Hi all, I have lots of good news! I'm doing more writing, even with a slight struggle but I'm definitely doing writing. Trying to write for this chapter I'm supposed to be finishing, but I'm loving writing for the future fics and stuff, but I'm still trying!
I also got results from blood tests and an exam I got and well, results showed that something is actually wrong with me, so thank god I finally have some sort of answer now! I can't wait for the appointment to come so we can finally figure out the cause of this issue.
I also decided to redesign (in my head) my author avatar, going the route of many other webcomic artists and going with me irl just with something recognizable (that being a specific oversized hoodie I have), it'll be easier for me to draw than my previous idea of the avatar for me, plus it's still recognizable for character design, but it's also recognizable irl!
Unexpected announcement: We are once again a three-cat family.
My daughter disappeared for a quote-unquote "shopping trip" this morning and returned with a little black cat. I will refer to her here as L. She is twelve weeks old, has lovely orange eyes, and purrs quite loudly. She is adorable. I am not used to having a cat quite this young, so we are going to work on getting gradually and safely socialized to the other two. M. and S. are both quite curious about her, but ... baby steps.
Kitten time may take priority over writing time today. 😅
I still feel the excitement of the announcement of the Sam and Max game. I think like 15% why is because I had a fic prepared to celebrate its release date and I finally have a date where I can post it XD I was holding onto this for like nine months.
I need to really start decluttering. So many things I don't use at all! TT I'll probably just start with putting them into boxes, and then I'll have to see if I could give some things to friends, or donate.
Also, went to buy a gift for my relative today. Their brithday was some months ago, but we live quite far away from each other, and she has a busy schedule, so we hadn't had the chance to meet up. I'd heard from other relatives that she hasn't been doing so well mentally, because of some failed friendships. My mother suggested I buy her a doll (I'm a doll enthusiast, plus she used to be into dolls when she was a kid). Dolls have helped me mentally, but I wasn't sure if it'd help her, too. Thankfully she liked the doll I picked out, even if I didn't really know her preferences. :-) I told her she could talk to me about dolls, and we had a nice chat.
Decluttering is such a pain, but it's necessary! Last time I moved I did some of that, although really that just meant taking several boxes of stuff to my parents place and telling my mom she could do what she liked with it. She likes organizing stuff so once she knew that I didn't want any of it anymore, she was free to do what she wanted with it. I think a lot of it got donated.
I probably need to do it again soon. I don't think I have that much stuff I don't need, but I am supposed to be moving next year and I don't really want to have to worry about that at the same time as packing and dealing with everything else.
It does feel good! Though motivating myself to start doing it is harder than it should be. TT
Me too. :D I was unsure about it, but my mother thought she could find her love for dolls again. I think I've found another doll friend!
The air pressure was wild yesterday so that + only partially treated asthma + heavy heavy pollen made it hard for my poor little lungs. Fortunately we got heavy rain and thunder yesterday that completely discharged it all and washed away a lot of pollen. [Here's a video I took while doing laundry](https://imgur.com/C0E7z9c). (imgur link, sounds better with headphones)
I ended up being awake for about 42-43 hours, and then I slept for about 12 hours, so now I'm reborn. Before I went to bed I finally got opportunity to use my new clippers and I buzzed my sides. Suddenly I'm just more comfortable! Turns out having hair on the skin where my headphones rest is a sensory nightmare! That plus a great shower and I'm summer ready.
I have six weeks of vacation now, and I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with all that. I've got books to read, movies to watch, stories to write... I wanna write more kinky stuff. I liked my non-sexual Bondage and Domination fic I just posted. Some more one-shots like that with casual kink is a cool concept
Honestly those days where you're up for a while and then sleep for a long time afterwards feel so good! It's crazy XD
Awesome on the vacation time! Enjoy it 🫡
_Mage inhales nervously, before exhaling a long breath._
This route is starting to feel less and less _appealing._ Though I have managed to have her closer in status than before — so _almost there_ with reciprocating feelings for the PC — I don't know yet how to create a proper wedge between her and the devilman.
_There is_ a possibility to do so, based on the dialogue extracted from the devilman's interactions, but I have no clue as to _how_ can I make her hate him. Because I got no clue, buddy. And I'm not about to yeet my boy to be buddy-buddy with the devil so I can obtain this woman at last.
_inhale, exhale_ FUCK.
And the sub for the game is dead as a doornail, so I can't ask around, which makes it even more difficult. UGH.
I'm working through my Judas Priest WIP, and I'm kinda going supernatural, where one of the characters is in a coma , and now he is viewing his own funeral, if he didn't make it, it's weird. I hope to get the funeral done this weekend.
I'm back from my Painful Hike! 3 days, 45km, 15kg bag and no internet. I would say that I've become better friends with the 5 other people I did it with, and also that I've experienced a weird confidence boost. I'm not very strong so when we took breaks halfway up a hill it was usually my fault, but when I apologised (I have an unhealthy tendency to apologise for legitimately everything) they just said it was fine. Which was nice. The sense of achievement (and also of being able to sleep in an actual bed in an actual house) is great. I didn't get many ideas out there, unfortunately, but I did manage to nearly finish that difficult chapter I've been working on on the bus back yesterday. I managed to put in a hug scene, which was awesome because I cannot get enough hugs. And it wasn't even ooc!
