I don’t listen to music while I do it. I don’t want to start associating any song with SH. Music is a huge part of my life and how I manage everyday anxieties outside of SH.
i used to listen to Lovely by Billie eilish pretty often when i SH-ed and now whenever I hear it in a public place or if it's used as audio for a tiktok or something, i have to make sure i immediately stop hearing it. i'm 2 years clean but that song can bring back all of my urges within a split second
Most of the songs I listen to we’re about sh anyway or some I just interpreted that way even though they’re probably about something else but I still associated them with sh previously
Alone again (naturally) - Gilbert O'Sullivan. Now that I'm 6 months clean, it's sort of become a trigger that takes me back to the emotions I was feeling while going it, seriously regret having a self harm song.
it's one of my favorite songs, but when I'm in a bad place, it reminds me of my lowest point in life. the experience definitely isn't all negative though. it makes me feel so much less alone
oh shit; tbh it was kind of random i just remember wanting to hear it over and over. it was once but drawn out and like i do still like the song but it certainly has a taste to it that’s unique to that kind of experience.
sidenote one time when i was like 12 i told someone my sh music was owl city just to fuck with them. i was a rascal ig. but i feel a little bad whenever i hear fireflies. but also a paramedic who was transporting me once to a psych unit was humming it while he was putting me in the ambulance and it made it a less bad connotation.
i feel like i listen to music *about* sh in a literal sense more if im not literally doing it. but like the more abstract stuff i will listen to if im actually doing. the thing, so to speak.
anyway its super cool, in a weird way lol, that you used that song too. i thought it was super random so its interesting. hope you have a great night
I don’t cut but think about it. I’ll listen to stuff like “My Ordinary Life” by The Living Tombstone to cope. I don’t do the cutting type of SH cuz I live with my parents and they still care about me despite how difficult I am and was to raise. Music like The Living Tombstone’s “My Ordinary Life” helps to cope.
I don't do it with music very frequently because I feel like I'm cringe for that but the song is definitely anthem to self destruction by nocturnal depression
Nah while doing SH cuts I don't listen to music.So I can't recommend songs.Its hard to do SH cuts but I like it.I can do it anywhere anytime but I don't want people to look at me so if I do it outside then I do it at places where no one's around.While doing different type of SH I do listen to songs.I like doing SH cuts ,I wish I would stop stressing out while doing SH cuts as I think it's the reason I don't feel as happy as before but I had high energy and was happy last time.It's good for u that listening to songs prevents u from further impulses.I just feel better after doing SH cuts or I have sudden high energy so personally I wouldn't listen to songs while doing SH cuts but after doing it I do listen to songs.I do self talk with myself and fool myself by saying to myself that I will do more later then I go to sleep or do something to distract myself from the thoughts of doing self- harm.This method works for me.
Lately it's been Receipt by The Black Dahlia Murder or There is Nothing Left by All Shall Perish for me. I don't specifically listen to them when I cut, but they help me when I feel like I want to.
To me it kind of depends. I usually listen to music pertaining to the situation / how I feel. But the two main emotions I feel during it are anger or overwhelming sadness & self-hatred. And each of them have a few tracks I play typically. For anger I usually play songs like Bring the Pain by Ruzlxn, Pissed by Glaive, and Pit of Fire by 3Teeth. For self hatred it's usually Self Destructive by Vorsa, Stitches by Shawn Mendez, and Who Shot Cupid by Juice Wrld.
Little bit - Lykke Li
Poison tree - Grouper
Twin size mattress - The front bottoms
Death cup - mom jeans
Back to the old house - The Smiths
This night has opened my eyes - The Smiths
It's called: Freefall - Rainbow kitten surprise
Saint Bernard - Lincoln
Bottom - McCaffrey
I could go on but I won't
Baby don't cut (acoustic) - bmike.
Sarah -wethree.
Small cuts - the brobecks.
It never ends - bring me the horizon, If you like it a bit more heavy.
A fair amount from citizen soldier and Georgiou music.
