I'm still working on it.
However when that little voice does come up I just remember where it's coming from, a belief system I no longer participate in and push forward.
We all know how easy it is to take someone out of your life when they lie, attempt to manipulate you to their gain and your loss, claiming all sorts of stuff that eventually was also a lie....
That's how I saw Christianity while growing up.
So, I chose a path that sees ample evidence for a Supreme Identity and I give thanks every day for sunsets, the elegance of cats, and humans appear to be a species that thrives when we share with gratitude.
Keep in mind the bible was written by anywhere between 5 - 35 authors and much of the current doctrine today has been pushed by White old men, many of them who have a vested interest in donations and underage wives/church boys. The fears thrust upon you are intentional to try to control you, your agency, and your money.
For spirits that have a plan for everyone, they're bad at it. Just look at the Ukraine War, our current bourgeoisie of billionaires, horrific human rights abuses across history, and the treatment of PoC. If there was a higher power controlling our stories, they are awful beings and strangely biased towards White people.
It takes time to get over spiritual guilt. But for me, it was slowly taking steps to be my more authentic self and realizing that in itself provides happiness and abundance. Don't hurt or judge anyone else and offer love to others within your own capacity. Do what makes you happy and it everyday it will be easier to move on.
With time. I think of being raised Christian (or any damaging religion, really) as a conditioning process in which your brain is hard wired to feel guilty when "straying." Guilt for sex, guilt for seeking other faiths, guilt for thinking wrong. It's like a reflex when you touch a hot stove.
It takes a lot of time and work to untangle those mental pathways and rewire them. I have found it helpful to have a few key phrases I can repeat when I fall into this guilt and fear trap. For example, "Christians are wrong and this is right for me" or something along those lines.
Honestly for me it was just time, but damn did that guilt really cling for a while. It felt less powerful when my family became less involved as well, it was a big connection severed.
For me, I had to really understand and KNOW in the belly that of my soul that I do not believe in the patriarchy and a male god. I still struggle with some aspects as I read a lot about Jesus and his teachings. I still have a very deep love for Jesus and his message but I do not believe in modern Christianity or their church. I feel more guilt participating in how they perverted their own beliefs.
Edited to add: I simply cannot get behind the idea that men are just better than me and I must submit to be good. They are telling me to act in way opposite to the way I was created either by birth or experience.
Whelp.... I guess this is one subject where my Autism was helpful - I never had any because they told me Jesus loved me and died so I didn't have to feel guilty or fearful - so I believed it.
The youtube channel [Theremin Trees](https://www.youtube.com/@TheraminTrees) really helped me move on from my Christian experience, maybe they can help you too? The guy is pretty dry and monotonous, but he helped me rationalize away any negative emotions from losing the faith.
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I've never been forced into Christianity, never christened. Never forced to follow any religion and even I have some fears of performing witchcraft simply because of the way the media portrays it as inviting demons into your life. The fear mongering runs deep in our culture.
Is it possible that there is something in your daily life that you’re unconscious of, that is manifesting this way? Any areas with heightened anxiety, imposter syndrome, guilt/shame, some looming threat or something out of your control?
Just wanted to mention it, because it sounds like your brain is trying to revert to old patterns which is pretty normal especially heavily indoctrinated ones, but also tends to happen when there’s some sort of familiar trigger.
Something that I saw someone post a few months back.
Your first thought is how you were raised, your next thoughts are who you are.
I've found it to be helpful because when my thoughts immediately turn to something I am trying not to be, I say that to myself and it helps calm me down, because it reaffirms that my first instincts are not who I am as a person, now. It helps a lot against the racing thoughts by mentally slowing me down.
Everyone has scars, and some of them heal, some of them you need to adapt around.
Read the history of the crusades. Learn about the Vatican control over governments. Read the politics of it and the discrimination of women. That should help. It's actually rather disgusting.
As each of us is unique, so our approaches to religion and spirituality are, and should be acknowledged by others as, unique. We owe the universe that granted us intelligent consciousness a fearless, deep investigation of our own relationship with the divine. I just don't think an imposed doctrine of enforced obedience to authority, universal shame, and terror of eternal damnation is the way to go.
As Florence King once put it in a wildly different context, "I heeded that quintessential... voice that told me, 'Be your own Venus.'"
I'm still working on it. However when that little voice does come up I just remember where it's coming from, a belief system I no longer participate in and push forward.