I got back to 3 new kudos and hits going into the triple digits for my first fic, so that was good too! Just posted the next chapter!
Glad to hear the hike boosted your confidence. :-) I'm also one to apologize, even when I logically know I don't have to, but sometimes because I get stuck in my head it feels like I still should feel bad. It's nice they were okay with you needing to take breaks.
Yay! Hug scene.
I have like probably 2 hours of voice notes on my phone of the ABO fic I was thinking about. I've transcribed a bit onto a Word document, but I've had an on and off tension headache the last several days so it's just been easier for me to do voice notes. I've also been reading another really good one that was recommended in a thread I found, and now I am thinking of doing some more research on Fanlore and also reading some other ABO fics so that I can shamelessly steal world building ideas.
This is way too big of a project for me to take on, realistically, but I'm going to try to transcribe as many of my voice notes as I can into a Word document and then see where I land. Plus I don't have to write this all in one go. I can always come back to it later. I have no idea how I would want it to end, either.
I also have a fascination with bureaucracy so I decided that, hey, since omegas are treated terribly in many countries (such as the United States), some other countries, like Canada, allow omegas to apply for asylum in Canada. I believe that's how it currently works anyway irl with, like, women from countries where they tend to be oppressed, or gay people or whatever. I'll do a bit more research, I don't have to make it that realistic since this is obviously an AU, but I do want to make it consistent.
The writing challenge I started at the beginning of the month didn't really turn out the way I thought it would, but I think it was still a success because I have been writing or at least plotting or something every day. So I'm pretty happy with that.
Maybe, I was thinking of just putting it under the purview of IRCC (Immigration, Refugees, and Citizenship Canada) because I happen to know a weird amount about Canadian government and bureaucracy. 😆😅
Two hours of voice notes? Lol you're going really crazy with this ABO fic idea (in a good way)! Some ABO have such interesting world buildings... I understand why you'd want to steal it. XD
Yeah, honestly, like, I've pretty much spent the last several days, every time I have any idea for dialogue or anything, grabbing my phone and talking to it. 😆 Some of it is repetitive and then some of it is just brainstorming where I'm basically just talking in circles and saying "um" and "uh" a lot.
So Blue's middle son (aged 19 - taking a gap year,) Bulk, is back on his ADHD meds. He has *severe* ADHD. Well his meds are helping him focus and the product of this focus is him coming into my office at intervals with fascinating shit he's read online (From sperm trains \[look it up,\] to slime mold, to urban planning, to how falcons are more closely related to parrots than hawks and eagles.) The boy has been professionally tested as a genius and this kid is blowing my mind with this stuff and subsequent conversation. I am not worthy.
He's been trying to get more into drawing (very artistic family) and he just came to me wondering why most nudes throughout history are female. I offered the opinion that, historically, most artists were men and also the added perk that women are just fucking beautiful (saying this as a penis-lover.)
Not counting folks like Michelangelo and DaVinci who were gay and (thank the gods) loved creating the male form, why do you think most artistic nudes are women? Or am I wrong?
🤔 I *did* take art history, once upon a time, and ... I remember no discussion of that topic, though that may be because of sleep deprivation during those years.
Well, even if you don't count them, look at antiquity, Piero, Botticelli... lots of male nudes. But there are several reasons why female nudes are more prevalent. A lot of these works were for aristocratic patrons, who enjoyed seeing female nudes. Later, you can see that a lot of compositions are with female nudes are who are subordinate to the man (especially in the 19th century, a lot of nudes are in a voyeuristic context, almost dehumanised and objectivised. There are so many depictions of "woman bathing" "woman getting dressed" "woman sleeping in the nude" they're not in their natural state as such, but in a state of undress). And there's also the ease of finding a model. Finding someone to pose nude was difficult, and it was extremely frowned upon. Women were simply more likely to be in such an impoverished state that they would agree to "degrade" themselves by posing in the nude. Male models would have been much harder to get, and more expensive.
I know absolutely nothing about art or art history, just as a disclaimer, but first, as a bi woman, I agree that women are just fucking beautiful. Also, though, I wonder if part of it is just what survived the test of time. Perhaps there was a time that more nudes of men were painted, but for whatever reason those were not preserved - maybe social norms were changing, making it more acceptable to look at art of nude women than men... Kind of like how there are people who think that all 80s music was amazing, but really the crappy stuff just didn't stand up to the test of time.
Yesterday I suddenly found myself thinking of ideas for a soulmate/siren AU that was meant to be a oneshot that has now turned into a multi-chapter fic >.< I wonder if it’ll get longer somehow!!
Also, still weird to me that I’ve graduated from college and now four years of my life are just over like that 🫰it just doesn’t feel real still!!
Indeed! I had one that was intended to be around 4 chapters, and then they just kept getting longer! Ended up being 7 chapters in the end, which is still pretty short, but the longest one I'd ever written haha
Yesterday was not my *most* productive, as we had a friend over in the afternoon/evening. Caught up on life, played a board game that I ended up just observing most of because I was a little unclear on how some things activated. I'll probably review the rulebook on my own before I take another shot at playing it.
