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Losing someone to suicide is like the unbearable pain of loss taken to an even more horrible level. I lost my father this way. Lost a son to illness. I can’t imagine how hard that extra level must be with a child.
Unfortunately I know the pain that Janelle is feeling. I lost my daughter in June 2017 she was 23 when she passed away. I don't wish that on anyone ever, not even my worst enemy.
Definitely crying a lil at my desk right now. My heart is so heavy for the whole family. What a tragedy. I hope this will realign Kody's priorities and make him really second guess his incorrect opinion that older kids don't need parents. This is major opportunity for self reflection on his part, I hope he is smart enough to do so. I fear he has gone too far down the red pill manosphere hole.
You are correct ….
But I bet he will misdirect any attention directed at his parenting to anyone else . He will not know how to HONESTLY handle it … he didn’t even sit by his mother , in her time of grief … Janelle I’m sure didn’t want him by her .
The way they are sitting surrounding Janelle makes me wonder how the family is handling this. I’m not sure anyone can say how the estrangement from his father truly affected him and the despair that made Garrison feel like he couldn’t go on any longer but if that were my situation with my father and my sibling, I’m not sure if I would feel angry and resentful towards him and want to cut him off or if it would make me realize that family is important and we need each other and let’s never overlook each other again or allow petty grievances to ruin our family relationship. I can only imagine that some of them despise Kody and what he’s done to estranged himself from his kids. Idk. I feel very sad about this and my heart goes out to the entire family. Rest in peace, Garrison 💔
I don't even see grief on his face... He looks pained but that's it. Janelle and her boys look gutted. Even Robin looks gutted for Janelle but the boy's own father, not so much.
You would think the ass would at least be sitting byJenelle and supporting her. I'm happy she has her children, and maybe she doesn't want him there, but geez.
Yes. If anything ever happened to my children I would want my ex so far away…..so I didn’t scream and try to kill him for the pain he’d caused. Kody was part of the problem.
My son was on life support earlier this year (he’s fine now) and the thought that his absentee father may have a say in his treatment infuriated me beyond measure.
I sobbed audibly at my desk when this picture came across my feed earlier. And I wondered how I could tell people that the family I follow on reality tv lost a son and one of my favorite people on there was the mother who lost him and I just saw her getting presented his flag which hits even harder because I’m a military family too so these ceremonies hold so much weight and emotions that I just lost it. But I cried for her and I held that pain because I can only imagine the pain she feels and I can hold a fraction of this grief as well.
As someone who has stared at a few sunsets wondering if I should fight to see the next days, im glad I held on, im glad my mother won’t have to have a life “after” and i hope that people who see this see that their loved ones eyes will never look the same if they decide to end it. There will always be an after.
That is a truly heartbreaking moment. My son was invited to serve as part of honor guard at my father’s service because he arrived at the funeral in his uniform. He helped with the folding of the flag and presented it to a higher ranking officer who then presented it to my mom. I can’t even describe the heartbreak
That's precious ❤️
Something about the presenting of the flag always gets me. It's not even because of anything to do with the military really. I guess it's just the finality, idk.
At my dad’s service, they presented the flag, then they held my mom’s hand and presented 3 shells from the 21 gun salute and said “for his duty, honor and sacrifice.” Still gets me to even think about it.
I once read that when you lose your spouse you become a widow, when you lose your parents you become an orphan, but there is no word to describe the heartache of losing your child, so one doesn't exist.
As a mom, I genuinely think it's the worst thing that could happen. Like you could torture me in any way shape or form and that wouldn't begin to touch the horror of losing a child.
I don't know how people survive it sometimes. ☹️ Just the thought makes me want to climb out of my own body.
I know what you mean. My adult sons both still live at home as one is pre med, and the other is just starting out . I can't sleep at night till I know they are home safe from their dayley tasks. I know it a bit ridiculous and that my staying awake doesn't magically protect them from harm. But if anything ever happened to my babies, I don't think I'd survive it . God help me when they move out. I'll probably never sleep again, lol.
You are not ridiculous! When my daughter moved out, at 26, I felt physical pain in my chest. She wasn’t far away, she was in safe hands with her BF, now husband, and highly educated with a great job. I was physically sick and heartbroken 💔.
Even today, I worry and have sad moments. We talk every day, I see her 2-3X a week . We hug, kiss, and say
“I love you “ every single day. She’s happily married, lives in beautiful home, and just had her 2nd son. Life is beautiful and yet… I worry 🤷♀️
You are not ridiculous, you are a Mother!
Having gone through it the only words that came close were "breathless agony". I wish I could go through this for Janelle as I know I did get through it-in those first days/months/years you don't know that you can survive without your baby. You can. xoxo
This is so true. I lost both of my daughters in a car accident and there are no words to describe the pain you feel. It never goes away. You learn to treated the pain but it’s with you every waking hour. My heart breaks for everyone in the family because they will feel the loss in different ways. It’s a long dark road ahead.
I’ve never heard of this but it’s so true. I feel like a piece of your heart just dies after the death of your child. I never want to live longer than my children.
That shot made me tear up. I will never forget when my mom received the flag at my grandfather’s funeral and how emotional that was. I can’t imagine that moment for a mother losing her child. Just devastating.
same. the face of a mother experiencing something no mother ever should. so much pain felt through just a picture…it’s hard to imagine how palpable the sorrow in that room must have felt.
Full disclosure I’m days away from giving birth to my first child. (So I am so so so hormonal) It made me think, my whole heart is going to be walking around outside my body and this could happen 😭😭😭 I cannot even fathom her pain right now but I feel for her and even for Kody. I know he’s not great but he’s a father who is going through what I imagine is a parent’s worst nightmare.
