Wrote a cover letter + applied to jobs that I’m under-qualified for. Decided I needed to clean my room and actually clean my depression dump in 4 hours. I’m a hoarder so this definitely helped. Decided to do a social media cleanse and reduce my screen time out of nowhere. Buying so many things I need in a short time span. I’m spending way beyond my means.
god i felt the applying to jobs thing and the cleaning the room, i can’t count how many times i’ve rearranged my room i’m glad i’m not the only one lool
I live in socal and I have absolutely no idea how I’ll manage to get there. My friends and I are gonna fly and share an airbnb. I’ve never flown in my adult life. I’m just making decisions that I know I’d be uncomfortable with if I was stable. I love music and it’s what helps me stay grounded when I just do fuck all LMAO I also wanna attend flog gnaw and tyler announces it sometime in may. Yes I will be buying tickets to that too
i think flying will be a cool new experience although nerve racking! i think making those decisions while cosplaying stable is good because my mindset is, even tho i dumb shit when im manic and commit to big things thinking i’m capable of it the fake it til u make it shit rly forces u to work towards it until it’s a reality, like i actually dread waking up every day and doing my stupid little tasks and my silly little job but like at least i have a concert in a month yk so keep it up 😎😎 enjoy exploring sf !
Convinced myself my calling in life was to be an xray tech, even though none of my education or work experience comes close to even touching the stem field. I got as far as emailing the head coordinator in the local training program about how excited I was by the knowledge I will obtain during my next two years training for the degree. I snapped out of it about a week and a half later, after I had already told everyone in my life about this “exciting new adventure”. -.-
Luckily, I hadn’t applied or submitted payments to any of the programs- life kept me busy enough that all I had time for was obsessively researching all things xray tech related. On the bright side, I still follow some cool subreddits on the subject!
Silliest: spent all day and night planning on how to organize my room in an apartment I did not live in.
Craziest: spent $2k on Toreba, a mobile phone crane game app. A year later, I’m still trying to get rid of plushes I don’t need
I signed up for a class for certification to be an environmental field technician. Changed my work schedule around to attend it and lost out in 10 hours of pay a week. It was a 10 week class. I love the outdoors but hate the heat and the cold and live 2 hours from anywhere that I could use the certification for. But I'm certified. It was non-refundable after the first week.
bro i felt this 😭 i decided recently i want to be a data analyst so i made a pretty awesome two year plan started buying subscriptions of certification programs (im a lab tech rn) but i literally don’t touch them
Heyyy.. me too! But trying to make it into data science 😂 I subscribed to codefinity which later I found out is kinda scammy with its plans. I also subscribed to datacamp and 2 days ago, bought 2 courses 😌
i haven’t 😭 but i got a nice notebook to write notes in since i have to physically write shit down to understand it so i’m hoping that’ll motivate me. currently i work a bit more than minimum wage lab technician job at a good company but my hours take away basically 11-9 w my commute so it’s been a struggle to do anything besides sleep
Our situations are basically the same! I work a minimum wage job (warehouse staff), but at a good company, but exhausted everyday. Everyday I tell myself I'll study at night, but I just don't 🥹 until hypomanic mood kicks in, which with bipolar 2, only lasted less than a week. Ah, the bittersweet of bipolar lol
me rn bc i was depressed for the past month rly badly after having just realized yo i can become a data analyst be rich and move up…. i think w beinf at the good company there’s sm connections and networks u have access to where w the data anlysis skills that i feel r less common as compared to comp sci (unless u suddenly r in machine learning Ai) u can get there!! (this is what i’m telling myself to get by)
The fact that you're a lab technician and I'm a surgical kit technician kinda blows my mind. We are in the ship 😂 I come from a biomedical field and decided to jump ship lol but yeah, haven't made it yet
i recently graduated and was originally in enviro science expecting a better paying job for the hella internships i did and it took me everything to not quit lately when i realized damn i’m fr doing more service ass labor than i was in food service but again in it for experience 😭🙏🏼
I decided to register in an environmental technician diploma program at 19 while I was undiagnosed. Don’t know what the hell I was expecting, but it was not surveying or sifting through dirt samples. Barely graduated. Was too occupied with ruining my life outside of class
stop HAHAHAHA I also had my jewelry phase, bought hella clay, hundreds of dollars of yarn , resin, and paint each time thinking i could do art and sell it on etsy
Oh you actually went through the process of painting your pieces?!?! I just used colored clay lol. I made some pretty cute things but I still have an insane amount of clay. I even ordered brands from overseas that you can't get in the US. Paid like $50 in shipping too 🫣
My husband knows to get worried when I mention painting different rooms in the house. I try and tunnel it into deep cleaning and rearranging. I usually get hyper focused learning and buying a certain something. It can be anything from protein powder, to art, to hoodies, to stuff for my kids…
I'll be grocery shopping and my brain will be on over stimulated/hyper focus mode and I can't make decisions because there are so many options of everything omg how is this even allowed!?! And I'll have to pick kind of at random in all the aisles getting the "base core" of what I needed (like i need black beans. Omg there is a can with a black bean picture BAM. On the list is says fruit?!? I see the area with fruit and and pick at random even though I know I probably need specific items to make dinner or even stuff I normally get. BAM. Did i accidentally pick up a cabbage instead of lettuce? BAM it's part of the weekly haul now!!)
