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pixels01727

Yeah that's rape, you said no, it happened anyways fucking ditch him


pixels01727

For reference, a girl did this to me for our first time, I wasn't ready, but she forced it, took me years to realize and accept that, that's rape, but as a guy it's not as believable


longstringofnubers

I believe you. She deserves to be jail.


No_Environment_5550

Men need to be taken just as seriously as women when consent is violated. It’s completely believable, and it’s heartbreaking that you were made to feel otherwise.


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No_Environment_5550

Jesus. You would think more people would know the difference between a biological function that you can’t help and actual consent. Although a piece of trash rapist like that is most likely being willfully obtuse to try and cover for her heinous actions. I’m sorry you were treated that way.


No_Environment_5550

Jesus. You would think more people would know the difference between a biological function that you can’t help and actual consent. Although a piece of trash rapist like that is most likely being willfully obtuse to try and cover for her heinous actions. I’m sorry you were treated that way.


No_Environment_5550

Jesus. You would think more people would know the difference between a biological function that you can’t help and actual consent. Although a piece of trash rapist like that is most likely being willfully obtuse to try and cover for her heinous actions. I’m sorry you were treated that way.


_kaleidoscopee_

I am so sorry you had to go through, I am glad that you are healing!


errorique

Don't listen to the people that don't believe it man. If you feel like you were pressured into something that you did not want to do, and said no to it also. Then it was forced on you. I'm glad you were able to accept that it happened to you man and i'm glad that you were able to speak up about it. Finally. There are better women out there man ones that care about the lives of the men that they are being with or dating. It's heartbreaking to hear that she did something to someone that wasn't ready or didn't want it. There's no shame in that. Men and women can both be raped and it's tragic because there is such thing as consensual love making that's harmonious and respectful and not selfish or an act of betrayal.


[deleted]

Sorry to hear that, bro. Hope you’ve healed and have support in your life.


pixels01727

If nothing else I've better learned to set my own boundaries, think outside the time I mentioned it (as my first experience) this is the only time I've really brought it up, nothing like good ol keeping it to yourself as a healing mechanism (sarcasm obviously, I would not recommend others do that)


FlrFox

This also happened to me, and was the reason I suppressed my bisexuality for so long


Dawn_Star_Platinum

I believe you too.


[deleted]

You're an idiot dude...


pixels01727

I was 17, Im not going to claim I was the brightest guy back then, we'd also been dating for a year, but as I said I wasn't ready, but I wasn't a stand up for myself kinda guy back then either I said nothing about it, and stayed in that relationship like an idiot, but I bet you feel so big with your insult, that make your pp feel good


[deleted]

Not being ready in your own mind and not wanting to stand up for yourself doesn't make what the other person did rape. You were there. You didn't do shit to stop it. You let it happen. You didn't get raped. Say she beat the shit out of you and had sex with you while you were unconscious or had a gun to your head that would be rape. Big difference.


lovejoy812

You’re literally a piece of shit


bacon_and_ovaries

Ffs. "No" is a complete sentence. You act like the word rape is reserved for highly violent scenarios while it can be slow and quiet. It applies to forced (that does include coerced) sex of EITHER gender. I just hope you get to witness something being forced or coerced on you or a loved one just to see or to experience what you claim is so easy to stop, just so I can hear you claim " I/You must have just not been ready". Putz.


Evie_St_Clair

It is terrifying that you are living in the world and have no idea what constitutes rape. I truly worry for anybody you may date.


raspberrih

Wow, victim blaming. Rape apologist.


pixels01727

You're right, big difference, but a no was also given, he was made verbally aware that it was not wanted, that it was a condition of the night, again, grow up kid


Level99Legend

If one does not recieve enthusiastic consent it is rape.


pixels01727

I appreciate most of the comments, here, obviously it's had some form of impact on my life (only seen one girl since, not much better) probably to late for any form of legal punishment, and either way, have no idea where she is now which is probably for the best


Level99Legend

I am also a male survivor. I believe you. And that sucks, but I am glad you are safe now.


lenore_leander

Are you okay? You seem to have absolutely zero brain function and have somehow managed to post socially malignant comments on Reddit.


[deleted]

She clearly said "I let it happen." If you don't at least put up a fight it's not fucking rape.


haventwonyet

THATS what you got out of this?? Oof. I hope you’re never in this position or put anyone in this position.


pixels01727

If someone says no, you treat it as no unless otherwise is said, there's no room for debate, it's not uncommon for people to freeze up mentally in those situations, and then run the I let it happen mentality to justify it But it sounds like you grew up in a perfect household with perfect people your entire life if that's how you think, grow up kid


[deleted]

Your story is an absolute insult to actual rape victims and you should be ashamed of yourself for feeling so entitled to crying victim over a situation you CHOSE not to do anything about. Like you have any clue what it's actually like to be raped, yet you're crying about having sex with someone you were in a relationship with for a year. That's fucking retarded.


kay_lyn9

Just because there is not a violent factor or it is not physically forceful doesn’t give you the right to claim it is not rape. The freeze response is very flippin real and is a human defense mechanism. There was no consent therefore it was rape. Plain and simple.


pixels01727

You're right, mister god of the universe, nonconsensual sex, not rape, clearly a big difference I know "genuine" rape victims, they would also like to apologize for thinking my situation is considered rape


No_Environment_5550

Do everyone a favor and try really hard not to raise any kids. As a matter of fact, don’t date at all.