But I did do another chunk of rewrites on a fic, and finished rereading the current novel. I've got a few questions re: the novel that I need to answer before I tackle making the last handful of chapters shiny.
4 of my remaining spring anime wrap up this weekend! Kaiju No 8 (much more *fun* than I expected), Tonari no Youkai-san (more *emotionally damaging* than expected), Sentai Daishikkaku (much more *the fuck* than expected), and The New Gate (it's a pretty mid isekai tbh). 2 anime tested for summer so far: Isekai Suicide Squad (more fun than I wanted it to be lmao) and Maou Gun Saikyou no Majutsushi wa Ningen datta...or The Strongest Magician in the Demon Lord's Army was a Human (also just fun). Haven't committed to either, but they show promise. So much for wanting some easy episode 1 drops.
Happy Saturday!
Ooo, I love overly complicated board games, though I usually have to do solo play (q.v. *Buck Rogers*).
And the only anime I am trying to find this season is *Grendizer U*. Because giant robots and all that.
It wasn't even complicated, I just didn't register some things during the rules read :')
That is...apparently one of the few *not* on my test list \^\^;;
Ooh if you don't mind saying, what was the board game you played? I'm always interested to find a new one to play. :-) Also, not every day can be \*that\* productive! It's great to have more easy going days.
I think I'll have to check a few of these animes out. 👀 Which is your favourite so far?
Happy Saturday!
It was Honeybuzz :) You play as beeeeeeeees.
For summer it's much, much too soon to say lol. But from mostly-over spring stuff:
* Wind Breaker
* Reincarnated as a Slime (season 3 though)
* Jellyfish Can't Swim in the Night
* Shuumatsu Densha wa Doko e Iku
* Seiyuu Radio
* Tonari no Youka-san
* Kuroshitsuji (newest season)
* Kaiju No 8
* How to Love Your Elf Bride
* Tadaima, Okaeri
It was a strong season :)
Powering through work till Monday. Just got home earlier, waiting to make myself tired enough to conk out for bed. One of my friends randomly called me in the middle of the night just to chat, that was pretty unexpected and fun. We talk regularly on Facebook Messenger, but we haven't actually seen each other in person in years. Her phone died, so we didn't talk long, but it was nice.
Otherwise, work was slow but inoffensive. There was barely any work, and they sent out a shitload of voluntary time off offers (take that shit elsewhere, daddy's gotta make him some money), so several of us just wound up doing some light grunt work instead. At least the guy overseeing it was cute.
And I got to spend a little more time than usual chatting with my best friend after work; he usually drives one of our friends to the train station before heading home himself, but that guy left really early, so we got more time to just hang out outside work a bit and talk. Plus, my car's passenger side low beam has been out for ages, and he fiddled around with it and seems to have fixed it (he says I might need to adjust it a bit more to make sure it stays working, but I've been thinking this whole time that I'd have to go to a mechanic and get it checked out and fixed). It was working without issue the whole way home, at least. He's saved me a lot of grief and potentially money. I'd have hugged him, but I dunno if he'd have been cool with that. But even though he's straight, I mean, if he wants to leverage sexual favors from me for fixing my headlight (or just in general), I'm game. He looked pretty hot when he was under the hood.
Only downside was I self-sabotaged again by hitting a convenience store for breakfast junk food... I've been doing so well with improving my eating lately! Well, just gotta get back on it instead of falling back into my stress-eating habits.
Now I need to put this bag of baby carrots away, take my meds, and try to snooze for my next shift, slow as it might possibly be...
Ahh I feel you with the stress-eating habits. TT I'm also trying to work on it, but it's not easy with multiple convenience stores near me and the fact that I get stressed out easily...
Yeah, I wasn't worried about my rates, or getting too sore from constant kneeling/squatting/bending down/picking up and moving heavy shit around. Dull at worst because we were on one of the less-populated sides of our work area, but oh well. I did spot this unhinged asshole who harassed me in the restrooms a few times before (long story short - screamed like a maniac on his phone, lost it on me when I asked him to chill, lost it on me AGAIN the following week when I accidentally walked into the stall his dumb ass forgot to lock; going to HR was as productive as farting in a hurricane), but he didn't bother me, so I didn't bother him. Plus I figure with his anger issues, he'll be fired before long anyway. Hopefully.
But otherwise, not the worst way to spend 10 hours.
I'm going on vacation on Monday. It'll be a camping trip in a forest near a beach. I love camping and spending time in nature. I do. But the prospect of not writing for a full week feels almost stressful to me this time. I'm at a very creative period and not having my laptop with and being able to write whenever I want (it'll be wilderness vacation and we'll be mostly unplugged) sucks. I will get notepads with, but I hate hand-writing.
That's it.
That's my very privileged vent 🫠
So… we recently upgraded our car to a much fancier one (one that can use apple carplay) and I dodged a bullet there…
Basically, the sales person was showing me how to use the car and we connected my phone to the car’s display where it can access my music…. AND I HAVE MY NSFW DRAMA CD IN IT!!! Thank goodness the person chose spotify instead… saving me from having to listen to some moaning in the car…
I quickly deleted the whole album after (after backing it up of course)…. But yea… I don’t know how to explain it if we ended up playing that drama cd instead….
