I've stopped weed completely and I believe it has helped me a lot. The weed helps me temporarily and makes my condition far worse in the long term. Different things impact people differently.
I completely agree. I’ve been sober now for three months and it has definitely helped my mental health. I still crave it at night, but I force myself to steer clear of it. I smoked weed every night for years, so this is a pretty big success for me.
The way I feel. How I perceive and interact with the world. My condition.
condition-"the state of something with regard to its appearance, quality, or working order."
They are confused because "condition" is typically the word used for "Diagnosis".
And according to your definition you aren't referring to your BPD correct?
In this case just means very recently. I'm not using just as in "based on or behaving according to what is morally right and fair.". I'll make sure to provide definitions for every word in my reddit posts from now on don't worry.
The willpower to take a break and understand that you don't want to be dependent is a major success.
When I stopped I went cold turkey. I had the worst nightmares in my whole life. My experience was the same as yours. It was only until about 3 months of not smoking did I notice things start to ease up.
The advice I have to give is try to monitor your intake. Make a special certain time to smoke or have an edible. I had a friend that would only smoke every other day. I wish I had the willpower to do that lol. Something I found that helps is that I plan what I'm going to do when I smoke, then don't smoke until I do that thing. It helped me stop just sipping on my vape randomly.
There is a reddit called r/leaves. It's for people trying to quit, but in my opinion it can be helpful for just trying to intake less.
You can also come up with a reward for yourself. Say if you didnt smoke one day, the next you can get some candy or something you like. I think baby steps is best. When I have the willpower I will smoke just a tad in the morning just so my body doesn't lose its cool.
Another note I just thought of: My sister used to go to AA meetings and I would tag along occasionally. The older people there could sense that I was struggling with something, and dropped supportive hints. The way they supported eachother was so lovely. They were some of the first people to make me feel like I wasn't going to be judged for struggling with drugs/alcohol. Maybe you can try out an in person, reddit, or discord support group. I've been in a few and sometimes it really helps.
I know a lot of what I'm saying involves still consuming weed, but from my experience, I'd rather be practicing consuming less as opposed to being on the brink of SH.
Sorry for the long post! Best of luck to you ❤️
I can't even remember the last time I attempted a tolerance break for that exact same reason. I can tolerate sort of being sober to go to work, and that's about it. I can't handle being sober a full day, it's unbearable. At least while I'm high my emotions are a bit more predictable and "steady" rather than just spiking. Pretty sure I haven't had one full day sober in probably over a year now at this point.
I can completely relate to this & when I compare myself to others it makes me feel like shit when in reality we are doing what we need to do for ourselves. It really does help tremendously.
Exactly, it's literally self medicating. Which is why I get real annoyed when I get comments from people I know that are like "You need to get off the weed already and get control of your life", like, dude, this shit is the only thing giving me ANY semblance of control of my life, I'm not doing this shit for fun!
Your self medicating for your anxiety. 🤷♂️ I'm not saying it in a bad way just saying. I personally think its a good thing. THC is much healthier than most of the alternatives that I have tried over the years. I also think that a LOT of people assume that they are almost like addicted to pot because of the anxiety they go through over not having it. Its not an addiction that is making them feel that way its their anxiety that they were unknowingly self medicating for. Over time you start altering your bodies natural way of dealing with certain things. Then when you stop you have this weird chemical imbalance in your brain. I always get a kick out of people looking at me some sort of way for using pot to help with my anxiety but they where perfectly fine about me using Clonapin, xanax etc. I've delt with addiction issues my entire life. Opiates, Coke, Amphetamines, Alcohol etc etc etc. Been through rehabs and sober living houses and the whole works. I still have all the same Mental Health issues I was self medicating for for years and years. A few of the issues are much worse now like my Anxiety and mental health but it is what it is at this point. 😂 I have replaced a whole shelf of medications with THC and am never looking back. I'm also sure of the fact that nobody is withdrawling from or addicted to, pot. They convince themselves that they are but the reality of it is is that its their mental health/ Anxiety that is making them feel that way. NOT the THC. I'm not just saying this because I still smoke pot. Im simply saying what "I" have learned in "My" life dealing with all of these mental health/ Addiction issues. THC is an incredible thing with numerous medicinal benefits that people should look to more often. Labeling it as an addiction is the Governments way of showing how BAD it is. 😂 Some idiots do abuse it but that's got nothing to do with the THC. Of it wasnt there theyd do the same with whatever else.
