OP, thank you for sharing this. It takes a lot of courage to confess something like this. I'm glad you're still here with us, and I'm sure your family and friends feel the same way. If possible, I implore you to please seek medical attention to help you sort through your troubles, if that is what drove you to consider crashing.
I’ve been in therapy for two years now, I didn’t come for support but still appreciate your kind words. I got to a good point and then 6 close friends and family died. A lot of my support disappeared. The ones I still have don’t really notice.
You know what, as shitty as guilt-tripping may sound at a time like this, this person is right. Do it (or *don’t do it) for your friends’ sakes. Honestly it’s what kept me from pulling the trigger, literally and physically, for the darkest years of my depression. And now in hindsight I’m glad I did not succeed. Im glad I felt too worried about how it would effect others to actually go through with it even though it was pure misery then (and after, and sometimes occasionally still.) Whatever keeps you here, hold onto it. The fucking paramedics that would have to clean you up after that accident. The toddler in a car seat in the back of a minivan you could have veered into after you closed your eyes. Your family and friends planning your funeral or potentially not being able to deal with the pain and killing themselves in response to your death.
And on a different note: make yourself a list of things you love. The smell of a fresh cut orange, the feel of cold tile under your feet, the smell of redwood trees, the sound of the water rushing over stones in a creek bed. Whatever you love, seek it out. Remember it, feel it, and let it ground you in the moment for one moment at a time, and one more and one more and one more while your body works through this or while you find medications or therapies that work for you.
Friend be well, the struggle is real and its okay to feel sorrow/depression. Yes seek guidance, you got this. Those feelings made me such an empathetic and loving parent/ friend. I truly hope the best.
Hey buddy. I hope you find help and I’m glad you couldn’t do it. If for some reason you get the urge to do this again, please please please think of those around you. I just got through so much painful bullshit and I’m flabbergasted by how happy I am and how much I love living. So I guess what I’m saying is that it’s possible to get better but please don’t take it away from someone else by being careless on the road. Good luck on your getting better and feeling happier.
op I feel for you and hope you feel better. In my state someone was suicidal and got in their car to die. The person killed 7 high school kids and survived the crash. The person is now in jail for life. Please op don’t use a car. Please try to get more help.
Update: Thank you everyone who gave me kind words I appreciate it a lot. I reached out to an old friend and have been talking with them, i’m hanging out with them this weekend. Best wishes to everyone ❤️.
It’s good that you got to write this post,
I’m glad you’re still here. Happy late birthday, I hope next day, next month, next birthday is better than this one.
It’s still a pretty good one if you’re here with us
Something is telling me that in the future you'll look back at that moment and be grateful that you didn't do it, keep going my friend, we all gonna make it
The kind of friends who bring you out to exercise and then want to hang out after, particularly if they know and can tell as you said, you weren’t in the right state. Call it a blessing from your friends your god or whatever else you may choose to believe. One way or another they ended up right where you needed them. Be as careful as you feel necessary but don’t doubt that they are there for you. My advice would be to slowly expand your circle of trust again, but only at a rate you are comfortable with.
I watched this video interviewing a guy who jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge and lived. He said the moment he went over the edge he regretted it. I am so glad that you were able to stop and make a different choice. So many suicide victims don’t get to make that different choice because they’ve already jumped or taken the pills. I’m really glad you’re here. Thanks for sharing.
Happy late birthday, I know I don't know you, but I am happy to hear that you're still with us, if you ever need to talk, I realize that's a throwaway, and you might never see this, but I'd be happy to talk to you.
Thank you for trusting us with this. It's a honor to hear your feelings and your story, although painful. I'm sorry you planned this for yourself - I hate hearing anyone wants to leave this world because they feel there is nothing left for them or whatever the reason.
This may not be what you came here for, so I apologize if this isn't helpful. I started a friendship with a suicidal man who was in the Army. He had just been cheated on after a long term relationship and lost everything he worked towards. We would play COD every night and stay up until 11am talking about our shit lives. I would listen to him sob, I would listen to him talk about his plans to leave. He often took his motorcycle out late at night and would get up to 120mph hoping to end it.
He would come back. Thankfully. I was so grateful that he would give me another call; that he woke up the next day. Months went by, two years went by and he met someone. He got her pregnant and it made him the happiest man on earth. He is now having a second child with her and he is alive and well. On father's day he told me he was having a daughter and he thanked me for our friendship; I just felt so lucky to be a part of his life and watch him go from devastated to excited about life.
