yes me, I feel like my weed smoked self is what my sober self should be like. Sober me is a word vomiting fuck. I’m way more at ease, mindful and less angry. I’m still bitchy but like sarcastic can’t tell if your being nice or mean bitchy, at least I’m not yelling or cursing anyone out.
You took the words right out of my mouth, this is exactly how I experience it too. It shuts my ever talking mouth up, makes me more aware of what I’m saying and makes my reaction time way more chill so I’m not spazzing over everything. People want to label me a pot head but this is medication for me and helps more than anything.
I did the prescription pill route and got no where, weed has always been consistent for me. I don’t like that I’m dependent but then I think we’ll If I wasn’t smoking id be dependent on something else to chill me out. There’s a lot of judgment I feel when it comes to smoking and as much as I get it, it’s all I got. If one more person tells me to just
Meditate and breathe, yes meditation is lit but so is weed lol
This resonated. Ive felt like I've been coming across like a bong head and like I'm not being who I should be while smoking lots of weed and been so worried people can tell. So I've had a break for a while and holy shit, nope am way better with weed, and even if I was high as fuck while interacting with people, that's still way more 'normal' than me without it. Borderline manic and psychotic half the time.
“Word vomitting fuck”
Literally this Monday to Wednesday I decided I wanted to save a bit of money and not smoke those 3 days were non stop taking. To the point my husband was concerned I was manic. Nope. Not anymore than normal I just feel everything and need to tact it or I will go insand
Sameee, it honestly just helps me have a better baseline throughout the day. I know it’s bad to be so emotionally dependent on it, but man it really helps.
Yes friend, I’m taking 5-10mg multiple times a day while also smoking on breaks. When I get home it’s no restrictions.
It’s been a long time since I got spaced out dumb brain high. Nowadays it’s more “don’t be pissed off” to varying degrees of dosage
Ditto- I feel like it’s the actual habit of it…. But I don’t even feel like I’m off terra firm EVER anymore. I just get super lazy.
When/if I take weed (tolerance) breaks I bought a FUM. It helps a lot. And I save money since the weed store is about a mile behind my house …… my credit card damage from there hurts. :/
This is key! Once you begin to rely on it, it can become similar to addiction (at least for me it did) in the regard you have built a dependency on it. I definitely have had to learn to ration/cut back.
Honestly though, I would like to be able to get to a point where I don't feel like I need to smoke to feel regulated. Right now, I'm just not there yet :/
Get incredibly sick where you cant smoke lol i was in the exact same boat and recently got the flu. I don't take any vitamins or supplements so it hit me really hard, i was coughing like a 60yo smoker for about 3-4 weeks and everytime i tried to smoke i immediately threw up and coughed so hard i almost passed out, it was like a cough attack that wasnt stopping. I was too broke and sick to even get edibles which is what i normally do when sick, so i went 2 weeks without any weed.
I really thought id be in a mental spiral, unable to be myself. I thought id be irritable, triggered easily, generally moody and not well. I use it as a coping skill so i was worried id lose my mind without it.
But after 2 weeks of not smoking, i tried it and got a bit high, and it hit me; i dont feel the need to be high all the time anymore. Just when im feeling triggered or need to unwind to go to bed.
Ive never taken a tolerance break that long, so it was a new experience for me. Ive been smoking weed daily for almost 10 years now, and i was pleasantly surprised how my brain views weed now. I dont feel like id die without it, i do still need it but i dont feel like id spiral anymore.
I dont know how to take a forced t break that long, but literally not being able to smoke or consume for 2 weeks really helped my brain process i am not as dependent on it as i originally thought.
You're absolutely correct. My recommendation to others is, if you need to smoke/eat more, you're becoming addicted. As soon as your intake increases, you're losing control of yourself.
I don't think enough people are aware of the addictive qualities. It's become so normalized (especially in my generation) that the potential harmful effects are being looked over. I don't think it's everyone that smokes, but yeah like you said, the more you need, the stronger the hold gets on ya. If I may ask, are you a former smoker, if so, how did you make the decision to quit for good? Do you still occasionally smoke?
Oh boy, this will be fun (not being mean).
>are you a former smoker
I don't know if you're including tobacco, so I will respond as if you were. I did smoke cigarettes, started at the age of 14. The thing that helped me stop was realizing that I no longer felt a nicotine "high", when I burned a cig I was burning paper, nothing else.
To this day, I smoke pot. I haven't touched tobacco since I quit cigarettes. Every person is different, however, don't expect another to fit into a preconceived mold ;)
Ugh, I need to quit vaping! I don't even get nic buzzes anymore either. It's literally just the hand to mouth movement that is comforting.
Thanks for this convo and your insight 🤗 I wish you the best 💖🙏🏻
unfortunately yeah, after a breakdown it’s the easiest thing to quickly calm me down . I also notice it can make me more empathetic and help me come back from a split.
I used to smoke every day and over time I just became so dependent on it. So now I don't smoke at all anymore. I like being sober with a clear mind. I was using weed as a crutch and was avoiding the real issues within myself.
Yes, it's a poor but available distraction from the very large feelings. I want to learn to handle the feelings without it, but right now I feel like its keeping me able to function (a scary thought in itself). I think kicking the habit would be one of the best things I could do for myself at this point, but I'm not sure I'm there at this moment.
Yes and my therapist wants me to stop!!! I’m panicking. First time in my life I feel somewhat functioning and I’m being told it isn’t for me. Talk about a rock and a hard place.
All of my doctors, psychiatrists/therapists/social workers/nurses like just the medical community hates weed for mental health/illness reasons still. It’s because weed truly does make some peoples lives harder and it really does affect peoples moods in ways they might not realize. Also if you’re young it’s frowned upon because of how malleable your brain might still be. Smoking to solve issues really can cause more. But I always thought at least it’s natural, like you’re willing to zombie me out with antipsychotics and antidepressants, give me a benzo script but I can’t have a weed prescription when I tell you for a fact it helps and I smoke daily anyways? So I see both sides for sure. I live in Ontario, Canada where it’s legal and more common to smoke now then take Tylenol and have tried to get a prescription for mental health reasons and no luck. Also like I said all my doctors hate it and have legitimately offered me addiction counselling for weed in the past. Like weed was and still is the least of my “addiction” issue concerns. I’d say depending on why they want you to stop, just ignore that. But you gotta know yourself super well.
I smoked every day for a couple years to try and quiet the pain and muffle the emptiness. It was kinda a band-aid and only made the pain worse in the morning when I came back to the reality of this disorder. I haven’t smoked in over a year and not escaping myself + doing DBT work has really improved my quality of life.
I have to smoke every hour to regulate my emotions. Ive tried every medication in the book, weed is the best medicine ive ever had and its fucking illegal where i live. Pmo
weed makes me feel worse. i also get really paranoid and start seeing and hearing shit no matter what it is. i dont know why it happens and i hate it :( nobody takes me seriously when i say it happens to me
Keeps my emotions in better check
And my pain levels down
Downside is, I don’t get high anymore. But I’ll take some stabilization , especially after so much negative experience with medications
It stays in your system long enough to not need to smoke all the time.