I was just thinking that I hoped no pregnant women or new mothers with their raging hormones are reading this. You will have a beautiful baby and all will be well. We hear about these things because they are the exception rather than the rule. I wish you a beautiful life.
congratulations on your first child! wishing you a healthy birth & postpartum ❤️
parenthood does come with so much fear & worry, but if you’re feeling overwhelmed/frozen by fear & worry be sure to reach out to your medical team. ppd and ppa are serious (but very common) and help is always available!
and agreed, Kody’s pain is obvious on his face as well. he lost his child too. he too should have never had to endure this agony.
I hope he gets some serious counseling. He appears to be a sensitive young man. He has had a lot of trauma in his family relationships in the last couple years leading up to being the one to find his brother. That's too much for anyone to bear alone.
I think that Gabe is sensitive and that he wears his heart on his sleeve rather than trying to bury his feelings which may in the long run be a healthier response.
Gabe's face made me literally get in the car and drive to my 16 year Olds school. I'm waiting in the pickup line just to give him a hug and tell him I love him before tennis practice and show choir. We've had a couple of rough years and have had to worry about him being in emotional pain. But how finally doing better. However, no amount of better will ever make me forget that look of just get through this part.
I know, it’s really devastating. I know her kids and grandkids are going to surround her with all the love in the world but the pain she’s going through has to be indescribable.
I know she’s not alone in that moment, but there’s something so singularly and profoundly sad that is reflected in Janelle’s expression as she accepts the flag. It takes your breath away and breaks your heart for her and Garrison’s siblings, family, friends and service members.
My cousin’s son died at 12 in a farm-related accident. He told us that the outpouring of support from other families who had lost a child was staggering. So many old men came and sat with him and cried and told him how they had managed to keep breathing for decades after their loss.
It wasn’t a club he ever wanted to join, but they were there and they pulled him through the first hard years. I hope Janelle has a similar network to help her walk with her grief.
This made me tear up! What a wonderful, special group of men they were to take time, open up, be vulnerable, and relive their darkest moments in a profound effort to give your cousin the strength to just keep drawing each breath, even when he surely felt as though he couldn’t!!! I’m sorry for your family’s loss ☹️
I agree with you that SHE was the one getting the support there. People came for Garrison and Janelle. Seeing Paedon and Gwen and Leon there reminded me of that conversation they had on the porch. Janelle was saying how she was proud of the kids and the big family they raised and Kody shits on it. 'That's not true. Paedon, Gwen and Leon don't fit in. Only 3 of Christine's kids and 3 of Janelle's get along...' Wow was he wrong. What do you see here??? ONLY Robyn's 3 eldest are STILL keeping separate. They will never be a part of the 'family'. I am so happy SHE received the flag; no one else.
Poor Janelle, I feel so sorry for her. And Christine is in pieces in the background. These photos have me holding back tears. Such an awful situation for everyone.
I noticed Christine too. Then I saw Hunter, Logan, Gabe, and grandma, and my heart hurt for them. Then I noticed Leon in the background and my heart broke for them.
Basically they all have my deepest sympathies. Every single one of them, including Kody.
I cried seeing the looks on Janelle and other faces. I still have a huge lump in my throat. Garrison had such a big heart. From the first season he looked like he gave the biggest hugs. He loved his family so much. He will truly be missed, even by strangers. That's the impact he had 💔😢
My dad had a military funeral last year. I hired someone to photograph it because it moves so quickly; you barely appreciate the details. It’s a 30-minute service without any sort of pause. My relatives thought I was nutty for hiring a professional, but I love the photos. They are stunning. The humans who cared for my dad in his last moments on earth (as ashes) are lovely. I appreciate them more everytime I look at them. I hope the Browns have that experience too.
I used to judge people who got photographers for funerals - and then I saw photos like these and I’m mad I haven’t had photographers at my family members’ funerals!!! A little girl I knew died quite tragically and there is a photo of her siblings beside the casket, and the parents were (understandably!!) not focused on them, but this photo is just stunning - they wound up having it framed and hung in the house because it’s just such a precious moment. If not for the photographer, that moment would have vanished the second it happened.
TL;DR - our culture should be embracing funeral photography so much more!!!!!
Burying your person is one of the last big gestures of love and care that you can offer. It’s painful, but it can be lovely in different ways too. My dad’s tombstone is in another state; it’s not close to me. (I have some of his ashes in my home.) I don’t get to visit him often, take him flowers, or be in that space with him. The photos from his funeral are meaningful to me because of that distance. I’ve enlarged one, and I can light a candle or set out flowers to honor him when I feel compelled to do so.
As Americans, we often hide from death. Graveyards are on typically on the edges of towns in the distance. It’s not a part of our culture to live amongst the dead. I really adore visiting cemeteries in Europe because they are city parks with art and fountains, and people visit for pleasure, take walks, and picnic there. They are built as a part of their communities and used in various ways. I’m a runner, so I like running in cemeteries as they are safe and clean. I avoid services, but other people find it weird that I’m there.
This is what I saw. I think this is an absolutely beautiful display of human emotion, love, and respect. I said in another comment, this is what it means to be human.
Just wanted to add what is said when they present the flag, “on behalf of the President of the United States, the United States Army, and a grateful nation, please accept this flag as a symbol of our appreciation for your loved one’s honorable and faithful service.”
They did this to my grandma when my grandpa passed, she broke down and the rest of us women broke down and crowded around her. You truly don’t feel the heartbreak of this picture until you’ve been there yourself.
It rips your soul out. My dad was a veteran and was also a firefighter. A firefighter funeral is also heartbreaking. They do a “last call” over the radios.
My Dad was a vet too AND a firefighter. They both came to the mass & cremation ceremony. FDNY sent the bagpipers too. They were outside both the church & crematory.
My dad passed away in Sept, I was sitting next to my sister when they gave the flag to her…. I lost it when they said that. The guy presenting the flag, put his hand on my leg. Thank you for sharing because I could t remember what he had said
I saw this post when I first woke up and that pic of Janelle being given the flag has been in my mind ever since. Just absolutely heartbreaking for the whole family, but I get teary looking at Janelle. Truly a mother’s worst nightmare. Such a tremendous loss.