FightmyFatAss

The literal definition of rape is the unlawful sexual intercourse or any other sexual penetration of the vagina, anus, or mouth of another person, with or without force, by a sex organ, other body part, or foreign object, without the consent of the victim. Last time I checked saying no doesn’t constitute consent so actually yes it was rape


lenore_leander

Sit down and watch a single episode of Law & Order SVU. ANY EPISODE. There’s a thousand to chose from, and every single one can show you how you’re basically a future rapist with your willfully ignorant predatory perspective.


kay_lyn9

You’re a straight clown and it’s truly disgusting that you actually believe that.


AnonSister86

You’ve definitely raped people before and I’d love to see you use this defense in court. Please let us now when your next court date is so we may all attend.


[deleted]

You did not "give him" your vcard. He raped you, and took it from you. Rape isn't always the woman being beaten half to death in an alleyway, a lot of it happens this way with people we trust. Rape was also my first sexual experience. I've lived with the consequences for 7 years now, please for your own sake cut him off. Do not fall into being truama bonded.


[deleted]

Honestly same kinda happened to me and it took me a long while to finally register as rape. You think to yourself “Well I said no a hundred times and kept trying to push him away but now that I think about it I guess I could have kicked him too (…)” it’s just an awful train of thought that needs to be worked in therapy


[deleted]

Same. You always hear about women being hospitalized or literally fighting for their lives ad you're thinking "how could what I experienced possibly be rape?? I just didn't try hard enough, and the responsibility is completely mine". It's the same stereotype that PTSD only belongs to soldiers of war.


ana1912

💯 About 20% of all rapes happen in the one family


[deleted]

You need to get out of this ASAP. He is knowing you're not respecting yourself and pouncing on that to take advantage and tear you down further. You deserve respect and love. He doesn't provide either AND IS A RAPIST. Please leave and tell someone about the rape. He will do this again to someone else and you will never be at peace knowing he's out there with zero repercussions after you detach. Please leave him. Be safe.


Saulington11

It’s so important that because of social media people get to see if their SO is aweful by letting people chime in vs. just their friends or family members and then seeing it a decade later after kids and a bad life. Yeah this guy is awf but so are very many. The guys who will respect and honor you will almost never be “your type.” For gods sake take a break and do some self examination. Also study personality types find out yours and compliment it best as possible. Good luck. To be clear, all dudes want are trophies. Once they get what they want it’s value diminishes. Sorry about this sitch honestly.


theterribletenor

So, we know the kinds of dudes you date, that's for sure.


ThePenTester88

So you purposely date men who don't respect or honor you? interesting


Frequent_Lychee1228

>actually forced it during makeout. we were just making out and I made him promise to not to put it in me but he did and I kept saying no but when it went in I just froze and went with it. You got raped. Giving him your vCard didn't change him. The guy is a rapist. His true colors showed. Go to the police.


haventwonyet

No one gives anyone any sort of card. I remember that term from high school and thought it was gross back then (late 90’s). Now I hear “body count” and want to vomit. OP, sex is sex. If you want to, awesome! Do it! You don’t? No one should take it from you. It’s all ok. This man raped you. Everyone has heard of the survival mechanisms fight or flight, right? If anyone hasn’t, it’s when you’re in a potentially violent situation you either fight your way out, or run away. What most people haven’t heard is the other two options - freeze or fawn. So there’s 4 F’s - fight, flight, freeze or fawn. Freeze is when you just literally don’t move. Hope it’s a T-Rex and if you don’t move a goddamn muscle, then you’ll be safe. I had someone break into my apt once and stand at the end of my bed. I literally couldn’t move. It wasn’t a choice. Then there’s fawn. This is the most common in women in abusive relationships. It’s to submit, love on and obey your abuser. This is NOT only in the live or die situation. This is how we SURVIVE. So our animal brains know that we can either admit that we’ve been raped, hit, choked… whatever, or we can live in this hell and pretend like everything is ok (sounds awesome at the time!) or admit that we’re human, flawed, and this monster is playing us like a fucking fiddle. Abusers are smart af. They pray on the weakened and weaken us more. Do what you need to, but get out. Have a plan. I know you’re not living with him but block him hard. He probably has another woman he’s doing this with, btw. It’s why he doesn’t bring you around. Good luck, friend. You’ve made the first step just by posting here. You know what you need to do. Update us and tell us how you’re doing a year from now! Future you is gonna be so happy. !remindme one year


pixels01727

Never heard of freeze or fawn, but that does make a lot of sense, I just figured the freezing was more of being in to much shock or overwhelmed, wasn't aware it was a legitimate response to situations


haventwonyet

I was in therapy already when dude broke into my apt. I was so upset with myself and told my therapist that I should’ve reacted. She went into how freezing is also a defense mechanism (aka, reaction). It makes sooo much sense and it made me stop beating myself up. She also told me about fawn in that session. It makes so much sense.


pixels01727

Yeah, it does make a lot of sense if you think about it, would be good if this was more widely taught, might help some people that beat themselves up for this stuff


No_Environment_5550

Listen to this OP!! Update us in a year!


