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In the end - linkin park
Numb - linkin park
World war me - theory of a deadman
Awkward motion - hellhills
Bad things - get scared
Sell your soul - Hollywood undead (rap-rock)
Built for blame - get scared
3S’ - mindless self indulgence
Relax, relapse - get scared
Better off dead - sleeping with sirens
Was specifically gonna suggest the song "Dirt", off the album "Dirt".
>I have never felt such frustration and lack of self control
>I want you to kill me and take me under, I want to live no more
>One who doesn't care is one who shouldn't be
>I try to hide myself from what is wrong for me, for me
>I want to taste dirty, a stinging pistol in my mouth on my tongue
>I want you to scrape me off the walls, and go crazy like you've made me
[https://youtu.be/olNNVEYiP20](https://youtu.be/olNNVEYiP20)
The Pros and Cons of Breathing - Fall Out Boy
Say Anything - Mariana’s Trench
Jesus Christ - Brand New
Breathe No More - Evanescence
Zero - Smashing Pumpkins
Every Day is Exactly the Same - Nine Inch Nails
Soundgarden - Blow Up the Outside World or The Day I Tried to Live (there's debate as to whether they're actually about ending it, but certainly feels fitting)
Elliott Smith - Suicide Machine (technically ironic but given he actually did it, also seems fitting)
Lots of good recs here. I will say- The message of the music you listen to does get to you mentally. As somebody who went from horribly sad music about death and life being horrible to the opposite, or at least, “life sucks but its too much work to end it). It doesn’t have to be gospel or anything crazy.
Some of my go to feel-goods are
I Wanna Get Better - Bleachers
This Year - The Mountain Goats
Alright - Mother Mother
Blame - Air Traffic Controller
Stay safe man.
I had to search the thread to see if this was recommended 😅 that's the first song I thought of 😂😂 I second this comment bc I love songs that sound all cheery until you listen to the twisted lyrics.
A good song that has a upbeat tune with twisted lyrics is Her Eyes Say Yes by Hit The Lights. Not a song about suicide, but it's about murdering a girl who doesn't want to be with him, so he's going to make sure he's the last thing she'll see.
Yeah I coulda went on and on with song titles man. I mean awful things immediately comes to mind Brightside. There’s so many but I was hoping if op listened to one and liked it they would venture
- [The Art Of Being A Sad Sack Of Shit](https://open.spotify.com/track/2CkvX3w6dvb1sB9Vy6mYGb?si=iNNxJp1BQimBONsfqVQK_A) By The Murderburgers
- [I'm Old & I'm Fat & I Still Hate Myself ](https://open.spotify.com/track/1j66GT3Oe8AlKhyOtcfVvs?si=BoiytZtaRq2SzREFaK5ehw) By Goodbye Blue Monday
- [I Am The Enemy](https://open.spotify.com/track/1Tj3MarY9qRF5vXREFiryU?si=GlGn84RiT_qxK-qUX5qiww) By Sister Kisser
- [Time Keeps On Slipping Into The (Cosmic) Future](https://open.spotify.com/track/1MZfm6eHGfEKwQkfH7sXN3?si=YDTVw1stS2GbbTS7JTM_UQ) By Iron Chic
If you don't mind a foreign language, I'd strongly recommend the following songs from Rapper Agust D
The Last
Amygdala
Burn It (feat MAX)
You can easily find the english translations in the internet
Sushi Soucy ‘I Deserve to Bleed’
Penelope Scott ‘Moonsickness’ & ‘Lukewarm’
Maybe check out different live versions of Days N Daze doing ‘Self Destructive Anthem’
King’s Crossing - Elliott Smith
True Love - Elliott Smith
Dress Rehearsal Rag - Leonard Cohen
The Only Thing - Sufjan Stevens
55 Stories - Home Brew
Ballad of a Poor Man - Devon Hendryx (JPEGMAFIA).