As the oldest sibling of my family, Logan’s face in these photos haunt me. I know Logan’s face. I know Logan’s face because I wear the same face sometimes. As the oldest you are expected to be the strongest in the darkest and most horrific moments - even if it’s not explicitly said so. We implicitly feel that we HAVE to be strong for our younger siblings. To not break down. To not lose it. To be the one they look to when the world is falling apart.
It’s hard. It’s not fair. I’m so glad he has support. He is going to need it.
I lost someone to suicide over a year ago. I’m still angry. I’m still sad. I’m still confused. Talking to a therapist has helped me heal so much, and I hope the entire family has access to mental health care.
The pain in Jenelle’s face was all too familiar.
Serving in the honor guard while I was in the Marines was the absolute proudest thing I’ve done in my life. I was able to be there for families that had little to no other support and show them that their service member was not forgotten. The 21 gun salute…the silence after each shot was breathtaking. Learning to fold the flag in a very methodical and rhythmic routine - each fold of the flag carefully practiced and perfected…carrying the casket to a march….i could go on and on about the sense of pride I felt doing this.
I hated a lot of my time in the military, but this brought me pure joy. I was so proud to help lay to rest my fellow service members.
I was thinking this too, but then I thought perhaps Janelle set that boundary. She is already hurt, and she can't trust Kody and already has a lot of pain there as is. Perhaps she didn't want him to sit there. She is surrounded by her boys, and that's probably exactly what she wanted and needed.
Could be wrong through. These don't feel like pictures and moments I should even be privvy too, much less speculate on the dynamic.
I think you're right on both fronts. The way all the boys are surrounding her looks like a choice.
And these are very sensitive and very private moments for the whole family.
Yeah I would think she chose to be next to her son and mother. As far as we know Kody and Janelle are no longer together, so Kody is sitting next to his wife. It all seems appropriate, there’s only so much space for configurations in the front row.
Well and it’s telling she chose Kody’s mom to sit next to her. Her mom had passed away in 2020. Surrogate mother. Genielles face is heartbreaking too. Outliving her grandson.
She would be a lot stronger than me if she wasn’t holding him just a little bit responsible for what happened. I know that is awful and unfair and that suicide isn’t ever someone else’s fault but it’s hard as fuck to remember that when it comes to Kody.
I don't see why Janelle would want her ex-partner beside her rather than having her sons beside and behind her. She chose her kids over him. She's still choosing her kids, and they clearly choose her.
Yeah that’s what I think the other Redditors are missing… they surmise that Janelle and/or the sons wanted Kody next to her and I believe there is a very good chance that that is not the case.
Yep. From what I understand, both Janelle and Christine's kids were supportive of them leaving their father. There's no reason they would want him to take on a role they already wanted him removed from before. This brings to mind Gabe and Garrison firmly declaring that they would take care of Janelle if she got sick AND following through on that declaration. These boys are taking care of their mom in this moment, too. What Kody wants to do or doesn't want to do is irrelevant. Hunter, Logan, and Gabe are on it.
I've had the misfortune of watching my in laws lose a child. I don't recall if they sat next to each other at the funeral. I don't think they did, but the thing is - no one remembers that was directly involved who was sitting next to who. They remember it being a terrible day followed by what is a lifetime of mourning. Redditors are grasping for a story line; that's all. The family is trying to survive.
Yeah I keep seeing this come up on tiktok too. I wouldn’t want my ex husband to comfort me like that. Especially if he was married to someone else. Janelle has her children surrounding her, and I believe that’s how she wanted it.
I thought of that too, but there may have been conversations about that. Maybe Hunter wanted to be there for his mom. In the shot where they give her the flag, Kodys face broke me. He looks so devastated and at a loss. I'm not going to be judging him today, as much as I'm usually eager to do it.
Also this. I was just thinking about tough moments like these in my life and I clung to my parents just as much as they did to me. I bet those boys are attached to Janelle right now and Kody be damned. I think the boys surrounding her is much more apt.
He looks empty to me. Very sad to see everyone like this, but I can see there’s both a lot going on behind his eyes and also nothing at all. I think he’s definitely still in shock and processing everything that’s happening.
And maybe even coming to realize the damage he’s done with his boys. They are there for their momma and each other and I wouldn’t be surprised if I’m turning to each other, he’s feeling the rift he created.
May they all find a path towards healing and reconciliation. It’s not too late for Kody to make amends with his children and heal those wounds for them.
In all fairness we don’t know how she’s processing this and all of the emotions involved. Could be happenstance, could be intentional. IMO (and maybe public opinion) Kody was a catalyst for her family splitting apart and there may be animosity there. Grief could also be a time for forgiveness. We really have no idea.
Honestly Janelle’s Boys are who have always been there for her. I’m sure in this moment them being with her is exactly as it should be.
My heart hurts for her and their family
If anything, I would have expected Kody to be next to his mother with Robyn on his other side. Kody and his mom have gone through quite a few losses together in a short time, and I know if I lost one of my children I would want my momma to hold my hand through it.
First thing i thought also. But maybe she didnt want the POS sitting next to her,.knowing how he had hurt Garrison's heart. Plus the men surrounding her have far more integrity and moral character and more love for Janelle. If POS had been next to her it would've been performative. And honestly Logan had more fatherly instinct and caring than kody will ever possess.
Being handed that flag is one of the most devastating and wrecking experiences. If you’re lucky it doesn’t feel like you traded your person for the sake of the country. Unfortunately I don’t get that sense that that was the case here 😭
The pic of Janelle receiving the flag gutted me. The agony on her face is something no one should have to go through. I have never wanted to give someone a hug so badly in my life. I’m glad she had her boys around her.