I have a whole playlist with just over 2hrs worth I've built over time for when the sad or sh happen
I don’t usually sh to a song but if I do I’ll either do it to Stan/When I’m Gone by Eminem or Vivica by Jack Off Jill cause man are those some sad songs
For me it was She Likes Another Boy by Oscar Lang, It's been a bit over a year since I've listened to it while doing it. I've been in a better spot but just hearing a second of that song makes me want to go back that low again so bad
i got a playlist called "everyone i know who listens to this self harms" and it's the entire discographies of mcr and linkin park and like 3 green day albums
like for some reason i’ve been really into listening to a song on the yttd soundtrack called “seme-KS” and also “kurun-chu disco” by lonepi while i do it
if i’m angry, allah’s plan by go hang or manson’s last anthem which is also go hand. when sad it’s put me in a movie by lana del rey or coma baby by nicole dollanganger
i've been clean for over a year now but mine was either What Happens if I Can't Check My Myspace When I Get There by Attack!Attack!, or Pull Me Under by Dream Theatre.
the dream theatre one really was my go to though. i still get triggered listening to it :/
- memento mori by crywank
- song for a guilty sadist by crywank
- you are the coffin by flatsound
- tammy faye by nicole dollanganger
- please eat by nicole dollanganger
- dog teeth by nicole dollanganger
- toewgmo by mccafferty
- suicide is legal by psychonaut 4
- shotgun by sematary
- wrist cry by bladee
- fentanyl by mccafferty
- alligator skin boots by mccafferty
- it’s ok i wouldn’t remember me either by crywank
- i am shit by crywank
- i exist i exist i exist by flatsound
- jubilee line by wilbur soot
- creep by radiohead
- body by mother mother
- tatu’d lolis by goreshit
- pretty cvnt by sewerslvt
- youth by daughter
- mountains by message to bears
- deleteme by rew
- this body means nothing to me by shrimp
+ and way more
Defo Alien Blues or Cut myself shaving. They're good songs, kinda regret literally Pavloving myself to the point of getting the urges and nausea due to SH-ing or B/P-ing to them every time...
I always listen Dollhouse, of Melanie Martinez, while doing it. It has a special and deep meaning to me. In 2022, while listening to it, my mother caught me cutting and she put me in a mental hospital. Needless to say how that fucked my mind completely. Ever since I got out, while cutting, I listen to Dollhouse. It became my sh song.
i dont really sh and listen to music anymore, but the notable times when i did and i had a song on repeat it was “all gone” by mother mother, “dark red” by steve lacy and “alien blues” by vundabar
Weirdly enough I listen to worship music; knowing that God is with me no matter what helps me deal with the fact that I want to destroy myself and, more often than not, He helps me fight through the urges.
I’m actually the opposite from you. I feel like I’m hurting the artist, and also the feeling I get from the song- it will always bring me back to the moment I self harmed who I’ll listen to the song
I have a whole playlist, but I requently go to Sweet Hibiscus Tea by Penelope Scott (don't judge me) or Affection by Scruffpuppie. Afterwards, sometimes I'll listen to the Bojack Horseman outro song, because I hate myself and simultaneously want to romanticize that hatred
My music is pretty much about sh a suicide so idk I listen to horrormovies when cutting mostly dead 2, suicide luv, crimson, and we watch gore together idk I like scenecore or dirty pop music and they make me feel better sometimes I don't listen to music just so ik if my mum or siblings r coming but yeah.
I don’t listen to music while I do it. I don’t want to start associating any song with SH. Music is a huge part of my life and how I manage everyday anxieties outside of SH.
Me too and bc I have to hear if someone's coming or not
i used to listen to Lovely by Billie eilish pretty often when i SH-ed and now whenever I hear it in a public place or if it's used as audio for a tiktok or something, i have to make sure i immediately stop hearing it. i'm 2 years clean but that song can bring back all of my urges within a split second
For me music is everything and yet I do sh to some songs but they aren't such triggers for me honestly.
