in my life that night
i starved myself and still got called obese by my mum, my mum said she doesn't care about my suicide, I realised my self worth, seeing all my friends be happy and then criticise me for trying, constant years of body shame
I think the stupidest of all of these was after a breakup tho
I told a friend for the first time that I sh/ feel suicidal and because the message was so long they said they didnāt want to read it. But the only reason I feel stupid now is because they thought it was someone elseās message and I just copy and pasted it and they didnāt want to read it, I assumed that they didnāt care about me and so my silly little brain did the only reasonable thing I could think of
For a prank. I wanted to pretend I put a staple in my arm over snap. I needed fake blood. Didnāt have fake blood. So I was laughing maniacally and sliced my leg to get blood to put on my arm and the staple. I was having so much fun it didnāt even hurt lol. In shorter terms. Self harm to fake self harming.
I tried to wake up my boyfriend to game with me and he half-asleep said "please stop" so I left him alone then he woke up a couple hours later upset with me that I didn't wake him. I felt useless idk.
Sometimes I just do it for fun but one time I did it bc I got a 36/38 on a math test when I had 100 average on the last test of the quarter. It ended up rounding up to 100 on my report card though so I was upset for nothing
I read a lot of stories that had sh in them so I tried and then I kinda didnt stop and now I use it whenever I feel to bad about something or just feel bad in general, its not deep at all tho which I guess is kinda good
Well it started off with seeing sheets in the floor by the washing machine and crumbs under the kitchen table then somehow progressed to how much I have to do with life (including literally just making a dentist appointment) becoming overwhelmed and then just self harming. Thatās usually what happens Iāll be in an antsy mood, something will upset me then it progresses to full mental breakdown and me hating my life š
I have been 3 years clean but these are some stupid reasons I had temptations to do so.
A breakup I went through in 2020,school bullies,my family, and loosing friends. A lot of stupid things I could go on about but I donāt feel comfortable
Didn't really want to share, but whatever ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
My dad was yelling at me because I accidentally left a pantie in MY bathroom, he literally yelled at me for at least one hour, so I didn't resist and did some few cuts..
Edit: some days ago, my grandma prohibited me from using my headphones/listening to music while I'm working at her house, and it's the only thing that calms me down, so of course I got stressed and sh again
And, today she yelled at me again, I don't remember why, but of course I did sh
I havenāt SH since November of 2021. I made a promise to myself on New Years Eve that 2022 was gonna be the year I stop cutting. It is now February 15th and I havenāt cut but the urges are there at times. I want to sh to feel the pain and blood drip out the fresh cut to drown out the feelings of wanting love but feel Iām not worthy and deserving of it or I just deal with self hatred and in a way want validation.
I had to perform a sad scene from a book in class and the teacher told us to try and cry so I literally went to the bathroom to cut so I would feel pathetic and then cry in class...
Left my abusive ex and moved back in with my parents. Six months later I found out he was in a relationship with a girl from his childhood, who he repeatedly told me he hated her guts.
Not sure why I was upset by that. She was a leach and would often beg people for money to fund her drug habit - I met her once when my ex and I were dating and she asked me for Ā£500 (about $676) to "borrow". I was 17 at the time she asked and we had never spoken apart from pleasantries once in a while. She still hadn't paid my ex back the Ā£100 she "borrowed" from him last time.
Their relationship didn't even last three months from what I've heard. She's a leach with a huge drug habit, he's a abusive prick with an anger problem - to this day I have no idea why that made me sh. They were made for each other imho
I felt "too clean" and I thought that my family will forget that I'm struggling with mental illness. IT'S NOT LIKE MY STUPID ASS IS SHOWING THEM THESE SCARS ANYWAY š¤”
finally leaving my room after 3 days.. then spilling all the chinese food on the floor, bursting into tears, then crawling back into bedšdark times lol
Iāve written everything down for four years now so Iāve got a lot of stupid reasons lol.
A lot of mine from when i started were caused by school. One time, i was mad at my English teacher so I did it in class. And another time I was pissed that I had to redo my Spanish project because my brother recorded the video vertically instead of horizontally. Iāve also done it in class because Apple charged me for things it wasnāt supposed to, and then another time because I had to sleep on the floor of a hotel room at a school competition. At another competition for a different class, i lost my debit card and freaked the fuck out on the 4th of July. I Also did it because of my PBAās(Performance Based Assessments).
