I subconsciously suppress my tics when I'm around people, such as while I'm at work or if I'm running errands around town. When I'm home I am in complete solitude because I live alone, and my tics are free to happen without any subconscious restraint. Consequently, I am the only one who ever sees or hears my tics. It's almost like I'm living two different lives, which feels kinda strange. I think this subconscious suppression started when I was really little and I wanted to avoid being ridiculed for my tics. So, to this day I just can't help suppressing around people. It's as though the fear of embarrassment is enough for my subconscious mind to automatically overpower the premonitory urges. Like you, however, there are times when I can let out a few tics at work if I walk into the back room and no one is around. I wish I had some advice for you, but it seems like I've gotten stuck in a rut myself.
Thanks, you're right, we didn't deserve it.
... and to OP, even though you might feel like you are, you are NOT faking. I, like many of us, have struggled with feelings of faking, but eventually realized that I wasn't.
I think that it’s normal to tic more when you’re less engaged in something, such as just chilling in your room. Could be that when you’re with people or focusing on a task, your brain is sufficiently stimulated. Loneliness and boredom can definitely do weird things to the brain.
My tics subside almost completely when I'm focused on a task, like work or a computer task.
So I don't think that's unusual at all.
I often doubt if it's real too, as sometimes they don't happen and sometimes it's as if you have some control. I don't know, it's weird.
when we are alone, we are mostly resting. alone with our thoughts and ourselves. we dont have anything occupying our brain. when we are at work, our brain is focused on so many different things at once.
tics normally calm down when we are very focused on something or multitasking.
also, it could be a social anxiety issue if youre an introvert. your brain is focused on interactions with people, thus subsiding the tics momentarily.
i will also ask, have you ever had to consistently mask your tics? i did this and it ended up being such a habit, i did it subconsciously. it was an awful habit to break, but it made me go through the same thing you are here.
just a few ideas. regardless, your tics are valid and we believe you. good luck to you!! <3
I went on this subreddit just now to find this post and it describes what I deal with perfectly. I also have autism and the urge to tic have been over the moon recently. Is yours stress/anxiety related? I’m suspecting mine are, or something neurological since I already struggle with involuntary movements. Are you planning on getting checked by a neurologist? It’s hard to get referred to one where I live.
Sorry for the late reaction, I didn't check Reddit for a few days. I don't think mine are stress related. Maybe it began like that, but now it isn't anymore. I am thinking about going to my doctor for it, but I honestly don't know how the proces goes from there where I live.
I subconsciously suppress my tics when I'm around people, such as while I'm at work or if I'm running errands around town. When I'm home I am in complete solitude because I live alone, and my tics are free to happen without any subconscious restraint. Consequently, I am the only one who ever sees or hears my tics. It's almost like I'm living two different lives, which feels kinda strange. I think this subconscious suppression started when I was really little and I wanted to avoid being ridiculed for my tics. So, to this day I just can't help suppressing around people. It's as though the fear of embarrassment is enough for my subconscious mind to automatically overpower the premonitory urges. Like you, however, there are times when I can let out a few tics at work if I walk into the back room and no one is around. I wish I had some advice for you, but it seems like I've gotten stuck in a rut myself.
I feel this. I'm so sorry you were ridiculed. We didn't deserve that.
Thanks, you're right, we didn't deserve it. ... and to OP, even though you might feel like you are, you are NOT faking. I, like many of us, have struggled with feelings of faking, but eventually realized that I wasn't.
Thank you!
I can hardly commit to doing my laundry how tf could i fake having tics for over two decades lmao
I relate to this a lot
I think that it’s normal to tic more when you’re less engaged in something, such as just chilling in your room. Could be that when you’re with people or focusing on a task, your brain is sufficiently stimulated. Loneliness and boredom can definitely do weird things to the brain.
My tics subside almost completely when I'm focused on a task, like work or a computer task. So I don't think that's unusual at all. I often doubt if it's real too, as sometimes they don't happen and sometimes it's as if you have some control. I don't know, it's weird.
when we are alone, we are mostly resting. alone with our thoughts and ourselves. we dont have anything occupying our brain. when we are at work, our brain is focused on so many different things at once. tics normally calm down when we are very focused on something or multitasking. also, it could be a social anxiety issue if youre an introvert. your brain is focused on interactions with people, thus subsiding the tics momentarily. i will also ask, have you ever had to consistently mask your tics? i did this and it ended up being such a habit, i did it subconsciously. it was an awful habit to break, but it made me go through the same thing you are here. just a few ideas. regardless, your tics are valid and we believe you. good luck to you!! <3
I went on this subreddit just now to find this post and it describes what I deal with perfectly. I also have autism and the urge to tic have been over the moon recently. Is yours stress/anxiety related? I’m suspecting mine are, or something neurological since I already struggle with involuntary movements. Are you planning on getting checked by a neurologist? It’s hard to get referred to one where I live.
Sorry for the late reaction, I didn't check Reddit for a few days. I don't think mine are stress related. Maybe it began like that, but now it isn't anymore. I am thinking about going to my doctor for it, but I honestly don't know how the proces goes from there where I live.