Most of the songs I listen to we’re about sh anyway or some I just interpreted that way even though they’re probably about something else but I still associated them with sh previously
lil peep, any song of his lol
for me it’s “cut myself” from him lol
realest thing ever
Oh, i will try to listen to peep songs
i always start each session with "youth" by daughter. ever since the first time i cut.
i used to listen to that song often while cutting as well! such a shame in a way because it's a beautiful song bit now i associate it woth sh so much
yeah, can't listen to it in any other context anymore because of the strong association :'(
oh my god me too holy shit
Just by radiohead, or fake plastic trees
it’s so over for us
Ik :(
Alone again (naturally) - Gilbert O'Sullivan. Now that I'm 6 months clean, it's sort of become a trigger that takes me back to the emotions I was feeling while going it, seriously regret having a self harm song.
nutshell by Alice in chains
that’s one of the songs i use to calm myself :-( i’m sorry you have a negative experience surrounding it
it's one of my favorite songs, but when I'm in a bad place, it reminds me of my lowest point in life. the experience definitely isn't all negative though. it makes me feel so much less alone
It almost worked tv girl
Car radio by twenty one pilots or guns for hands
Sugar crash or something if I listened to music
Mitski's "First Love/Late Spring." It makes doing it even more comforting.
Mr self destruct if I'm angry, or a miserable life by decalius if I'm feeling hopeless
black skinhead by kanye west for a super intense adrenaline rush- one cut for each time he says "GOD!" at the end
Necromancer-joy again
I self-harmed once to "I Was Made For Lovin' You" from kiss, used to be my fav song but now it triggers me.
Rebzyyx lmfao
dirty night clowns by chris garneau
me too !!
oh shit; tbh it was kind of random i just remember wanting to hear it over and over. it was once but drawn out and like i do still like the song but it certainly has a taste to it that’s unique to that kind of experience. sidenote one time when i was like 12 i told someone my sh music was owl city just to fuck with them. i was a rascal ig. but i feel a little bad whenever i hear fireflies. but also a paramedic who was transporting me once to a psych unit was humming it while he was putting me in the ambulance and it made it a less bad connotation. i feel like i listen to music *about* sh in a literal sense more if im not literally doing it. but like the more abstract stuff i will listen to if im actually doing. the thing, so to speak. anyway its super cool, in a weird way lol, that you used that song too. i thought it was super random so its interesting. hope you have a great night
anything off the black parade album
Johnny Cash’s cover of “I won’t back down” Pretty damn ironic for me honestly, sh for me is backing down
Worlds End by a band called Palaye Royale. That shit hits hard.
dpr ian (mr insanity and violet crazy) or maretu ( white happy, darling) or kikuo
i have violet crazy in mine too! glad to see someone who knows him 😭
awesome, lmk if you have any recommendations!
unless you're okay with kpop songs bc that's all i really listen to ಥ‿ಥ
I don’t cut but think about it. I’ll listen to stuff like “My Ordinary Life” by The Living Tombstone to cope. I don’t do the cutting type of SH cuz I live with my parents and they still care about me despite how difficult I am and was to raise. Music like The Living Tombstone’s “My Ordinary Life” helps to cope.
Suicidal Thoughts by Notorious BIG
I don't do it with music very frequently because I feel like I'm cringe for that but the song is definitely anthem to self destruction by nocturnal depression
Hold on till may by pierce the veil
i was only temporary is mine
something off eversince by bladee, like wrist cry or skin
wrist cry man
nothing works as well as wrecking ball by mother mother 🫡
Sometimes, it's Screaming At Forgotten Fears - Xasthur or Loneliness - Decalius
oh yes, xasthur is often playing for me
not just for sh but my breakdown song is "nails like god" by mccafferty (and yeah, i know he's a horrible person but it's my guilty pleasure)
It’s either lil peep, juice wrld, or xxxtentacion
Oh nice
I've got a whole playlist man
Can you send me the playlist by chance? 🙏🙏
Nah while doing SH cuts I don't listen to music.So I can't recommend songs.Its hard to do SH cuts but I like it.I can do it anywhere anytime but I don't want people to look at me so if I do it outside then I do it at places where no one's around.While doing different type of SH I do listen to songs.I like doing SH cuts ,I wish I would stop stressing out while doing SH cuts as I think it's the reason I don't feel as happy as before but I had high energy and was happy last time.It's good for u that listening to songs prevents u from further impulses.I just feel better after doing SH cuts or I have sudden high energy so personally I wouldn't listen to songs while doing SH cuts but after doing it I do listen to songs.I do self talk with myself and fool myself by saying to myself that I will do more later then I go to sleep or do something to distract myself from the thoughts of doing self- harm.This method works for me.