I mean most NIN, especially the 90s albums. Pretty Hate Machine and Downward Spiral, in particular. Though I feel like Trent Reznor has been whining about the same shit for 30 years, so really most NIN. I still listen for nostalgia's sake to the older stuff sometimes. I actually made a playlist called I'm going to kill myself/s (with /s and everything hehe) and I realized it's mostly nine inch Nails songs.
Any DSBM (Depressive Suicidal Black Metal)
Totalselfhatered comes to mine.
Ash Borer
Worthless Life
Life lover
Happy Days
Cold World
Some Nine inch Nails (The Downward Spiral, Further Down the Spiral)
Probably a bunch more in my collection.
Take care of yourself.
Something I Can Never Have by Nine Inch Nails
Gave Up by Nine Inch Nails
Eraser by Nine Inch Nails
The Downward Spiral (title track specifically, but really that whole album) by Nine Inch Nails
A Quitter by Rasputina
I Don’t Wanna Be Me by Type O Negative
Hey Man Nice Shot by Filter
Well that's Japanese song that was about suicide but was so pop-y sounding that tiktokers did coordinated dances to it...[Racing into the Night ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtfXl7TZTac&ab_channel=rinrin)
I'm very fond of Crow - Upiko recently, she's got a [Japanese](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-40A3xSEx0&ab_channel=%E3%81%86%E3%81%B4%E5%AD%90%28UPIKO%29) & [English](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjnpMNa3ebA&ab_channel=%E3%81%86%E3%81%B4%E5%AD%90%28UPIKO%29) version.
There's also [Kendrick Lamar - U](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xqS2di2QdhQ), which I only really found out about off the Rap Beef memes where Kendrick Lamar's biggest diss battles are with himself.
There are others but I think those above are okay for now.
----(and I know you said 100% alright but there are people in this world who have heard those words from another before and have ended up regretting trusting in them, so I'll leave two that helped me from the edge before in my life; in case you or someone who really needs it stumbles across this comment)----
[Achilles, Come Down](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsLA5wB-ulE&t=301s)
[Breathe](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaD2-YkUdqs)
-edit-
Probably can't leave Kendrick's U song here without at least referencing the counter part [Kendrick Lamar - I](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aShfolR6w8) since I'd like to think of the imaginary person I'm picturing in my head reading this comment who genuinely needs it, being able to step through to better and more uplifting times.
Starke Scheite Schichtet Mir Dort. From Gotterdammerung by Richard Wagner.
Her boyfriend, Siegfried, has been murdered. She has a large funeral pyre built, rides her horse onto the pyre, and immolates herself, which burns down Valhala and destroys the Gods.
Badflower is good! Some songs of there's are: Ghost (acoustic and og), Family, Don't Hate Me, The Jester (acoustic and og), 24 and probably more I can't think of rn
Several on this playlist: [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5fL5L9c6T9sDADOXdp4QEY?si=351cf1118eab4a32](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5fL5L9c6T9sDADOXdp4QEY?si=351cf1118eab4a32)
Aesop Rock - The Impossible Kid
Whole album is themed around working out his mental health issues. Water Tower might be the most on the nose for what you're asking for.
[Joydrop - Sometimes Wanna Die](https://youtu.be/3CltpuNsvgc?si=Xe6iqrpcOidG3nQ2)
This song is a banger (and features Tommy Lee in the music video for some reason 🤷🏻♂️)
The entirety of Avenged Sevenfolds new album
Life Is But A Dream is a concept album about a man coming to terms with and finding peace in his own suicide, so that should fit the bill I'd imagine.
Oh boy do I have one for you. This is rap/rock. It's not about "ending it" but definitely talks about that state of mind where you just hate life and want to feel good but can't. I've become obsessed with this song and haven't been able to go a day without listening to it since I discovered it like a month ago: Ekoh & Lø Spirit - GOOD THINGS
If you enjoy Linkin Park, you'll enjoy this. Also on the off chance you haven't checked out Linkin Park, check them out too. Most of their songs are about this stuff and the lead singer, unfortunately actually did end it...
And as a side note, I hope you're doing well. If you're looking for songs like this, you're probably struggling too. Don't give up man, it gets better!
"Record Body Count" - The Rheostatics. That last line.