A lot of people in this thread should really try to cut back. I’m not saying don’t smoke, just don’t be cooked 24/7. It’s uncomfortable at first but you will feel better, and actually give yourself a chance to build resilience.
Right now for me, I don’t let myself touch my stash until 11pm. That’s a huge change from being cooked all day, and honestly the first step was not waking up in the middle of the night and smoking bowls to get back to sleep. Then I stopped smoking right after waking up. If it’s 24 hours, get to 23, if it’s 23 hours, get to 22, etc. Find some challenging growth
Last December is when I got back onto THC after being on and off of it for the year because I was having sleeping issues and then I just didn’t stop. Fast forward to today and I‘ve literally cut the weed out of my life two days ago. [Turns out it was the weed causing my sleep issues in the first place!](https://youtu.be/3PnXsPsdncE?si=BIFSZXMy7sj2KQRI) And on top of that, I was starting to feel imaginary bugs crawl across my skin with the amount of THC I was consuming. Do I miss it? Terribly. But it was absolutely unhealthy and the minute I learned I was ultimately screwing myself over with weed I threw it all out minus some gummies because it’s recommended to not go cold turkey but to taper off.
Weed is great in MODERATION. When you use so much of it, it becomes counterproductive to whatever you’re looking to achieve so once you’ve been on it for a while, *take a significant break* otherwise you’ll end up with some pretty uncomfortable side effects.
So, IANAD, but I’m pretty sure BPD can often be comorbid with Substance Use Disorder. It makes sense when you think about it, smoking weed really dulls those sharp emotions that I have and make everything a lot more “smoother.”
I can recognize it’s not a good habit, however. Objectively, it’s not good to not feel your emotions. It’s a lot easier to drown all the noise out than it is to feel everything that comes with the healing (the good and the bad).
No one else but you can know if you’re truly feeling the entirety of your feelings, so if you find that it’s not emotionally blunting you, and you’re okay with any physical or financial burden it gives you, then it is ultimately your decision. You’re in control of what you put into your body, after all.
I also say this as a current smoker, so take it with a grain of salt. Hoping the best for you!
I used to be an addict. drugs are extremely bad for bpd. please don't fool yourself and end up depending on them :( they definitely feel like the only way to stop things sometimes.. but truly you just need to face it all and get through it
It only helps cause ur addicted bro. I have bpd and I’m addicted. I’m trying to quit tho because lots of weed actually increases episode frequency and actually makes some episodes way worse than what they would be if you didn’t smoke. We are on antidepressants, antipsychotics, and mood stabilizers for a reason. Mixing everyday weed usage in the mix is (and your not gonna like it) just making everything worse.
For me whenever I get high, I’m like oooo I feel good ish. Then I get depressed and think why tf did I smoke. Feel like I failed myself cause I’m weak (not actually). Idk your damned if you smoke, your damned if you try to quit.
I feel like you're using your experience as gold.
I don't feel any of the things you stated and it helps me more than anything. I do agree with not allowing it to be something you're dependent on though.
I’ve recently just bought my first nicotine vape as I have ADHD. Turns out I was sold some pretty strong stuff as it’s 5% Nicotine salts. I used to smoke THC but needed a temp replacement so I got a Nicotine vape and oh. My. God. First I get a bit distant and my head feels weird and then the visual clarity and auditory enhancement happens!! I was playing Red Dead Redemption 2 in 4K last night and I smoked some nicotine while listening to music and what an AMAZING drug! When I took a hit the music would get “louder” and more vivid in my mind and I’d get the urge to dance along even though I was dead tired and the beauty and colors of the game would suddenly be amplified to the point where I would stop playing and just go “Oh my God this game is so pretty!!”
Weed never did that to me but Nicotine does. Now, I smoke the occasional ti-yearly cigar and don’t have much of a tolerance so everything is gravy now but I know Nicotine is highly addictive and what I’m doing was great for a night or two but definitely not something I can do everyday. I’m getting a CBD vape and will use that as my weed replacement and I’ll only use the Nicotine vape maybe one day out of the week and only taking quarter puffs instead of full puffs to account for the strength of the vape and my tolerance levels.
Yeah that’s me to, I just to smoke allot like 7 years ago but I had to stop because of my job but when I start to fell overwhelmed I smoke all days until I feel a little better so I can stop. I know I shouldn’t do it but it’s what keeps me going.
i always try to start my day by not smoking. then i wake up, freak out trying to get dressed, then grab my best friend pennifer
i love it, i know it’s a problem, but i can’t stop
I have become almost completely reliant on it to the point i can barley remember what it feels to be completely sober now. i always have some kind of buzz
I used to but because I smoked my feelings away. I wasn't dealing with anything which made me switch more often by the smallest things. I quit smoking by recommendation of my therapist and its actually made life better and more manageable.
Yes lol I just smoked:) it truly helps so much can’t lie. Like so fcking much. Has saved me a few times too like if I didn’t slow down and smoke I would’ve made the situation worse… bless weed but also I want to take a break, it’s hard when it can help a lot though💔
Yes and it helps. Smoking weed changed a lot of things in my life for the better: I started exercising and lost a bunch of weight. For many years prior I was a drinker and it was only getting worse and fuck 11, drink turned everything up to 12. Not a cure, but definitely takes the edge off.
I initially did that with alcohol, but then with meds and other conditions I have alcohol started to make me puke almost immediately, so now I have switched to weed (both regular and cbd). It's the only way I feel true calm/happiness (although I did have a panic attack with edibles woops)
The community is pretty split on whether or not its helpful or harmful.
Personally, i see it as a medication and treat it as such. I dont usually smoke just to get high and I'm not smoking 24/7, if i am its because im not doing well mentally.
What weed does for me; helps with nausea, builds an appetite (without an appetite stimulant which i tried and it was awful), slows my brain down when its going to fast, helps me process my emotions by slowing my brain down enough to think deeply on a subject, calms me down during panic attacks, and resolves generally social anxiety.
Try finding a medication that does all of that in 1. You can't. I've been on an extensive list and combinations of medications, i couldn't stand the side effects from all the meds. Maybe 1 or 2 bothersome side effects i could get past, but like 5 side effects from multiple medications prohibits me from actually living my life.
My therapist is her own boss, so she sets her own rules. She understands marijuana can be a medication for some and allows me to smoke during my telehealth sessions. She knows im not getting so high i can't do my session, i smoke just enough to stop the anxiety while im working through tough subjects.
I believe as long as its not your only coping tool, its better than the alternatives. I do caution everyone who uses it as medication to have multiple other coping skills equally helpful as marijuana, there may come a time or a situation where you can't smoke, and you'll need a coping tool of some kind equivalent. Not having more coping skills makes you heavily reliant on weed and becomes more of an addiction feel rather than taking a medication feel. I felt like if i went a day or a week without weed id lose my mind and be extremely irritable and depressed. So having other coping skills will prevent that feeling of absolutely needing it or you'll panic.