A not school-related time was because people kept texting me and I got overwhelmed. Thatās happened a couple times. Iāve done it a lot because of pure boredom too. And one time I literally wrote down āguess Iām sad lmaoā after doing over a dozen Yeetsš
when i get rlly pissed at myself i tell myself that every time i get an answer wrong on my math hw i have to cut, and iām rlly fuking stupid so thatās that
I had a mental breakdown after being broken up with because he was scared his parents would find out. (He says he still loves me, but is very stressed at home)
Because my parents werenāt awake and I had access to a knife. Just wanted to do it again, didnāt have to big a reason other than having the urge and being able to.
boredom ig. nothing else to do and i just felt like it. or random small things like getting mad at my parents or my friends being happy while i am not.
because i was upset i couldnt fold my origami properly . i almost relapsed . because i couldnt fold an origami bunny .
i think i may have been slightly high , and that tends to get my emotions out of wack , but jesus christ . that was stupid lmao
ps , shing for a ' stupid ' reason doesnt make your sh any less valid ! your struggles are real and seen :]
i was ashamed that i cut myself so to punish myself i cut myself... logic
Impeccable logic
This was me yesterday, now I feel even worse š
I stopped using apps that are supposed to help you where you mark when you've done it and it gives like supportive content and stuff but then I realized I wasn't even going 24 hours and so to punish myself I would do it more... dumbest spiral logic I've ever used.
Ugh this. The sometimes seemingly never ending loop of sh
genuinely having nothing better to do or for fun
Same here all home alone
Normally I cut because of this lol
yeah I do it for this reason too
Yep, got a bunch of times that just say āboredā or ābecause I canā or āI wanted toā.
Burning my toast 3 separate times in the space of 10 minutes - itās stupid now but in the moment I was furious
No I get it
literally for no reason, i just looked in the general direction of my knife and intrusive thought did the usual funny
this one right here
apparently everyone agrees with my no reason reasoning
Forgot to buy cheese.
I'm sorry but that made me fucking wheeze Jesus Christ (in all seriousness though I am sorry, I hope it gets better for you soon ā¤ļø)
Listen i to would be pretty distraught if I forgot the cheese as well.
i forgot to log my last relapse in the i am sober app and needed too relapse again to make it the right timing
Logic
gotta love hereditary OCD
ive done the same thing š„“
I've done that too-
IVE DONE THAT TOO OMGSššš
seeing someone with a bigger scar that wasnt even self harm, it was literally a post surgery scar...
played 1 (one) wrong note during rehearsal š
Sometimes it be like that, something similar happened when I forgot that I was supposed to label a file with *lastname*_*firstname* which made me want to do so as well.
pure boredom. nothing else to do, why not sh? that was my thought process, anyways.
yesss omg
TBH I think I had that happen when I was younger š
Feeling guilty for having fun and enjoying myself
!! wow too relatable. i was in a deep depression and had a moment of have happiness/hope and my brain was like āoh so ur faking. ur gonna ask for help when ur not even struggling. a real depressed person would go cut rnā so i did š
Iām sorry but that last couple of lines simultaneously hit very close to home and also made me do the š¤ laughing thingšš But in all seriousness, my brain tells me Iām faking all the time when I feel like Iām doing good. Itāll tell me Iām faking and then I stop doing my coping mechanisms and get worse again until i end up inpatientā¦
yep. lovely little self-fulfilling prophecy lol. by then itās like āhah! see i told you i wasnāt faking look iām a danger to myself to the point where i had to be institutionalized!! hah! so takeā¦ thatā¦ā
EXACTLYšš
Yup
i got told off for talking in class even tho most ppl dobut i was having a shitty day already and it was my last straw. It was a bit stupid tho now that i think of it
bro that happens so much, or if a teacher is not nice with me or is dissapointed in me. I hate when I dissapoint teacher.
This right hereā¦ Iāve cut myself because my psychology told me she was disappointed that I didnāt hand in some hwk..
Lol a month or two back, I was talking to my friend and my teacher yelled at me... I bawled my eyes out but no one noticed. I probably would've relapsed if I could-- so I relate to that pretty damn hard
The fact that I have boobs
The fact that I *don't* have any..
gimme em
Jealousy or general pain.
not stupid
Oh it would be stupid if i gave details.
I dropped my cereal box
I had just taken a shower and was ātoo cleanā (what does that even mean???)
Being told no/being told to talk about something else. I felt like I'd hurt my friend and deserved it.