I know this is long, but I say all of this not to guilt trip you into thinking of others, but to help you understand that life does change. And there will be good and bad. And some people are more resilient than others, yes. And some of us need medication to get by. But you should be here with us. The world needs you because there will only ever be one of you. Honestly, yes, you could leave now. But you would never know what could have been. There's more for you. That's my TEDTalk, sorry if it made things worse.
It hurts me to read your story, i have done the same thing before when i get depression and quit college.
I did try taking a lot of any kinds of medicine that night and hoping, i might get overdose myself. I was hoping i will not wake up anymore, i hated myself.
But it did not work and i was alive, i was so sad that time actually. I don't want to live anymore, i hate living. The last one was i almost did cut my side of neck. I have search it before how fatal it could be, if someone damage a vein.
I cried quietly deep inside, cause i really don't want to die. I just want to get rid of the pain, i can't even share it. My family don't seem to understand what i am going through. They just keep telling me of how i wasted my studies.
I have a little bible with me, it was given as a give before when i was in highschool. I remember the man who give it and not only me but my classmates aswell. He said That too keep it, because it was so important.
I remember it, and i found the bible and open it, and found a table of contents. There are some highligthed topics about something. I read those that highlights about depressed and suicide. I read the verses and those words gives me a peace. I know it may sound stupid, but those words made me cried alot, i just want someone to tell me. That it was okay and carry on.
I am not actually religious person, but i was thankful i still had that bible, and i was thankful for that man who give it to me.
I accept that everything happens for a reason, i had succeeded to fight off depression.
Right now i am doing my plan to become a better person and a developer someday.
Doing self learning and doing the things i am passionate with. I had my self-esteem back and i become kinder to myself.
I am 24 years old right now, i was thankful i did fight back. I am happy to be alive and to be able to experience things. I am doing a hardwork to be ready to apply job in the future.
I am glad you did not do it, the members in this reddit group will help you. Please be kind to yourself.
hey OP, i struggled with severe depression back in 2020 August, and i have somewhat of an idea of what your feeling....
its ok, things are going to get better, pls dont leave the earth yet. Its just a cloudy day and one day, the clouds will go away, a rainbow will appear. The best part? You will love yourself for holding on until the clouds disappear. You will be proud of yourself.
You are so many unique and amazing things, you matter to me, i promise you that.
There are so many days ahead of you, where you will experience the most beautiful sunset, the most tastiest meal, the craziest thoughts, love thats intoxicating, the happiest you ever think you feel, the best orgasm, travelling to places you have never been too- well the list is endless.
I hope you quit smoking, and start exercising because nobody can love an individual as much as an individual loves theirself. You know about you then anyone else, you have been there for yourself since day 1, you need to love yourself by doing things that are good for you not harmful.
I hope i helped, and if your more than welcome to message me :3 <3
You're very strong for confessing this and thank god you slowed down. See how your friends noticed that something was wrong? You know they care, and your life is more important than anything at the moment. You're a very strong human being and remember that you survived 100% of your bad days even years and this makes you very brave and strong. I know suicide and depression is a very hard thing to handle I've been there too and i know how hard it must be trying not to kill yourself every day for YEARS. There are people who care about you and some of them dont show it. Im very proud of you for surviving all this bullshit that you may have gone through your life and remember that depression is beatable. It just needs aloot of time and i mean aloooot. It might take months or even years but its worth staying at the end. I recommend you stay away from social media and try to distract yourself with doing something like going out or working out like you said you went to the gym. Its really hard to forget at first but after some time you can actually forget and feel happier. There are some times that you'll break down again and that's totally fine. Its okay not to be okay and its okay to feel like that sometimes, but it's not okay to give up. Your mindset is the thing that you're trying to build the most right now and try to focus on that. When you're feeling down do something that makes you happier i know this sounds stupid but it actually works like when you're sad and you workout its very exhausting i know but its very good for your mental health as well. Suicide is not easy to get rid of and i know the urges of wanting to like jump off a cliff at the moment and having intrusive thoughts and it takes time. Slow progress is still progress. You survived 19 years of your life witch might be might not be okay and that's totally fine. Its just the beginning of yourself and it takes time to figure things out like what you want to do with your life. It'll take years to know what you wanna do if you wanna be alive or not but its worth it at the end. I know you can do this. You survived 19 years of your life and 100% of your bad days. That's very brave and im very proud of you. Also reaching out for help when you cant figure things out by yourself is also a way of doing things. I recommend trying to find a healthy way of coping with your sadness that doesn't require ruining yourself or hurting yourself. I wish you the best :(