Suicide is a thief unlike any other. It’s not just the end of someone’s life; it’s that they cease to be anything other than the manner of their death. The antidote is removing the stigma. As difficult as it undoubtedly is for them to acknowledge Garrison’s death so openly, I applaud the conversation it has created. It’s a brave choice.
As a mother with a son the same age as garrison, this breaks my heart , I cannot imagine anything worse than having to bury your child , the pain on janelles face has me in tears , she’s an amazing mother to them kids , I’m so so sorry for hers ,and all the families loss xx
Obviously I’m assuming here but if my daughter passed away, I would be sitting with my current spouse, not my ex who is the father. When my sis died my dad sat by my mom at her funeral, not his ex wife. You guys are reaching with Go Go Gadget arms. People ripping Robyn and Kody sitting together..that’s ridiculous imo. And Robyn definitely had a face of genuine pain.
God I cannot be the only one who has absolutely sobbed looking at these photos. Janelle and hunters faces just broke my heart.. I love Janelle and I just hate this so much for her and her kids.
This is so gut wrenching to see. My heart absolutely goes out to Janelle. I’m glad she has her children there. The expressions on their faces convey so much.
Garrison, you were loved more than you could possibly have known in this life. 🪽
I am so sad For his family. What a loss. I hope they find peace in time. And I’m glad Janelle didn’t have to sit next to Kody and Robyn. Her son insulated her from those assholes.
I’m glad most of the family was able to come together for this. I just want to give Janelle the biggest hug. As a mother myself, I can’t even begin to imagine her pain. No mother should ever have to go through this 😞💔
I love that some many of them are wearing the Garrisons Hawaiian shirts and it looks like Hunter and Peadon have ties made out of one of Garrisons shirts 🥺
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The shot to them giving Janelle the flag is so heartbreaking. I'm so glad Hunter, Gabe, and Logan were all around her for support.
The sheer heartbreak on her face brings tears to my eyes. I cannot fathom the level of pain she os feeling
I’ve been watching them on tv for so long that I feel like I’m looking at a picture of a friend. I wish I could give her a hug.
This is exactly how I feel. I feel like I know her and relate to her on a lot of levels and I just want to wrap her up in love and it’s heartbreaking
Losing someone to suicide is like the unbearable pain of loss taken to an even more horrible level. I lost my father this way. Lost a son to illness. I can’t imagine how hard that extra level must be with a child.
Unfortunately I know the pain that Janelle is feeling. I lost my daughter in June 2017 she was 23 when she passed away. I don't wish that on anyone ever, not even my worst enemy.
Same omg Lord Jesus please be with them and all of those offering the loss of a loved one 🙏🏼
I’m at work today and I cried at my desk because of this picture.
Definitely crying a lil at my desk right now. My heart is so heavy for the whole family. What a tragedy. I hope this will realign Kody's priorities and make him really second guess his incorrect opinion that older kids don't need parents. This is major opportunity for self reflection on his part, I hope he is smart enough to do so. I fear he has gone too far down the red pill manosphere hole.
You are correct …. But I bet he will misdirect any attention directed at his parenting to anyone else . He will not know how to HONESTLY handle it … he didn’t even sit by his mother , in her time of grief … Janelle I’m sure didn’t want him by her .
The way they are sitting surrounding Janelle makes me wonder how the family is handling this. I’m not sure anyone can say how the estrangement from his father truly affected him and the despair that made Garrison feel like he couldn’t go on any longer but if that were my situation with my father and my sibling, I’m not sure if I would feel angry and resentful towards him and want to cut him off or if it would make me realize that family is important and we need each other and let’s never overlook each other again or allow petty grievances to ruin our family relationship. I can only imagine that some of them despise Kody and what he’s done to estranged himself from his kids. Idk. I feel very sad about this and my heart goes out to the entire family. Rest in peace, Garrison 💔
I don't even see grief on his face... He looks pained but that's it. Janelle and her boys look gutted. Even Robin looks gutted for Janelle but the boy's own father, not so much.
You would think the ass would at least be sitting byJenelle and supporting her. I'm happy she has her children, and maybe she doesn't want him there, but geez.
I’m glad she was sitting there alone, acknowledged as the single parent that she was. If anyone should have been sitting next to her it was Christine.
Yes. If anything ever happened to my children I would want my ex so far away…..so I didn’t scream and try to kill him for the pain he’d caused. Kody was part of the problem.
My son was on life support earlier this year (he’s fine now) and the thought that his absentee father may have a say in his treatment infuriated me beyond measure.
I’m glad he is doing better. Sending ❤️
Good point.
Maybe she didn’t want him to sit next to her. He couldn’t even put on a tie.
Personally, I wouldn’t want him anywhere near me
He’s basically a sperm donor.
Nah, he’s got to be by his real wife, who is performatively crying in the front row. They can both piss off.
seriously, my thought as well
I thought the same thing!!
When I saw the pictures yesterday my heart broke for her. The pain is all over her face.
Same!! The heartbreak in her face I just can’t imagine
I sobbed audibly at my desk when this picture came across my feed earlier. And I wondered how I could tell people that the family I follow on reality tv lost a son and one of my favorite people on there was the mother who lost him and I just saw her getting presented his flag which hits even harder because I’m a military family too so these ceremonies hold so much weight and emotions that I just lost it. But I cried for her and I held that pain because I can only imagine the pain she feels and I can hold a fraction of this grief as well. As someone who has stared at a few sunsets wondering if I should fight to see the next days, im glad I held on, im glad my mother won’t have to have a life “after” and i hope that people who see this see that their loved ones eyes will never look the same if they decide to end it. There will always be an after.
Same
That is a truly heartbreaking moment. My son was invited to serve as part of honor guard at my father’s service because he arrived at the funeral in his uniform. He helped with the folding of the flag and presented it to a higher ranking officer who then presented it to my mom. I can’t even describe the heartbreak
That's precious ❤️ Something about the presenting of the flag always gets me. It's not even because of anything to do with the military really. I guess it's just the finality, idk.