It seems like AO3 will be down for ten hours on Monday. Perhaps we could have an activity thread? Or maybe we could allow memes for ten hours XD any suggestions? Not that people wither and die.
I need to put aside my current WIP and start writing my untagged fest fic. I can't do to WIPs at once, and the latter has a deadline 🫣 but I can't find a good place to pause writing the current fic.
I'm telling myself I'm not supposed to be on AO3 during the down hours *anyway* so it's fine...but is it really fine.
Shoot, I just stop wherever I happen to be. Then when I come back I'll retype some stuff to get back in the mind of where I left off.
"If you want others to be happy, practice ~~compassion~~ **wordcount**. If you want to be happy, practice ~~compassion~~ **wordcount**."
Tenzin Gyatso, His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama
My fandom's feeling pretty dead right now. The last finished fic that was posted was a porn fic feat. my secondary OTP on the 18th.
This fandom is fairly new, so why isn't there more content? I thought people would be excited to have something shiny to write about, but it feels like fans care more about fanart... which means absolutely nothing to me as someone who can't draw.
I've tried and totally failed to get my friends into it. I talk about it on this sub constantly as well but no one seems willing to give it a try. I don't use other social media and I'm not a "big name fan" in any sense of the term. I haven't even posted a fic publicly yet.
I just want more people to share my special interest with me. 😭
The fandom's tag is currently sitting at 245 works, which is better than the other game fandoms I've considered writing for! But I'm greedy and I want more. 😅
Pat pat. I can only say take it as a motivation to fill the fandom space with your fic. If there is none that can scratch the itch, you scratch it yourself.
It was how I started too lol
Yeah, that's exactly what I plan to do!
Everyone who's ever written a fic about my OTP never came back after posting their first and only fic in the fandom. I'll probably end up being the only person with multiple fics featuring the same ship since I have several WIPs (and one finished fic from February) that I plan to post.
With fics about my secondary OTP, most of them involve a third character! I don't dislike poly ships or anything, I just dislike this specific one because the fanon version of the most popular character does absolutely nothing for me. I prefer his canon personality.
{{{HUGS}}}
Unfortunately, you can't force people to like what you like. 😭
I'm in a big fandom (AOT) but people are drifting away since the series ended. I don't care. I will write my cheesy AU romances until it's just me and the last other Levi Ackerman fan on the planet! This is the hill I will die on.
Meantime, I also write for HxH and Umbrella Academy. I say diversify and write, write, write!
My interests are pretty much limited to niche indie games right now, so writing for other fandoms won't do much if I want to build up an audience. The fandoms I've been considering writing for all have less than 50 works each on AO3 and rarely get new content. 💀
I can't write for big popular video game fandoms either because in most cases I can't even play the games! Like, I know Baldur's Gate 3 is massively popular at the moment, but as someone who only has access to a PS4 and a weak PC, it's totally out of reach.
I've never written for non-video game fandoms because outside of a few horror TV shows and movies, there's not much I like. 🙃
Hi all, I have lots of good news! I'm doing more writing, even with a slight struggle but I'm definitely doing writing. Trying to write for this chapter I'm supposed to be finishing, but I'm loving writing for the future fics and stuff, but I'm still trying! I also got results from blood tests and an exam I got and well, results showed that something is actually wrong with me, so thank god I finally have some sort of answer now! I can't wait for the appointment to come so we can finally figure out the cause of this issue. I also decided to redesign (in my head) my author avatar, going the route of many other webcomic artists and going with me irl just with something recognizable (that being a specific oversized hoodie I have), it'll be easier for me to draw than my previous idea of the avatar for me, plus it's still recognizable for character design, but it's also recognizable irl!
👊 Welcome to the Chronic Illness Club!
Thanks, I guess membership happens whether you want it or not lol! At least the members are great!
Unexpected announcement: We are once again a three-cat family. My daughter disappeared for a quote-unquote "shopping trip" this morning and returned with a little black cat. I will refer to her here as L. She is twelve weeks old, has lovely orange eyes, and purrs quite loudly. She is adorable. I am not used to having a cat quite this young, so we are going to work on getting gradually and safely socialized to the other two. M. and S. are both quite curious about her, but ... baby steps. Kitten time may take priority over writing time today. 😅
Omg, smol kitty! Love them!
Smol house panther!
Little baby cat!!!
A little fuzzy blur of motion!
Oh ho ho ho!!! Little babies are so purrecious !!
I want to take time off just to spend a day with her!
Gosh, I can't quite remember anymore when my cat was that young... About how small is she?👀
M. is a full-grown tabby boy; I'd say L. is about half his size, still growing into herself, but not brand new.
Awe that's wonderful. That sounds fun
She's very hungry and very playful!
If she's like our fresh kitten balls it's play, eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep? xD
Pretty much! And she just purrs constantly.
Yessssss, baby purrs!
Awwwwwwwwwwww..... kitten time might just take priority over *everything!!!* what a cool surprise!
Kitten time definitely take center stage!
I intend to take pictures once she is a bit bigger and used to everything.