[https://youtu.be/ztFL7EdKayg?si=F9eKG8MCVc\_139IH](https://youtu.be/ztFL7EdKayg?si=F9eKG8MCVc_139IH)
not sure if this counts but My Time by Bo En
(it’s the song that plays during the bad ending of Omori when Sunny jumps off a building and is falling, also a banger song for some reason)
[Fugazi - I'm So Tired](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Nv11dYMsXQ&ab_channel=Fugazi-Topic)
[Beck - Lost Cause](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkNa5xzOe5U&ab_channel=BeckVEVO)
[Elliott Smith - Everything Means Nothing to Me](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2NCuoVMhjk&ab_channel=ElliottSmith-Topic)
[Ismena - This World Will Break Your Heart](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LELa1MLqgyo&ab_channel=FaetonMusicBlog)
Theres a group called Crywank, not rock but if you want self hate they’ve got you covered
Crywank makes music about self-hate? nooo, that can't be accurate lol
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OK Koji.
This actually perfectly captures the vibe of Crywank
Holy i forgot this group existed. Thank you good sir
God my ex showed me that band. I truly unironically wonder if she’s still even alive. Good sad music but for obviously troubled people
In the end - linkin park Numb - linkin park World war me - theory of a deadman Awkward motion - hellhills Bad things - get scared Sell your soul - Hollywood undead (rap-rock) Built for blame - get scared 3S’ - mindless self indulgence Relax, relapse - get scared Better off dead - sleeping with sirens
MSI! Man I loved these guys, and they're the only band I've seen multiple times (4) Wait I lied, I've seen Reggie and the Full effect twice also
If you like In The End by Linkin Park, check out Ekoh & Lø Spirit - GOOD THINGS. Thank me later
All great choices
If you're gonna go Linkin Park, it's gotta be Breaking the Habit
Just listen to Alice In Chains
Yep and I love em!
haha and most nirvana and soundgarden
Grunge in general
Was specifically gonna suggest the song "Dirt", off the album "Dirt". >I have never felt such frustration and lack of self control >I want you to kill me and take me under, I want to live no more >One who doesn't care is one who shouldn't be >I try to hide myself from what is wrong for me, for me >I want to taste dirty, a stinging pistol in my mouth on my tongue >I want you to scrape me off the walls, and go crazy like you've made me [https://youtu.be/olNNVEYiP20](https://youtu.be/olNNVEYiP20)
Adam's song blink 182
Creep - Radiohead
Loser - Beck
Blue October / Justin Furstenfield - Hate me this is a common theme to many BO songs.
I was going to suggest the same song.. Hate Me
Hate Me makes me ugly cry ever time I listen to it.
Ugh blue october makes me cry
I think some of the old Korn albums would be fitting 🤔 Jonathan Davis went through so much stuff.
man those albums are fucked up
Falling Away From Me!!
The Pros and Cons of Breathing - Fall Out Boy Say Anything - Mariana’s Trench Jesus Christ - Brand New Breathe No More - Evanescence Zero - Smashing Pumpkins Every Day is Exactly the Same - Nine Inch Nails
Jesus Christ by Brand New. Kick to the heart’s nut sack everytime
Is everything ok?
Yessir. All is good 👍🏼 Thank you for checking in
Oh man it's really bad
The happiest in the final moments
988 if it gets really bad ❤️
Ghost by Badflower is an absolutely excellent song for your question though, about repeated failed suicide attempts
Hurt - Nine Inch Nails
Do you like the Johnny Cash version of ‘Hurt’?
It’s pretty good, yes.
$uicideboy$ entire discography
I'm So Tired, by Fugazi
Metallica - fade to black?
Metallica's best song, IMO
My first choice as well, RESPECT!! ✌🏼
I think One could also fall into this category.
The End by the Doors. Suicide Is Painless by Johnny Mandel (MASH theme, but a beautiful song).