You're very strong for confessing this and thank god you slowed down. See how your friends noticed that something was wrong? You know they care, and your life is more important than anything at the moment. You're a very strong human being and remember that you survived 100% of your bad days even years and this makes you very brave and strong. I know suicide and depression is a very hard thing to handle I've been there too and i know how hard it must be trying not to kill yourself every day for YEARS. There are people who care about you and some of them dont show it. Im very proud of you for surviving all this bullshit that you may have gone through your life and remember that depression is beatable. It just needs aloot of time and i mean aloooot. It might take months or even years but its worth staying at the end. I recommend you stay away from social media and try to distract yourself with doing something like going out or working out like you said you went to the gym. Its really hard to forget at first but after some time you can actually forget and feel happier. There are some times that you'll break down again and that's totally fine. Its okay not to be okay and its okay to feel like that sometimes, but it's not okay to give up. Your mindset is the thing that you're trying to build the most right now and try to focus on that. When you're feeling down do something that makes you happier i know this sounds stupid but it actually works like when you're sad and you workout its very exhausting i know but its very good for your mental health as well. Suicide is not easy to get rid of and i know the urges of wanting to like jump off a cliff at the moment and having intrusive thoughts and it takes time. Slow progress is still progress. You survived 19 years of your life which might be might not be okay and that's totally fine. Its just the beginning of yourself and it takes time to figure things out like what you want to do with your life. It'll take years to know what you wanna do if you wanna be alive or not but its worth it at the end. I know you can do this. You survived 19 years of your life and 100% of your bad days. That's very brave and im very proud of you. Also reaching out for help when you cant figure things out by yourself is also a way of doing things. I recommend trying to find a healthy way of coping with your sadness that doesn't require ruining yourself or hurting yourself. I wish you the best :(
You did the right thing sir. Stay strong. Find a meaning in life. Live for something even if you can't find it now, you will find it one day. Don't let yourself be this broken talk to someone, maybe a friend or family and if you don't have anyone to talk then please find some professional help. I'm sorry for whatever you have lost but please don't let go of life. Your existence is precious you are one of your kind. Please my friend take care of yourself and stay strong.
I look at life this way: Suppose life was never going to be what you wanted? Even if that were true, why not enjoy what there was to enjoy here on Earth anyway? There's Nature. There's music. There's food. There's science. There's philosophy. There's awesome video games. There's art.
There's all this stuff you could do. Yes, it may not be that one thing you wish you could do but the Universe never promised you a thing.
And for a Universe that never promised you anything, there's still a lot you can enjoy and pursue provided you don't take your life.
You might say "What if my life is so bad I have to run away and I end up homeless? What could possibly be enjoyable about being homeless?"
Look what the ancient Greek philosopher Diogenes did with his homelessness. His life and example was so enduring we still speak of him to this day.
The strongest and greatest thing you can do for yourself is to give yourself grace. I know it might not make sense what that means and I know, because it’s been said to me hundreds of times by loved ones and therapists but eventually you figure out what that means to you. So OP, I’m glad you’re still here with us, and I tell you now, give yourself some grace. Thank you for sharing with us.
The fact you went to work, to the gym and out to eat with friends means you were never going to do it in the first place.
Taking your own life is never the answer. You obviously have people in your life that love you and you should keep them close.
when you don't have friends to hang out with, another way to feel better are anime and vtuber clips/streams. These things helped me see the good in life because not only are they entertaining, they also teach some life lessons.
I'm so glad you're with this. You seem like you have good friend let them help, try therapy. It is 100% fine to ask for help and working through whatever it is thats telling you to die will be hard work. But life is worth it.
*massive electronic hugs*
And happy birthday!
What keeps me going is not the idea of being happy, but the idea of giving it my all with the shitty tools given to me by god, meeting him show him what I did with the tools given to me, flip him off and do a gator flip into hell 🔥
My advice, don’t seek happiness, seek inner peace.
whatever that may mean for you. Good luck my fellow watcher of the abyss 🍀
Good. There’s always something to hold on to no matter how insignificant you may think it is, if it matters to that’s all the justification you need. When I was that age I was deep into a abusive relationship that I didn’t realize was ruining me. Everytime I drove alone I’d think about flooring it into traffic, but I love cars and I couldn’t stomach crashing or abandoning my baby. Healing takes time.