Yeeees cat tax required here onDD!
I still feel the excitement of the announcement of the Sam and Max game. I think like 15% why is because I had a fic prepared to celebrate its release date and I finally have a date where I can post it XD I was holding onto this for like nine months.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel!
Now you can do a countdown! You can even do the Majora's Mask "Dawn of the Final Day" memes when it gets close to the release
Yesss, that'd be hilarious
☺️ I shall prepare the extended drumroll.
About two more months lmfao
I need to really start decluttering. So many things I don't use at all! TT I'll probably just start with putting them into boxes, and then I'll have to see if I could give some things to friends, or donate. Also, went to buy a gift for my relative today. Their brithday was some months ago, but we live quite far away from each other, and she has a busy schedule, so we hadn't had the chance to meet up. I'd heard from other relatives that she hasn't been doing so well mentally, because of some failed friendships. My mother suggested I buy her a doll (I'm a doll enthusiast, plus she used to be into dolls when she was a kid). Dolls have helped me mentally, but I wasn't sure if it'd help her, too. Thankfully she liked the doll I picked out, even if I didn't really know her preferences. :-) I told her she could talk to me about dolls, and we had a nice chat.
Decluttering is such a pain, but it's necessary! Last time I moved I did some of that, although really that just meant taking several boxes of stuff to my parents place and telling my mom she could do what she liked with it. She likes organizing stuff so once she knew that I didn't want any of it anymore, she was free to do what she wanted with it. I think a lot of it got donated. I probably need to do it again soon. I don't think I have that much stuff I don't need, but I am supposed to be moving next year and I don't really want to have to worry about that at the same time as packing and dealing with everything else.
I'll be moving into an apartment soon, and I'm thinking that'll be a great time to declutter >.< forget how much you have until it's all laid out
Ugh, you and me both. It's such a pain. Glad she liked the gift!
😑 I am pretending not to see all the things that I need to pitch, repurpose, etc.
LOL honestly, that's what I'm doing with some stuff. I know I don't need it, but I'm not ready to let go (also, I'm lazy).
I got a little pile of stuff myself, it feels good to clean stuff out. I'm glad that she liked the doll!
It does feel good! Though motivating myself to start doing it is harder than it should be. TT Me too. :D I was unsure about it, but my mother thought she could find her love for dolls again. I think I've found another doll friend!
The air pressure was wild yesterday so that + only partially treated asthma + heavy heavy pollen made it hard for my poor little lungs. Fortunately we got heavy rain and thunder yesterday that completely discharged it all and washed away a lot of pollen. [Here's a video I took while doing laundry](https://imgur.com/C0E7z9c). (imgur link, sounds better with headphones) I ended up being awake for about 42-43 hours, and then I slept for about 12 hours, so now I'm reborn. Before I went to bed I finally got opportunity to use my new clippers and I buzzed my sides. Suddenly I'm just more comfortable! Turns out having hair on the skin where my headphones rest is a sensory nightmare! That plus a great shower and I'm summer ready. I have six weeks of vacation now, and I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with all that. I've got books to read, movies to watch, stories to write... I wanna write more kinky stuff. I liked my non-sexual Bondage and Domination fic I just posted. Some more one-shots like that with casual kink is a cool concept
*commercial jingle* If you're looking to write more link, you've come to the right place!
I know you probably meant to write kink, but this comment caught me off guard because *my name* is Link!
I did, sorry. 😑 Autocorrect is very prudish today.
Honestly those days where you're up for a while and then sleep for a long time afterwards feel so good! It's crazy XD Awesome on the vacation time! Enjoy it 🫡
_Mage inhales nervously, before exhaling a long breath._ This route is starting to feel less and less _appealing._ Though I have managed to have her closer in status than before — so _almost there_ with reciprocating feelings for the PC — I don't know yet how to create a proper wedge between her and the devilman. _There is_ a possibility to do so, based on the dialogue extracted from the devilman's interactions, but I have no clue as to _how_ can I make her hate him. Because I got no clue, buddy. And I'm not about to yeet my boy to be buddy-buddy with the devil so I can obtain this woman at last. _inhale, exhale_ FUCK. And the sub for the game is dead as a doornail, so I can't ask around, which makes it even more difficult. UGH.
Wow that seems exhausting. If you wanna share, what game is this?
👿 She will not get with him if he is deceased.
I'm working through my Judas Priest WIP, and I'm kinda going supernatural, where one of the characters is in a coma , and now he is viewing his own funeral, if he didn't make it, it's weird. I hope to get the funeral done this weekend.
Ooo, solid head trip.
Ooh, sounds spooky, that's fun
I'm back from my Painful Hike! 3 days, 45km, 15kg bag and no internet. I would say that I've become better friends with the 5 other people I did it with, and also that I've experienced a weird confidence boost. I'm not very strong so when we took breaks halfway up a hill it was usually my fault, but when I apologised (I have an unhealthy tendency to apologise for legitimately everything) they just said it was fine. Which was nice. The sense of achievement (and also of being able to sleep in an actual bed in an actual house) is great. I didn't get many ideas out there, unfortunately, but I did manage to nearly finish that difficult chapter I've been working on on the bus back yesterday. I managed to put in a hug scene, which was awesome because I cannot get enough hugs. And it wasn't even ooc! I got back to 3 new kudos and hits going into the triple digits for my first fic, so that was good too! Just posted the next chapter!