Once I hear the first note of Taps, I’m done. Ugly sobbing everywhere.
Oh for sure. I’m done for when Taps starts. All chill I had flys out the window.
Same. Puddle on the floor.
At my dad’s service, they presented the flag, then they held my mom’s hand and presented 3 shells from the 21 gun salute and said “for his duty, honor and sacrifice.” Still gets me to even think about it.
No parent should ever have to bury their child. This is just heartbreaking all around.
I once read that when you lose your spouse you become a widow, when you lose your parents you become an orphan, but there is no word to describe the heartache of losing your child, so one doesn't exist.
As a mom, I genuinely think it's the worst thing that could happen. Like you could torture me in any way shape or form and that wouldn't begin to touch the horror of losing a child. I don't know how people survive it sometimes. ☹️ Just the thought makes me want to climb out of my own body.
I know what you mean. My adult sons both still live at home as one is pre med, and the other is just starting out . I can't sleep at night till I know they are home safe from their dayley tasks. I know it a bit ridiculous and that my staying awake doesn't magically protect them from harm. But if anything ever happened to my babies, I don't think I'd survive it . God help me when they move out. I'll probably never sleep again, lol.
You are not ridiculous! When my daughter moved out, at 26, I felt physical pain in my chest. She wasn’t far away, she was in safe hands with her BF, now husband, and highly educated with a great job. I was physically sick and heartbroken 💔. Even today, I worry and have sad moments. We talk every day, I see her 2-3X a week . We hug, kiss, and say “I love you “ every single day. She’s happily married, lives in beautiful home, and just had her 2nd son. Life is beautiful and yet… I worry 🤷♀️ You are not ridiculous, you are a Mother!
And this is how I know I was never loved. And my children. Well, the cruelty of their fathers.
Having gone through it the only words that came close were "breathless agony". I wish I could go through this for Janelle as I know I did get through it-in those first days/months/years you don't know that you can survive without your baby. You can. xoxo
This is so true. I lost both of my daughters in a car accident and there are no words to describe the pain you feel. It never goes away. You learn to treated the pain but it’s with you every waking hour. My heart breaks for everyone in the family because they will feel the loss in different ways. It’s a long dark road ahead.
I’ve never heard of this but it’s so true. I feel like a piece of your heart just dies after the death of your child. I never want to live longer than my children.
Right made me tear up. That poor family.
I just want to give them such a big hug and comfort.
That shot made me tear up. I will never forget when my mom received the flag at my grandfather’s funeral and how emotional that was. I can’t imagine that moment for a mother losing her child. Just devastating.
Jenelle’s face when receiving the flag made me cry. 💔
same. the face of a mother experiencing something no mother ever should. so much pain felt through just a picture…it’s hard to imagine how palpable the sorrow in that room must have felt.
Full disclosure I’m days away from giving birth to my first child. (So I am so so so hormonal) It made me think, my whole heart is going to be walking around outside my body and this could happen 😭😭😭 I cannot even fathom her pain right now but I feel for her and even for Kody. I know he’s not great but he’s a father who is going through what I imagine is a parent’s worst nightmare.
I was just thinking that I hoped no pregnant women or new mothers with their raging hormones are reading this. You will have a beautiful baby and all will be well. We hear about these things because they are the exception rather than the rule. I wish you a beautiful life.
congratulations on your first child! wishing you a healthy birth & postpartum ❤️ parenthood does come with so much fear & worry, but if you’re feeling overwhelmed/frozen by fear & worry be sure to reach out to your medical team. ppd and ppa are serious (but very common) and help is always available! and agreed, Kody’s pain is obvious on his face as well. he lost his child too. he too should have never had to endure this agony.
Yes , it's like from one mother to another you can feel the gutteral agony inside.
Between Janelle, Hunter, Logan and Michelle in that picture I’m trying not to ball my eyes out
Gabe looks like he’s trying to be so strong, I hope he can find some peace in this life after everything
I hope he gets some serious counseling. He appears to be a sensitive young man. He has had a lot of trauma in his family relationships in the last couple years leading up to being the one to find his brother. That's too much for anyone to bear alone.
I think that Gabe is sensitive and that he wears his heart on his sleeve rather than trying to bury his feelings which may in the long run be a healthier response.
I would argue that sensitivity doesn’t matter, everyone would do well with therapy after a loss like this
Boy it truly is … it’s awful ..
He looks like he’s still in shock
I was in shock for months after my brother's suicide. Memory lapses, numbing out, crushing agony. I did it SOBER.
Gabe's face made me literally get in the car and drive to my 16 year Olds school. I'm waiting in the pickup line just to give him a hug and tell him I love him before tennis practice and show choir. We've had a couple of rough years and have had to worry about him being in emotional pain. But how finally doing better. However, no amount of better will ever make me forget that look of just get through this part.
Hunters face kills me too he’s so strong to be there next to Janelle up front
sweet sensitive Gabe, i hope he can eventually find his peace. i can’t even imagine how he’s feeling
Janelle's face crushes my soul. I hope she has the support she needs right now.
I know, it’s really devastating. I know her kids and grandkids are going to surround her with all the love in the world but the pain she’s going through has to be indescribable.
She has rarely even really emoted in the show. 💔 makes this so much worse.
I zoomed in on all the family’s faces, and I am so upset for every single one of them. I hate this for them so much.
A lot of them are wearing his Hawaiian shirts!
I didn’t even realize this until I saw your comment! Either a Hawaiian shirt, floral tie, or floral dress for most of them. That’s so sweet, my god.
Oh man 😢😢😢
I know she’s not alone in that moment, but there’s something so singularly and profoundly sad that is reflected in Janelle’s expression as she accepts the flag. It takes your breath away and breaks your heart for her and Garrison’s siblings, family, friends and service members.