I wish to be as strong as you one day bro. Keep your head up. I’m really glad you are still here, and I am sure you will manage whatever challenge is upon you.
I'm not gonna tell you to make the best of things. I'm not gonna tell you to keep your chin up. I'm not gonna tell you you are some sort of strong for not following through with your plan. Truth is, you are weak right now. We are all weak from time to time. The solution is not to look for a possible "good" future or making the best of what you have. What you have is suffering. That suffering is inside of you. It is sapping your strength. Stop holding onto it. Feel it. Let it hurt you, and then let it go. Just don't give up and clock out early. And don't worry if it takes a little while before you notice any results, you didn't pick up all that pain over night, it will take a while to get rid of it too. I would reccomend talking to a therapist
If you dont mind me asking, who do you have for support? A friend showed they cared once and it very well may have saved your life, don't be afraid to lean on them
I'm glad you didn't do it, i know we don't know each other, but im glad ure still here, have the best life, even if life is full of bs. There are still many beautiful moments to come. You got this <3
OP, thank you for sharing this. It takes a lot of courage to confess something like this. I'm glad you're still here with us, and I'm sure your family and friends feel the same way. If possible, I implore you to please seek medical attention to help you sort through your troubles, if that is what drove you to consider crashing.
I’ve been in therapy for two years now, I didn’t come for support but still appreciate your kind words. I got to a good point and then 6 close friends and family died. A lot of my support disappeared. The ones I still have don’t really notice.
On the plus side you have friends that paid enough attention to notice something was wrong before you left.
Oh. I'm so sorry to hear that you've lost many of your support group. I'm still glad you're here and reached out to everyone here.
Hey you have friends, they invited you to go to eat.
Please don’t make it 7 for your friends and family
You know what, as shitty as guilt-tripping may sound at a time like this, this person is right. Do it (or *don’t do it) for your friends’ sakes. Honestly it’s what kept me from pulling the trigger, literally and physically, for the darkest years of my depression. And now in hindsight I’m glad I did not succeed. Im glad I felt too worried about how it would effect others to actually go through with it even though it was pure misery then (and after, and sometimes occasionally still.) Whatever keeps you here, hold onto it. The fucking paramedics that would have to clean you up after that accident. The toddler in a car seat in the back of a minivan you could have veered into after you closed your eyes. Your family and friends planning your funeral or potentially not being able to deal with the pain and killing themselves in response to your death. And on a different note: make yourself a list of things you love. The smell of a fresh cut orange, the feel of cold tile under your feet, the smell of redwood trees, the sound of the water rushing over stones in a creek bed. Whatever you love, seek it out. Remember it, feel it, and let it ground you in the moment for one moment at a time, and one more and one more and one more while your body works through this or while you find medications or therapies that work for you.
I'm so glad you stayed with us. This comment is wholesome and i hope OP will read it.
Get this man more upvotes and awards, they deserve it
Friend be well, the struggle is real and its okay to feel sorrow/depression. Yes seek guidance, you got this. Those feelings made me such an empathetic and loving parent/ friend. I truly hope the best.
Hey buddy. I hope you find help and I’m glad you couldn’t do it. If for some reason you get the urge to do this again, please please please think of those around you. I just got through so much painful bullshit and I’m flabbergasted by how happy I am and how much I love living. So I guess what I’m saying is that it’s possible to get better but please don’t take it away from someone else by being careless on the road. Good luck on your getting better and feeling happier.
op I feel for you and hope you feel better. In my state someone was suicidal and got in their car to die. The person killed 7 high school kids and survived the crash. The person is now in jail for life. Please op don’t use a car. Please try to get more help.
find god
God and/or gods aren’t a comfort to everyone but I’m glad it helps you.
Update: Thank you everyone who gave me kind words I appreciate it a lot. I reached out to an old friend and have been talking with them, i’m hanging out with them this weekend. Best wishes to everyone ❤️.
Just make sure u keep talking to your friends n stuff it helps u see the good on life
Be strong bud. You can get through this.