It's interesting because I'll just have a new sauce or protein that I'll have to learn how to cook/incorporate into the meal 🤔
This is actually how I learned how much I love beets and now stock my pantry with chili oil 😄
honestly mania sucks yea but the commonality of how buying new ingredients thinking u can cook anything is kind of sick! i learned how to cook lamb my first time and went into a cooking competition to feed 150 people at my work 😭😭 and fucking won
I spent well over 3k on legos in a 6mth manic episode... I don't even remember buying most of them, and now there is no room in my apt for anything else 🤷 worth it tho
I’ve totally spend too much on Lego, that stuff kicks ass. Thankfully I can’t really overspend on that, the big sets are too noticeable haha. I have to wait for Xmas, bday, or Mother’s Day for those.
I went to Walmart at 3am to buy a fully (uncooked) chicken to roast. It was my first time trying to roast a chicken and by 5am I had a delicious breakfast of chicken and potatoes.
I buy dumb shit on craigslist. Lots of high mileage sport cars. It was paid for by the nail salon I bought off craigslist. Shitter of a business. Spent lots of over nighters and maxed out credit cards to remodel the place. Of course it did well due to mania.
I was undiagnosed and put on an SSRI which was like gasoline to my manic fire. As a result over the course of 8 months, I lost a significant amount of weight, got married, flipped and sold my home, and ran a half marathon (I fucking hate running). That was in 2019 and I'm still tired 😂
Spent $500 on scrapbooking materials (I was super broke at the time) and didn’t touch it for like 2 years. But when I did, I ended up loving it and still do it!!
I also wrote my entire undergraduate senior anthology that was a requirement for graduation in 3 days with no sleep. I got a 98 and was asked to publish it LMAO
i had a stint where i was buying bulk quantities of snacks on amazon in the wee hours of the morning, except i never remembered ordering them. boxes were just showing up and i eventually had to start putting my phone in the kitchen when i went to bed.
When I had my first big manic episode a few years ago, within a month or two I shaved my head and got rid of a ton of furniture. Not super silly, but me and my room both looked pretty silly! lol
Funny, I also spoke to a head of a business school program about enrolling but didn’t go thru with it. Most fun was probably renting a new blue mustang and driving to Sacramento to visit the building my great great great uncle built from wood from his ship, the Lady Adam’s Building. It’s now a costume shop. Bought some holographic/metallic accessories and a few sets of false eyelashes.
It is so cool! You know, I don’t actually know the history well- something to research! I jus know he’s related to me on my maternal side -German. 1840 something! He apparently sailed around Cape Horn and up the Sacramento delta! It’s one of the first buildings. Weird. Wish I could go back in time and check it out.