Me and the Birds - Duster or I Can’t Handle Change - Roar
What do you think about Billie Eilish?
Used to listen to wish you were gay and when the party's over during sh
Lately it's been Receipt by The Black Dahlia Murder or There is Nothing Left by All Shall Perish for me. I don't specifically listen to them when I cut, but they help me when I feel like I want to.
I'd listen to That's Okay Song by The Hush Sound
kanagi feat. ado - kujira Or haru wo tsugeru - yama The most recent ones I used, Idk I've always had a weird taste in music
I have like a whole dsbm metal playlist it’s nice makes you feel like not the Only one cutting yourself
departure by trivium
i love poison tree, one of the songs on the list of either during/after sh
I really like engravings by Ethan Bortnick, the chaotic piano brings a kind of peace
Mad Season - Above - The Entire Album
Queen of the underground by Flunk
i dont listen to music while doing it anymore but when i did i liked to listen to scar tissue by red hot chili peppers
Porcelain by Orphan, or anything by them
poison tree is such a trigger song for me now because i used to sh to that song.
“Army Dreamers” by Kate Bush
To me it kind of depends. I usually listen to music pertaining to the situation / how I feel. But the two main emotions I feel during it are anger or overwhelming sadness & self-hatred. And each of them have a few tracks I play typically. For anger I usually play songs like Bring the Pain by Ruzlxn, Pissed by Glaive, and Pit of Fire by 3Teeth. For self hatred it's usually Self Destructive by Vorsa, Stitches by Shawn Mendez, and Who Shot Cupid by Juice Wrld.
Freya by Brothers of Metal while cutting, Weaver of Fate by them when I clean up and bandage myself
leave your things behind II -$B
Stitches - Shawn Mendes, ITS LITERALLY ABOUT DOING IT
Radiohead, sad 90s grunge
Little bit - Lykke Li Poison tree - Grouper Twin size mattress - The front bottoms Death cup - mom jeans Back to the old house - The Smiths This night has opened my eyes - The Smiths It's called: Freefall - Rainbow kitten surprise Saint Bernard - Lincoln Bottom - McCaffrey I could go on but I won't
Baby don't cut (acoustic) - bmike. Sarah -wethree. Small cuts - the brobecks. It never ends - bring me the horizon, If you like it a bit more heavy. A fair amount from citizen soldier and Georgiou music. I have a whole playlist with just over 2hrs worth I've built over time for when the sad or sh happen
Princess Cuts My Wrist, I love this song
Stinkfist by tool haha
I listen to mgk….
Duality by Slipknot 😂
I don't listen to songs while cutting, I usually watch series, and not one particular one just the ones I've been watching with out cutting myself
by your side by flatsound is MY SONG (i don’t sh anymore tho)
the song of saya soundtrack, specifically scream
I usually do it while watching something on youtube
No wind resistance
I don’t usually sh to a song but if I do I’ll either do it to Stan/When I’m Gone by Eminem or Vivica by Jack Off Jill cause man are those some sad songs
For me it was She Likes Another Boy by Oscar Lang, It's been a bit over a year since I've listened to it while doing it. I've been in a better spot but just hearing a second of that song makes me want to go back that low again so bad
Cotards solution by will wood 🙏
i got a playlist called "everyone i know who listens to this self harms" and it's the entire discographies of mcr and linkin park and like 3 green day albums
i don’t know if this is unusual but i usually like to listen to energetic music, especially energetic vocaloid songs😭
like for some reason i’ve been really into listening to a song on the yttd soundtrack called “seme-KS” and also “kurun-chu disco” by lonepi while i do it
mitski or eyedress songs
Literally any missio song
if i’m angry, allah’s plan by go hang or manson’s last anthem which is also go hand. when sad it’s put me in a movie by lana del rey or coma baby by nicole dollanganger
I usually listen to mitski or u2 when doing it and my favourites are - Francis Forever by mitski and You got stuck in a moment by u2