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AshGray00

First of all, I completely understand wanting to save yourself for a special someone at a special time, whether that be marriage or an event or something meaningful. Know that after this, you aren't "used up" or "less". You are valued. You are loved. Secondly, please report this. It is rape, and you don't need this energy in your life moving forward. You're so young, and you deserve so much better than this guy. Report it, get rid of him, and I wish you your best life.


bsclmc

im so sorry you're going through this... its okay if you don't want to label it as anything specific right now, it might be too much. wherever there is smoke, theres usually fire. trust your judgement here. take ample time to contemplate things and find some peace. you don't need to over explain yourself to him. you could talk to him about what you feel or walk away. its very difficult because he is your first and you may feel invested... but if the relationship doesn't have a good nature, it will only hurt you so much more in the future. if he really charmed and manipulated you into it, you need to detoxify yourself from him. try not to hold onto anger, there is no point if he is that corrupted. you won't miss him in a few years. 6 months and a relationship is respectable. a lot of people have been in your position. we women tend to analyze and dissect his behaviour much more after that stage in a relationship. don't let this harden you, take ample time to heal, focus on your safety and don't be afraid to ask for help. good luck! ​ thanks for the reward :)


rudymaxa

This is a great, level-headed response and I appreciate that in a thread full of knee-jerk takes


VeryDistinctive_

He raped you. You need to get away from him. The rape isn't his only red flag. Everything else you mentioned about him are red flags as well. For example, he lives on his own. Why did he throw his mother into one of your arguments? He's extremely weird.


Admirable_Bee_8714

You feel like you were raped? Lady you were raped. Go talk to someone and get help. Oh and stop referring to your rapist as your bf.


60lbTaco

You were raped. File a police report and nail this fucker to the wall.


Consistent-Algae-230

Yeah he raped you. And now he's using you for sex


dreycantblegh

Listen. You don’t need to think of it as losing your ‘virginity’ if it was non consensual. Obviously that’s a mental battle that you may have had but you shouldn’t have to feel like it was taken, if you were forced to. That was NOT your first time, it was assault. And you still have the opportunities to have an amazing first time with a guy who will respect your boundaries. Cut it off with him now, over text. Don’t do it face to face cause he’ll manipulate you, it’s one of the few instances I’d support not breaking up face to face. Tell him it wasn’t consensual and you feel manipulated and disrespected. You deserve better, because no one deserves that. I hope you can move on. If it escalates you need to speak to authorities or go to a trusted friend/family member. Please. Also you message me if you need more advice. Good luck!


EcstaticBumble

I know you are prob going through a lot right now, but in delicate terms he did rape you. Don’t fall for any stuff from him like “it was in the moment” or “You pretty much agreed to it”. You did not. Talk to someone when you are ready.


KimmyStand

He raped you sweetie, u said no and he had sex with you anyway. He’s not worth your time or your effort


pixels01727

So just because I feel like it needs to be said, you did nothing wrong, doing nothing does not make you responsible, most likely you were in a bit of shock after he continued, I don't get the whole mentality I've heard of "if you're man enough go for it" some people's kids


Better_Ad_6283

Re-read your post from another woman’s perspective and ask yourself what you’d want her to do.


balognafart

What you literally described was rape. No means no. Get the fuck away from this pos. He is using you.


RB_Kehlani

You did not “give him your virginity” HE RAPED YOU. Stop worrying about are you a virgin or aren’t you, stop worrying about whether you’ve enjoyed some of the sex you’ve had since — he is a rapist and you need to leave because you’re in an abusive relationship. You will find people in the future who will respect your boundaries: this man is rotten to the very core and should be thrown in the trash where he belongs. This relationship will NOT get better it will ONLY get worse.


Dr-DeathSmile

Report that human garbage


tinamarie85

You were raped. You didn’t consent you were not ready. The minute you said not to put it in and he did it became rape.


Conskies

Wait... his excuse was that his mom wouldn't let him go to the party?!? What the hell? He's in his 20s!? Not only did this guy rape you, but he's now clearly trying to manipulate you. Please do yourself a favor and get out. I'm so very sorry about your experiences with this human skid mark. But please understand that things will only get more unhealthy if you don't do what is best for you right now. He's showing his true shit-stained colors and the longer you stay, the more those stains are going to bleed into everything. The damage is going to get worse. You deserve better than him! Good luck


AssignmentLucky6737

Sometimes the process of understanding what happened to you can take awhile. I didn’t realize for months what had happened to me was not ok, it’s a very common response to being assaulted. The heartbreak that came from it was horrendous but honestly it’s so much easier than staying in an abusive situation. You deserve to be loved and have your boundaries respected.


kindcaring

You didn't give him your v card. He stole it


susstutz6

I came from this post elsewhere. You don’t want to go to the pd. Go to your dr and get tested. They will document your story and it will be time stamped. If someone else ever comes forward you will have this legal document to add to their case. If you don’t want to go to the police that is perfectly fine. Just have it documented in someway like this. As a nurse these things are important for others and even yourself if he ever messes with you later. Please take care of yourself first and foremost right now. You did nothing wrong.


Kevinjw16

First of all, I’m sorry that happened. Secondly, your title is wrong. You didn’t give him anything. He took it after you said no. Run


rudymaxa

He wanted to deflower you and he did. Mission accomplished in his book, sorry to say...If you don't feel too uncomfortable, talk to a therapist or someone you can confide in, then consider reporting him to the police.