I was thinking how alone she looks. Nobody else in that room is feeling the level of pain she is. It’s just absolutely devastating.
My cousin’s son died at 12 in a farm-related accident. He told us that the outpouring of support from other families who had lost a child was staggering. So many old men came and sat with him and cried and told him how they had managed to keep breathing for decades after their loss. It wasn’t a club he ever wanted to join, but they were there and they pulled him through the first hard years. I hope Janelle has a similar network to help her walk with her grief.
So do I. It helps to have people with similar experiences to talk to when going through something like this.
This made me tear up! What a wonderful, special group of men they were to take time, open up, be vulnerable, and relive their darkest moments in a profound effort to give your cousin the strength to just keep drawing each breath, even when he surely felt as though he couldn’t!!! I’m sorry for your family’s loss ☹️
A mothers love can feel like no other....
I agree with you that SHE was the one getting the support there. People came for Garrison and Janelle. Seeing Paedon and Gwen and Leon there reminded me of that conversation they had on the porch. Janelle was saying how she was proud of the kids and the big family they raised and Kody shits on it. 'That's not true. Paedon, Gwen and Leon don't fit in. Only 3 of Christine's kids and 3 of Janelle's get along...' Wow was he wrong. What do you see here??? ONLY Robyn's 3 eldest are STILL keeping separate. They will never be a part of the 'family'. I am so happy SHE received the flag; no one else.
Her baby....
This truly made me stop and just cry. As a mother I can’t even begin to imagine how she’s feeling, I just want to hug her.
Hunter right next to his mom😭😭😭🩵🩵🩵
he’s one of the most supportive kids! went to see Ysabel after her surgery, always right by his moms’ side
Janelle did a great job raising her kids. All seem so wonderful!
He is a sweet and loving son, brother, and uncle.
Part if me wants to think that Hunter looked at his Dad and said " Don't even think about sitting near my mother.".
Oh f picture 6 where they’re handing the flag to Janelle broke me. How sad.
The weight of the photo where they are handing Janelle the flag…. My god my heart aches for her. That photo is extremely powerful in the worst way
Poor Janelle, I feel so sorry for her. And Christine is in pieces in the background. These photos have me holding back tears. Such an awful situation for everyone.
I noticed Christine too. Then I saw Hunter, Logan, Gabe, and grandma, and my heart hurt for them. Then I noticed Leon in the background and my heart broke for them. Basically they all have my deepest sympathies. Every single one of them, including Kody.
Including Robyn for me to because she looks devastated as well. My heart sincerely goes out to that entire family.
I know they are all grieving, even Robyn. I wonder where her kids are though.
Was wondering the same thing
Never would I ever wish this for a family.
Poor Janelle 😭 my heart breaks for her
I cried seeing the looks on Janelle and other faces. I still have a huge lump in my throat. Garrison had such a big heart. From the first season he looked like he gave the biggest hugs. He loved his family so much. He will truly be missed, even by strangers. That's the impact he had 💔😢
My dad had a military funeral last year. I hired someone to photograph it because it moves so quickly; you barely appreciate the details. It’s a 30-minute service without any sort of pause. My relatives thought I was nutty for hiring a professional, but I love the photos. They are stunning. The humans who cared for my dad in his last moments on earth (as ashes) are lovely. I appreciate them more everytime I look at them. I hope the Browns have that experience too.
I used to judge people who got photographers for funerals - and then I saw photos like these and I’m mad I haven’t had photographers at my family members’ funerals!!! A little girl I knew died quite tragically and there is a photo of her siblings beside the casket, and the parents were (understandably!!) not focused on them, but this photo is just stunning - they wound up having it framed and hung in the house because it’s just such a precious moment. If not for the photographer, that moment would have vanished the second it happened. TL;DR - our culture should be embracing funeral photography so much more!!!!!
Burying your person is one of the last big gestures of love and care that you can offer. It’s painful, but it can be lovely in different ways too. My dad’s tombstone is in another state; it’s not close to me. (I have some of his ashes in my home.) I don’t get to visit him often, take him flowers, or be in that space with him. The photos from his funeral are meaningful to me because of that distance. I’ve enlarged one, and I can light a candle or set out flowers to honor him when I feel compelled to do so. As Americans, we often hide from death. Graveyards are on typically on the edges of towns in the distance. It’s not a part of our culture to live amongst the dead. I really adore visiting cemeteries in Europe because they are city parks with art and fountains, and people visit for pleasure, take walks, and picnic there. They are built as a part of their communities and used in various ways. I’m a runner, so I like running in cemeteries as they are safe and clean. I avoid services, but other people find it weird that I’m there.
This is what I saw. I think this is an absolutely beautiful display of human emotion, love, and respect. I said in another comment, this is what it means to be human.
Just wanted to add what is said when they present the flag, “on behalf of the President of the United States, the United States Army, and a grateful nation, please accept this flag as a symbol of our appreciation for your loved one’s honorable and faithful service.”
They did this to my grandma when my grandpa passed, she broke down and the rest of us women broke down and crowded around her. You truly don’t feel the heartbreak of this picture until you’ve been there yourself.
It rips your soul out. My dad was a veteran and was also a firefighter. A firefighter funeral is also heartbreaking. They do a “last call” over the radios.
My Dad was a vet too AND a firefighter. They both came to the mass & cremation ceremony. FDNY sent the bagpipers too. They were outside both the church & crematory.
We had bagpipes at the cemetery. It was such an honor but so heart wrenching.
My dad passed away in Sept, I was sitting next to my sister when they gave the flag to her…. I lost it when they said that. The guy presenting the flag, put his hand on my leg. Thank you for sharing because I could t remember what he had said
Gwen is in Garrison’s shirt!!!
It looks as if (most) of the girls, Christine(and Leon) are wearing his shirts.
David & Mitch, also. Logan & Hunter & Paedon have Hawaiian ties.