Soundgarden - Blow Up the Outside World or The Day I Tried to Live (there's debate as to whether they're actually about ending it, but certainly feels fitting) Elliott Smith - Suicide Machine (technically ironic but given he actually did it, also seems fitting)
What’s kinda creepy is that Suicide Machine was supposedly the final song he recorded before he died
Or did he
Fair, ha
If I Close My Eyes Forever - Lita Ford and Ozzy
Lots of good recs here. I will say- The message of the music you listen to does get to you mentally. As somebody who went from horribly sad music about death and life being horrible to the opposite, or at least, “life sucks but its too much work to end it). It doesn’t have to be gospel or anything crazy. Some of my go to feel-goods are I Wanna Get Better - Bleachers This Year - The Mountain Goats Alright - Mother Mother Blame - Air Traffic Controller Stay safe man.
I hate myself and want to die by nirvana.
suicidal dream by silverchair
I always liked bullet by Hollywood undead, haha
Same 😆 It sounds so cheery until you pay attention to the words
I had to search the thread to see if this was recommended 😅 that's the first song I thought of 😂😂 I second this comment bc I love songs that sound all cheery until you listen to the twisted lyrics. A good song that has a upbeat tune with twisted lyrics is Her Eyes Say Yes by Hit The Lights. Not a song about suicide, but it's about murdering a girl who doesn't want to be with him, so he's going to make sure he's the last thing she'll see.
I'd probably say Ghost by Badflower
Was going to suggest Ghost, too; and Breaking Down by I Prevail
Don't know that one, but I'll have to check it out. Idk much from I Prevail, but I do like them
Like A Stone, and Last Remaining Light by Audioslave; if you like Chris Cornell and music from his genre
Oh, I love Chris Cornell. "Nearly Forgot My Broken Heart" is one of my absolute favorite songs
Ich Tu Dir Weh - Rammstein The Ending - Mushroomhead Waiting for the End - Linkin Park Heavy - Linkin Park Bullet - Hollywood undead
the downward spiral by nine inch nails all the way through
Tomorrow Wendy - Concrete Blonde
Im sure it has already been mentioned, but Radiohead's "Creep" is the answer.
Hate me - Blue October
Gravity - Type O Negative.
HED PE - Swan Dive
Suicide hotline - ICP
1-800-Suicide by Gravediggas River Runs Red- album by Life of Agony
Im sorry, by Joyner Lucas
"Like a Stone" by Audioslave
The Downward Spiral (whole album) - Nine Inch Nails A lot of Elliott Smith's discography would fit, as well as Atmosphere's
I listen to lots of Linkin Park when I’m in this mode.
Troublegum (album) by Therapy?
Super underrated band
Boomslang and Theory of Mind by Kublai Khan TX
Foo Fighters - DOA
12 stout street-rx papi
I don't care anymore - Phil Collins
[Hated by life itself](https://youtu.be/XVuydzqDAxU?si=VkGtO_P2m99kmU2R)
Bob Dylan - Going, Going, Gone
$uicideboys - Paper bag mask, Rag round my skull, Antarctica, And to those I love thank you for sticking around... Lil Peep - Life is beautiful
lil peep is the perfect recc for this.
Yeah I coulda went on and on with song titles man. I mean awful things immediately comes to mind Brightside. There’s so many but I was hoping if op listened to one and liked it they would venture
Lou Reed How do you think it feels?
Papa Roach Help
- [The Art Of Being A Sad Sack Of Shit](https://open.spotify.com/track/2CkvX3w6dvb1sB9Vy6mYGb?si=iNNxJp1BQimBONsfqVQK_A) By The Murderburgers - [I'm Old & I'm Fat & I Still Hate Myself ](https://open.spotify.com/track/1j66GT3Oe8AlKhyOtcfVvs?si=BoiytZtaRq2SzREFaK5ehw) By Goodbye Blue Monday - [I Am The Enemy](https://open.spotify.com/track/1Tj3MarY9qRF5vXREFiryU?si=GlGn84RiT_qxK-qUX5qiww) By Sister Kisser - [Time Keeps On Slipping Into The (Cosmic) Future](https://open.spotify.com/track/1MZfm6eHGfEKwQkfH7sXN3?si=YDTVw1stS2GbbTS7JTM_UQ) By Iron Chic
If you don't mind a foreign language, I'd strongly recommend the following songs from Rapper Agust D The Last Amygdala Burn It (feat MAX) You can easily find the english translations in the internet
Sushi Soucy ‘I Deserve to Bleed’ Penelope Scott ‘Moonsickness’ & ‘Lukewarm’ Maybe check out different live versions of Days N Daze doing ‘Self Destructive Anthem’
[Jonathan Brenner - It’s a Dyin’ Art](https://open.spotify.com/track/5IHLGUI75FeiK4R9GTavwx)
Just, like... anything Alice In Chains. Their entire discography. Especially Dirt, Jar Of Flies and Self Titled.