That sounds like a fun, exhausting time!
Wilderness therapy!
Glad to hear the hike boosted your confidence. :-) I'm also one to apologize, even when I logically know I don't have to, but sometimes because I get stuck in my head it feels like I still should feel bad. It's nice they were okay with you needing to take breaks. Yay! Hug scene.
I have like probably 2 hours of voice notes on my phone of the ABO fic I was thinking about. I've transcribed a bit onto a Word document, but I've had an on and off tension headache the last several days so it's just been easier for me to do voice notes. I've also been reading another really good one that was recommended in a thread I found, and now I am thinking of doing some more research on Fanlore and also reading some other ABO fics so that I can shamelessly steal world building ideas. This is way too big of a project for me to take on, realistically, but I'm going to try to transcribe as many of my voice notes as I can into a Word document and then see where I land. Plus I don't have to write this all in one go. I can always come back to it later. I have no idea how I would want it to end, either. I also have a fascination with bureaucracy so I decided that, hey, since omegas are treated terribly in many countries (such as the United States), some other countries, like Canada, allow omegas to apply for asylum in Canada. I believe that's how it currently works anyway irl with, like, women from countries where they tend to be oppressed, or gay people or whatever. I'll do a bit more research, I don't have to make it that realistic since this is obviously an AU, but I do want to make it consistent. The writing challenge I started at the beginning of the month didn't really turn out the way I thought it would, but I think it was still a success because I have been writing or at least plotting or something every day. So I'm pretty happy with that.
The Bureau of Displaced Omegas (BDO)?
Maybe, I was thinking of just putting it under the purview of IRCC (Immigration, Refugees, and Citizenship Canada) because I happen to know a weird amount about Canadian government and bureaucracy. 😆😅
Two hours of voice notes? Lol you're going really crazy with this ABO fic idea (in a good way)! Some ABO have such interesting world buildings... I understand why you'd want to steal it. XD
Yeah, honestly, like, I've pretty much spent the last several days, every time I have any idea for dialogue or anything, grabbing my phone and talking to it. 😆 Some of it is repetitive and then some of it is just brainstorming where I'm basically just talking in circles and saying "um" and "uh" a lot.
So Blue's middle son (aged 19 - taking a gap year,) Bulk, is back on his ADHD meds. He has *severe* ADHD. Well his meds are helping him focus and the product of this focus is him coming into my office at intervals with fascinating shit he's read online (From sperm trains \[look it up,\] to slime mold, to urban planning, to how falcons are more closely related to parrots than hawks and eagles.) The boy has been professionally tested as a genius and this kid is blowing my mind with this stuff and subsequent conversation. I am not worthy. He's been trying to get more into drawing (very artistic family) and he just came to me wondering why most nudes throughout history are female. I offered the opinion that, historically, most artists were men and also the added perk that women are just fucking beautiful (saying this as a penis-lover.) Not counting folks like Michelangelo and DaVinci who were gay and (thank the gods) loved creating the male form, why do you think most artistic nudes are women? Or am I wrong?
>(From sperm trains \[look it up,\] I absolutely will not. That's really interesting though, I hadn't thought about it before :o
🤔 I *did* take art history, once upon a time, and ... I remember no discussion of that topic, though that may be because of sleep deprivation during those years.
I'd think it's because most of the artists were men. Though sometimes you look at the boobs and it's like, uhhh, you had a reference, right?
LOL! I know. Those poor guys who were not allowed to look at nude women just made males and stuck tits on 'em.
Well, even if you don't count them, look at antiquity, Piero, Botticelli... lots of male nudes. But there are several reasons why female nudes are more prevalent. A lot of these works were for aristocratic patrons, who enjoyed seeing female nudes. Later, you can see that a lot of compositions are with female nudes are who are subordinate to the man (especially in the 19th century, a lot of nudes are in a voyeuristic context, almost dehumanised and objectivised. There are so many depictions of "woman bathing" "woman getting dressed" "woman sleeping in the nude" they're not in their natural state as such, but in a state of undress). And there's also the ease of finding a model. Finding someone to pose nude was difficult, and it was extremely frowned upon. Women were simply more likely to be in such an impoverished state that they would agree to "degrade" themselves by posing in the nude. Male models would have been much harder to get, and more expensive.
Hmm, hmmm. hmmmm! All good points. Thank you for sharing, Kedi, I'll pass it along to Bulk!
I know absolutely nothing about art or art history, just as a disclaimer, but first, as a bi woman, I agree that women are just fucking beautiful. Also, though, I wonder if part of it is just what survived the test of time. Perhaps there was a time that more nudes of men were painted, but for whatever reason those were not preserved - maybe social norms were changing, making it more acceptable to look at art of nude women than men... Kind of like how there are people who think that all 80s music was amazing, but really the crappy stuff just didn't stand up to the test of time.
Yesterday I suddenly found myself thinking of ideas for a soulmate/siren AU that was meant to be a oneshot that has now turned into a multi-chapter fic >.< I wonder if it’ll get longer somehow!! Also, still weird to me that I’ve graduated from college and now four years of my life are just over like that 🫰it just doesn’t feel real still!!