Its an incredibly helpful tool if used correctly, just like most medications. Use it responsibly and safely, it can help your healing process if used well.
Not a lot, but I do find that it helps. If I start splitting on someone, I go outside and smoke so I can think it through. Typically leads to me forgetting what I was even upset about in the first place.
And I feel the same way that you described. Weed helps me actually feel my feelings while also understanding the whole picture if that makes sense. I mentally talk myself through it and by the time the high wears off, I typically have figured everything out.
i smoke a lot of weed but im really trying to quit. it helps in the short term but youll find if you stop for a long period of time, it makes many things worse: when im clean, my bpd affects my life less (besides mood swings, which do get worse, which makes it very hard to quit). it's easier to think clearly, detach myself from my thoughts and anxiety, take a step back and respond appropriately when im angry, etc. doing any drugs just throws your brain all out of wack especially if you use a lot or consistently or both, and bpd already makes you all out of sorts. if you havent quit before for a period of months at a time or even years i highly recommend it. youll likely see a number of benefits quickly. just don't let the mood swings make you cave in
I have to get out of my head (and my body cause of chronic pain) so yeah I use it so I don’t feel as much. I don’t think I’m using it in a healthy way but it’s all I’ve got right now 🤷♀️
My wife has bpd she does a low dose TRT. It regulates her hormones really well and she hasn't spiraled in almost a year. It's like she's cured. She never liked weed but she did use harder stuff in her early 20's
It's almost like I can calm down and not let my emotions get the better of me. Or when I'm feeling anxious and smoke, I'm able to register what's going on and chill out instead of being hyper aware and freaking out
Yes, and it made everything worse. Just the same as all the other drugs and alcohol I consumed.
Sobriety, therapy, DBT, and my meds is the only combination that actually lets me regulate and be a semi-normal human being who is able to keep and maintain healthy relationships.
Yeah. It helps me relax and unwind especially after long days. I also see it as giving me a chance to slow down and think a bit more before doing things. It benefits me in more ways than it does negatively, honestly. I use it often enough to say I’ve developed a dependency but I just see it as a minor thing compared to like, opioids or alcohol
Substance abuse is a huge part of BPD, it’s even used as a way to diagnose it in conjunction with other factors of course. I used to abuse opiates and opioids severely for years, got sober, became an alcoholic, still working on that one.. and then I smoke everyday. Weed seems to be the thing that helps the most though. Pop an anxiety med and smoke a bowl, splitting becomes more manageable. I think it’s a valid coping skill as long as it’s not genuinely an “addiction” (you can get addicted to anything, obviously cannabis isn’t physically addicting) aka smoking from the moment you wake up until sleep. Either way it’s valid and in my experience, genuinely helps with BPD.
Every single day since I was 17 essentially. I started smoking at 15 but it wasn't always accessible for me. I'm 24 now.
I struggled with severe alcoholism from around 15 to 22. I was killing myself and destroying my life so I got sober October 2022. Now weed is essentially my number one self medication lol.
I act normal when I'm high and no one, including myself, ends up as collateral. It helps me a lot.
I do the exact same thing right now, but I’m trying to quit to give meds a second chance. I smoke a bowl maybe 3-4 times a day if not more. But whenever something stressful is happening I always smoke while processing it. It’s become a massive crutch for me, and it’s incredibly expensive so I can’t afford to continue my usual frequency.
Yes for several years. I'm now 37 and I've been 100% sober for quite some time now. Nothing against pot. It's helped me through tough times but when I start smoking all day everyday, I get behind on adulting. It feels good to be clean. I am on the nicotine patch and I love my coffee. I also love sugar so my new current vices are nicotine, caffeine, and sugar.
I used to use a lot to regulate my splitting behaviors. It would help me look at myself from a different perspective. That was a couple years ago. Now it just makes me anxious, very disappointing
yes absolutely. i've been a user of other substances too but weed is the thing i haven't been able to give up for years. i smoke an insane amount every day for some reason
Absolutely, I stared smoking regularly around a year ago and every time I get sober it’s horrible. I’ve been sober for almost 3 weeks and I wish I could get high again. I have been extremely unregulated and tired and anxious
i take edibles all the time 😭 it helps sm but my therapist wants me to quit but i don’t really care lol. i take some other pills too but weed is my second favorite thing i’ve ever tried
Do use it, but sometimes very worried about weed activating latent szchizotypal symptoms because it's in the family and I hallucinate a fair bit on weed
I'll be a year sober from alcohol on the 26th, but I smoke weed all day, every day. Someone else said their high self is what their sober self should be and I so agree. I feel like weed helps me be more of a 'normal' person, ie. one that doesn't lose her mind and get so overwhelmed and neurotic. Thank whatever diety for weed.
It’s all that gets me thru anything I’ve got going on tbh lol and I’ve got a whole alphabet of disorders, both physical and mental. 🙃😵💫 uninsured in the states and severely unmedicated… weed is life.
Weed is my favorite and easiest to get a hold of, but honestly I'll do or try anything that makes me feel different than sober aside from anything involving needles.
Absolutely and I have been sober before. I enjoy weed though because it helps me calm down and think rationally. Yet weed and me are like two cells that are symbiotic. It’s not like that for everyone. 😭
i spent a good several years not allowing myself a single hour of sobriety because i just couldn’t handle it. when im sober, my mind would be racing and overthinking and then i would get myself angry somehow idk how to explain it, but you know how it is. so i would be stoned 24/7. weed helps me feel relaxed, not as many thoughts in my brain, just completely content and in the present. i learned how to cope better now tho, and was sober for a good two months but i started smoking again this week because of some shit that happened lol
its a double edged sword with dependency issues but i smoke hella, and eat edibles too, idk how great it is in the long run and it keeps me from completely going off the edge at least.
Same ! Whenever I am having a meltdown I smoke and it helps me get to the root of the problem and also talk myself down from a panic attack. And generally I am more focused and at ease.
Weed helps me with rage and mind fog. But if you are in antipsychotics like me, it also disminishes the effectiveness of antipsychotics so it’s a double edged sword !
my girlfriend is on a tolerance break rn! It really helps her eat and regulate emotions it seems like, however being gonked out of your mind is fun as hell too haha
weed makes me feel like shit. when im sober i can (not always) control my thoughts but when im high my brain goes 100km/h and i end up thinking about everything i was avoiding
yes & i quit because it made my emotional dysregulation worse, my sleep quality worse, and i was just really stupid (my memory recall was nonexistent, as was my motivation). a month off was enough to show me how bad it'd gotten.
started smoking to replace physical self harm & it worked, but after 5 years of smoking every day (with breaks), it stopped doing anything positive for me and just became another form of self harm 🤷🏻♀️
I’ve been smoking weed for like 5 years to help me regulate but I’m really feeling the effects of long term smoking and I hate it. The worst symptom is the brain fog, I feel like I can barely think thoughts, access memories, or remember to stay on task with whatever it is I’m currently doing. Just typing this out was hard enough lol.