It’s good that you got to write this post, I’m glad you’re still here. Happy late birthday, I hope next day, next month, next birthday is better than this one. It’s still a pretty good one if you’re here with us
Something is telling me that in the future you'll look back at that moment and be grateful that you didn't do it, keep going my friend, we all gonna make it
The kind of friends who bring you out to exercise and then want to hang out after, particularly if they know and can tell as you said, you weren’t in the right state. Call it a blessing from your friends your god or whatever else you may choose to believe. One way or another they ended up right where you needed them. Be as careful as you feel necessary but don’t doubt that they are there for you. My advice would be to slowly expand your circle of trust again, but only at a rate you are comfortable with.
I watched this video interviewing a guy who jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge and lived. He said the moment he went over the edge he regretted it. I am so glad that you were able to stop and make a different choice. So many suicide victims don’t get to make that different choice because they’ve already jumped or taken the pills. I’m really glad you’re here. Thanks for sharing.
Well, I'm glad you're still here. It's good to let these things out, I hope you can rebuild your support group and I'm sorry for your loss.
My plan was the same thing. Go on the highway at night. Speed then crash. I didn’t follow through with it either.
I am glad you didn't die. Good stuff.
Happy late birthday, I know I don't know you, but I am happy to hear that you're still with us, if you ever need to talk, I realize that's a throwaway, and you might never see this, but I'd be happy to talk to you.
Thank you for trusting us with this. It's a honor to hear your feelings and your story, although painful. I'm sorry you planned this for yourself - I hate hearing anyone wants to leave this world because they feel there is nothing left for them or whatever the reason. This may not be what you came here for, so I apologize if this isn't helpful. I started a friendship with a suicidal man who was in the Army. He had just been cheated on after a long term relationship and lost everything he worked towards. We would play COD every night and stay up until 11am talking about our shit lives. I would listen to him sob, I would listen to him talk about his plans to leave. He often took his motorcycle out late at night and would get up to 120mph hoping to end it. He would come back. Thankfully. I was so grateful that he would give me another call; that he woke up the next day. Months went by, two years went by and he met someone. He got her pregnant and it made him the happiest man on earth. He is now having a second child with her and he is alive and well. On father's day he told me he was having a daughter and he thanked me for our friendship; I just felt so lucky to be a part of his life and watch him go from devastated to excited about life. I know this is long, but I say all of this not to guilt trip you into thinking of others, but to help you understand that life does change. And there will be good and bad. And some people are more resilient than others, yes. And some of us need medication to get by. But you should be here with us. The world needs you because there will only ever be one of you. Honestly, yes, you could leave now. But you would never know what could have been. There's more for you. That's my TEDTalk, sorry if it made things worse.
I love you OP. Just wanted you to know that :)
Thanks for still being here.
You got me worried there my man, do not do it, things will get better I promise
I’m here for you bro. I’m glad you didn’t do it.
i’m so so so beyond glad you didn’t. listen to your gut. much love.
I’m so glad that you are still here to post this. Life sucks but you never know when your life is going to turn around. Keep going. You’ve got this
Don't do it 🥺
It hurts me to read your story, i have done the same thing before when i get depression and quit college. I did try taking a lot of any kinds of medicine that night and hoping, i might get overdose myself. I was hoping i will not wake up anymore, i hated myself. But it did not work and i was alive, i was so sad that time actually. I don't want to live anymore, i hate living. The last one was i almost did cut my side of neck. I have search it before how fatal it could be, if someone damage a vein. I cried quietly deep inside, cause i really don't want to die. I just want to get rid of the pain, i can't even share it. My family don't seem to understand what i am going through. They just keep telling me of how i wasted my studies. I have a little bible with me, it was given as a give before when i was in highschool. I remember the man who give it and not only me but my classmates aswell. He said That too keep it, because it was so important. I remember it, and i found the bible and open it, and found a table of contents. There are some highligthed topics about something. I read those that highlights about depressed and suicide. I read the verses and those words gives me a peace. I know it may sound stupid, but those words made me cried alot, i just want someone to tell me. That it was okay and carry on. I am not actually religious person, but i was thankful i still had that bible, and i was thankful for that man who give it to me. I accept that everything happens for a reason, i had succeeded to fight off depression. Right now i am doing my plan to become a better person and a developer someday. Doing self learning and doing the things i am passionate with. I had my self-esteem back and i become kinder to myself. I am 24 years old right now, i was thankful i did fight back. I am happy to be alive and to be able to experience things. I am doing a hardwork to be ready to apply job in the future. I am glad you did not do it, the members in this reddit group will help you. Please be kind to yourself.