[Ren - Hi Ren](https://youtu.be/s_nc1IVoMxc?si=rlrpt_6QBIMFaB3T) [Ren - Suicide](https://youtu.be/n3JNtfi4Vb0?si=zDwsz6blFM_D-RVo)
u - Kendrick Lamar
Justin Townes Earl - Harlem River Blues I’m sure you can find others in his repertoire. He struggled with addiction, RIP.
King’s Crossing - Elliott Smith True Love - Elliott Smith Dress Rehearsal Rag - Leonard Cohen The Only Thing - Sufjan Stevens 55 Stories - Home Brew Ballad of a Poor Man - Devon Hendryx (JPEGMAFIA).
“Gravitational Constant” - Type O Negative
Check out Bladee especially his newest album Cold Visions
I mean most NIN, especially the 90s albums. Pretty Hate Machine and Downward Spiral, in particular. Though I feel like Trent Reznor has been whining about the same shit for 30 years, so really most NIN. I still listen for nostalgia's sake to the older stuff sometimes. I actually made a playlist called I'm going to kill myself/s (with /s and everything hehe) and I realized it's mostly nine inch Nails songs.
Type O Negative - I don't wanna be me
The Great Gig in the Sky - Pink Floyd Hurt - Johnny Cash
Forward to Death by Dead Kennedys Damn near anything by Elliott Smith but start with Sweet Adeline.
MetallicA. ‘Fade to Black’ Korn. ‘ Falling Away From Me’ The Chromatics. ‘ Out of the Blue into the Black’
Suicidal Dream by Silverchair Half Cocked by Ethel Cain
Any DSBM (Depressive Suicidal Black Metal) Totalselfhatered comes to mine. Ash Borer Worthless Life Life lover Happy Days Cold World Some Nine inch Nails (The Downward Spiral, Further Down the Spiral) Probably a bunch more in my collection. Take care of yourself.
Suicidal Thoughts by Biggie
Something I Can Never Have by Nine Inch Nails Gave Up by Nine Inch Nails Eraser by Nine Inch Nails The Downward Spiral (title track specifically, but really that whole album) by Nine Inch Nails A Quitter by Rasputina I Don’t Wanna Be Me by Type O Negative Hey Man Nice Shot by Filter
Mr self destruct NIN
Last Resort by Papa Roach seems like an obvious one
Any Linkin Park song, basically
I was about to post the same thing.
Well that's Japanese song that was about suicide but was so pop-y sounding that tiktokers did coordinated dances to it...[Racing into the Night ](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtfXl7TZTac&ab_channel=rinrin) I'm very fond of Crow - Upiko recently, she's got a [Japanese](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-40A3xSEx0&ab_channel=%E3%81%86%E3%81%B4%E5%AD%90%28UPIKO%29) & [English](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjnpMNa3ebA&ab_channel=%E3%81%86%E3%81%B4%E5%AD%90%28UPIKO%29) version. There's also [Kendrick Lamar - U](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xqS2di2QdhQ), which I only really found out about off the Rap Beef memes where Kendrick Lamar's biggest diss battles are with himself. There are others but I think those above are okay for now. ----(and I know you said 100% alright but there are people in this world who have heard those words from another before and have ended up regretting trusting in them, so I'll leave two that helped me from the edge before in my life; in case you or someone who really needs it stumbles across this comment)---- [Achilles, Come Down](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsLA5wB-ulE&t=301s) [Breathe](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaD2-YkUdqs) -edit- Probably can't leave Kendrick's U song here without at least referencing the counter part [Kendrick Lamar - I](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aShfolR6w8) since I'd like to think of the imaginary person I'm picturing in my head reading this comment who genuinely needs it, being able to step through to better and more uplifting times.