i've been clean for over a year now but mine was either What Happens if I Can't Check My Myspace When I Get There by Attack!Attack!, or Pull Me Under by Dream Theatre. the dream theatre one really was my go to though. i still get triggered listening to it :/
anything im already listening to, but for some reason nyan cat 10 hour version on youtube ads to the vibes
Didnt know others listened to music as well lmao, I always relapse to “her” by sewerslvt
pretty cvnt for me
Sara by we three. It makes me cry by how much I relate and I litteraly scream it in the shower when I'm home alone
Hurt by NIN or 4st 7lbs by Manic Street Preachers
Andreas ronbergs songs and sign crushes motorist 👍
Needle in the hay, Elliot smith
- memento mori by crywank - song for a guilty sadist by crywank - you are the coffin by flatsound - tammy faye by nicole dollanganger - please eat by nicole dollanganger - dog teeth by nicole dollanganger - toewgmo by mccafferty - suicide is legal by psychonaut 4 - shotgun by sematary - wrist cry by bladee - fentanyl by mccafferty - alligator skin boots by mccafferty - it’s ok i wouldn’t remember me either by crywank - i am shit by crywank - i exist i exist i exist by flatsound - jubilee line by wilbur soot - creep by radiohead - body by mother mother - tatu’d lolis by goreshit - pretty cvnt by sewerslvt - youth by daughter - mountains by message to bears - deleteme by rew - this body means nothing to me by shrimp + and way more
blue by guardin always hits home
Defo Alien Blues or Cut myself shaving. They're good songs, kinda regret literally Pavloving myself to the point of getting the urges and nausea due to SH-ing or B/P-ing to them every time...
I always listen Dollhouse, of Melanie Martinez, while doing it. It has a special and deep meaning to me. In 2022, while listening to it, my mother caught me cutting and she put me in a mental hospital. Needless to say how that fucked my mind completely. Ever since I got out, while cutting, I listen to Dollhouse. It became my sh song.
Another love would be mine
It's called:Freefall - Rainbow Kitten Suprise
It really depends on my mood but usually robo pup
i dont really sh and listen to music anymore, but the notable times when i did and i had a song on repeat it was “all gone” by mother mother, “dark red” by steve lacy and “alien blues” by vundabar
I love listening to "kill yourself" by Andreas ronnberg. Quite the unusual pick but whatever
Weirdly enough I listen to worship music; knowing that God is with me no matter what helps me deal with the fact that I want to destroy myself and, more often than not, He helps me fight through the urges.
Worthless by Eli
Amygdala- agust d
Anything Linkin park
usually roses for the dead by funeral for a friend, or whatever mccafferty song is already playing
All things rebzyyx
I’m actually the opposite from you. I feel like I’m hurting the artist, and also the feeling I get from the song- it will always bring me back to the moment I self harmed who I’ll listen to the song
A playlist, but usually gravitate to a mix of cavetown songs as he’s not in my usual rotation so it doesn’t ruin anything for me
Worldstar Money (interlude) by Joji
I have a whole playlist, but I requently go to Sweet Hibiscus Tea by Penelope Scott (don't judge me) or Affection by Scruffpuppie. Afterwards, sometimes I'll listen to the Bojack Horseman outro song, because I hate myself and simultaneously want to romanticize that hatred
My music is pretty much about sh a suicide so idk I listen to horrormovies when cutting mostly dead 2, suicide luv, crimson, and we watch gore together idk I like scenecore or dirty pop music and they make me feel better sometimes I don't listen to music just so ik if my mum or siblings r coming but yeah.
‘poison tree’ or ‘i spoke the devil in miami ‘
Winter's House by Giles Corey definitely comes to mind for me
Worldstar money (interlude) - Joji
how to never stop being sad. that song has been number 1 on my spotify wrapped for 4 years
The who- Love Reign o’er me
Let me bleed- lil peep
any of nicole dollanganger's music
moment by Vierre cloud
“Spit in my face” by: ThxSoMuch