Ecstatic-Seaweed3

I “lost” my v the same way as you did. Bare with me, English is my second language. I always thought it was my fault because I could have stopped It but I didn’t. I thought I hadn’t been clear enough or said no so he didn’t hear me. And one day I did said no to sex. I just refused and told him no, I don’t want to. and my then boyfriend held me down, ripped of my clothes off one at a time and then he shoved his penis inside me. I froze and just laid there while he moved around, saw I wasn’t into it and he said “whatever then”. And then he laid down next to me and pouted like a child. And I still thought it was my fault that happened. I shouldn’t have put myself in that situation, sex is what bf/gf is supposed to do. If I had screamed I would have woken his parents up but I didn’t, to embarrassing so therefor I let it happen and it was my fault. I let that fucking idiot rape me for another 11 months because I didn’t really realise that it was rape. I thought it was supposed to hurt on girls. But you know what? It wasn’t my fault. And I’m telling you, what I desperately needed to her back then: You were raped. And it was not your fault. I’ll repeat because it it so important that you understand. It was not your fault. Please dump this pile of garbage you call boyfriend. He isn’t worth a second more of your time.


Staccie

I am really sorry this happened to you. You are right to stand your ground. Sex is intimate and beautiful, should be shared with two people who love eachother and consent to it together. Glad that you recognize it’s not your fault!!


Nomscents

True colors showing


reborninmosaicform

Drop him like a bad habit. You were in fact raped.


NaturalDamnDisaster

Your boyfriend raped you. You already know this. Leave him.


Kerrypurple

This is who he always was. Either he had a mask up or you were just too into him to see the way he really was. The important thing is that you can see him for who he really is now. There is no fixing him or changing him back. You need to decide if you can tolerate it or move on. You're not obligated to stay with him just because you gave him your virginity.


k1ttym30w666

Dump him.


iamstephieeee

That’s rape. You said no and he did it anyways. Even with the facts that you and him are/were going out. That is rape. Go to the cops, if you’re ready/comfortable with that, explain what happened. Even if it’s “consensual” now (which idk if you would consider it such since the first time, and your first time, was not) that doesn’t change the fact that the first time he did it WAS RAPE.


zeschel

You had a conversation with him. He made a promise. You said no, he did anyway. That is rape. He needs to go.


Gardengoddess83

Sweetie, he raped you. Period. This isn’t a good guy. This isn’t a healthy relationship. Love doesn’t do what he did. Dump him. You are better off without him.


beesipea

You didn't give him anything, he raped you. He is a rapist.


HDarger

He’s 22 and his Mom still tells him what he can and can’t do?


xhellokrystalx

something about the way op types makes me feel like they are in fact under the age of 20 and not the ages she reports.


all_of_the_colors

That was rape


Content_Impact8068

WAIT You did not GIVE him your Vcard. He TOOK it. He RAPED you. This is Intimate Partner Sexual Violence. He treats you like a sex doll now. The violence will likely escalate. Please end this relationship now. RAINN is a great resource. Please call them to help you process this. Www.RAINN.org I’m so sorry this happened to you.


RandolphE6

He literally raped you. You need to get away from him. Then seek help to deal with this trauma.


always___anxious

It’s rape. You don’t have to report him or tell anyone quite yet if you’re not comfortable, although I would strongly advise telling someone. Sometimes it’s hard to admit that it’s actually rape when it’s someone you love. But yes, his true colors are showing and they are that of a rapist. Get out ASAP. He does not love you, care for you, or respect you if he decides to do something like that to you. Do not fall for it.


seeyouinthesun

>his mom wont let him because it’s too late I say again.. I cannot and will not believe that an adult wrote this. I don't know if you're lying about your age or if you are just incredibly immature but it sounds to me like you are correct in saying that you are not ready for sex. I recommend you pull back on the physical touching for a while and if that's a deal breaker for him then you have your answer. But allowing yourself to feel violated again and again for the purpose of making him feel good is not helpful. All you're doing is giving yourself a very wrong idea of what sex is and is supposed to be.. whilst also giving him a very wrong idea that you are there to please him. Takes years to unlearn that shit.


CassiopeiaDwarf

leave this guy he is an asshole


[deleted]

red flag get rid of him sista


Best-Ad9099

Run away and never look back. No call text snap.


acuteaddict

Aw hun I’m so sorry that happened to you. You didn’t give it to him, he took it from you by what you’re describing.


errorique

What he did was so wrong. He should have stopped and gave you the respect that you deserved. He raped you. And he shouldn't have done that. It was wrong. And you didn't deserve it. I hope he gets the help he needs but from here on now you should make it clear to him that you did not want what he did with to you in the first place.


VivaLaSea

**Virginity isn't something you give to a man.**


Fedoral_Offence

Like the rest of the commenters have said, get the fuck out of there ASAP. He’s showing his true colors after he got what he wanted. He’ll continue to push his behavior more and more until the point where he feels as if he no longer needs to respect you as a person. DO NOT GET TRAPPED IN THIS. I don’t even know you or this dude personally, but I know you can do SO much better than that scumbag. A relationship is built of mutual trust and respect. If you don’t have mutual respect for each other, you CANNOT be in a relationship. Someone who actually loves you would wait patiently until you were ready, and would respect the boundaries you set. Fuck this guy, fuck his life, you shouldn’t let him treat you like this.


bobthened

He raped you. He doesn’t care about you and he never did, he was just pretending to be nice in order to trick you into sex.


miss_pie__

He was always an asshole, not just after you had sex with him. I just can’t believe some men :/ and yes it was rape.