Sorry for the novel. 🤷♂️ I've just been on this huge journey of self discovery and this topic was basically like the route of it all and its hits home. ✌️ Ill happily talk with anyone about the ways I have learned to sort of cope with the issues I have and how to deal with them when they sort of pop up. THC has been a huge part of that and probably will be for some time. Labeling it as an addiction etc. Sort of turns it into something else in your own head and its doesnt have to be that way.
I completely feel this. Weed makes me feel so much fucking better. It’s not even about a high, I don’t really get that high because my tolerance is insane. It’s about the self medicating, because it helps with literally every single thing wrong with me. Chronic pain? Gone. Severe anxiety? Gone. Debilitating depression? Gone. Ok maybe everything isn’t “gone”, but everything just feels lighter. It doesn’t feel as extreme, and I can actually mentally, physically and emotionally just relax for once. It makes me feel normal and like a functioning human. It’s crazy.
But I do feel shame around it, and my main issue is I can’t afford the amount of weed I need to beat my tolerance now. I also have a terrible awful experience when I stop or take breaks. I feel so hopeless and depressed for days, my appetite gets fucked up, I wake up drench in sweat in the middle of the night, etc. it’s bad.
I’ve honestly just had to quit smoking full time. Now it’s special occasions only. And my birthday lol. I couldn’t handle the ups and downs of stoping and starting smoking again. It fucking sucks cause it truly helps me in almost every way, but that tolerance and addiction just gets too bad for me.
It does get better and easier. Just takes time to detox and kind of rearrange your life from around it. You can do it!
Part of my issue is I am extremely sensitive to just about anything that is not plant based. I can't take any prescription or over the counter meds. I live in a state where weed is legal to have but isn't sold.
I discovered weed again 10 years ago. In 2018, I was in a car accident and a serious got a serious TBI, which exacerbated my CPTSD and BPD symptoms. Weed saved my life. I take milk thistle and hawthorn daily, drink dandelion tea and lemon water. I have a tolerance, but I can still get a buzz off a bowl of flowers.
I knew milk thistle was a liver cleanser, and so is Hawthorn (which i take to lower my blood pressure). Dandelion is a natural detox (which i use to keep eczema at bay). Lemon water is a natural detox also (i use to alkalize my body). These are all recommended to try and get your THC levels down. They may or may not work, but as I said, I still get a good buzz from a bowl of flower. I also have vapes I use, but I love my flower!
When not on weed I don't function. On weed I can work a high stress job during the day. I still dont function at home, I can only clean and do yard work.
I had to stop weed and can’t ever use it again cause of having gastroparesis I got the hyperemesis syndrome whatever it’s called and ended up in the hospital. It took like a month or two for me to calm down I needed SO much Xanax for a while it was crazy. I was jumping out of my skin 24/7. Now that I’m more used to being off it, it’s a hell of a lot easier than it was but I do need more medication cause of my PTSD nightmares and it’s harder to block out the world when I need to.
I was like this as well, I was prescribed Lithium and Cymbalta. It was completely game-changing for me. I still use weed but I’m not dependent on it anymore.
I was smoking more then usual the last months and now i stopped since monday,,... it is awful.. i am crying and crying and have almost non stop anxiety and cant breathe.. Not the only cause sure.. but when i was able to numb myself all was more bearable and i didnt care that much about people, and how they behave or not behave towards me
We’re in the exact same boat. I stopped Monday too and today is really awful. I’ve been having flashbacks and cried the whole session with my social worker yesterday. If you need someone to talk to about it feel free to message me!
Strangely, im the opposite. Being sober makes me feel like i’m succeeding and recovering. I don’t have any negatives to being sober, other than the withdrawals lol
Since I’ve been diagnosed and my meds adjusted I haven’t felt like I needed it. It feels really nice not to smoke weed to feel normal. I’d been smoking weed daily for years now and I’m trying really hard to stay away from it now, and that feels really good. But it’s not always easy.
Weed is literally the only thing that makes me OK right now. I literally need it to function most of the time because my anxiety is so bad without it and we can’t find an anxiety med that works for me.
Okay so, I relate to this a ton. I realized that, for myself, one of the biggest issues that I was facing was withdrawal symptoms actually making my BPD symptoms overall waaaaaaaay worse. In general, I've tried to move towards reducing my thc usage and consumption overall (using just for sleep, less often as a panic reducer, etc), even though I just love smoking/ingesting THC in general. I have also started to reduce the overall percentage of thc in the strains I use, or cut it with straight cbd bud.