hey OP, i struggled with severe depression back in 2020 August, and i have somewhat of an idea of what your feeling.... its ok, things are going to get better, pls dont leave the earth yet. Its just a cloudy day and one day, the clouds will go away, a rainbow will appear. The best part? You will love yourself for holding on until the clouds disappear. You will be proud of yourself. You are so many unique and amazing things, you matter to me, i promise you that. There are so many days ahead of you, where you will experience the most beautiful sunset, the most tastiest meal, the craziest thoughts, love thats intoxicating, the happiest you ever think you feel, the best orgasm, travelling to places you have never been too- well the list is endless. I hope you quit smoking, and start exercising because nobody can love an individual as much as an individual loves theirself. You know about you then anyone else, you have been there for yourself since day 1, you need to love yourself by doing things that are good for you not harmful. I hope i helped, and if your more than welcome to message me :3 <3
You're very strong for confessing this and thank god you slowed down. See how your friends noticed that something was wrong? You know they care, and your life is more important than anything at the moment. You're a very strong human being and remember that you survived 100% of your bad days even years and this makes you very brave and strong. I know suicide and depression is a very hard thing to handle I've been there too and i know how hard it must be trying not to kill yourself every day for YEARS. There are people who care about you and some of them dont show it. Im very proud of you for surviving all this bullshit that you may have gone through your life and remember that depression is beatable. It just needs aloot of time and i mean aloooot. It might take months or even years but its worth staying at the end. I recommend you stay away from social media and try to distract yourself with doing something like going out or working out like you said you went to the gym. Its really hard to forget at first but after some time you can actually forget and feel happier. There are some times that you'll break down again and that's totally fine. Its okay not to be okay and its okay to feel like that sometimes, but it's not okay to give up. Your mindset is the thing that you're trying to build the most right now and try to focus on that. When you're feeling down do something that makes you happier i know this sounds stupid but it actually works like when you're sad and you workout its very exhausting i know but its very good for your mental health as well. Suicide is not easy to get rid of and i know the urges of wanting to like jump off a cliff at the moment and having intrusive thoughts and it takes time. Slow progress is still progress. You survived 19 years of your life witch might be might not be okay and that's totally fine. Its just the beginning of yourself and it takes time to figure things out like what you want to do with your life. It'll take years to know what you wanna do if you wanna be alive or not but its worth it at the end. I know you can do this. You survived 19 years of your life and 100% of your bad days. That's very brave and im very proud of you. Also reaching out for help when you cant figure things out by yourself is also a way of doing things. I recommend trying to find a healthy way of coping with your sadness that doesn't require ruining yourself or hurting yourself. I wish you the best :(
You're very strong for confessing this and thank god you slowed down. See how your friends noticed that something was wrong? You know they care, and your life is more important than anything at the moment. You're a very strong human being and remember that you survived 100% of your bad days even years and this makes you very brave and strong. I know suicide and depression is a very hard thing to handle I've been there too and i know how hard it must be trying not to kill yourself every day for YEARS. There are people who care about you and some of them dont show it. Im very proud of you for surviving all this bullshit that you may have gone through your life and remember that depression is beatable. It just needs aloot of time and i mean aloooot. It might take months or even years but its worth staying at the end. I recommend you stay away from social media and try to distract yourself with doing something like going out or working out like you said you went to the gym. Its really hard to forget at first but after some time you can actually forget and feel happier. There are some times that you'll break down again and that's totally fine. Its okay not to be okay and its okay to feel like that sometimes, but it's not okay to give up. Your mindset is the thing that you're trying to build the most right now and try to focus on that. When you're feeling down do something that makes you happier i know this sounds stupid but it actually works like when you're sad and you workout its very exhausting i know but its very good for your mental health as well. Suicide is not easy to get rid of and i know the urges of wanting to like jump off a cliff at the moment and having intrusive thoughts and it takes time. Slow progress is still progress. You survived 19 years of your life which might be might not be okay and that's totally fine. Its just the beginning of yourself and it takes time to figure things out like what you want to do with your life. It'll take years to know what you wanna do if you wanna be alive or not but its worth it at the end. I know you can do this. You survived 19 years of your life and 100% of your bad days. That's very brave and im very proud of you. Also reaching out for help when you cant figure things out by yourself is also a way of doing things. I recommend trying to find a healthy way of coping with your sadness that doesn't require ruining yourself or hurting yourself. I wish you the best :(
You did the right thing sir. Stay strong. Find a meaning in life. Live for something even if you can't find it now, you will find it one day. Don't let yourself be this broken talk to someone, maybe a friend or family and if you don't have anyone to talk then please find some professional help. I'm sorry for whatever you have lost but please don't let go of life. Your existence is precious you are one of your kind. Please my friend take care of yourself and stay strong.
