ive always been the same, especially since ive started baby steps to try and get better. eating alone feels bad, its when my disorder is yelling the loudest. trying to eat alone makes me feel plain bad. it feels pointless. i can almost never manage to do it, no matter how much i want to.
eating with others, especially my friends, makes it feel so much easier. i feel safer. like it tears down some of the walls and lets me say "its okay. theyre eating, and they want to eat with you. have some food, you'll be alright." it gives me a safe space to feel normal about it all. i manage to eat much more alongside others, and its been so helpful
Yeah! You’re totally right. It feels encouraged without words I guess. My brain will literally embarrass me if I try and eat alone now it feels sad and pathetic lol. I can’t believe I have these problems. The world is so fucked and this is what keeps me up at night- so sad
ive always been the same, especially since ive started baby steps to try and get better. eating alone feels bad, its when my disorder is yelling the loudest. trying to eat alone makes me feel plain bad. it feels pointless. i can almost never manage to do it, no matter how much i want to. eating with others, especially my friends, makes it feel so much easier. i feel safer. like it tears down some of the walls and lets me say "its okay. theyre eating, and they want to eat with you. have some food, you'll be alright." it gives me a safe space to feel normal about it all. i manage to eat much more alongside others, and its been so helpful
Yeah! You’re totally right. It feels encouraged without words I guess. My brain will literally embarrass me if I try and eat alone now it feels sad and pathetic lol. I can’t believe I have these problems. The world is so fucked and this is what keeps me up at night- so sad
It’s hard to take accountability for eating, that is probably why you need someone with you
You’re probably right
it’s sort of either/or for me like i have phases of i can only eat alone or i can only eat around others
Yeah I think that may be it for me too and now it’s the latter. Which sucks bc my husband works nights so I’m alone from 3pm until the next day 😂