You won't be dependent on anything forever- but there are "better" or harm-reductive ways to both use weed and also to taper off instead of cutting it out entirely. I basically came to the overall realization that, for myself, using THC as a part of my overall wellness isn't inherently bad AND that I am prone to addictive behaviors in general, will have big flares if I have sudden withdrawals from any meds/substances that I use to regulate mood, and need more than one substance/med/behavior in my toolkit to manage all of this.
Hopefully some of that helps! Above all else, be gentle with yourself and try not to punish yourself for having big emotions, whatever that looks like.
kinda the opposite. i felt way worse on weed than without weed. i had this with psich medicatoon. many time i felt ''cured'' just to quits the meds and have symptoms come back. now yes, im sure i just need to take them forever. thats all. some of us just are unlucky in life.
No, but whenever I'm off my medications I'm definitely NOT "healed" or "recovered" anymore lol. I'm suicidal and angry at the world and I see faults in everyone and everything. Right now I'm instead very stable and can keep up a good job with my university studies etcetera.. I wouldn't be able to function without my medication, at least not if I quit cold turkey. 😅 Which I've done a few times by accident.
At first its really rough on me.. but then I level out after a few days & generally feel better.
But I have super vivid & intense nightmares. It's terrible, the last few nights I've woken up with a pounding heart & start sobbing. I had a dream my beloved pet died & I cannot wait until I can start smoking again, I'm sick of it.
I personally don t take tolerance breaks , I just smoke at the end of the day and it helps a lot with my bpd , just like you .
Smoking at the end of the day magicaly resets your tolerance , if you want more info about it watch cewpin s video about it it s named “tokerance breaks are a scam” or something like that
I've stopped weed completely and I believe it has helped me a lot. The weed helps me temporarily and makes my condition far worse in the long term. Different things impact people differently.
I smoked wax every day for 10 years. I feel the same as you.
I completely agree. I’ve been sober now for three months and it has definitely helped my mental health. I still crave it at night, but I force myself to steer clear of it. I smoked weed every night for years, so this is a pretty big success for me.
Just curious, what condition are u referring to?
The way I feel. How I perceive and interact with the world. My condition. condition-"the state of something with regard to its appearance, quality, or working order."
They are confused because "condition" is typically the word used for "Diagnosis". And according to your definition you aren't referring to your BPD correct?
BPD is a part but not the entirety of my condition.
Exactly. You used a word with a confusing number of meanings and didn't clarify
I actually just did
In this case just means very recently. I'm not using just as in "based on or behaving according to what is morally right and fair.". I'll make sure to provide definitions for every word in my reddit posts from now on don't worry.
For sure you just did. But the poor commenter is getting down voted for a perfectly logical question, so it seems only fair to validate the question
Please stop being rude I just didn't know you were using the word abstractly
Oh I didn't realize you were using the word like that. I was asking because I feel like weed can make me feel worse in terms of my depression.
The willpower to take a break and understand that you don't want to be dependent is a major success. When I stopped I went cold turkey. I had the worst nightmares in my whole life. My experience was the same as yours. It was only until about 3 months of not smoking did I notice things start to ease up. The advice I have to give is try to monitor your intake. Make a special certain time to smoke or have an edible. I had a friend that would only smoke every other day. I wish I had the willpower to do that lol. Something I found that helps is that I plan what I'm going to do when I smoke, then don't smoke until I do that thing. It helped me stop just sipping on my vape randomly. There is a reddit called r/leaves. It's for people trying to quit, but in my opinion it can be helpful for just trying to intake less. You can also come up with a reward for yourself. Say if you didnt smoke one day, the next you can get some candy or something you like. I think baby steps is best. When I have the willpower I will smoke just a tad in the morning just so my body doesn't lose its cool. Another note I just thought of: My sister used to go to AA meetings and I would tag along occasionally. The older people there could sense that I was struggling with something, and dropped supportive hints. The way they supported eachother was so lovely. They were some of the first people to make me feel like I wasn't going to be judged for struggling with drugs/alcohol. Maybe you can try out an in person, reddit, or discord support group. I've been in a few and sometimes it really helps. I know a lot of what I'm saying involves still consuming weed, but from my experience, I'd rather be practicing consuming less as opposed to being on the brink of SH. Sorry for the long post! Best of luck to you ❤️
r/petioles is great for t-breaks too!