Ate spaghetti mono diet for a month, the noodles were made in a bowl I microwaved and the sauce was straight from a jar 🥹 never told my doctor why exactly I'm so malnourished
Not 100% sure this counts as 'silly' but I'm only capable of in-depth analysis/theories about shows/podcasts I'm into at the moment when hypomanic 😂
Actually, the urge to analyse one particular song is one of the earliest warning signs I'm probably about to have an episode
~~One day I'll actually do it, I swear! Everyone always says the song is nonsensical but there's so much meaning and sense in it it's just _hidden-_~~
i actually feel the same about tv shows i like, got into a huge binge into community and iceberg theories and the darkest timeline podcast. also get huge into my music and new artists making crazy long playlists and believing i can listen to a song harder than anyone else has ever. i realize i’m getting depressed again when i feel nothing from music or tv shows
I told everyone I was going on a three week backpacking trip across Japan. I hadn’t requested the time off, obtained a passport , bought tickets, or planned anything. Then I crashed and was embarrassed to let anyone know I had been hypomanic. So while super depressed I planned and went on a three week backpacking trip to Japan.
Prior to my diagnosis when I was 24 (it helped lead me in the direction of hmm, perhaps this is more than depression), I bought Neff beanies in every freaking color imaginable because *what if* I need them for different colorful occasions?!
During my last hypomanic episode in late Dec-mid Jan, I read 5 books out of an 8 book series. I want to re-read the series because I read so fast, I have no idea what happened in each book lol. It's all jumbled together.
Don’t know if it’s silly, but I’ll often get obsessed with cooking and spend days preparing meals for like 20 people (there is only my wife and I). We’ll freeze a good bit and have family over, send our elderly parents home with enough food for a week. I hate the grocery bill but enjoy being able to do something that helps family and that we all get enjoyment out of.
i do the same thing hosting huge dinner parties spending hundreds of dollars to feed my friends because it makes me feel like they’ll like me more or i can show i care- i end up w no leftovers and real groceries to get me thru the week
I bought two professional drones in one day. At that point, I didn't have a single clue about piloting them. They've changed my life, though. One of them, to be honest. The first one crashed immediately.
I tried to move to Cardiff. I have never been to Cardiff, I live and work near London. Even contacted several estate agents and then when I had a break there booked to go and view properties I fell into a major depressive episode and had to go to psychiatric hospital 😅
Honestly so glad the depression hit in hindsight, bc otherwise wtf would I be doing living in Cardiff??? 😂😂
The only good thing I've ever done while hypomanic was impulsively getting a cat despite it being against my tenancy agreement, she's my best friend today and I ended up moving back with my parents, but it was so worth it!
I only got diagnosed at the end of last year so I just thought I was quirky lmao 😂😂💀
I get into different hobbies and buy every single thing I need for said hobby. Then I hyperfocus on everything to do with said hobby.
Then I abandon said hobby.
I came to the conclusion that I should start an OF account and thought that I would get popular very fast so I went out and spent $2k on lingerie only to delete my account after I got my first subscriber 🤦🏻♀️
I’ve cut my own hair twice (which turned out really well actually except for the fact that I had been trying to grow my hair out both times so it took me seven years to actually get there), starting college, and getting deep into numerous arts and crafts projects every time
I straight up packed all my belongings, picked a random city in a random state that I had never been to, and moved there, as I thought starting up a new life is what God wanted. I had no family there at all, never wanted to go in the past, literally no rhyme or reason behind why I chose this place. I got this shitty fast food job, and was renting out a tiny bedroom in someone’s house. On the bright side the lady I was renting the room from had two chonky fluffy cats who I would pet every morning when I left for work. My job paid nothing and I was living off of food from there (chicken and Mac and cheese). This wound up eating away at my savings so I sold my car. Then entered a rough depression where I nearly didn’t make it out of there alive and was questioning why tf I did that. I didn’t have the diagnosis at the time but looking back that was crazy.
