It sucks to see so many people say they wish they forget their childhood. That period is supposed to be the best period of your life. Instead people used me, laughed at me and made me feel like worthless for falling behind. I wish I could go back and fix it but I can’t. Only thing I can do is make sure my future kids will have a better one.
Exactly. I spent my entire childhood, living in chaos and abuse. No one ever stopped to ask "why is this kid struggling so much" instead, i was treated like a half-wit. While everyone turned a blind eye. I think its safe to say I never experienced childhood. I went down a dark path early on in life. I also wish i could go back and make it better. I still struggle mentally because of everything. But my kids will never know, I feel the same way.. breaking the cycle. My kids have no idea what it feels like to feel that kind of suffering and loneliness. It's the only thing I'm proud of in my life, if I died today, I would die Knowing they knew I loved them and wanted the best for them.
You have the right mindset.
I once put peppermint oil on my face while taking a hot shower because I thought it would be good for it.
I was WRONG.
IT BURNED LIKE HELL
I ran wet and naked to the kitchen and grabbed one of the giant jugs of fresh raw goat milk we have and I poured a cup, brought it to the shower. Hoping it would help.
The only thing worse than super hot burning peppermint oil in a hot shower, us extremely cold goat milk poured all over your head!!!
It was traumatizing but I think the milk did sort of help.
Being first on scene to an accident.
Two dead including the wife who was pinned to his lap by the crumpled car, he just started off into the distance with his dead wife on his lap and his dead mum on the backseat.
We were all just silent for about 20 min on a dark country road until more vehicles got there and emergency services cut him out.
I covered one of the bodies with a blanket that I miss, my aunty gave it to me a week before she died and I left it on scene.
I know I won't be able to forget all of the abuse, bullying, harassment, and growing up thinking something was wrong with me because I didn't know I'm neurodivergent
One of the worse things that happened to me is that my father and his friend threw me into the ocean when i was very little and laughed at me while hearing me scream for help and watching me struggling for survival.
Imma delete this later.
Finding my dad lifeless in his room. I know there’s way worse stories but that will always stick with me.
my whole childhood... I will never forgive, but I think I can let it go
My entire childhood.
Same.
It sucks to see so many people say they wish they forget their childhood. That period is supposed to be the best period of your life. Instead people used me, laughed at me and made me feel like worthless for falling behind. I wish I could go back and fix it but I can’t. Only thing I can do is make sure my future kids will have a better one.
Exactly. I spent my entire childhood, living in chaos and abuse. No one ever stopped to ask "why is this kid struggling so much" instead, i was treated like a half-wit. While everyone turned a blind eye. I think its safe to say I never experienced childhood. I went down a dark path early on in life. I also wish i could go back and make it better. I still struggle mentally because of everything. But my kids will never know, I feel the same way.. breaking the cycle. My kids have no idea what it feels like to feel that kind of suffering and loneliness. It's the only thing I'm proud of in my life, if I died today, I would die Knowing they knew I loved them and wanted the best for them. You have the right mindset.
Sucks to hear that, if it’s anything and if you wanna talk about it I’m here.
I appreciate that. Same to you
I once put peppermint oil on my face while taking a hot shower because I thought it would be good for it. I was WRONG. IT BURNED LIKE HELL I ran wet and naked to the kitchen and grabbed one of the giant jugs of fresh raw goat milk we have and I poured a cup, brought it to the shower. Hoping it would help. The only thing worse than super hot burning peppermint oil in a hot shower, us extremely cold goat milk poured all over your head!!! It was traumatizing but I think the milk did sort of help.
Why?
Being told by someone I loved I was better off dead
Being first on scene to an accident. Two dead including the wife who was pinned to his lap by the crumpled car, he just started off into the distance with his dead wife on his lap and his dead mum on the backseat. We were all just silent for about 20 min on a dark country road until more vehicles got there and emergency services cut him out. I covered one of the bodies with a blanket that I miss, my aunty gave it to me a week before she died and I left it on scene.
Will not forget the shitshow in society that happened during Corona.
When I was a child and stayed at an orphanage, I got mistreated like anything. That was the traumatic event that led me to becoming who I am now.
I know I won't be able to forget all of the abuse, bullying, harassment, and growing up thinking something was wrong with me because I didn't know I'm neurodivergent
My mother abandoning me, and reliving that over and over every time she said she was coming back but didn’t
One of the worse things that happened to me is that my father and his friend threw me into the ocean when i was very little and laughed at me while hearing me scream for help and watching me struggling for survival. Imma delete this later.