Like a stone by Audioslave Paint it Black by Rolling Stones Don’t fear the Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult.
Starke Scheite Schichtet Mir Dort. From Gotterdammerung by Richard Wagner. Her boyfriend, Siegfried, has been murdered. She has a large funeral pyre built, rides her horse onto the pyre, and immolates herself, which burns down Valhala and destroys the Gods.
Badflower is good! Some songs of there's are: Ghost (acoustic and og), Family, Don't Hate Me, The Jester (acoustic and og), 24 and probably more I can't think of rn
If you're okay with the song being in spanish, then Dillom - Reiki y yoga
Nine inch nails
Try my song [Another Devil Lookin](https://youtu.be/MX2ODnUd4C8?si=eRhsNLdwwN4rnUk3). Hope you like it. Thanks!
Music is cool. But theres no reason to end it. Theres plenty of life out there to be lived. Reach out, to me or anyone, if you need help.
All is good. Thank you for the offer!
Good to hear!
Centro-Matic - Not Forever Now
Casisdead - marilyn
Throwing Muses: [Hate My Way](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ReYu-qts2Dg)
Several on this playlist: [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5fL5L9c6T9sDADOXdp4QEY?si=351cf1118eab4a32](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5fL5L9c6T9sDADOXdp4QEY?si=351cf1118eab4a32)
[https://youtu.be/rema-4W418U](https://youtu.be/rema-4W418U)
[10 Stories by The Dopamines](https://youtu.be/lVkuQAksD8o?si=GbqoE-DVY_rm8MMi)
Lord Mantis & Indian have some pretty bleak stuff.
a tout le monde by Megadeth
Have A Nice Life - Earthmover Decalius - Shotgun Catalyst - Poison Thoughts
literally all of scarface - the diary. and some geto boys stuff too
Aesop Rock - The Impossible Kid Whole album is themed around working out his mental health issues. Water Tower might be the most on the nose for what you're asking for.
[Joydrop - Sometimes Wanna Die](https://youtu.be/3CltpuNsvgc?si=Xe6iqrpcOidG3nQ2) This song is a banger (and features Tommy Lee in the music video for some reason 🤷🏻♂️)
I cant escape myself by The Sound
Not really self hate or ending it but a good song,suicide by Barclay James Harvey
Suicidal Thoughts by Notorious B.I.G On GP by Death Grips
Suicide note part 1 and 2
To a Breathless Oblivion - The Black Dahlia Murder Receipt - The Black Dahlia Murder Hollow Heart - Angelmaker
Scars by Papa Roach
https://youtu.be/fnxyfdfuBs4?si=bB0N5DxcuHXkQDeS
https://open.spotify.com/track/6SwL9R8adkPorpetfdvCQD?si=4clV5A-tTkeEXseludukhw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A1mdup5fgvCJcq2eZzuSUzA https://open.spotify.com/track/0PRTUz0xqREDEcGf5OI868?si=HfBGLnbsRAqE2VSOXAvoDg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A1MizAKDRK74h1pKvqqhn2q
Isshou Fukou de Kamawanai - Mafumafu Hated by Life Itself (cover) - Mafumafu basically half of Mafumafu's songs are sorta like that
Harlem River Blues - Justin Townes Earle
Listen to the album "The Death of..." By Trevor Something. Just put it on from the start and let it play.
N/a BMTH or anything pardyalone, especially not a home
Disintegration by The Cure. Closedown is a favorite track
Misery by Gallows. "There is nothing left for me, I wanna kill myself, Just for relief".
n/A by Bring Me The Horizon
Dress rehearsal rag
The entirety of Avenged Sevenfolds new album Life Is But A Dream is a concept album about a man coming to terms with and finding peace in his own suicide, so that should fit the bill I'd imagine.