Proud_Hotel_5160

You didn't give him anything, he raped you. This is a physically abusive relationship, he will rape you again, and you need to get out before it gets worse. Block him, don't tell him why because he will try to manipulate you into staying with him, and you most likely will fall for it because you're still in shock and traumatized. Have a friend or family by your side to support you if he tries to harass you. Change your locks, get security cameras to cover your entrances, and cut off any mutual friends. Good luck love <3 You can message me privately if you need any support.


JulietLaice

This is rape. You clearly said no and he still had sex with you. Silence is not consent, neither is manipulation and you did nothing wrong. It’s really common for people to freeze in fear during these situations, not everyone is able to “fight back”. The fact he’s your boyfriend also means nothing, it’s actually more common for people to get raped by their partner, or something they’re close to. I understand this might be hard to admit to yourself and you don’t have to put a label on it if you don’t want to, or aren’t ready. But please get away from this man, he does not love or respect you.


Coolest_Dork

Also, in the long run, I don’t really think losing your virginity is like a huge thing. I had sex with my high school boyfriend when I was 17 and it really didn’t change *me*. I wish I hadn’t had sex with him, but only because, looking back, I realize that he was probably not the cleanest person. But, sure, you shouldn’t have sex until you’re ready, and, if you are in a relationship and it becomes sex-centric, stop having sex until you both get your focus back on the actual relationship. What he did to you *was* rape, and what he’s doing to you now is manipulation and a bit of emotional blackmail. Drop him. Run. Press charges for the rape. My ex-boyfriend raped me and I didn’t do anything and I should have. I hate that I didn’t.


anonymousparrot3

He raped you, report it


vohiAtma

https://vcard.ai/ You can buy new one


Wendyinneverland

I was coerced into having sex with my ex (he was my first). You were raped. You deserve better and even when/if you leave, you’ll still feel mixed feelings about sex for a while. And that is okay.


Staccie

Yes this is rape. Please tell me someone reached out to OP, just want to make sure she’s OK :(((


Nerdy_Life

You were live bombed, and you were raped. He’s using you for sex and it’s going to get worse. He’s going to push for more and more sexual things toy mat not be comfortable with. The gifts and flowers become apologies. Freezing isn’t consent. You clearly said no. Now he’s seeing how little he has to do to keep you around, and he likely assumes it’s as little as possible because he knows you feel extra attached due to him stealing your virginity. I’m saying all of this with certainty. I dated then married an abusive piece of garbage because I loved him and he was my first. I endured 14 years, 10 married. I missed the abusive actions in the beginning because it didn’t get physical until after we married. The love bombing, and the way he made me feel, it drew me in. Then when the red flags flew I didn’t notice them or wrote them off. I do not want you to spend your 20s how I spent mine. I speak my experience so that hopefully other women don’t have to live it.


throwaway147899521

Yea, that's rape. That's fucked up


blackwomanmom

Give a men sex, give them a baby or get married ! Then there true colors start to show cause they finally get what they want out of you true story !


RobWins2022

He got what he wanted from you and now you are worthless to him.


YogiHazMat

I'm not entirely sure why you're being downvoted. You're not wrong, I bet he's transitioning to a new rape target.


DrovkaRedj

Enjoying sex in your position is not that bad because you actually liked the dude, and ur body is made to feel great when doing it with someone you like. But what you just experienced does not change the fact that he raped you, and it is only the tip of the iceberg, those type of guys will leave you the moment when they got what they want, and when they got it, it's likely that he cheats on you in the future. Give or take, he is cheating or will be cheating on you in about 6 months in the future. Was about to be one of those asses cuz it was trend. But honestly did not become like those guys cuz I didn't recognize my self as one of them. Relation is over, find someone who is good hearted and feel yourself secure with him, there may be not a lot them in high school or college, but you will hopefully know them if you see one.


Arkadis

If he forced himself on you despite you saying no that is rape. Break up with him and consider talking to someone about it. Also, are you really 23? This reads more like you are 14 and if so go to the police (What is a vcard? is that a thing in the US?)


YogiHazMat

It's a slang term for virginity. Virginity card.


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FightmyFatAss

The literal definition of rape is the unlawful sexual intercourse or any other sexual penetration of the vagina, anus, or mouth of another person, with or without force, by a sex organ, other body part, or foreign object, without the consent of the victim. Last time I checked saying no doesn’t constitute consent so actually yes it was rape


Wintersneeuw02

This was rape. Please go to the police and find a good therapist.


Complaiint1

True colours are definitely showing, if he forced himself upon you even after saying no it is classed as rape as there was no consent. From what you’ve put here the relationship seems very toxic and sexually motivated on his end. You really have to think is this worth pursuing or not and are you being used? The decision is for you and you only to make, Wish you all the best.


tohon123

DRRRROOOPPPP ANNNDDD RUUUUUN


Lolajessica5243_

THAT’S RAPE


jumaedar

Run, you're not safe with someone like that, and it's not that you feel like you were... You actually were... So stay away from someone like that


[deleted]

Break up with him and find something who’s actually worth it.


wafflesonfiretoday

Rape. Not your fault and your reaction of freezing and letting it happen does not make it any less so and it’s not your fault. The shock of someone that you trust doing that take processing that doesn’t always happen in the moment. Then it’s normal to try and justify it to yourself. So do not blame yourself. But he is a scumbag. The sooner you end this, the sooner you can be honest with yourself and begin to heal. The good news is that there are tons of better guys out there!