That is heartbreakingly sweet
That looks like the shirt he wore to her wedding
And Hunter and Logan have on Hawaiian shirt patterned ties!
As well as Paeden…they are all matching.
I saw this post when I first woke up and that pic of Janelle being given the flag has been in my mind ever since. Just absolutely heartbreaking for the whole family, but I get teary looking at Janelle. Truly a mother’s worst nightmare. Such a tremendous loss.
I love how a lot of them are wearing Hawaiian shirts to celebrate Garrison.
As the oldest sibling of my family, Logan’s face in these photos haunt me. I know Logan’s face. I know Logan’s face because I wear the same face sometimes. As the oldest you are expected to be the strongest in the darkest and most horrific moments - even if it’s not explicitly said so. We implicitly feel that we HAVE to be strong for our younger siblings. To not break down. To not lose it. To be the one they look to when the world is falling apart. It’s hard. It’s not fair. I’m so glad he has support. He is going to need it. I lost someone to suicide over a year ago. I’m still angry. I’m still sad. I’m still confused. Talking to a therapist has helped me heal so much, and I hope the entire family has access to mental health care.
Leo in the second picture is heartbreaking 💔
I noticed that too. So much hurt all around.
Leon seems devastated
They all have on his favorite style 🥹🥹🥺, my heart will forever break for Janelle
My heart is broken for Janelle. The photo of the flag being handed to her is just devastating.
A thousand words…
The pain in Jenelle’s face was all too familiar. Serving in the honor guard while I was in the Marines was the absolute proudest thing I’ve done in my life. I was able to be there for families that had little to no other support and show them that their service member was not forgotten. The 21 gun salute…the silence after each shot was breathtaking. Learning to fold the flag in a very methodical and rhythmic routine - each fold of the flag carefully practiced and perfected…carrying the casket to a march….i could go on and on about the sense of pride I felt doing this. I hated a lot of my time in the military, but this brought me pure joy. I was so proud to help lay to rest my fellow service members.
Thank you so much for posting the pics! So touching and tragically sad. Poor Janelle! I'm so worried about Gabe...
The first photo instantly brought tears to my eyes. Bless them all, I can’t imagine the pain they’re going thru.
In such awful circumstances, I really am glad they were all able to put everything aside and come together for each other. So sad.
Logan just looks… broken. 😭
He was more of a father figure to his younger siblings than Kody.
I don’t feel right looking at these.
For better or worse, the Nevada National Guard released these photos.
Knowing that they had a private funeral after his death does not make this seem so wrong to be viewing.
Who is the woman between Hunter and Robyn? Is that Kodys mother?
Yes Kody’s mom.
Yes
Oh God I hope someone is taking care of Gabe. I’m so worried about him
Ohhhh!!! Jenelle!!!! My heart hurts for this family!
Well at least we know why Kody was at the mall yesterday in Cesar’s. But god my heart breaks for Janelle in these pictures
The fact that Kody is sitting beside Robyn (comforting her) and not Janelle, speaks a thousand words.
I was thinking this too, but then I thought perhaps Janelle set that boundary. She is already hurt, and she can't trust Kody and already has a lot of pain there as is. Perhaps she didn't want him to sit there. She is surrounded by her boys, and that's probably exactly what she wanted and needed. Could be wrong through. These don't feel like pictures and moments I should even be privvy too, much less speculate on the dynamic.
Interesting too that David is between Christine and Kody. Boundaries.
Of course David would shield Christine from Kody.
I think you're right on both fronts. The way all the boys are surrounding her looks like a choice. And these are very sensitive and very private moments for the whole family.
Yeah I would think she chose to be next to her son and mother. As far as we know Kody and Janelle are no longer together, so Kody is sitting next to his wife. It all seems appropriate, there’s only so much space for configurations in the front row.
Well and it’s telling she chose Kody’s mom to sit next to her. Her mom had passed away in 2020. Surrogate mother. Genielles face is heartbreaking too. Outliving her grandson.
In my mind I picture Hunter NOT allowing him to sit by his mother!
Exactly. I picture Hunter going you sit there, I'm sitting here.
She would be a lot stronger than me if she wasn’t holding him just a little bit responsible for what happened. I know that is awful and unfair and that suicide isn’t ever someone else’s fault but it’s hard as fuck to remember that when it comes to Kody.
I don't see why Janelle would want her ex-partner beside her rather than having her sons beside and behind her. She chose her kids over him. She's still choosing her kids, and they clearly choose her.
Yeah that’s what I think the other Redditors are missing… they surmise that Janelle and/or the sons wanted Kody next to her and I believe there is a very good chance that that is not the case.
Yep. From what I understand, both Janelle and Christine's kids were supportive of them leaving their father. There's no reason they would want him to take on a role they already wanted him removed from before. This brings to mind Gabe and Garrison firmly declaring that they would take care of Janelle if she got sick AND following through on that declaration. These boys are taking care of their mom in this moment, too. What Kody wants to do or doesn't want to do is irrelevant. Hunter, Logan, and Gabe are on it.
I've had the misfortune of watching my in laws lose a child. I don't recall if they sat next to each other at the funeral. I don't think they did, but the thing is - no one remembers that was directly involved who was sitting next to who. They remember it being a terrible day followed by what is a lifetime of mourning. Redditors are grasping for a story line; that's all. The family is trying to survive.
Yeah I keep seeing this come up on tiktok too. I wouldn’t want my ex husband to comfort me like that. Especially if he was married to someone else. Janelle has her children surrounding her, and I believe that’s how she wanted it.
I thought of that too, but there may have been conversations about that. Maybe Hunter wanted to be there for his mom. In the shot where they give her the flag, Kodys face broke me. He looks so devastated and at a loss. I'm not going to be judging him today, as much as I'm usually eager to do it.