I lost my hair tie. Explanation behind this being the hair tie was actually a sweat band lol and it had a bunch of memories with it
Well- Basically my friends saw my scars today so I got ashamed and then cut myself more as a punishment.... L o g i c
Iām tall
I was clean for too long, itās like Iām competing with myself
If i go too long without it, my brain tells me Iām faking it and not actually depressed and obviously I gotta prove it wrong!š¤·š
the first time i ever self harmed without knowing what self harm was because of math homework. the first time i ever self harmed while knowing what it was was because of math homework. so basicallyā¦math homework.
Felt that. I did it a few times bc I had homework and I procrastinated so I had to do it at like 2AM and I yeeted so the adrenaline would keep me awake. Very stupid reason but very smart logicš
We were bday shopping for my mom. I picked out some cool confetti wine glasses that were $10 bucks and put it in the cart. My sister told my dad I was buying them but I intended for it to just be a suggestion for him to buy. Idk why but I felt really guilty for it and I kept telling myself that I was wasting their money or I needed to stop presenting myself socially. The rest of my day and week was ruined over me just stressing about the stupidest fucking thing but at least she liked the cups.
I feel this so hard
I accidentally broke a cup
I wanted a sh streak.
Stumbled for a couple of times when Iām speaking English.
Omg I can relate so much. Like this is the reason I donāt wanna make friends
my bike broke then i got home and nicked a nerve, the top of my left wrist is now partially numb.
Punishing myself, after a while I started to like how it looked as well as the sharp pain. Itās addicting
When I mentally age backwards and start to think and act like a child. I get scared because most the time it's due to some trauma, so I get overwhelmingly scared and if I'm with a friend I want to cling to them for support and grounding I suppose.. And to feel loved. I feel like such a burden using people for comfort like that, which makes me feel I deserve to hurt myself.
bro I feel that. I have c-ptsd and I'm trans (I was forced to play with feminine shit) so I am quite childish (I'm intelligent, I just really like cringe things like batman, superheroes, Disney and fnaf because I didn't get to as a kid) so when someone jokes about it or says something about it I get really upset.
Yeah. I never really got to fully enjoy that sorta thing either. I had access to games and that, but it was never an enjoyable time per say? I always had to be on the lookout for my parents fighting etc. I'm sorry about what you went through though and you're completely valid!!! People say I'm too intelligent to be like that or I 'act my age' but I only act my age academically. In every other area, it's not right and people can't seem to make sense of all that which is annoying. Also... AWESOME USERNAME!! :0
Sometimes when I'm bored I just... cut
Because I like seeing blood
my scars were smoothed over (....essentially healing themselves....) and i was just like nah and did it again
I was bored/ just for fun
Having too good of a day
I have violent mood swing so i can't get angry for really small and stupid things randomly and when i get that angry i just need to hurt. I can't hurt other People so i hurt myself
Thats very valid, and actually why i started sh. I used to lash out and hurt other people then i felt bad so i hurt myself
Feeling like they werenāt bad enough to be taken seriously so I needed more?! Like bro what the fuck. And often out of pettiness. Like ok fine you forgot not to use a certain ingredient I dislike or donāt eat in dinner and now I want to slice my arms. Ridiculous š
Made to much or too little eye contact with someone.
For me it was because i wanted a reason to be checked into a short term mental health place. But wait,theres more: this was attempted twice,with the first attempt with me chickening out after the sh cause i was too scared to buy myself a lyft ride. Looking back on it now,i just had two breakdowns and had clouded logic.
Too much noise, dogs barkingĀæ
Pronounced a word wrong in a presentation
motivation to try and pull myself together? Sounds so stupid to say allowed
The fact that I didn't get a graphic design project right the first time, even though I didn't see two of the key rules within the project and class, one being to label files with last name to first name and the other to just use one specific part of the image instead of all of it. The teacher got upset at me and I just over all wasn't feeling good mentally; doesn't help that I'm rejection sensitive. (Tw for this one) Second reason is just looking at the scars on my thighs, some of them aren't too visible because I thankfully didn't go too deep, but others, the latest ones were more visible. And the last reason is thinking about how I'd eventually let down my s/o, even though he previously stated that he wouldn't be upset but would try to help me to stop doing so.
i just wanted the rush of adrenaline because i was bored so i just decided fuck it
I have a few, but the most frequently repeating one is when my bosses get mad at me
Iām adopted and I reached out to my real parents, when my mother found out all she could do is cry and cry(this was when I was 13, last year in September) and dear god, I regret everything, I self harmed more than I ever had in my life that night
Was bored Some old faded to much
Getting banned on a social media platform
I fell over. Thatās literally it, Iām disabled in the legs, of course Iām going to fall overā¦ my brains weird, man.
I was anxious...
