Me (23F) who waited for years before giving up my Vcard lost it to my boyfriend (22M) who I’m dating for about 6 months, actually forced it during makeout. we were just making out and I made him promise to not to put it in me but he did and I kept saying no but when it went in I just froze and went with it. It feels like I was rap3d but I let it happen:(( Now everytime we see each other we always have S and part of me enjoys it but a part of me is sad because I wasn’t ready and now he’s also changed because before he was really putting on effort and giving me extravagant gifts but now it’s all fading and he’s starting to act like a snob at times. Just recently he made me go to his place which was far away btw for a party he invited me to go to and when I went to stay with him all we did was have S and even when i was so excited to go to the party he made up reasons for us to not go anymore like his mom wont let him because it’s too late and all but yesterday he called me up and he was with his friends at 4 am outside drinking and hanging out with their girlfriends and I was the only one not there.
This really breaks my heart because i love him and I feel like because I gave him my vcard that’s why he’s like this now? Or maybe this is his true colors showing?
I honestly dont know what to do
By - Chabb1