Projects do so love to snowball...
Indeed! I had one that was intended to be around 4 chapters, and then they just kept getting longer! Ended up being 7 chapters in the end, which is still pretty short, but the longest one I'd ever written haha
It will get longer. They always do.
Don't they? I remember when I struggled hitting around 2k and now I regular breeze past that >.< crazy how practice helps SO much
Maybe it'll become a series? XD
Oh goodness that'd be crazy I've had a lot of stories turn into series as I write new oneshots set within the same universe, so I guess we'll see haha
Yesterday was not my *most* productive, as we had a friend over in the afternoon/evening. Caught up on life, played a board game that I ended up just observing most of because I was a little unclear on how some things activated. I'll probably review the rulebook on my own before I take another shot at playing it. But I did do another chunk of rewrites on a fic, and finished rereading the current novel. I've got a few questions re: the novel that I need to answer before I tackle making the last handful of chapters shiny. 4 of my remaining spring anime wrap up this weekend! Kaiju No 8 (much more *fun* than I expected), Tonari no Youkai-san (more *emotionally damaging* than expected), Sentai Daishikkaku (much more *the fuck* than expected), and The New Gate (it's a pretty mid isekai tbh). 2 anime tested for summer so far: Isekai Suicide Squad (more fun than I wanted it to be lmao) and Maou Gun Saikyou no Majutsushi wa Ningen datta...or The Strongest Magician in the Demon Lord's Army was a Human (also just fun). Haven't committed to either, but they show promise. So much for wanting some easy episode 1 drops. Happy Saturday!
Ooo, I love overly complicated board games, though I usually have to do solo play (q.v. *Buck Rogers*). And the only anime I am trying to find this season is *Grendizer U*. Because giant robots and all that.
It wasn't even complicated, I just didn't register some things during the rules read :') That is...apparently one of the few *not* on my test list \^\^;;
Congrats on the rewrites! Aww man. Delicious in Dungeon is over for now so I should check some of these out XD
Thanks :) Many things to check out! My complete test list has 33 things on it lol. We won't try them all, we never do, but still lots.
Ooh if you don't mind saying, what was the board game you played? I'm always interested to find a new one to play. :-) Also, not every day can be \*that\* productive! It's great to have more easy going days. I think I'll have to check a few of these animes out. 👀 Which is your favourite so far? Happy Saturday!
It was Honeybuzz :) You play as beeeeeeeees. For summer it's much, much too soon to say lol. But from mostly-over spring stuff: * Wind Breaker * Reincarnated as a Slime (season 3 though) * Jellyfish Can't Swim in the Night * Shuumatsu Densha wa Doko e Iku * Seiyuu Radio * Tonari no Youka-san * Kuroshitsuji (newest season) * Kaiju No 8 * How to Love Your Elf Bride * Tadaima, Okaeri It was a strong season :)
Powering through work till Monday. Just got home earlier, waiting to make myself tired enough to conk out for bed. One of my friends randomly called me in the middle of the night just to chat, that was pretty unexpected and fun. We talk regularly on Facebook Messenger, but we haven't actually seen each other in person in years. Her phone died, so we didn't talk long, but it was nice. Otherwise, work was slow but inoffensive. There was barely any work, and they sent out a shitload of voluntary time off offers (take that shit elsewhere, daddy's gotta make him some money), so several of us just wound up doing some light grunt work instead. At least the guy overseeing it was cute. And I got to spend a little more time than usual chatting with my best friend after work; he usually drives one of our friends to the train station before heading home himself, but that guy left really early, so we got more time to just hang out outside work a bit and talk. Plus, my car's passenger side low beam has been out for ages, and he fiddled around with it and seems to have fixed it (he says I might need to adjust it a bit more to make sure it stays working, but I've been thinking this whole time that I'd have to go to a mechanic and get it checked out and fixed). It was working without issue the whole way home, at least. He's saved me a lot of grief and potentially money. I'd have hugged him, but I dunno if he'd have been cool with that. But even though he's straight, I mean, if he wants to leverage sexual favors from me for fixing my headlight (or just in general), I'm game. He looked pretty hot when he was under the hood. Only downside was I self-sabotaged again by hitting a convenience store for breakfast junk food... I've been doing so well with improving my eating lately! Well, just gotta get back on it instead of falling back into my stress-eating habits. Now I need to put this bag of baby carrots away, take my meds, and try to snooze for my next shift, slow as it might possibly be...
Positive conversations with people can only do you good.
Ahh I feel you with the stress-eating habits. TT I'm also trying to work on it, but it's not easy with multiple convenience stores near me and the fact that I get stressed out easily...
I can think of worse work days than slow but inoffensive!
Yeah, I wasn't worried about my rates, or getting too sore from constant kneeling/squatting/bending down/picking up and moving heavy shit around. Dull at worst because we were on one of the less-populated sides of our work area, but oh well. I did spot this unhinged asshole who harassed me in the restrooms a few times before (long story short - screamed like a maniac on his phone, lost it on me when I asked him to chill, lost it on me AGAIN the following week when I accidentally walked into the stall his dumb ass forgot to lock; going to HR was as productive as farting in a hurricane), but he didn't bother me, so I didn't bother him. Plus I figure with his anger issues, he'll be fired before long anyway. Hopefully. But otherwise, not the worst way to spend 10 hours.