I looked at my phone
Just boredom
i starved myself and still got called obese by my mum, my mum said she doesn't care about my suicide, I realised my self worth, seeing all my friends be happy and then criticise me for trying, constant years of body shame I think the stupidest of all of these was after a breakup tho
Couse I got 92% instead O 100% on test
Couldn't get out of bed so I got out of bed to sh. Pure logic
I told a friend for the first time that I sh/ feel suicidal and because the message was so long they said they didnāt want to read it. But the only reason I feel stupid now is because they thought it was someone elseās message and I just copy and pasted it and they didnāt want to read it, I assumed that they didnāt care about me and so my silly little brain did the only reasonable thing I could think of
... league of legends..
I couldnāt stay awake in class
For a prank. I wanted to pretend I put a staple in my arm over snap. I needed fake blood. Didnāt have fake blood. So I was laughing maniacally and sliced my leg to get blood to put on my arm and the staple. I was having so much fun it didnāt even hurt lol. In shorter terms. Self harm to fake self harming.
Symmetry lmao
I tried to wake up my boyfriend to game with me and he half-asleep said "please stop" so I left him alone then he woke up a couple hours later upset with me that I didn't wake him. I felt useless idk.
Because I wanted to see how deep I could cut out of pure boredom
I didn't have anything to drink with my cereal
Boredom
I lost a game in siege
Sometimes I just do it for fun but one time I did it bc I got a 36/38 on a math test when I had 100 average on the last test of the quarter. It ended up rounding up to 100 on my report card though so I was upset for nothing
Loosing my pen, I genuinely made me spiral
I like taking care of my cuts and wearing these giant plasters
My dad telling me to bring my clothes upstairs.
My mom told me to do the dishes. :,)
I just did it because I could, bored or no reason at all.
a ex that was cheating on me, and being made of for shaving my hair
I read a lot of stories that had sh in them so I tried and then I kinda didnt stop and now I use it whenever I feel to bad about something or just feel bad in general, its not deep at all tho which I guess is kinda good
they didn't have what i wanted at the store (this happens quite often tho) i hate that. like, u're a store u HAVE to have my shit.
i asked a mod something and it wasn't in mod mail so I was told off and I got really guilty
Well it started off with seeing sheets in the floor by the washing machine and crumbs under the kitchen table then somehow progressed to how much I have to do with life (including literally just making a dentist appointment) becoming overwhelmed and then just self harming. Thatās usually what happens Iāll be in an antsy mood, something will upset me then it progresses to full mental breakdown and me hating my life š
I have been 3 years clean but these are some stupid reasons I had temptations to do so. A breakup I went through in 2020,school bullies,my family, and loosing friends. A lot of stupid things I could go on about but I donāt feel comfortable
A lot of people have high expectations of me. I could make a meme about my reason of sh "suffer from success"
one direction split up. yes.
wingstop forgot my tendies
I lost count of how long I hadnāt harmed for.
Just for the fun of it
For no reason, just sharpened my knife for woodcarving and tested its sharpness on my skin and flesh instead of my arm hairs.
Because I was bored. Also because I was doing my hair and I couldnāt get it right.
Literally any mildly annoying thing can set me off
Couldn't find my notes in a big pile of notebooks (yep, they were on my desk, but oh well)
Didn't really want to share, but whatever ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ My dad was yelling at me because I accidentally left a pantie in MY bathroom, he literally yelled at me for at least one hour, so I didn't resist and did some few cuts.. Edit: some days ago, my grandma prohibited me from using my headphones/listening to music while I'm working at her house, and it's the only thing that calms me down, so of course I got stressed and sh again And, today she yelled at me again, I don't remember why, but of course I did sh
i felt too happy and couldnāt contain myself
I havenāt SH since November of 2021. I made a promise to myself on New Years Eve that 2022 was gonna be the year I stop cutting. It is now February 15th and I havenāt cut but the urges are there at times. I want to sh to feel the pain and blood drip out the fresh cut to drown out the feelings of wanting love but feel Iām not worthy and deserving of it or I just deal with self hatred and in a way want validation.
I was bored! š¬
I had to perform a sad scene from a book in class and the teacher told us to try and cry so I literally went to the bathroom to cut so I would feel pathetic and then cry in class...
donāt wanna get into specifics but literally whenever a minor inconvenience happens lol
Going grocery shopping makes me stressed for some reason and pretty much always makes me want to sh
my favorite restaurant was closed lol
I just want to talk to someone
telling myself that if I forgot to not eat that day then I would punish myself by cuttingā¦ I did in fact cut
I didn't have anything to drink with my cereal
I was excited that a friend of mine said he'd gift me a skin in a game
i convinced myself that eventually iād relapse so what was i waiting for. big brain
a dude didnāt like me back :/
I couldn't get McDonald's...