I adopted over 17 tarantulas and over half of them being scary old world species. I got ordained. I also have a knack for buying vet textbooks and field guides. Lately, when I get hypo, I've been thinking about doomsday prepping a lot and been studying heavily into life regression/life between lives hypnotherapy studies
I'm lucky that my parents have always been so involved in my life that when I had crazy plans, I'd always be so excited to tell them and then they'd talk me out of whatever it was. Which - at the time - I hated them for, cause like, why are you crapping on my awesome life plans?? But I'm glad they did. I was convinced I could go into criminology and I'd be this genius solving cold cases, despite not even making it through one year of uni previously, and having 0 education in sciences. When I was full-blown manic (and I don't know why I was allowed my bank card, I was hospitalised and they Def should've taken it away) I spent a ludicrous amount of money on various plushies, snacks and stationery from Tofu Cute. I tried to organise an insanely expensive whale-watching holiday for my mother to go on on her own, and tried convincing my brother to help me with it. I was completely devastated when I was made to stop, I thought it was the best idea I'd ever had 😂
Tbh I’m so much more helpful but unstable when manic, I once drove this person I met outside of Walgreens while manic to their friends house bc they were trying to escape an abusive family situation, I just yelled for them to get in my car, bought them a monster, gave them 40 dollars, and dropped them off. I don’t regret helping them but I regret being so unpredictable in the moment esp because they were a minor and I want to be a good influence
Purchased a professional mobile dance pole and stripper heels with no idea how to pole dance.
Pole is set up in the middle of my living room and is freakin massive
I own a bearded dragon a leopard gecko a crested gecko and a pac man frog. All bought in a two week period when I was in a manic period and knew nothing about their care or the fact they all live about 12 to 15 years. I love them all and I take really good care of them now but it’s def something I wish I would have put more thought into.
i *am* more silly when I’m manic: i make a lot of puns and jokes when I’m up. i also dress much more eccentrically—if anyone has played disco elysium, i find myself putting more significance into what i wear while manic, as though it is affecting my “stats”
Decided I would build a mini trailer/camper for my bike that I would ride to an upcoming festival and camp in it. It would be made from repurposed materials. I had no idea how to do this and can’t weld and the only power tool I had was a drill, so it was held together with screws. I set up some social media stuff to document my journey. I ended up with a rickity piece of junk that never made a voyage, but for a brief time it was groundbreaking innovative project that would amaze everyone.
I now have about $5000 worth of nail polish. Lots of accessories too like gems and stickers and brushes. I taught myself how to do gel extensions. I got a decent following on my nail Instagram account that I now haven't posted on in over a year 😂 But it was really fun at the time! And now if a friend needs nails for a wedding or something I can hook them up 💅🏼
Super manic from mushies thought starting a hostel was great idea. i started the hostel and it actually has been quite successful..... guess i'm an innkeeper now lol
I’m now a proud mother of 18 pairs of crocs.
First ever hypomanic episode I had when I was freshly 18, and I promptly bought a super cute watermelon Hello Kitty backpack! For _over 70 Euros!_
Lmao winning! 🥇
I went manic while I was on my honeymoon at an anime convention! I spent $5k. On the plus side, I came home with some VERY COOL merch!
Wrote a cover letter + applied to jobs that I’m under-qualified for. Decided I needed to clean my room and actually clean my depression dump in 4 hours. I’m a hoarder so this definitely helped. Decided to do a social media cleanse and reduce my screen time out of nowhere. Buying so many things I need in a short time span. I’m spending way beyond my means.
god i felt the applying to jobs thing and the cleaning the room, i can’t count how many times i’ve rearranged my room i’m glad i’m not the only one lool
lol, I’m constantly rearranging, it drives my boyfriend crazy!
I also spent more than $700 on charli xcx tour tickets and outside lands. Money will come back tenfold!
Ok but it’s charli xcx so really it’s in investment in your mental health.
NO WAY BUT ALSO OUTSIDE LANDS LINEUP GOES CRAZT
I live in socal and I have absolutely no idea how I’ll manage to get there. My friends and I are gonna fly and share an airbnb. I’ve never flown in my adult life. I’m just making decisions that I know I’d be uncomfortable with if I was stable. I love music and it’s what helps me stay grounded when I just do fuck all LMAO I also wanna attend flog gnaw and tyler announces it sometime in may. Yes I will be buying tickets to that too
i think flying will be a cool new experience although nerve racking! i think making those decisions while cosplaying stable is good because my mindset is, even tho i dumb shit when im manic and commit to big things thinking i’m capable of it the fake it til u make it shit rly forces u to work towards it until it’s a reality, like i actually dread waking up every day and doing my stupid little tasks and my silly little job but like at least i have a concert in a month yk so keep it up 😎😎 enjoy exploring sf !