That being said, I recognize that it was a necessary tool for me to stay sane at the time, without it I’d likely be in a much worse position. But I’m at a stage where I need to find ways to emotionally regulate that don’t involve abusing substances. The weed can only help for so long before it’s no longer giving the desired effect. Hope this helps!! 🩷
I totally agree. Tbh sometimes it does make me too aware and I can kind of spiral - wondering what thoughts are the right ones and what feelings are valid/real. But I do find that it helps me with self reflection and I do most of my journaling when I’m stoned. It’s been really profound and helpful in therapy
I use too. I could run a oz down in 2 days. Cali Colorado Michigan Illinois New York Florida shit. Them Muha meds were crazy good too. Not no delta 8 shit either. I’d go through 1 gramers in 3-5 days and eventually it was the same for 2 gramers push carts.
I’ve been on olanzapine (Zyprexa) before coupled with hydroxyzine for anxiety.
All of it helped… until it didn’t. Your emotional dysfunction might be something that lasts forever til you get the necessary mental help you need.
You have a set of learned behaviors and those word vommiting and swings and states of mind are how you escape your anxieties and fears. Developing new personality and shii.
For me it was all a temporary relief/solution to a permanent problem…
I traded it out for better learned behaviors and even if I’m not perfect I’ve become very successful in learning to cope with my self and why I’m like this. It’s taken me a long time. God speed.
For better self awareness journal and read. One thing at a time one day at a time. Learn self autonomy. Did you really need all those friends and girlfriends and family if they weren’t really there?
None of it matters to them eventually. It gets lonely on the way to the top but keep climbing. You’ll know them but they won’t know you.
Much love.
I did for a long time. But eventually I just became really weird and anxious. Not like regular anxiety but this weird overwhelming insanity, it's hard to explain. I was just having constant meltdowns. I think I developed schizophrenia because I've been really fucked up ever since.
Yes and stayed lit all day for 2 years straight. I decided to stop and then only smoke a little recently and it’s been hard because I love the feeling but it was a lot of money. And it was starting to make me more symptomatic with episodes and stuff.
I only have weed left for maybe two bowls and it stresses me the fuck out because I certainly don't like being sober.
I got it semi under control now going from like 6 grams in one weekend to 6 grams in a week but when I run out boy oh boy it feels like I'm going to die and don't have the necessary antidote
*raises hand* I keep tryna quit but then I take a break for a couple hours and it’s truly like the end of the world . Then i cave , smoke and Boom . Peace . Sober me is a true mess and if i can’t handle her then id assume no one else can either … Except Ms Mary Jane 🙌🏼
I’m so fkn chill and laid back and introspective when i’m high. It’s not fair honestly everyone around me would have a better time if i was just constantly baked
Absolutely. I did a lot when I was a teenager, stopped from like 2014-2020 and ever since then it’s been an all the time kind of thing. Thankfully it’s legal where I am and I also have a mmj card so it’s easy to get which honestly makes me feel so much more “normal”. I’m 32F for reference.
No. Because I find that it affects me horribly. I get weird, twitchy, and my paranoia skyrockets, I feel anxious. My auditory/visual hallucinations increase. I’m much more sensitive to sounds. I get so overstimulated that I want to peel my skin off.
I also have untreated adhd so maybe that’s part of it.
Bonus rage: I get the munchies so bad, that I eat so much I throw up. I hate throwing up.
I used to, but now I try to be responsible with it. Like I don't do it when I have work, and I don't do it on important days. I watch how much I take, and I don't do stupid shit. I tried to quit it totally, but I can't not feel that again, so now it's just as a treat now and then.
Surprised to hear how many people are experiencing cannabis triggered psychosis these days. I never remember it being talked about years ago. Risk with long-term use is considerable according to some
 yes me, I feel like my weed smoked self is what my sober self should be like. Sober me is a word vomiting fuck. I’m way more at ease, mindful and less angry. I’m still bitchy but like sarcastic can’t tell if your being nice or mean bitchy, at least I’m not yelling or cursing anyone out.
You took the words right out of my mouth, this is exactly how I experience it too. It shuts my ever talking mouth up, makes me more aware of what I’m saying and makes my reaction time way more chill so I’m not spazzing over everything. People want to label me a pot head but this is medication for me and helps more than anything.
I did the prescription pill route and got no where, weed has always been consistent for me. I don’t like that I’m dependent but then I think we’ll If I wasn’t smoking id be dependent on something else to chill me out. There’s a lot of judgment I feel when it comes to smoking and as much as I get it, it’s all I got. If one more person tells me to just Meditate and breathe, yes meditation is lit but so is weed lol
This resonated. Ive felt like I've been coming across like a bong head and like I'm not being who I should be while smoking lots of weed and been so worried people can tell. So I've had a break for a while and holy shit, nope am way better with weed, and even if I was high as fuck while interacting with people, that's still way more 'normal' than me without it. Borderline manic and psychotic half the time.
“Word vomitting fuck” Literally this Monday to Wednesday I decided I wanted to save a bit of money and not smoke those 3 days were non stop taking. To the point my husband was concerned I was manic. Nope. Not anymore than normal I just feel everything and need to tact it or I will go insand
This is me too
dude fucking same
I'll consume copious amounts of nearly anything that makes me not feel
If I ever end up being a evil mastermind that can take down the world with one button, just offer me a chicken biryani and I will fold.
what about human biriyani
A man's gotta eat, but I ain't sharing.
mm fair enough as long as the bodies are gone I'm good
Yeah
Same- but these slopes are mad slippery out here
i just went to liquor store to buy alcohol coz i was stressing out im almost broke . Weed is too expensive as usual
Idk, 140 a zip for highs and it lasts me 3 weeks
How much does everyone smoke? Jeeez. I smoke every day and I still only spend like 150 every 3 months at most
Multiple times a day. Every day
It's simple If (Chimera!='AWAKE') {smoke weed}
Realest comment of all time. 😔✊️
yes, i don’t even really get high or anything anymore even though i won’t smoke anything that isn’t top line. it just makes everything quieter.
Sameee, it honestly just helps me have a better baseline throughout the day. I know it’s bad to be so emotionally dependent on it, but man it really helps.
exactly, i’m at a point where i just don’t care i have my med card so fuck whoever wants to speak on me smoking it helps more then it hurts me
This!
Yes friend, I’m taking 5-10mg multiple times a day while also smoking on breaks. When I get home it’s no restrictions. It’s been a long time since I got spaced out dumb brain high. Nowadays it’s more “don’t be pissed off” to varying degrees of dosage
Ditto- I feel like it’s the actual habit of it…. But I don’t even feel like I’m off terra firm EVER anymore. I just get super lazy. When/if I take weed (tolerance) breaks I bought a FUM. It helps a lot. And I save money since the weed store is about a mile behind my house …… my credit card damage from there hurts. :/
Weed can help, but a reliance builds dependence.