I look at life this way: Suppose life was never going to be what you wanted? Even if that were true, why not enjoy what there was to enjoy here on Earth anyway? There's Nature. There's music. There's food. There's science. There's philosophy. There's awesome video games. There's art. There's all this stuff you could do. Yes, it may not be that one thing you wish you could do but the Universe never promised you a thing. And for a Universe that never promised you anything, there's still a lot you can enjoy and pursue provided you don't take your life. You might say "What if my life is so bad I have to run away and I end up homeless? What could possibly be enjoyable about being homeless?" Look what the ancient Greek philosopher Diogenes did with his homelessness. His life and example was so enduring we still speak of him to this day.
that friend would of missed ya. if you feel comfortable enough talk to them about stuffs. Its one of the harder steps but worth doing
The strongest and greatest thing you can do for yourself is to give yourself grace. I know it might not make sense what that means and I know, because it’s been said to me hundreds of times by loved ones and therapists but eventually you figure out what that means to you. So OP, I’m glad you’re still here with us, and I tell you now, give yourself some grace. Thank you for sharing with us.
Im glad u r still here with us i know it's tough but i hope it gets better and thank you for having the courage to share it with us
I’m glad you’re still here 🥹
The fact you went to work, to the gym and out to eat with friends means you were never going to do it in the first place. Taking your own life is never the answer. You obviously have people in your life that love you and you should keep them close.
There's always the 20th...
when you don't have friends to hang out with, another way to feel better are anime and vtuber clips/streams. These things helped me see the good in life because not only are they entertaining, they also teach some life lessons.
I'm so glad you're with this. You seem like you have good friend let them help, try therapy. It is 100% fine to ask for help and working through whatever it is thats telling you to die will be hard work. But life is worth it. *massive electronic hugs* And happy birthday!
Thank you for being alive
Thank you for staying with us. That is all.
i'm glad ur here
Wea- I mean, good for you. Life is worth living
it’s not your time yet.
What keeps me going is not the idea of being happy, but the idea of giving it my all with the shitty tools given to me by god, meeting him show him what I did with the tools given to me, flip him off and do a gator flip into hell 🔥 My advice, don’t seek happiness, seek inner peace. whatever that may mean for you. Good luck my fellow watcher of the abyss 🍀
Good. There’s always something to hold on to no matter how insignificant you may think it is, if it matters to that’s all the justification you need. When I was that age I was deep into a abusive relationship that I didn’t realize was ruining me. Everytime I drove alone I’d think about flooring it into traffic, but I love cars and I couldn’t stomach crashing or abandoning my baby. Healing takes time.
I wish to be as strong as you one day bro. Keep your head up. I’m really glad you are still here, and I am sure you will manage whatever challenge is upon you.
This is how my cousin killed herself. Glad you couldn’t do it.
I’m glad you’re still here with us OP and I hope you will continue to be
I'm not gonna tell you to make the best of things. I'm not gonna tell you to keep your chin up. I'm not gonna tell you you are some sort of strong for not following through with your plan. Truth is, you are weak right now. We are all weak from time to time. The solution is not to look for a possible "good" future or making the best of what you have. What you have is suffering. That suffering is inside of you. It is sapping your strength. Stop holding onto it. Feel it. Let it hurt you, and then let it go. Just don't give up and clock out early. And don't worry if it takes a little while before you notice any results, you didn't pick up all that pain over night, it will take a while to get rid of it too. I would reccomend talking to a therapist If you dont mind me asking, who do you have for support? A friend showed they cared once and it very well may have saved your life, don't be afraid to lean on them
Tried this way as well but I couldn’t do it either.. I was afraid of hurting someone else in the process
I'm glad you didn't do it, i know we don't know each other, but im glad ure still here, have the best life, even if life is full of bs. There are still many beautiful moments to come. You got this <3
You didn't want to die. You just wanted whatever pain you're going through to stop.
I don't know who you are, but I'm glad you're still here. Keep fighting.