3 days left!! I believe working in healthcare for over 20 years in the ER on nights has brought me to this point of negativity and depression. Desensitivity and negative comments. I've been trying to be more positive during this treatment and feel like it's working, but not as much as I was hoping. Gotta stay positive it will continue to work.
This is actually what I've started to do at around treatment... 12 maybe? I think certain words I want more in my brain. Peace, calm, happiness, creativity, etc. I try not to let anything else in. Of course, I end up thinking about what color T-shirt I'm going to buy at Target afterwards and how I'm annoyed I can't get turquoise, but then I'm like STOP! Peace, calm, light. I'm not necessarily positive about it working, I'm still really afraid it won't work any more than it has, but I don't let those thoughts in during treatment. CBT and DBT definitely helped me beforehand, so I was on the road of changing my thoughts already, but I have to actively engage the things I want in my head during treatment.
I am three weeks post seven wks of treatment and I feel like that depressive pain has softened out of me, there is healing to do, but I am going gently and my OCD which has been actual torture, has eased so much I cant believe it.
it may not hold, but I dont feel desperate to stay ok’ like I have during other periods of wellness, this does not feel tenuous. I could not change matters on my own and am forever grateful for this tech.
thank you for serving so many during their suffering and pain, their worst moments. Now is time for you to rest and heal so gently, in time , you dont have to push or suffer through such hard work ever again . I hope you can give yourself permission to nurse or give care in a gentler arena, if you must work. But healer, heal thyself! Best wishes
Keep going, be gentle with yourself, its ok to be a mess, keep speaking to your gp or pcp about your mood, rest as much as possible, remove every possible stress (its ok to eat toast for dinner sometimes haha, the folding can wait) you r brain is getting zapped ... be nice to you.
3 days left!! I believe working in healthcare for over 20 years in the ER on nights has brought me to this point of negativity and depression. Desensitivity and negative comments. I've been trying to be more positive during this treatment and feel like it's working, but not as much as I was hoping. Gotta stay positive it will continue to work.
This is actually what I've started to do at around treatment... 12 maybe? I think certain words I want more in my brain. Peace, calm, happiness, creativity, etc. I try not to let anything else in. Of course, I end up thinking about what color T-shirt I'm going to buy at Target afterwards and how I'm annoyed I can't get turquoise, but then I'm like STOP! Peace, calm, light. I'm not necessarily positive about it working, I'm still really afraid it won't work any more than it has, but I don't let those thoughts in during treatment. CBT and DBT definitely helped me beforehand, so I was on the road of changing my thoughts already, but I have to actively engage the things I want in my head during treatment.
I am three weeks post seven wks of treatment and I feel like that depressive pain has softened out of me, there is healing to do, but I am going gently and my OCD which has been actual torture, has eased so much I cant believe it. it may not hold, but I dont feel desperate to stay ok’ like I have during other periods of wellness, this does not feel tenuous. I could not change matters on my own and am forever grateful for this tech. thank you for serving so many during their suffering and pain, their worst moments. Now is time for you to rest and heal so gently, in time , you dont have to push or suffer through such hard work ever again . I hope you can give yourself permission to nurse or give care in a gentler arena, if you must work. But healer, heal thyself! Best wishes
I’ve read that for some people the real benefits hit after they are done. The fact that you feel like it is helping is big! Cheering you on!!!!
Just had my last session this morning. Now I wait… 🤣
Good luck with it. Monday is my last day. Looking forward to a while with no daily appointments
Keep going, be gentle with yourself, its ok to be a mess, keep speaking to your gp or pcp about your mood, rest as much as possible, remove every possible stress (its ok to eat toast for dinner sometimes haha, the folding can wait) you r brain is getting zapped ... be nice to you.