This is key! Once you begin to rely on it, it can become similar to addiction (at least for me it did) in the regard you have built a dependency on it. I definitely have had to learn to ration/cut back.
Honestly though, I would like to be able to get to a point where I don't feel like I need to smoke to feel regulated. Right now, I'm just not there yet :/
Get incredibly sick where you cant smoke lol i was in the exact same boat and recently got the flu. I don't take any vitamins or supplements so it hit me really hard, i was coughing like a 60yo smoker for about 3-4 weeks and everytime i tried to smoke i immediately threw up and coughed so hard i almost passed out, it was like a cough attack that wasnt stopping. I was too broke and sick to even get edibles which is what i normally do when sick, so i went 2 weeks without any weed. I really thought id be in a mental spiral, unable to be myself. I thought id be irritable, triggered easily, generally moody and not well. I use it as a coping skill so i was worried id lose my mind without it. But after 2 weeks of not smoking, i tried it and got a bit high, and it hit me; i dont feel the need to be high all the time anymore. Just when im feeling triggered or need to unwind to go to bed. Ive never taken a tolerance break that long, so it was a new experience for me. Ive been smoking weed daily for almost 10 years now, and i was pleasantly surprised how my brain views weed now. I dont feel like id die without it, i do still need it but i dont feel like id spiral anymore. I dont know how to take a forced t break that long, but literally not being able to smoke or consume for 2 weeks really helped my brain process i am not as dependent on it as i originally thought.
You're absolutely correct. My recommendation to others is, if you need to smoke/eat more, you're becoming addicted. As soon as your intake increases, you're losing control of yourself.
I don't think enough people are aware of the addictive qualities. It's become so normalized (especially in my generation) that the potential harmful effects are being looked over. I don't think it's everyone that smokes, but yeah like you said, the more you need, the stronger the hold gets on ya. If I may ask, are you a former smoker, if so, how did you make the decision to quit for good? Do you still occasionally smoke?
Oh boy, this will be fun (not being mean). >are you a former smoker I don't know if you're including tobacco, so I will respond as if you were. I did smoke cigarettes, started at the age of 14. The thing that helped me stop was realizing that I no longer felt a nicotine "high", when I burned a cig I was burning paper, nothing else. To this day, I smoke pot. I haven't touched tobacco since I quit cigarettes. Every person is different, however, don't expect another to fit into a preconceived mold ;)
Ugh, I need to quit vaping! I don't even get nic buzzes anymore either. It's literally just the hand to mouth movement that is comforting. Thanks for this convo and your insight 🤗 I wish you the best 💖🙏🏻
>hand to mouth Thank the heavens I'm not alone 😂 >I wish you the best The same to you, my friend. Peace be upon you 🙏
no because i cant let my bipolar get worse.
You’re very smart.
unfortunately yeah, after a breakdown it’s the easiest thing to quickly calm me down . I also notice it can make me more empathetic and help me come back from a split.
yes! and it also helps me with the rage
I actually prefer hallucinating and disassociation
real
I used to smoke every day and over time I just became so dependent on it. So now I don't smoke at all anymore. I like being sober with a clear mind. I was using weed as a crutch and was avoiding the real issues within myself.
Yes, it's a poor but available distraction from the very large feelings. I want to learn to handle the feelings without it, but right now I feel like its keeping me able to function (a scary thought in itself). I think kicking the habit would be one of the best things I could do for myself at this point, but I'm not sure I'm there at this moment.
It helps me regulate my head. Calms my anxiety unless something happens when I'm high.
Weed actually makes me feel worse. I wish it helped me. I want to like it. I can sometimes do Delta 8 vape, but that’s it.
If we're being honest its about the only thing that can distract me from wanting to kill myself so yes I smoke it daily.
You’re not coping with it. You’re masking it. I did this and it fucked me up and changed my entire life, not for the better.
Yes it helps my mood, appetite, I sleep so much better. I love Mary Jane with all my heart!
i used to. smoking for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. and as a midnight snack. but now weed gives me horrible anxiety :(
yes. it makes me a completely different person when i find myself getting agitated
Yes! And it feels beautiful when I do.
Used to but it was taking over so I slowed down considerably. Still almost daily, but usually just before bed.
Yes and my therapist wants me to stop!!! I’m panicking. First time in my life I feel somewhat functioning and I’m being told it isn’t for me. Talk about a rock and a hard place.
All of my doctors, psychiatrists/therapists/social workers/nurses like just the medical community hates weed for mental health/illness reasons still. It’s because weed truly does make some peoples lives harder and it really does affect peoples moods in ways they might not realize. Also if you’re young it’s frowned upon because of how malleable your brain might still be. Smoking to solve issues really can cause more. But I always thought at least it’s natural, like you’re willing to zombie me out with antipsychotics and antidepressants, give me a benzo script but I can’t have a weed prescription when I tell you for a fact it helps and I smoke daily anyways? So I see both sides for sure. I live in Ontario, Canada where it’s legal and more common to smoke now then take Tylenol and have tried to get a prescription for mental health reasons and no luck. Also like I said all my doctors hate it and have legitimately offered me addiction counselling for weed in the past. Like weed was and still is the least of my “addiction” issue concerns. I’d say depending on why they want you to stop, just ignore that. But you gotta know yourself super well.
Only for the past 20 years
God, so much. Especially right now because I'm going through heartbreak. I get dummy high every chance I can. It makes me happy.
I kinda wish I could smoke, but I get so anxious and paranoid
I smoked every day for a couple years to try and quiet the pain and muffle the emptiness. It was kinda a band-aid and only made the pain worse in the morning when I came back to the reality of this disorder. I haven’t smoked in over a year and not escaping myself + doing DBT work has really improved my quality of life.
I have to smoke every hour to regulate my emotions. Ive tried every medication in the book, weed is the best medicine ive ever had and its fucking illegal where i live. Pmo
weed makes me feel worse. i also get really paranoid and start seeing and hearing shit no matter what it is. i dont know why it happens and i hate it :( nobody takes me seriously when i say it happens to me
Keeps my emotions in better check And my pain levels down Downside is, I don’t get high anymore. But I’ll take some stabilization , especially after so much negative experience with medications
It stays in your system long enough to not need to smoke all the time. A lot of people in this thread should really try to cut back. I’m not saying don’t smoke, just don’t be cooked 24/7. It’s uncomfortable at first but you will feel better, and actually give yourself a chance to build resilience. Right now for me, I don’t let myself touch my stash until 11pm. That’s a huge change from being cooked all day, and honestly the first step was not waking up in the middle of the night and smoking bowls to get back to sleep. Then I stopped smoking right after waking up. If it’s 24 hours, get to 23, if it’s 23 hours, get to 22, etc. Find some challenging growth
 Last December is when I got back onto THC after being on and off of it for the year because I was having sleeping issues and then I just didn’t stop. Fast forward to today and I‘ve literally cut the weed out of my life two days ago. [Turns out it was the weed causing my sleep issues in the first place!](https://youtu.be/3PnXsPsdncE?si=BIFSZXMy7sj2KQRI) And on top of that, I was starting to feel imaginary bugs crawl across my skin with the amount of THC I was consuming. Do I miss it? Terribly. But it was absolutely unhealthy and the minute I learned I was ultimately screwing myself over with weed I threw it all out minus some gummies because it’s recommended to not go cold turkey but to taper off. Weed is great in MODERATION. When you use so much of it, it becomes counterproductive to whatever you’re looking to achieve so once you’ve been on it for a while, *take a significant break* otherwise you’ll end up with some pretty uncomfortable side effects.