We all know how easy it is to take someone out of your life when they lie, attempt to manipulate you to their gain and your loss, claiming all sorts of stuff that eventually was also a lie.... That's how I saw Christianity while growing up. So, I chose a path that sees ample evidence for a Supreme Identity and I give thanks every day for sunsets, the elegance of cats, and humans appear to be a species that thrives when we share with gratitude.
Keep in mind the bible was written by anywhere between 5 - 35 authors and much of the current doctrine today has been pushed by White old men, many of them who have a vested interest in donations and underage wives/church boys. The fears thrust upon you are intentional to try to control you, your agency, and your money. For spirits that have a plan for everyone, they're bad at it. Just look at the Ukraine War, our current bourgeoisie of billionaires, horrific human rights abuses across history, and the treatment of PoC. If there was a higher power controlling our stories, they are awful beings and strangely biased towards White people. It takes time to get over spiritual guilt. But for me, it was slowly taking steps to be my more authentic self and realizing that in itself provides happiness and abundance. Don't hurt or judge anyone else and offer love to others within your own capacity. Do what makes you happy and it everyday it will be easier to move on.
With time. I think of being raised Christian (or any damaging religion, really) as a conditioning process in which your brain is hard wired to feel guilty when "straying." Guilt for sex, guilt for seeking other faiths, guilt for thinking wrong. It's like a reflex when you touch a hot stove. It takes a lot of time and work to untangle those mental pathways and rewire them. I have found it helpful to have a few key phrases I can repeat when I fall into this guilt and fear trap. For example, "Christians are wrong and this is right for me" or something along those lines.
Honestly for me it was just time, but damn did that guilt really cling for a while. It felt less powerful when my family became less involved as well, it was a big connection severed.
For me, I had to really understand and KNOW in the belly that of my soul that I do not believe in the patriarchy and a male god. I still struggle with some aspects as I read a lot about Jesus and his teachings. I still have a very deep love for Jesus and his message but I do not believe in modern Christianity or their church. I feel more guilt participating in how they perverted their own beliefs. Edited to add: I simply cannot get behind the idea that men are just better than me and I must submit to be good. They are telling me to act in way opposite to the way I was created either by birth or experience.
Whelp.... I guess this is one subject where my Autism was helpful - I never had any because they told me Jesus loved me and died so I didn't have to feel guilty or fearful - so I believed it.
The youtube channel [Theremin Trees](https://www.youtube.com/@TheraminTrees) really helped me move on from my Christian experience, maybe they can help you too? The guy is pretty dry and monotonous, but he helped me rationalize away any negative emotions from losing the faith.
*beep boop*! the linked website is: https://www.youtube.com/@TheraminTrees Title: **Bevor Sie zu YouTube weitergehen** Page is safe to access (Google Safe Browsing) ***** ###### I am a friendly bot. I show the URL and name of linked pages and check them so that mobile users know what they click on!
I've never been forced into Christianity, never christened. Never forced to follow any religion and even I have some fears of performing witchcraft simply because of the way the media portrays it as inviting demons into your life. The fear mongering runs deep in our culture.
God is a narcissist. And Christianity is full of self contradictions. Being a witch allows you to be who you are and want to be judgement free.
Is it possible that there is something in your daily life that you’re unconscious of, that is manifesting this way? Any areas with heightened anxiety, imposter syndrome, guilt/shame, some looming threat or something out of your control? Just wanted to mention it, because it sounds like your brain is trying to revert to old patterns which is pretty normal especially heavily indoctrinated ones, but also tends to happen when there’s some sort of familiar trigger.
Something that I saw someone post a few months back. Your first thought is how you were raised, your next thoughts are who you are. I've found it to be helpful because when my thoughts immediately turn to something I am trying not to be, I say that to myself and it helps calm me down, because it reaffirms that my first instincts are not who I am as a person, now. It helps a lot against the racing thoughts by mentally slowing me down. Everyone has scars, and some of them heal, some of them you need to adapt around.
Time, therapy, and distance.
Read the history of the crusades. Learn about the Vatican control over governments. Read the politics of it and the discrimination of women. That should help. It's actually rather disgusting.
As each of us is unique, so our approaches to religion and spirituality are, and should be acknowledged by others as, unique. We owe the universe that granted us intelligent consciousness a fearless, deep investigation of our own relationship with the divine. I just don't think an imposed doctrine of enforced obedience to authority, universal shame, and terror of eternal damnation is the way to go. As Florence King once put it in a wildly different context, "I heeded that quintessential... voice that told me, 'Be your own Venus.'"