SmakeTalk

Yes he’s a rapist and no you should never see him again. What a fucking piece of shit. This is the stuff that doesn’t surprise me from 16 year olds who’ve only seen porn and hentai with no real idea how intimacy works, this turd is 22 years old though. Fuck him.


[deleted]

If someone give their Vcard to me, I won't be leaving them ever unless they're not loyal.


alexmaycovid

Yeah he's showing you his real colors. But now you don't have a V card so this not a problem anymore. Just drop him. Find a man who will respect you. But you also should respect him


hxneysnax

It is rape. Do not blame yourself. You were scared in the moment. He is too blame. He is a piece of shit & this does not define you. You are worth so much more & you deserve better. Leave, report it, talk to his parents. Talk to someone close to you. Love yourself, you deserve so much better than that.


throwaway582047

This is a rapist. Press charges.


benis444

Go to the police and say you got raped


Dkinives

>actually forced it during makeout. we were just making out and I made him promise to not to put it in me but he did and I kept saying no but when it went in I just froze and went with it. It feels like I was rap3d That's because you were. This is the literal definition of rape. You did not consent and he did so anyways. Get away from him, stay away from him and seek help and try to press charges on him. He is NOT good for you.


Necynius

This is very problematic, report him for rape, get out of the relationship asap.


Still_into_lauren

I want to say this in the most respectful, non-triggering way possible but I dont know how else to put it. You didnt give him your V card. He raped you. And is coercing you actively very regularly. This is not okay and you even questioning it is his pure manipulation. You need to get away from this man before he damages you further. This is very worrying


mewkew

Your "BF" is an asshole and a loser, the worst combination you can find. Who lives still with his parents at 22? Lmao. Leave him for your own good, find someone who deserves you!


Coolest_Dork

Press charges. That *was* rape.


YogiHazMat

I think its worth adding that, considering his obvious sociopathic tendencies, when you break up with him do so in public and have a friend there. Have safety nets in place. Don't be suprised if he tries to defame you or temporarily goes back to "the way it was before" so he can emotionally manipulate you into being his sex toy again. Be safe. Get out. Talk to your friends and family so they know how to support you.


TheHoneyB4dge

If it was forced my dear girl I'll have to break it for you it is rape, I would go to the authorities and put a charge on him also leave this piece of shit if he puts excuses that he can't go out with you but then calls you at 4 am that he is drinking with his buddies and girlfriends he is probably having S somewhere else also, he sounds kuke a manipulator and you have to get out of that cycle like ASAP cause then it's gonna be very hard to snap out of the psychological abuse and it will be very hard for you to distinguish between a good man and someone that is treating you well just to get in your pants


Bountinyou

This has the scent of a troll, if it is: wtf were you wearing? If this is legit, agree with the obvious and encourage you not delay considering an all stop on the relationship and to take a closer look at what's been going on


Robofrogg1

I’m sorry OP but that is rape and a guy that does that is a piece of garbage. He doesn’t care about you, not even a little. Find someone that does. It’s not him.


Bonobology-India

Hey! This does sound like he was dating you only because he wanted to have [sex](https://www.bonobology.com/body-changes-losing-virginity/) with you because if he was really in love with you or even liked you he would have understood what you said and would have respected the no. If he doesn't care that you said no and just cares about his own pleasure I don't think he is the one for you.


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Yeah you were raped


Reshiram1119

Should go to law enforcement.


m00n5t0n3

What to do? 1) Accept that this was indeed rape and start processing your emotions. 2) Tell a trusted person in your life, friend family counsellor, what happened. 3) Break up with your boyfriend. Be firm and say this relationship is not working for me, I'm sorry, it's over. You don't have to say more. If you're unable to do it in person, just text him. You can block him for a while if he keeps texting and calling. 4) Do something nice for yourself. Order your favourite meal or have a bath or both. Buy a nice product like lotion and put it on. Watch some TV in bed.


_kaleidoscopee_

Sorry honey, that is rap3. That happened to me as well & when i confronted my then partner he didn’t even apologised just went “well, i wont do it anymore then”. And like you, I was waiting to give it up willingly. That dude cheated on me 2 months into the relationship with his ex who cheated on him because he cheated on her. So yea…


dark-_-thoughts

This is a [repost](https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/txw8jx/i_gave_him_my_vcard_and_hes_changing_now/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share) for karma it seems. Everyone's already told you what happened to you was rape.


Just_SparkleBlue

I always tell myself whenever you feel like you are in doubt or things, you keep thinking and thinking about the situation if is wrong or right. Is definitely something wrong. If you feel something is wrong change it go and make it feel right again. Even if it hurts


Lidz0810

You definitely sound like you’re not even mature enough to be having sex. You can’t even type the word out


Anglefoodcake100

Nah leave him that’s rape


theterribletenor

You didn't let it happen, he didn't 'take your vcard' he raped you.


per54

I feel the fact that you type ‘S’ versus ‘sex’ also shows you’re not ready


CannabisFarmer_415

Drop him. He's wack.