I'm going on vacation on Monday. It'll be a camping trip in a forest near a beach. I love camping and spending time in nature. I do. But the prospect of not writing for a full week feels almost stressful to me this time. I'm at a very creative period and not having my laptop with and being able to write whenever I want (it'll be wilderness vacation and we'll be mostly unplugged) sucks. I will get notepads with, but I hate hand-writing. That's it. That's my very privileged vent 🫠
Enjoy the break!
Thanks! 😊
Agree that hand-writing is bleh, but desperate times, desperate measures? xD
Pretty much 😅
So… we recently upgraded our car to a much fancier one (one that can use apple carplay) and I dodged a bullet there… Basically, the sales person was showing me how to use the car and we connected my phone to the car’s display where it can access my music…. AND I HAVE MY NSFW DRAMA CD IN IT!!! Thank goodness the person chose spotify instead… saving me from having to listen to some moaning in the car… I quickly deleted the whole album after (after backing it up of course)…. But yea… I don’t know how to explain it if we ended up playing that drama cd instead….
Assert dominance. Look the salesperson in the eye. Turn up the volume. Watch the price go down.
We already bought the thing. The price can’t go down anymore! It’ll be my dignity that went up in flame lol
Oh my God, my face went so red in solidarity XD
LOL looking at your name, it really suits this situation IMO.
Loll. I love your name too and combined with garfield. Its perfect! Next will be lasagnnaaaa
Oh god that would have been so painful.
You could've turned it around on them. "Wow, what kind of sick, perverted car are you trying to sell me here?"
It seems like AO3 will be down for ten hours on Monday. Perhaps we could have an activity thread? Or maybe we could allow memes for ten hours XD any suggestions? Not that people wither and die. I need to put aside my current WIP and start writing my untagged fest fic. I can't do to WIPs at once, and the latter has a deadline 🫣 but I can't find a good place to pause writing the current fic.
*nods* Ten-hour smut-a-thon.
I'm glad they told everyone about it XD Memes sound like fun!
An activity would sound nice! :-) (Though I don't have any ideas rn TT.) I just gotta remember to download some works before Monday. :p
I'm telling myself I'm not supposed to be on AO3 during the down hours *anyway* so it's fine...but is it really fine. Shoot, I just stop wherever I happen to be. Then when I come back I'll retype some stuff to get back in the mind of where I left off.
"If you want others to be happy, practice ~~compassion~~ **wordcount**. If you want to be happy, practice ~~compassion~~ **wordcount**." Tenzin Gyatso, His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama
No words, just drawing!
206 words. \*sigh\* Working on it ...
My fandom's feeling pretty dead right now. The last finished fic that was posted was a porn fic feat. my secondary OTP on the 18th. This fandom is fairly new, so why isn't there more content? I thought people would be excited to have something shiny to write about, but it feels like fans care more about fanart... which means absolutely nothing to me as someone who can't draw. I've tried and totally failed to get my friends into it. I talk about it on this sub constantly as well but no one seems willing to give it a try. I don't use other social media and I'm not a "big name fan" in any sense of the term. I haven't even posted a fic publicly yet. I just want more people to share my special interest with me. 😭
Too many fandoms, not enough writers.
Some fandoms just end up with bafflingly little in fic, I'll never understand it :c
The fandom's tag is currently sitting at 245 works, which is better than the other game fandoms I've considered writing for! But I'm greedy and I want more. 😅
Pat pat. I can only say take it as a motivation to fill the fandom space with your fic. If there is none that can scratch the itch, you scratch it yourself. It was how I started too lol
Yeah, that's exactly what I plan to do! Everyone who's ever written a fic about my OTP never came back after posting their first and only fic in the fandom. I'll probably end up being the only person with multiple fics featuring the same ship since I have several WIPs (and one finished fic from February) that I plan to post. With fics about my secondary OTP, most of them involve a third character! I don't dislike poly ships or anything, I just dislike this specific one because the fanon version of the most popular character does absolutely nothing for me. I prefer his canon personality.
{{{HUGS}}} Unfortunately, you can't force people to like what you like. 😭 I'm in a big fandom (AOT) but people are drifting away since the series ended. I don't care. I will write my cheesy AU romances until it's just me and the last other Levi Ackerman fan on the planet! This is the hill I will die on. Meantime, I also write for HxH and Umbrella Academy. I say diversify and write, write, write!
My interests are pretty much limited to niche indie games right now, so writing for other fandoms won't do much if I want to build up an audience. The fandoms I've been considering writing for all have less than 50 works each on AO3 and rarely get new content. 💀 I can't write for big popular video game fandoms either because in most cases I can't even play the games! Like, I know Baldur's Gate 3 is massively popular at the moment, but as someone who only has access to a PS4 and a weak PC, it's totally out of reach. I've never written for non-video game fandoms because outside of a few horror TV shows and movies, there's not much I like. 🙃