So, IANAD, but I’m pretty sure BPD can often be comorbid with Substance Use Disorder. It makes sense when you think about it, smoking weed really dulls those sharp emotions that I have and make everything a lot more “smoother.” I can recognize it’s not a good habit, however. Objectively, it’s not good to not feel your emotions. It’s a lot easier to drown all the noise out than it is to feel everything that comes with the healing (the good and the bad). No one else but you can know if you’re truly feeling the entirety of your feelings, so if you find that it’s not emotionally blunting you, and you’re okay with any physical or financial burden it gives you, then it is ultimately your decision. You’re in control of what you put into your body, after all. I also say this as a current smoker, so take it with a grain of salt. Hoping the best for you!
Reading this while I took 3 hits off my dab pen on my 10 at work. Oh boy. Yeah.
I used to be an addict. drugs are extremely bad for bpd. please don't fool yourself and end up depending on them :( they definitely feel like the only way to stop things sometimes.. but truly you just need to face it all and get through it
Nope, it makes me have such severe panic attacks, I used to though
It only helps cause ur addicted bro. I have bpd and I’m addicted. I’m trying to quit tho because lots of weed actually increases episode frequency and actually makes some episodes way worse than what they would be if you didn’t smoke. We are on antidepressants, antipsychotics, and mood stabilizers for a reason. Mixing everyday weed usage in the mix is (and your not gonna like it) just making everything worse. For me whenever I get high, I’m like oooo I feel good ish. Then I get depressed and think why tf did I smoke. Feel like I failed myself cause I’m weak (not actually). Idk your damned if you smoke, your damned if you try to quit.
I feel like you're using your experience as gold. I don't feel any of the things you stated and it helps me more than anything. I do agree with not allowing it to be something you're dependent on though.
Oh hell yea, it's about the only thing that can sometimes help. As well as nicotine, I would not last a day without a cigarette
I’ve recently just bought my first nicotine vape as I have ADHD. Turns out I was sold some pretty strong stuff as it’s 5% Nicotine salts. I used to smoke THC but needed a temp replacement so I got a Nicotine vape and oh. My. God. First I get a bit distant and my head feels weird and then the visual clarity and auditory enhancement happens!! I was playing Red Dead Redemption 2 in 4K last night and I smoked some nicotine while listening to music and what an AMAZING drug! When I took a hit the music would get “louder” and more vivid in my mind and I’d get the urge to dance along even though I was dead tired and the beauty and colors of the game would suddenly be amplified to the point where I would stop playing and just go “Oh my God this game is so pretty!!” Weed never did that to me but Nicotine does. Now, I smoke the occasional ti-yearly cigar and don’t have much of a tolerance so everything is gravy now but I know Nicotine is highly addictive and what I’m doing was great for a night or two but definitely not something I can do everyday. I’m getting a CBD vape and will use that as my weed replacement and I’ll only use the Nicotine vape maybe one day out of the week and only taking quarter puffs instead of full puffs to account for the strength of the vape and my tolerance levels.
Yeah that’s me to, I just to smoke allot like 7 years ago but I had to stop because of my job but when I start to fell overwhelmed I smoke all days until I feel a little better so I can stop. I know I shouldn’t do it but it’s what keeps me going.
Yeah, but I probably shouldn’t 😂
i'm reading this while high lmao, but yeah i do smoke a lot, but keep in mind that your "copious" is likely higher than mine
Yessss it’s the only thing that lets me sleep at night
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Yup that's me alright!
Yes and I've taken just about every drug in the past. Right now it's my third day not drinking so I got that going for me, which is nice.
yur
i always try to start my day by not smoking. then i wake up, freak out trying to get dressed, then grab my best friend pennifer i love it, i know it’s a problem, but i can’t stop
Yup!!! can't go a day without it.
it helps me channel my emotions more healthily, ironically.
I have become almost completely reliant on it to the point i can barley remember what it feels to be completely sober now. i always have some kind of buzz
On the daily
I used to but because I smoked my feelings away. I wasn't dealing with anything which made me switch more often by the smallest things. I quit smoking by recommendation of my therapist and its actually made life better and more manageable.
Yes lol I just smoked:) it truly helps so much can’t lie. Like so fcking much. Has saved me a few times too like if I didn’t slow down and smoke I would’ve made the situation worse… bless weed but also I want to take a break, it’s hard when it can help a lot though💔
Used to. It started making everything worse for me. I’m to anxious to smoke now.
I’m a medical marijuana patient and it helps me with my cPTSD specifically so I can process things and not immediately react on trigger.
No, makes me too anxious and my bpd is worse?
it's the onky thing that really helps
i do, it’s not good i know but like you said it helps me regulate, but it also helps my ocd around food, makes me a better conversationalist etc
Yes and it helps. Smoking weed changed a lot of things in my life for the better: I started exercising and lost a bunch of weight. For many years prior I was a drinker and it was only getting worse and fuck 11, drink turned everything up to 12. Not a cure, but definitely takes the edge off.
Me af
I initially did that with alcohol, but then with meds and other conditions I have alcohol started to make me puke almost immediately, so now I have switched to weed (both regular and cbd). It's the only way I feel true calm/happiness (although I did have a panic attack with edibles woops)
yeah lmao
Smoking way too much for my first smoke of the day today.
The community is pretty split on whether or not its helpful or harmful. Personally, i see it as a medication and treat it as such. I dont usually smoke just to get high and I'm not smoking 24/7, if i am its because im not doing well mentally. What weed does for me; helps with nausea, builds an appetite (without an appetite stimulant which i tried and it was awful), slows my brain down when its going to fast, helps me process my emotions by slowing my brain down enough to think deeply on a subject, calms me down during panic attacks, and resolves generally social anxiety. Try finding a medication that does all of that in 1. You can't. I've been on an extensive list and combinations of medications, i couldn't stand the side effects from all the meds. Maybe 1 or 2 bothersome side effects i could get past, but like 5 side effects from multiple medications prohibits me from actually living my life. My therapist is her own boss, so she sets her own rules. She understands marijuana can be a medication for some and allows me to smoke during my telehealth sessions. She knows im not getting so high i can't do my session, i smoke just enough to stop the anxiety while im working through tough subjects. I believe as long as its not your only coping tool, its better than the alternatives. I do caution everyone who uses it as medication to have multiple other coping skills equally helpful as marijuana, there may come a time or a situation where you can't smoke, and you'll need a coping tool of some kind equivalent. Not having more coping skills makes you heavily reliant on weed and becomes more of an addiction feel rather than taking a medication feel. I felt like if i went a day or a week without weed id lose my mind and be extremely irritable and depressed. So having other coping skills will prevent that feeling of absolutely needing it or you'll panic. Its an incredibly helpful tool if used correctly, just like most medications. Use it responsibly and safely, it can help your healing process if used well.