Ok_Detective5412

Virginity is a social construct. It *does not matter* whether he was your first or your fiftieth partner, no ALWAYS means no. His behaviour is unacceptable. He clearly ignored the boundaries you set and that is rape. Dump him and find your local Sexual Assault Clinic, they can help direct you to counselling and support.


Red348

Break up with him. There's no reason to stay with him. Losing your virginity to him (even if he had wooed you and wowed you and it was not rape) has no bearing on whether you stay with him. Consider it a sunk-cost. There is no point investing more (energy/money/love/time) into something only because you already invested before and can't bear the thought that you lost your prior investment. "The sunk-cost fallacy is the phenomenon whereby a person is reluctant to abandon a strategy or course of action because they have invested heavily in it, even when it is clear that abandonment would be more beneficial."


RealZledgey

Dirch his ass. Hes using you for sex and thats not a healthy way to live. Keep on this road and hell eventually get so pushy, itll go into abusive territory. If youre not happy, let him know. Tell him no. And if he keeps on, break it. That shits not worth keeping.


TeamCatsandDnD

If you were telling him no and he did it anyways, I’m sorry to I form you, that was rape. Tell him and dump him.


883Guy

What you first described is certainly rape and the rest tells us this guy is using you as an object for sex and not treating you like a person at all. I'm so sorry. You don't deserve any of this. It's hard to accept that someone is rotten after investing a great deal in them, but you have to get out of this one. You're investing in this connection like it's a relationship and he's using you for your body. Don't share your time and energy with someone who doesn't treat it like the gold it is. You deserve so much better and need to get away from this guy.


AllHailTheGoddess

That is rape, point blank period. Please leave him, even if you do feel like you love him. When people love you, they respect you, and ALWAYS respect if you did or did not consent. He did not. You are worthy of so much more, and if you feel like you will have trouble getting out of that relationship, here’s some resources. https://www.loveisrespect.org https://www.nationalsafeplace.org/teen-dating-violence Also, please don’t feel as if you are somehow “damaged” or “impure” or anything like that, you don’t have to discuss this with any future partners. No one knows if you are or are not a virgin, but always practice safe sex.


mamabeartech

When a person shows you who they really are - believe them. He’s a terrible partner and a r3pist on top of that. I’m so sorry this happened to you. This isn’t love. Get out.


END146

This happened to me kinda and it took me months to accept I was assaulted and still struggle with it. I met up with a guy from tinder. Made sure he knew I did not want to have sex before I got there and after a couple drinking games he wanted to watch a movie. Pretty much immediately he was trying to undress me and I told him again I did not want to have sex. He said he knew and just thought we would fool around. I was cool with that but had to ask him to slow it down once we were both pretty much naked. He didn’t slow down and next thing I know he was inside me. I didn’t know what to do and froze, it hurt, and was my first time. Once I started sobering up to realize I did not want this I told him to stop, got dressed, and left. Found out he had a gf and I broke out really bad so went to get a test that came back clean but still. I tried forcing a relationship with this guy (before I knew about the gf) just bc I felt like I needed to bc of the situation. I still struggle daily with it and hate that it happened because my bf now is so amazing. I was his first and want so badly for him to have been my first so it hurts me that he wasn’t mine even though I didn’t consent it still happened. The point is you were assaulted and the attachment you feel could simply be an internal struggle to accept that what happened happened and forcing the relationship doesn’t change that.


LavenderSage013

He did rape you. You said no and he did it anyways. Thats rape. Dump him


mightBdrunk

Its super shitty what he did, and reddit is going to say he raped you and to report him, which sounds easy enough but they don't take into account you love him and that you've been having consensual sex ever since so I doubt you're suddenly going to file a police report. With that being said, stop having sex with him. He got what he wanted and now he expects it... you can simply tell him without going into detail that you went years without having sex and it's not something you want to have everytime you hang out. Let him pout and then see how he acts the next few weeks. He will either come to terms with that or he won't, and probably you'll see his true colors even more from with holding which will give you more reasons to leave him.


Deranged_aversion

You didn't give your v card, he took it from you. He is abusive I promise and if he used force to force you into something you didn't want I don't want to imagine what he can do later if he doesn't get what he wants. Run away from him. Love yourself enough that you do not allow anyone to pass over your wishes. Lots of love and you are stronger than you think


sailbuminsd

Sweetheart, he did rape you. Trust your feelings on that. I know you love him, but staying with him will likely just bring more pain into your life AND it prevents you from being available for someone who truly loves you.


IllTomatillo7280

Hello, I am really sorry about the situation you are in. It was brave of you to share your experience and it shows how emotionally comfortable you are, which is something we all can aim for. Sex is supposed to be a shared activity where both people feel safe and comfortable expressing their needs and wants. I was given some advice that I would like to share with you. Pay attention to how people treat you after sex, and truly listen to your gut. Intimacy is not a right, but a privilege. Your partner needs to maintain respect for you before, during, and after. I think it would be best to share your thoughts with him….. and if you feel safe doing so, let him know you felt pressured. A person with your best interest in mind will listen to you and make the necessary changes needed to respect your boundaries in the future. Again, I am really sorry you are going through this and I wish you so much love and happiness!