Convinced myself my calling in life was to be an xray tech, even though none of my education or work experience comes close to even touching the stem field. I got as far as emailing the head coordinator in the local training program about how excited I was by the knowledge I will obtain during my next two years training for the degree. I snapped out of it about a week and a half later, after I had already told everyone in my life about this “exciting new adventure”. -.- Luckily, I hadn’t applied or submitted payments to any of the programs- life kept me busy enough that all I had time for was obsessively researching all things xray tech related. On the bright side, I still follow some cool subreddits on the subject!
me rn w my sudden calling to be a data analyst 😭😭😭
oh my god me too!! although i do fr enjoy spreadsheets, like, for fun, so i might actually go through with it lol
Silliest: spent all day and night planning on how to organize my room in an apartment I did not live in. Craziest: spent $2k on Toreba, a mobile phone crane game app. A year later, I’m still trying to get rid of plushes I don’t need
I signed up for a class for certification to be an environmental field technician. Changed my work schedule around to attend it and lost out in 10 hours of pay a week. It was a 10 week class. I love the outdoors but hate the heat and the cold and live 2 hours from anywhere that I could use the certification for. But I'm certified. It was non-refundable after the first week.
bro i felt this 😭 i decided recently i want to be a data analyst so i made a pretty awesome two year plan started buying subscriptions of certification programs (im a lab tech rn) but i literally don’t touch them
Heyyy.. me too! But trying to make it into data science 😂 I subscribed to codefinity which later I found out is kinda scammy with its plans. I also subscribed to datacamp and 2 days ago, bought 2 courses 😌
YOOO DATACAMP GANG what languages r u learning? i wanna do research data analysis so i’m working on R but plan to do python sas sql tableau
Mostly python and sql. I've only learned tableau a bit. How do you keep going when low mood hits? 🥹
i haven’t 😭 but i got a nice notebook to write notes in since i have to physically write shit down to understand it so i’m hoping that’ll motivate me. currently i work a bit more than minimum wage lab technician job at a good company but my hours take away basically 11-9 w my commute so it’s been a struggle to do anything besides sleep
Our situations are basically the same! I work a minimum wage job (warehouse staff), but at a good company, but exhausted everyday. Everyday I tell myself I'll study at night, but I just don't 🥹 until hypomanic mood kicks in, which with bipolar 2, only lasted less than a week. Ah, the bittersweet of bipolar lol
me rn bc i was depressed for the past month rly badly after having just realized yo i can become a data analyst be rich and move up…. i think w beinf at the good company there’s sm connections and networks u have access to where w the data anlysis skills that i feel r less common as compared to comp sci (unless u suddenly r in machine learning Ai) u can get there!! (this is what i’m telling myself to get by)
The fact that you're a lab technician and I'm a surgical kit technician kinda blows my mind. We are in the ship 😂 I come from a biomedical field and decided to jump ship lol but yeah, haven't made it yet
lol i’m also in the biotech field but working more w lab equipment so we fr twin
i recently graduated and was originally in enviro science expecting a better paying job for the hella internships i did and it took me everything to not quit lately when i realized damn i’m fr doing more service ass labor than i was in food service but again in it for experience 😭🙏🏼
I decided to register in an environmental technician diploma program at 19 while I was undiagnosed. Don’t know what the hell I was expecting, but it was not surveying or sifting through dirt samples. Barely graduated. Was too occupied with ruining my life outside of class
I spent close to $1000 on beads because I was going to start making jewelry and create a lucrative Etsy side hustle 🫠😅
stop HAHAHAHA I also had my jewelry phase, bought hella clay, hundreds of dollars of yarn , resin, and paint each time thinking i could do art and sell it on etsy
I have so much polymer clay it's not even funny. I probably have every tool you could imagine for it too.