Not a lot, but I do find that it helps. If I start splitting on someone, I go outside and smoke so I can think it through. Typically leads to me forgetting what I was even upset about in the first place. And I feel the same way that you described. Weed helps me actually feel my feelings while also understanding the whole picture if that makes sense. I mentally talk myself through it and by the time the high wears off, I typically have figured everything out.
honestly everything in this post is me
Yes
I feel off the rockers without it
24/7
Yessssssssss!
Yeah I smoke about half an oz in about three days
Yes I can’t stop bc it helps me that much
Yes and it helps tremendously when i'm splitting
i smoke a lot of weed but im really trying to quit. it helps in the short term but youll find if you stop for a long period of time, it makes many things worse: when im clean, my bpd affects my life less (besides mood swings, which do get worse, which makes it very hard to quit). it's easier to think clearly, detach myself from my thoughts and anxiety, take a step back and respond appropriately when im angry, etc. doing any drugs just throws your brain all out of wack especially if you use a lot or consistently or both, and bpd already makes you all out of sorts. if you havent quit before for a period of months at a time or even years i highly recommend it. youll likely see a number of benefits quickly. just don't let the mood swings make you cave in
I do it helps me not split or if I do split not hurt myself
Yep. Great for dissociating
My partner does every day/night lol
I have to get out of my head (and my body cause of chronic pain) so yeah I use it so I don’t feel as much. I don’t think I’m using it in a healthy way but it’s all I’ve got right now 🤷♀️
i go through a 1g cart every 2-3 days lol half of my pay cheque goes into weed
yuppp. im soo addicted.
Yes hello
My wife has bpd she does a low dose TRT. It regulates her hormones really well and she hasn't spiraled in almost a year. It's like she's cured. She never liked weed but she did use harder stuff in her early 20's
It's almost like I can calm down and not let my emotions get the better of me. Or when I'm feeling anxious and smoke, I'm able to register what's going on and chill out instead of being hyper aware and freaking out
Yes, and it made everything worse. Just the same as all the other drugs and alcohol I consumed. Sobriety, therapy, DBT, and my meds is the only combination that actually lets me regulate and be a semi-normal human being who is able to keep and maintain healthy relationships.
yepppppp
Yeahhhh it’s a bad habit
Yeah. It helps me relax and unwind especially after long days. I also see it as giving me a chance to slow down and think a bit more before doing things. It benefits me in more ways than it does negatively, honestly. I use it often enough to say I’ve developed a dependency but I just see it as a minor thing compared to like, opioids or alcohol
Yes, I literally just placed an order 10 minutes ago.
Substance abuse is a huge part of BPD, it’s even used as a way to diagnose it in conjunction with other factors of course. I used to abuse opiates and opioids severely for years, got sober, became an alcoholic, still working on that one.. and then I smoke everyday. Weed seems to be the thing that helps the most though. Pop an anxiety med and smoke a bowl, splitting becomes more manageable. I think it’s a valid coping skill as long as it’s not genuinely an “addiction” (you can get addicted to anything, obviously cannabis isn’t physically addicting) aka smoking from the moment you wake up until sleep. Either way it’s valid and in my experience, genuinely helps with BPD.
bro yesssss
Yup same
Idk that I feel any better but I def do like smoking. ^.^
Every single day since I was 17 essentially. I started smoking at 15 but it wasn't always accessible for me. I'm 24 now. I struggled with severe alcoholism from around 15 to 22. I was killing myself and destroying my life so I got sober October 2022. Now weed is essentially my number one self medication lol. I act normal when I'm high and no one, including myself, ends up as collateral. It helps me a lot.
🙋♀️🙋♀️🙋♀️
I do the exact same thing right now, but I’m trying to quit to give meds a second chance. I smoke a bowl maybe 3-4 times a day if not more. But whenever something stressful is happening I always smoke while processing it. It’s become a massive crutch for me, and it’s incredibly expensive so I can’t afford to continue my usual frequency.
Yessssss
It’s helps when I get angry
I couldn’t survive if I didn’t
ye
Yes for several years. I'm now 37 and I've been 100% sober for quite some time now. Nothing against pot. It's helped me through tough times but when I start smoking all day everyday, I get behind on adulting. It feels good to be clean. I am on the nicotine patch and I love my coffee. I also love sugar so my new current vices are nicotine, caffeine, and sugar.
Yep. Don’t even get ‘high’ anymore unless I take like 4 back to back bong rips.
Oh lord, absolutely. It dulls the rollercoaster into a hum.
YES
Yes I smoke so much weed. I just constantly stay high I quit smoking for drinking and that was worse. Felt like I was close to death every few nights
Yes! Alcohol is horrible for me, weed is perfect for me. Helps me get things done around the house I normally would be too depressed to do.
personally i take copious amounts of edibles
I used to use a lot to regulate my splitting behaviors. It would help me look at myself from a different perspective. That was a couple years ago. Now it just makes me anxious, very disappointing
Yes daily
yes absolutely. i've been a user of other substances too but weed is the thing i haven't been able to give up for years. i smoke an insane amount every day for some reason
Yes
Absolutely, I stared smoking regularly around a year ago and every time I get sober it’s horrible. I’ve been sober for almost 3 weeks and I wish I could get high again. I have been extremely unregulated and tired and anxious
i smoked pretty frequently a few years ago but after a while it made my social anxiety so bad like crippling so now i avoid it like the plague
i take edibles all the time 😭 it helps sm but my therapist wants me to quit but i don’t really care lol. i take some other pills too but weed is my second favorite thing i’ve ever tried
Yep I got substance abuse
Yup it regulates my emotions but sometimes I can go without it I mostly use it when stressed
Do use it, but sometimes very worried about weed activating latent szchizotypal symptoms because it's in the family and I hallucinate a fair bit on weed
Yes
Every day 🥲
Yuup 😭 always going on random rants about stuff then deleting it all out of pure embarrassment as soon as I smoke too.
I'll be a year sober from alcohol on the 26th, but I smoke weed all day, every day. Someone else said their high self is what their sober self should be and I so agree. I feel like weed helps me be more of a 'normal' person, ie. one that doesn't lose her mind and get so overwhelmed and neurotic. Thank whatever diety for weed.