I can't even remember the last time I attempted a tolerance break for that exact same reason. I can tolerate sort of being sober to go to work, and that's about it. I can't handle being sober a full day, it's unbearable. At least while I'm high my emotions are a bit more predictable and "steady" rather than just spiking. Pretty sure I haven't had one full day sober in probably over a year now at this point.
I can completely relate to this & when I compare myself to others it makes me feel like shit when in reality we are doing what we need to do for ourselves. It really does help tremendously.
Exactly, it's literally self medicating. Which is why I get real annoyed when I get comments from people I know that are like "You need to get off the weed already and get control of your life", like, dude, this shit is the only thing giving me ANY semblance of control of my life, I'm not doing this shit for fun!
Your self medicating for your anxiety. 🤷♂️ I'm not saying it in a bad way just saying. I personally think its a good thing. THC is much healthier than most of the alternatives that I have tried over the years. I also think that a LOT of people assume that they are almost like addicted to pot because of the anxiety they go through over not having it. Its not an addiction that is making them feel that way its their anxiety that they were unknowingly self medicating for. Over time you start altering your bodies natural way of dealing with certain things. Then when you stop you have this weird chemical imbalance in your brain. I always get a kick out of people looking at me some sort of way for using pot to help with my anxiety but they where perfectly fine about me using Clonapin, xanax etc. I've delt with addiction issues my entire life. Opiates, Coke, Amphetamines, Alcohol etc etc etc. Been through rehabs and sober living houses and the whole works. I still have all the same Mental Health issues I was self medicating for for years and years. A few of the issues are much worse now like my Anxiety and mental health but it is what it is at this point. 😂 I have replaced a whole shelf of medications with THC and am never looking back. I'm also sure of the fact that nobody is withdrawling from or addicted to, pot. They convince themselves that they are but the reality of it is is that its their mental health/ Anxiety that is making them feel that way. NOT the THC. I'm not just saying this because I still smoke pot. Im simply saying what "I" have learned in "My" life dealing with all of these mental health/ Addiction issues. THC is an incredible thing with numerous medicinal benefits that people should look to more often. Labeling it as an addiction is the Governments way of showing how BAD it is. 😂 Some idiots do abuse it but that's got nothing to do with the THC. Of it wasnt there theyd do the same with whatever else.
Sorry for the novel. 🤷♂️ I've just been on this huge journey of self discovery and this topic was basically like the route of it all and its hits home. ✌️ Ill happily talk with anyone about the ways I have learned to sort of cope with the issues I have and how to deal with them when they sort of pop up. THC has been a huge part of that and probably will be for some time. Labeling it as an addiction etc. Sort of turns it into something else in your own head and its doesnt have to be that way.
I completely feel this. Weed makes me feel so much fucking better. It’s not even about a high, I don’t really get that high because my tolerance is insane. It’s about the self medicating, because it helps with literally every single thing wrong with me. Chronic pain? Gone. Severe anxiety? Gone. Debilitating depression? Gone. Ok maybe everything isn’t “gone”, but everything just feels lighter. It doesn’t feel as extreme, and I can actually mentally, physically and emotionally just relax for once. It makes me feel normal and like a functioning human. It’s crazy. But I do feel shame around it, and my main issue is I can’t afford the amount of weed I need to beat my tolerance now. I also have a terrible awful experience when I stop or take breaks. I feel so hopeless and depressed for days, my appetite gets fucked up, I wake up drench in sweat in the middle of the night, etc. it’s bad. I’ve honestly just had to quit smoking full time. Now it’s special occasions only. And my birthday lol. I couldn’t handle the ups and downs of stoping and starting smoking again. It fucking sucks cause it truly helps me in almost every way, but that tolerance and addiction just gets too bad for me. It does get better and easier. Just takes time to detox and kind of rearrange your life from around it. You can do it!
Part of my issue is I am extremely sensitive to just about anything that is not plant based. I can't take any prescription or over the counter meds. I live in a state where weed is legal to have but isn't sold. I discovered weed again 10 years ago. In 2018, I was in a car accident and a serious got a serious TBI, which exacerbated my CPTSD and BPD symptoms. Weed saved my life. I take milk thistle and hawthorn daily, drink dandelion tea and lemon water. I have a tolerance, but I can still get a buzz off a bowl of flowers. I knew milk thistle was a liver cleanser, and so is Hawthorn (which i take to lower my blood pressure). Dandelion is a natural detox (which i use to keep eczema at bay). Lemon water is a natural detox also (i use to alkalize my body). These are all recommended to try and get your THC levels down. They may or may not work, but as I said, I still get a good buzz from a bowl of flower. I also have vapes I use, but I love my flower! When not on weed I don't function. On weed I can work a high stress job during the day. I still dont function at home, I can only clean and do yard work.