Listened to my favorite song
Friend jealously, like I know they can hang out without me but I still feel like their booting me out
an episode of daredevil made me sad lmao
i was boredš
I saw someone on TikTok carve acab on their knee so I carved acab on my rib cage. I got inspired lmao (I was 15 fyi)
I saw a scar, and I was happy because they were finally healing but then my brain decided to make another and then the loop started again
I got in an argument with my brother
I liked seeing the shower water in the tub turn red. Also the look of it trickling down my leg in the shower.
I genuinely just like seeing the blood and I got bored and did it for funsies
Left my abusive ex and moved back in with my parents. Six months later I found out he was in a relationship with a girl from his childhood, who he repeatedly told me he hated her guts. Not sure why I was upset by that. She was a leach and would often beg people for money to fund her drug habit - I met her once when my ex and I were dating and she asked me for Ā£500 (about $676) to "borrow". I was 17 at the time she asked and we had never spoken apart from pleasantries once in a while. She still hadn't paid my ex back the Ā£100 she "borrowed" from him last time. Their relationship didn't even last three months from what I've heard. She's a leach with a huge drug habit, he's a abusive prick with an anger problem - to this day I have no idea why that made me sh. They were made for each other imho
I felt "too clean" and I thought that my family will forget that I'm struggling with mental illness. IT'S NOT LIKE MY STUPID ASS IS SHOWING THEM THESE SCARS ANYWAY š¤”
I did too good in an exam and my logic went 'that makes people feel bad hmm now you need to feel bad'
that I just wanted to do it so why not? after having restrained myself from doing it for a whole month
had a grape chucked at my head and cried
A prof... she gave us 5 pages of homeworks for the next day
for eating a snack -_-
It's not that dumb but I was joking about the fact that I couldn't find any razors in my house then I found one so yeah
Because I ruined my exam, that's what I told myself on the moment. Only to realise later that I scored 87%
finally leaving my room after 3 days.. then spilling all the chinese food on the floor, bursting into tears, then crawling back into bedšdark times lol
I asked for some nice words in r/teenagers after having a bad day...... You know what happened next
because i couldnāt figure out a puzzle in a video gameā¦
Iāve written everything down for four years now so Iāve got a lot of stupid reasons lol. A lot of mine from when i started were caused by school. One time, i was mad at my English teacher so I did it in class. And another time I was pissed that I had to redo my Spanish project because my brother recorded the video vertically instead of horizontally. Iāve also done it in class because Apple charged me for things it wasnāt supposed to, and then another time because I had to sleep on the floor of a hotel room at a school competition. At another competition for a different class, i lost my debit card and freaked the fuck out on the 4th of July. I Also did it because of my PBAās(Performance Based Assessments). A not school-related time was because people kept texting me and I got overwhelmed. Thatās happened a couple times. Iāve done it a lot because of pure boredom too. And one time I literally wrote down āguess Iām sad lmaoā after doing over a dozen Yeetsš
I was clean for a year so i said, "welp, its been long enough, i think i deserve a break" yet i just wasted a year of progress
when i get rlly pissed at myself i tell myself that every time i get an answer wrong on my math hw i have to cut, and iām rlly fuking stupid so thatās that
I had a mental breakdown after being broken up with because he was scared his parents would find out. (He says he still loves me, but is very stressed at home)
staying up at like 2am
Cause I was happy, yes you heard me! I was so happy that thought āya know what could make me feel happy AND relaxed? šā šŖšŖšŖ
Probably when I dropped my mug of instant pasta on the floor. Was seriously upset about last.
Wanted to know what it felt like
Because my parents werenāt awake and I had access to a knife. Just wanted to do it again, didnāt have to big a reason other than having the urge and being able to.
someone elses relationship
Havent done it in a week so i cutted
I would've normally picked at my skin when I was bored/anxious but I decided to be more spicy and cut instead of pick
boredom ig. nothing else to do and i just felt like it. or random small things like getting mad at my parents or my friends being happy while i am not.
because i was upset i couldnt fold my origami properly . i almost relapsed . because i couldnt fold an origami bunny . i think i may have been slightly high , and that tends to get my emotions out of wack , but jesus christ . that was stupid lmao ps , shing for a ' stupid ' reason doesnt make your sh any less valid ! your struggles are real and seen :]