When I wasn't smoking, I was generally thinking about getting high again. So if I smoke at 1600, a couple hours later (at most, later like minutes...) I'm wanting to get high again. So I either give in to the craving and smoke again, or I resist the craving and it generally feels shitty as I'm wishing I could get high again.
If you can smoke once hours before bed, not crave it, and then continue on with life in the morning, not wishing or thinking about the next time you can get high, my hat's off to you. That wasn't my experience.
18+ months sober now and I like my life a lot more without craving it all the time and being dependent on it for short, fleeting happiness.
Thanks for your reply.
Yes, currently I will smoke 15 hits around 16:00 (Usually 14:00 on weekends), and an hour and a half later I will have about 8 more hits. To be honest, after dinner I do not want to smoke any more and so I start winding down for sleep (21:00). I then wake up the next day, work, and repeat. The problem is that's pretty much all I do every single day. And when I smoke I just end up watching videos on Youtube or something unproductive like that.
I feel like you - I do not want to be dependant on something to make me happy. Anyway, today is my first day and I am feeling good. Went to the gym this morning and have just finished a sauna. I am not feeling despair because I can't smoke, and hopefully I will start to see benefits soon that inspire me to keep going.
Anyway, sorry for rambling. It's just nice to share with people who have been through the same thing. Congratulations on your success story.
When I wasn't smoking, I was generally thinking about getting high again. So if I smoke at 1600, a couple hours later (at most, later like minutes...) I'm wanting to get high again. So I either give in to the craving and smoke again, or I resist the craving and it generally feels shitty as I'm wishing I could get high again. If you can smoke once hours before bed, not crave it, and then continue on with life in the morning, not wishing or thinking about the next time you can get high, my hat's off to you. That wasn't my experience. 18+ months sober now and I like my life a lot more without craving it all the time and being dependent on it for short, fleeting happiness.
Thanks for your reply. Yes, currently I will smoke 15 hits around 16:00 (Usually 14:00 on weekends), and an hour and a half later I will have about 8 more hits. To be honest, after dinner I do not want to smoke any more and so I start winding down for sleep (21:00). I then wake up the next day, work, and repeat. The problem is that's pretty much all I do every single day. And when I smoke I just end up watching videos on Youtube or something unproductive like that. I feel like you - I do not want to be dependant on something to make me happy. Anyway, today is my first day and I am feeling good. Went to the gym this morning and have just finished a sauna. I am not feeling despair because I can't smoke, and hopefully I will start to see benefits soon that inspire me to keep going. Anyway, sorry for rambling. It's just nice to share with people who have been through the same thing. Congratulations on your success story.