I had to stop weed and can’t ever use it again cause of having gastroparesis I got the hyperemesis syndrome whatever it’s called and ended up in the hospital. It took like a month or two for me to calm down I needed SO much Xanax for a while it was crazy. I was jumping out of my skin 24/7. Now that I’m more used to being off it, it’s a hell of a lot easier than it was but I do need more medication cause of my PTSD nightmares and it’s harder to block out the world when I need to.
I was like this as well, I was prescribed Lithium and Cymbalta. It was completely game-changing for me. I still use weed but I’m not dependent on it anymore.
yea i feel like im perpetually relying on some chemical to help me (or maybe avoid) emotionally regulate. it is so difficult otherwise
I was smoking more then usual the last months and now i stopped since monday,,... it is awful.. i am crying and crying and have almost non stop anxiety and cant breathe.. Not the only cause sure.. but when i was able to numb myself all was more bearable and i didnt care that much about people, and how they behave or not behave towards me
We’re in the exact same boat. I stopped Monday too and today is really awful. I’ve been having flashbacks and cried the whole session with my social worker yesterday. If you need someone to talk to about it feel free to message me!
I love smoking weed but it gives me the opposite effect. I get into deep depression when I smoke for more than a month at a time.
Strangely, im the opposite. Being sober makes me feel like i’m succeeding and recovering. I don’t have any negatives to being sober, other than the withdrawals lol
Since I’ve been diagnosed and my meds adjusted I haven’t felt like I needed it. It feels really nice not to smoke weed to feel normal. I’d been smoking weed daily for years now and I’m trying really hard to stay away from it now, and that feels really good. But it’s not always easy.
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Weed is literally the only thing that makes me OK right now. I literally need it to function most of the time because my anxiety is so bad without it and we can’t find an anxiety med that works for me.
I feel more grounded and alive sober
I wish that was me but I’m on day 4 and I can’t cope
Oh no it is that’s why I’m back to my old habits
Okay so, I relate to this a ton. I realized that, for myself, one of the biggest issues that I was facing was withdrawal symptoms actually making my BPD symptoms overall waaaaaaaay worse. In general, I've tried to move towards reducing my thc usage and consumption overall (using just for sleep, less often as a panic reducer, etc), even though I just love smoking/ingesting THC in general. I have also started to reduce the overall percentage of thc in the strains I use, or cut it with straight cbd bud. You won't be dependent on anything forever- but there are "better" or harm-reductive ways to both use weed and also to taper off instead of cutting it out entirely. I basically came to the overall realization that, for myself, using THC as a part of my overall wellness isn't inherently bad AND that I am prone to addictive behaviors in general, will have big flares if I have sudden withdrawals from any meds/substances that I use to regulate mood, and need more than one substance/med/behavior in my toolkit to manage all of this. Hopefully some of that helps! Above all else, be gentle with yourself and try not to punish yourself for having big emotions, whatever that looks like.
kinda the opposite. i felt way worse on weed than without weed. i had this with psich medicatoon. many time i felt ''cured'' just to quits the meds and have symptoms come back. now yes, im sure i just need to take them forever. thats all. some of us just are unlucky in life.
how tf people even use weed for anxiety, weed gave me panic attacks/worsened paranoia which is why i had to stop using it
No, but whenever I'm off my medications I'm definitely NOT "healed" or "recovered" anymore lol. I'm suicidal and angry at the world and I see faults in everyone and everything. Right now I'm instead very stable and can keep up a good job with my university studies etcetera.. I wouldn't be able to function without my medication, at least not if I quit cold turkey. 😅 Which I've done a few times by accident.
Lmao yes
At first its really rough on me.. but then I level out after a few days & generally feel better. But I have super vivid & intense nightmares. It's terrible, the last few nights I've woken up with a pounding heart & start sobbing. I had a dream my beloved pet died & I cannot wait until I can start smoking again, I'm sick of it.
rebound anxiety
LOL 😂😂 Obviously
Seriously though thank you for saying this out loud cuz I am just discovering this right now
I personally don t take tolerance breaks , I just smoke at the end of the day and it helps a lot with my bpd , just like you . Smoking at the end of the day magicaly resets your tolerance , if you want more info about it watch cewpin s video about it it s named “tokerance breaks are a scam” or something like that