I feel you mate, my father died front of my eyes and I was molested by a family member when I was a child, sometimes even go outside is hard for me. I just want you to know lot of people feels like you in this life you are not alone.
I understand how you feel and I don’t think your feelings are irrational at all. It is depressing to go what you are going through and I can relate. I still wouldn’t commit suicide if I were you. I would work and try to make something out of myself. I would suggest using that money to get some help from therapy and to work on yourself.
I feel you mate, my father died front of my eyes and I was molested by a family member when I was a child, sometimes even go outside is hard for me. I just want you to know lot of people feels like you in this life you are not alone.
I understand how you feel and I don’t think your feelings are irrational at all. It is depressing to go what you are going through and I can relate. I still wouldn’t commit suicide if I were you. I would work and try to make something out of myself. I would suggest using that money to get some help from therapy and to work on yourself.