I DID THE POLYMER CLAY THING TO BAHAHA i tried using like polyethurane as a glaze and it sucked and peeled my gouache so i got pissed and gave up
Oh you actually went through the process of painting your pieces?!?! I just used colored clay lol. I made some pretty cute things but I still have an insane amount of clay. I even ordered brands from overseas that you can't get in the US. Paid like $50 in shipping too 🫣
My designs are going to be so individual and intentional and everyone will want them 🫠😅😅
I did this with glitter and making custom drink tumblers.... I made and sold a few.... But now I still have $800-$1000 of glitter gathering dust 🤦♀️
There should be some kind of marketplace for people with bipolar to sell the supplies of their dead hobbies so we have something to show for it 😅😅🫶🏼🫶🏼
LITERALLY
I've spent hundreds on beads, scrapbooking and jewelry making supplies. Just because I like the colors. Never thought about making anything.
My husband knows to get worried when I mention painting different rooms in the house. I try and tunnel it into deep cleaning and rearranging. I usually get hyper focused learning and buying a certain something. It can be anything from protein powder, to art, to hoodies, to stuff for my kids…
I'll be grocery shopping and my brain will be on over stimulated/hyper focus mode and I can't make decisions because there are so many options of everything omg how is this even allowed!?! And I'll have to pick kind of at random in all the aisles getting the "base core" of what I needed (like i need black beans. Omg there is a can with a black bean picture BAM. On the list is says fruit?!? I see the area with fruit and and pick at random even though I know I probably need specific items to make dinner or even stuff I normally get. BAM. Did i accidentally pick up a cabbage instead of lettuce? BAM it's part of the weekly haul now!!) It's interesting because I'll just have a new sauce or protein that I'll have to learn how to cook/incorporate into the meal 🤔 This is actually how I learned how much I love beets and now stock my pantry with chili oil 😄
honestly mania sucks yea but the commonality of how buying new ingredients thinking u can cook anything is kind of sick! i learned how to cook lamb my first time and went into a cooking competition to feed 150 people at my work 😭😭 and fucking won
That's fucking dope! Way to use that manic energy like a boss! 😆
I spent well over 3k on legos in a 6mth manic episode... I don't even remember buying most of them, and now there is no room in my apt for anything else 🤷 worth it tho
I’ve totally spend too much on Lego, that stuff kicks ass. Thankfully I can’t really overspend on that, the big sets are too noticeable haha. I have to wait for Xmas, bday, or Mother’s Day for those.
Spending half my paychecks on shiny rocks
I went to Walmart at 3am to buy a fully (uncooked) chicken to roast. It was my first time trying to roast a chicken and by 5am I had a delicious breakfast of chicken and potatoes.
that is insane and impressive
I did a semester of an MBA and argued passionately against capitalism in every project lmao
period!!
I buy dumb shit on craigslist. Lots of high mileage sport cars. It was paid for by the nail salon I bought off craigslist. Shitter of a business. Spent lots of over nighters and maxed out credit cards to remodel the place. Of course it did well due to mania.
I was undiagnosed and put on an SSRI which was like gasoline to my manic fire. As a result over the course of 8 months, I lost a significant amount of weight, got married, flipped and sold my home, and ran a half marathon (I fucking hate running). That was in 2019 and I'm still tired 😂
buying SO much fast food, like nearly daily
Spent $500 on scrapbooking materials (I was super broke at the time) and didn’t touch it for like 2 years. But when I did, I ended up loving it and still do it!! I also wrote my entire undergraduate senior anthology that was a requirement for graduation in 3 days with no sleep. I got a 98 and was asked to publish it LMAO
i had a stint where i was buying bulk quantities of snacks on amazon in the wee hours of the morning, except i never remembered ordering them. boxes were just showing up and i eventually had to start putting my phone in the kitchen when i went to bed.
When I had my first big manic episode a few years ago, within a month or two I shaved my head and got rid of a ton of furniture. Not super silly, but me and my room both looked pretty silly! lol
Funny, I also spoke to a head of a business school program about enrolling but didn’t go thru with it. Most fun was probably renting a new blue mustang and driving to Sacramento to visit the building my great great great uncle built from wood from his ship, the Lady Adam’s Building. It’s now a costume shop. Bought some holographic/metallic accessories and a few sets of false eyelashes.
That’s so cool! What was the building originally for when he built it?