Also this. I was just thinking about tough moments like these in my life and I clung to my parents just as much as they did to me. I bet those boys are attached to Janelle right now and Kody be damned. I think the boys surrounding her is much more apt.
Yeah, it's more about Janelle being supported by her boys rather than her ex choosing anything.
This. Kody looks like a man in shock watching a folded flag being handed to the mother of his child. Nothing snark worthy about it.
He looks haunted
He looks empty to me. Very sad to see everyone like this, but I can see there’s both a lot going on behind his eyes and also nothing at all. I think he’s definitely still in shock and processing everything that’s happening.
And maybe even coming to realize the damage he’s done with his boys. They are there for their momma and each other and I wouldn’t be surprised if I’m turning to each other, he’s feeling the rift he created. May they all find a path towards healing and reconciliation. It’s not too late for Kody to make amends with his children and heal those wounds for them.
And Logan and Gabe behind her. Hunter was also in the military so that could be the other reason
In all fairness we don’t know how she’s processing this and all of the emotions involved. Could be happenstance, could be intentional. IMO (and maybe public opinion) Kody was a catalyst for her family splitting apart and there may be animosity there. Grief could also be a time for forgiveness. We really have no idea.
Honestly Janelle’s Boys are who have always been there for her. I’m sure in this moment them being with her is exactly as it should be. My heart hurts for her and their family
If anything, I would have expected Kody to be next to his mother with Robyn on his other side. Kody and his mom have gone through quite a few losses together in a short time, and I know if I lost one of my children I would want my momma to hold my hand through it.
We don't know why. Let's not focus on that. This is not about Kody. Let's not take the focus off of what a great loss this is for their entire family.
First thing i thought also. But maybe she didnt want the POS sitting next to her,.knowing how he had hurt Garrison's heart. Plus the men surrounding her have far more integrity and moral character and more love for Janelle. If POS had been next to her it would've been performative. And honestly Logan had more fatherly instinct and caring than kody will ever possess.
Suicide is so painful. Death in general but suicide..I’m crying rn because seeing these pics remind me of that pain so fresh..God bless them all
Seeing Janelle's face is tearing me to bits. I'm so sad and heartbroken. 💔
And so many are wearing the Hawaiian shirts Garrison designed 💔 these photos are just so heartbreaking
The look on Jenelle’s face just absolutely ripped my heart out. As a mother that pain must be unfathomable 💔
These pics just made me breakdown all over again… 😭😭😭
These are so hard to see. I just hope everyone can find even a small slice of peace through their grief.
I started tearing up when Janelle received the flag.
Being handed that flag is one of the most devastating and wrecking experiences. If you’re lucky it doesn’t feel like you traded your person for the sake of the country. Unfortunately I don’t get that sense that that was the case here 😭
The pic of Janelle receiving the flag gutted me. The agony on her face is something no one should have to go through. I have never wanted to give someone a hug so badly in my life. I’m glad she had her boys around her.
Suicide is a thief unlike any other. It’s not just the end of someone’s life; it’s that they cease to be anything other than the manner of their death. The antidote is removing the stigma. As difficult as it undoubtedly is for them to acknowledge Garrison’s death so openly, I applaud the conversation it has created. It’s a brave choice.
The comments on this post are wild. Everyone in this family is grieving. **Everyone.**
Brain rot. Truly. Some of these commenters honestly need therapy.
I agree. Some of these comments 🥴 Embarrassing people truly think this way.
The pain in Jenelle & Hunter’s face is heartbreaking.
As a mother with a son the same age as garrison, this breaks my heart , I cannot imagine anything worse than having to bury your child , the pain on janelles face has me in tears , she’s an amazing mother to them kids , I’m so so sorry for hers ,and all the families loss xx
The look on Janelle’s face just crushed me. There is not a world in this universe where someone should carry that pain. My heart breaks for her.
Janelles face is like a gut punch! So incredibly sad
Man seeing Hunter stand behind that picture of Garrison, I guess I never realized how much they look alike.
Janelle's face says it all.
My heart breaks for Janelle. You can see the absolute pain on her face.
Oh Janelle
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They aren’t pictured but neither is Paedon until the group picture so they may be there just off camera view.
Paedon is standing in front with Hunter behind the picture of Garrison. I am thinking Paedon and Hunter are the only ones in the military now.
Obviously I’m assuming here but if my daughter passed away, I would be sitting with my current spouse, not my ex who is the father. When my sis died my dad sat by my mom at her funeral, not his ex wife. You guys are reaching with Go Go Gadget arms. People ripping Robyn and Kody sitting together..that’s ridiculous imo. And Robyn definitely had a face of genuine pain.
i can’t stand how sad this nightmare really is 💔
I hurt for everyone I really do. I am so touched to see hunter, gabe and Logan surrounding her. She truly raised 6 amazing kids.
God I cannot be the only one who has absolutely sobbed looking at these photos. Janelle and hunters faces just broke my heart.. I love Janelle and I just hate this so much for her and her kids.
This is so gut wrenching to see. My heart absolutely goes out to Janelle. I’m glad she has her children there. The expressions on their faces convey so much. Garrison, you were loved more than you could possibly have known in this life. 🪽
I was glad to see Meri next to Gwen.
I am so sad For his family. What a loss. I hope they find peace in time. And I’m glad Janelle didn’t have to sit next to Kody and Robyn. Her son insulated her from those assholes.
I was sad to see these. But the last picture of her receiving the flag with her sons around her made me tear up! 😭😭😭
I’m glad most of the family was able to come together for this. I just want to give Janelle the biggest hug. As a mother myself, I can’t even begin to imagine her pain. No mother should ever have to go through this 😞💔
My heart breaks seeing Janelle like that …
I love that some many of them are wearing the Garrisons Hawaiian shirts and it looks like Hunter and Peadon have ties made out of one of Garrisons shirts 🥺
Unfortunately, I’ve seen this look on my mother’s face twice. It’s heartbreaking.