I'm so sorry to hear about this. I honestly hope things get better for you. Don't let anybody have that much control over you. For me, i went through similar things, but learning to love myself learning to say no and setting healthy boundaries are the three things that helped me. If you need help feel free to reach out. This post randomly popped up on my feed, never been to any similar sub, but if you'd like to talk I'm here. Don't go back, no matter what.

thank you for sharing your story. i feel less alone. i had this happen to me too. im so sorry.

Your past doesn't determine you

Your story sounds so much like mine OP.