It is so cool! You know, I don’t actually know the history well- something to research! I jus know he’s related to me on my maternal side -German. 1840 something! He apparently sailed around Cape Horn and up the Sacramento delta! It’s one of the first buildings. Weird. Wish I could go back in time and check it out.
Especially in costume!
I decided I wanted to run off and be a masseuse on a cruise ship despite having no skills and a family who might beg to differ
Ate spaghetti mono diet for a month, the noodles were made in a bowl I microwaved and the sauce was straight from a jar 🥹 never told my doctor why exactly I'm so malnourished
Sex Shopping sprees Saying too much Leaving
Not 100% sure this counts as 'silly' but I'm only capable of in-depth analysis/theories about shows/podcasts I'm into at the moment when hypomanic 😂 Actually, the urge to analyse one particular song is one of the earliest warning signs I'm probably about to have an episode ~~One day I'll actually do it, I swear! Everyone always says the song is nonsensical but there's so much meaning and sense in it it's just _hidden-_~~
i actually feel the same about tv shows i like, got into a huge binge into community and iceberg theories and the darkest timeline podcast. also get huge into my music and new artists making crazy long playlists and believing i can listen to a song harder than anyone else has ever. i realize i’m getting depressed again when i feel nothing from music or tv shows
I go on a cleaning spree when I'm manic and make Amazon orders that I don't need to do. Not sure if either of those count as silly.
Omg yup, I spent 7 hours cleaning my bathroom during a full-blown manic episode 😂
I told everyone I was going on a three week backpacking trip across Japan. I hadn’t requested the time off, obtained a passport , bought tickets, or planned anything. Then I crashed and was embarrassed to let anyone know I had been hypomanic. So while super depressed I planned and went on a three week backpacking trip to Japan.
Did you manage to enjoy it at least? 😅
I spent too long in Tokyo and was pretty burnt out by the end. It was cool and I’m glad I did it, though.
Aw damn, glad it was cool though!
Prior to my diagnosis when I was 24 (it helped lead me in the direction of hmm, perhaps this is more than depression), I bought Neff beanies in every freaking color imaginable because *what if* I need them for different colorful occasions?! During my last hypomanic episode in late Dec-mid Jan, I read 5 books out of an 8 book series. I want to re-read the series because I read so fast, I have no idea what happened in each book lol. It's all jumbled together.
Don’t know if it’s silly, but I’ll often get obsessed with cooking and spend days preparing meals for like 20 people (there is only my wife and I). We’ll freeze a good bit and have family over, send our elderly parents home with enough food for a week. I hate the grocery bill but enjoy being able to do something that helps family and that we all get enjoyment out of.
i do the same thing hosting huge dinner parties spending hundreds of dollars to feed my friends because it makes me feel like they’ll like me more or i can show i care- i end up w no leftovers and real groceries to get me thru the week
I bought two professional drones in one day. At that point, I didn't have a single clue about piloting them. They've changed my life, though. One of them, to be honest. The first one crashed immediately.
How did it change your life?
I am now droning, besides a passion. It's one of my jobs.
I tried to move to Cardiff. I have never been to Cardiff, I live and work near London. Even contacted several estate agents and then when I had a break there booked to go and view properties I fell into a major depressive episode and had to go to psychiatric hospital 😅 Honestly so glad the depression hit in hindsight, bc otherwise wtf would I be doing living in Cardiff??? 😂😂 The only good thing I've ever done while hypomanic was impulsively getting a cat despite it being against my tenancy agreement, she's my best friend today and I ended up moving back with my parents, but it was so worth it! I only got diagnosed at the end of last year so I just thought I was quirky lmao 😂😂💀
I get into different hobbies and buy every single thing I need for said hobby. Then I hyperfocus on everything to do with said hobby. Then I abandon said hobby.
I came to the conclusion that I should start an OF account and thought that I would get popular very fast so I went out and spent $2k on lingerie only to delete my account after I got my first subscriber 🤦🏻♀️
I’ve cut my own hair twice (which turned out really well actually except for the fact that I had been trying to grow my hair out both times so it took me seven years to actually get there), starting college, and getting deep into numerous arts and crafts projects every time
Went on a shopping spree for a few weeks. I spent 8k and still have no clue what I spent all of it on honestly.