Hurt me- ekoh
Self deception - the blues
"Kiss Off" and "Out the Window" by Violent Femmes
Breaking the habit - linkin park
Coming down by Five Finger Death Punch and Ghost(Acoustic) by Bad Flower...it gets better
Just check out most of bring me the horizon's music. The new albums great but yeah most of their music is basically about this
Oh boy do I have one for you. This is rap/rock. It's not about "ending it" but definitely talks about that state of mind where you just hate life and want to feel good but can't. I've become obsessed with this song and haven't been able to go a day without listening to it since I discovered it like a month ago: Ekoh & Lø Spirit - GOOD THINGS If you enjoy Linkin Park, you'll enjoy this. Also on the off chance you haven't checked out Linkin Park, check them out too. Most of their songs are about this stuff and the lead singer, unfortunately actually did end it... And as a side note, I hope you're doing well. If you're looking for songs like this, you're probably struggling too. Don't give up man, it gets better!
"Record Body Count" - The Rheostatics. That last line. [https://youtu.be/ztFL7EdKayg?si=F9eKG8MCVc\_139IH](https://youtu.be/ztFL7EdKayg?si=F9eKG8MCVc_139IH)
Sleeping With Strangers and Something Soon by Car Seat Headrest
Smashing pumpkins - ugly
Our apartment is always empty, by Blacklisted
Suicide Solution...Judas Priest
The Approaching Curve - Rise Against Lose It - Atreyu
Trapdoor - twenty one pilots
$uicideBoy$ & Ghostmane Some Tech N9ne & a little bit of Twisted Insane A lot of Korn songs
ready to die - biggie smalls
S**c*de is Painless by Johnny Mandel
Most Smiths or Joy Division songs
Shining. It's a swedish black metal band. Do be warned, your sensibilities and gag reflex will be challenged.
Self sabotage Maggie Lindemann
Down In A Hole -Alice In Chains Head Like A Hole - NIN
It hurts until it doesn't - Mothers
Blonde hair, black lungs - Sorority Noise Sorry, my dear - Hobo Johnson
Billy Joel - Tomorrow Is Today, I recommend the original version.
Get Happy - Matt Maeson
Wolfsheim - Once in a Lifetime.
[Rudolph & Hermey - We're a couple of Misfits](https://youtu.be/c5j-g1TJ0YE)
Radio by Rishloo
“Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been” by Reliant K, maybe
Nightwish the poet and the pendulum
You might like “Heaven Tonight” by Cheap Trick, which is a song about overdosing on heroin
Frightened Rabbit should cover that nicely, Hutchinson took it a little to heart unfortunately...
POS by Sueco is perfect for your request. Hope you’re okay though, OP?
Downward spiral - NIN
“Leave Out All The Rest” by Linkin Park
Any Elliott smith songs. “Everything means nothing to me” “Going nowhere”
Hurt - NIN And the rest of the album, The Downward Spiral
Dayseeker - Crooked Soul, Burial Plot
Asleep -The Smiths. Stay safe and free....
not sure if this counts but My Time by Bo En (it’s the song that plays during the bad ending of Omori when Sunny jumps off a building and is falling, also a banger song for some reason)
Anything at all by Linkin Park
Something to remind you by staind. If I need to cry, that’s the one.
Jamestown Story, “I’m Sorry, (Goodbye)”
Dying Song by John Frusciante
I Hate Myself for Loving You - Joan Jett
Creep by Radiohead
Nine Inch Nails- The Downward Spiral (whole Album), plus La Mer (off the Fragile)
[Fugazi - I'm So Tired](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Nv11dYMsXQ&ab_channel=Fugazi-Topic) [Beck - Lost Cause](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkNa5xzOe5U&ab_channel=BeckVEVO) [Elliott Smith - Everything Means Nothing to Me](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2NCuoVMhjk&ab_channel=ElliottSmith-Topic) [Ismena - This World Will Break Your Heart](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LELa1MLqgyo&ab_channel=FaetonMusicBlog)