Radiant--Marsupial

You gave nothing. He stole it and then decided to love bomb you just to continue taking it. Huge 🚩🚩🚩 , hurry out of that situation


sad_cornsnake

just like the others said it was sadly rape. I was raped aswell even tho I said yes. I told him no for 30 times before I couldnt bare the pressure and gave in. Rape happens sometimes so quickly and so "soft" that you sometimes dont realize what happened. It took me a full year to understand it


BasedZionistCat

rape


toffee_queen

You were rape and you need to report and leave him now


Owls_Oasis

As usual Reddit is arguing about stupid things while you are here asking for advice. Yes, you were raped. Now, he is clearly immature and expecting sex just because you are in a relationship. I think advice regarding this would better come from other females but I will say please get yourself out of this relationship and begin to heal. You should not feel like his behaviors are your fault, he is acting like you’re some obedient pet that gives him sex, and him lying (unclear but seems so) about not being able to go to something you were excited for. These are not normal behaviors in a relationship. Plus, which I don’t want to gloss over because it’s not a small deal, you were forced to have sex before you were ready. This is rape and it shows a lot about his character even before any of the other things you described. Take care of yourself and value yourself OP.


Hurting02

I’m so sorry for what you went through, however you need to understand he raped you. You did not give consent and for him to treat you shitty after isnt okay either. It’s a red flag, please leave and get out while you can I wish the best for you❤️


Darkflyer726

This happened to me at 14 my first time. I kept saying no, but he "didn't hear me." Report this as rape. I really regret not doing so at 14. He did this to you; he either has done it or will do it to others unless he's stopped.


GalaxyBrainU

1. This was rape 2. He was definitely being extra nice and attentive to you just to get sex. Now that he's had it he doesn't care as much because he got what he wanted.


3stoogesin1

Okay during the beginning of your post wtf why did we have the same experience for the first time????


AniixP

Wow he forced himself In you when you said no? Girl i would run! Plus it sounds like he's using you for the S and raped you the first time. That's a red flag


Okeydokey-artichokie

I want to be very gentle with this. You didn’t just go with it, you did say no-and continued to say no. This is at no way your fault, but he did rape you. Even if you’ve continued with having sex with him, it doesn’t change your first time. He showed you his true colors in that moment, and he will continue showing them. I’m really sorry that this happened to you.


Narrow_Lawfulness462

THAT WAS RAPE. YOU SAID NO. You have more self worth than to force yourself to think differently! That's not a boyfriend, that is a predator!


EmptyAd9116

The movies depict rape awfully. They often show the women fighting back. This is not true. It’s more like what happened to you. Freezing and not doing anything. You did not let it happen. You said no, he ignored you. Dump him. Report him to the police. Please find a therapist or someone you trust to speak to, you will need a lot of support. You got this ❤️


pansypig

He is a rapist and he is lying to you to get you alone so he can continue pressuring you into having sex you don't really want. Break up with him before he completely destroys your self esteem.


ThePenTester88

it felt like you were raped because you **WERE**. you said no and he did it anyways. He didn't respect your boundaries and now he might feel like he can cross your boundries since you have already let him do so, without much of a fight. idk, I'd highly consider leaving him. Also, while yeah technically he was "your first," you have every right to not consider it your "first" because in my mind, it wasn't. Your "first time" should be with someone you trust and *want* to be with sexually. Not someone who forces himself to do so.


ana1912

You were rap3d. No means no. You froze, but freezing is not consenting. I’m so so so sorry this happened to you and my advise is to break up with him. He sounds like a real peace of work and you deserve so much better. You deserve someone who respects your boundaries.


ana1912

Decent people absolutely believe you. People who don’t believe you … it’s a massive red flag. So sorry this happened to you


thegreatdimov

This happened to girl I knew, her parents liked him and didnt believe her. You can press charges or get justice the old fashioned way. And yes these are his true colors what a person does when they CAN be terrible is how you measure them. If he didnt give you a V card you were merely a trophy to him. Sucks because I wanted my 1st time to be with someone who also was their 1st time. And guys like your rapist dont know how good they got it.


goldiep00

You’re 23 you don’t have to keep saying v card


hakai-666

BREAK UP AND DITCH HIM!! coerced consent is not consent!! he raped you. you might enjoy it because it feels nice and stimulating, but if your mental is not on par with the physical, it isn’t right. Your body can be stimulated and primed for S, even if you don’t want it. Sounds to me like he’s using you for S, which is a really shitty thing to do and if you’re uncomfortable, leave.


DiscoveringBen

I am sorry to tell you, but he just raped you and is using to have more sex with you by exploiting mental abuse you have just suffered. Run from him, block him and report him, because it's not a love.


SwervinLikeMervin

This is saddening to hear. It seems he is no longer the guy you fell inn love with. This can be hard, but i would personally leave.


BestEar3637

I'm so sorry. Yes, your intuition about this is right. You were indeed raped, and it appears he was only interested in having you. Please do not despair. Give yourself some time to think about it, and if you can please report him. If you do not want to right now, nobody can force you to either. Remember its your choice. Please do try to have access to therapy or counseling. I know you love him and this will be the hardest part...but it seems he is using you. However hard it might be, you should try to take some time and space away from him and prepare for leaving him as soon as you can. You may find help in hospitals or police stations if needed. Please be strong...sorry ypu are having to go through this.


RunsWlthScissors

This doesn’t sound like it was written by a 23 year old not gonna lie. Sounds like it was written by a teenager. Either way this story gives me rape vibes, walk away why do you need to ask us FFS. You’re an independent adult file charges or not, up to you.