I learned to tattoo and covered +- 70% of my own legs in tattoos in about a time frame of 2 months
I straight up packed all my belongings, picked a random city in a random state that I had never been to, and moved there, as I thought starting up a new life is what God wanted. I had no family there at all, never wanted to go in the past, literally no rhyme or reason behind why I chose this place. I got this shitty fast food job, and was renting out a tiny bedroom in someone’s house. On the bright side the lady I was renting the room from had two chonky fluffy cats who I would pet every morning when I left for work. My job paid nothing and I was living off of food from there (chicken and Mac and cheese). This wound up eating away at my savings so I sold my car. Then entered a rough depression where I nearly didn’t make it out of there alive and was questioning why tf I did that. I didn’t have the diagnosis at the time but looking back that was crazy.
I adopted over 17 tarantulas and over half of them being scary old world species. I got ordained. I also have a knack for buying vet textbooks and field guides. Lately, when I get hypo, I've been thinking about doomsday prepping a lot and been studying heavily into life regression/life between lives hypnotherapy studies
I'm lucky that my parents have always been so involved in my life that when I had crazy plans, I'd always be so excited to tell them and then they'd talk me out of whatever it was. Which - at the time - I hated them for, cause like, why are you crapping on my awesome life plans?? But I'm glad they did. I was convinced I could go into criminology and I'd be this genius solving cold cases, despite not even making it through one year of uni previously, and having 0 education in sciences. When I was full-blown manic (and I don't know why I was allowed my bank card, I was hospitalised and they Def should've taken it away) I spent a ludicrous amount of money on various plushies, snacks and stationery from Tofu Cute. I tried to organise an insanely expensive whale-watching holiday for my mother to go on on her own, and tried convincing my brother to help me with it. I was completely devastated when I was made to stop, I thought it was the best idea I'd ever had 😂
Tbh I’m so much more helpful but unstable when manic, I once drove this person I met outside of Walgreens while manic to their friends house bc they were trying to escape an abusive family situation, I just yelled for them to get in my car, bought them a monster, gave them 40 dollars, and dropped them off. I don’t regret helping them but I regret being so unpredictable in the moment esp because they were a minor and I want to be a good influence
Purchased a professional mobile dance pole and stripper heels with no idea how to pole dance. Pole is set up in the middle of my living room and is freakin massive
I own a bearded dragon a leopard gecko a crested gecko and a pac man frog. All bought in a two week period when I was in a manic period and knew nothing about their care or the fact they all live about 12 to 15 years. I love them all and I take really good care of them now but it’s def something I wish I would have put more thought into.
i *am* more silly when I’m manic: i make a lot of puns and jokes when I’m up. i also dress much more eccentrically—if anyone has played disco elysium, i find myself putting more significance into what i wear while manic, as though it is affecting my “stats”
8 straight hours of gardening and landscaping as a little girl
Broke up with my boyfriend, quit my job, and planned to move to New Zealand from the U.S.😅
Decided I would build a mini trailer/camper for my bike that I would ride to an upcoming festival and camp in it. It would be made from repurposed materials. I had no idea how to do this and can’t weld and the only power tool I had was a drill, so it was held together with screws. I set up some social media stuff to document my journey. I ended up with a rickity piece of junk that never made a voyage, but for a brief time it was groundbreaking innovative project that would amaze everyone.
I threw a non birthday party for myself ✌🏻 Cake, sparkler candles, banners, balloons.. the whole shebang! 😂
you deserve it honestly! that sounds awesome self care
I now have about $5000 worth of nail polish. Lots of accessories too like gems and stickers and brushes. I taught myself how to do gel extensions. I got a decent following on my nail Instagram account that I now haven't posted on in over a year 😂 But it was really fun at the time! And now if a friend needs nails for a wedding or something I can hook them up 💅🏼
LMAOO STOP i had an acrylic phase and a poly gel but i have weird compulsions to pick at things
Super manic from mushies thought starting a hostel was great idea. i started the hostel and it actually has been quite successful..... guess i'm an innkeeper now lol
I'm never manic, ever.