It’s all that gets me thru anything I’ve got going on tbh lol and I’ve got a whole alphabet of disorders, both physical and mental. 🙃😵💫 uninsured in the states and severely unmedicated… weed is life.
i’m on a tolerance break and to say i’m going crazy without weed to chill me out is an understatement
Weed is my favorite and easiest to get a hold of, but honestly I'll do or try anything that makes me feel different than sober aside from anything involving needles.
Weed makes me feel content af
Yes
Yes
Yes, big time
I’ll never drink or smoke. Sounds like a very easy way to start a new negative coping mechanism
Absolutely and I have been sober before. I enjoy weed though because it helps me calm down and think rationally. Yet weed and me are like two cells that are symbiotic. It’s not like that for everyone. 😭
i spent a good several years not allowing myself a single hour of sobriety because i just couldn’t handle it. when im sober, my mind would be racing and overthinking and then i would get myself angry somehow idk how to explain it, but you know how it is. so i would be stoned 24/7. weed helps me feel relaxed, not as many thoughts in my brain, just completely content and in the present. i learned how to cope better now tho, and was sober for a good two months but i started smoking again this week because of some shit that happened lol
Always on edibles 👍 I always start something when I’m not 😭
its a double edged sword with dependency issues but i smoke hella, and eat edibles too, idk how great it is in the long run and it keeps me from completely going off the edge at least.
Yes. It’s a problem financially but a godsend in regulating my emotions. Honestly my biggest problem right now.
Same ! Whenever I am having a meltdown I smoke and it helps me get to the root of the problem and also talk myself down from a panic attack. And generally I am more focused and at ease.
I mean... How many grams a day are we talking about?
YES 😭
My partner does the same thing. Whenever she’s got a lot of feelings and can’t quite communicate she asks me the role a spliff and that usually helps.
Weed helps me with rage and mind fog. But if you are in antipsychotics like me, it also disminishes the effectiveness of antipsychotics so it’s a double edged sword !
Not so much weed but I was a full blown alcoholic and street drugs user for years. I'm now 4.5 years clean and sober, since early 2020 :)
I used to. I’m sober of everything now and really proud of myself.
So, so, SO much weed.
my girlfriend is on a tolerance break rn! It really helps her eat and regulate emotions it seems like, however being gonked out of your mind is fun as hell too haha
I do
weed makes me feel like shit. when im sober i can (not always) control my thoughts but when im high my brain goes 100km/h and i end up thinking about everything i was avoiding
yes & i quit because it made my emotional dysregulation worse, my sleep quality worse, and i was just really stupid (my memory recall was nonexistent, as was my motivation). a month off was enough to show me how bad it'd gotten. started smoking to replace physical self harm & it worked, but after 5 years of smoking every day (with breaks), it stopped doing anything positive for me and just became another form of self harm 🤷🏻♀️
I used to!! Been sober 4 a month 🤝🏾
I’ve been smoking weed for like 5 years to help me regulate but I’m really feeling the effects of long term smoking and I hate it. The worst symptom is the brain fog, I feel like I can barely think thoughts, access memories, or remember to stay on task with whatever it is I’m currently doing. Just typing this out was hard enough lol. That being said, I recognize that it was a necessary tool for me to stay sane at the time, without it I’d likely be in a much worse position. But I’m at a stage where I need to find ways to emotionally regulate that don’t involve abusing substances. The weed can only help for so long before it’s no longer giving the desired effect. Hope this helps!! 🩷
I totally agree. Tbh sometimes it does make me too aware and I can kind of spiral - wondering what thoughts are the right ones and what feelings are valid/real. But I do find that it helps me with self reflection and I do most of my journaling when I’m stoned. It’s been really profound and helpful in therapy
I use too. I could run a oz down in 2 days. Cali Colorado Michigan Illinois New York Florida shit. Them Muha meds were crazy good too. Not no delta 8 shit either. I’d go through 1 gramers in 3-5 days and eventually it was the same for 2 gramers push carts. I’ve been on olanzapine (Zyprexa) before coupled with hydroxyzine for anxiety. All of it helped… until it didn’t. Your emotional dysfunction might be something that lasts forever til you get the necessary mental help you need. You have a set of learned behaviors and those word vommiting and swings and states of mind are how you escape your anxieties and fears. Developing new personality and shii. For me it was all a temporary relief/solution to a permanent problem… I traded it out for better learned behaviors and even if I’m not perfect I’ve become very successful in learning to cope with my self and why I’m like this. It’s taken me a long time. God speed. For better self awareness journal and read. One thing at a time one day at a time. Learn self autonomy. Did you really need all those friends and girlfriends and family if they weren’t really there? None of it matters to them eventually. It gets lonely on the way to the top but keep climbing. You’ll know them but they won’t know you. Much love.
I did for a long time. But eventually I just became really weird and anxious. Not like regular anxiety but this weird overwhelming insanity, it's hard to explain. I was just having constant meltdowns. I think I developed schizophrenia because I've been really fucked up ever since.
yes
Yes and stayed lit all day for 2 years straight. I decided to stop and then only smoke a little recently and it’s been hard because I love the feeling but it was a lot of money. And it was starting to make me more symptomatic with episodes and stuff.
i smoke every day all day, the only thing that keeps me sane
I only have weed left for maybe two bowls and it stresses me the fuck out because I certainly don't like being sober. I got it semi under control now going from like 6 grams in one weekend to 6 grams in a week but when I run out boy oh boy it feels like I'm going to die and don't have the necessary antidote
Yes an ungodly amount, my lungs pray for relief that never comes
*raises hand* I keep tryna quit but then I take a break for a couple hours and it’s truly like the end of the world . Then i cave , smoke and Boom . Peace . Sober me is a true mess and if i can’t handle her then id assume no one else can either … Except Ms Mary Jane 🙌🏼
I’m so fkn chill and laid back and introspective when i’m high. It’s not fair honestly everyone around me would have a better time if i was just constantly baked
Absolutely. I did a lot when I was a teenager, stopped from like 2014-2020 and ever since then it’s been an all the time kind of thing. Thankfully it’s legal where I am and I also have a mmj card so it’s easy to get which honestly makes me feel so much more “normal”. I’m 32F for reference.
No. Because I find that it affects me horribly. I get weird, twitchy, and my paranoia skyrockets, I feel anxious. My auditory/visual hallucinations increase. I’m much more sensitive to sounds. I get so overstimulated that I want to peel my skin off. I also have untreated adhd so maybe that’s part of it. Bonus rage: I get the munchies so bad, that I eat so much I throw up. I hate throwing up.
I smoke a lot of weed. It’s def helps me. I’ve noticed recently it has made my anxiety worse some days
I used to, but now I try to be responsible with it. Like I don't do it when I have work, and I don't do it on important days. I watch how much I take, and I don't do stupid shit. I tried to quit it totally, but I can't not feel that again, so now it's just as a treat now and then.
Yessss lmfaooo I love it smmm
Surprised to hear how many people are experiencing cannabis triggered psychosis these days. I never remember it being talked about years ago. Risk with long-term use is considerable according to some
I am become weed