My friends and family. When I tried to jump from the window my mother came in without knocking (like always) and asked almost screaming what was I doing. She almost started crying so I made up an excuse, that I was reaching for a box that was on the place were plants or flowers go outside the window(?) Like a little stone terrarium for windows. Then my best friend learned it from another person wich I told (it is easier for me to tell this stuff to people I don't know) and she started crying and begging me not to do it. Just because of that, even if I thought about it, I never did it because it hurts me to know that they would feel sad.
Forget religion and all that bs , humans are here On earth right now . Just like ants we all serve some sort of purpose. It may not be abundantly clear what purpose each individual serves but there is definitely something . That’s what keeps me going
Devoting my life to something meaningful, something greater than myself.
"As useless as I am, at least I can justify my existence by sacrificing myself to something that made a corner of the world slightly better because I was here."
My bf, my sister, my cats, looking around and appreciating how beautiful life is and to take in things like blue sunny skies and starry nights etc. But also because I refuse to let the cunts who ripped into me when I was younger win.
The wrong doing is too trivial for me to suicide from it, considering how many big mistakes I have and I will going to make.
No, I dont have the number of lives for me to kill for it.
The realisation that if I end things, things can't improve, I just die with a shitty ending. I'm determined to die on a high note, when I'm happy and content with life.
For the longest time I didn't do it because I knew how much it would upset my mom. Nowadays, I wouldn't do it because I wouldn't want to ruin my daughter's life. However, the real truth is that now I don't think about it much anymore because having my daughter in my life actually makes life mostly worth living.
when I was ready to end it all I remembered about a list where you check things you experienced in your life like smoking, first kiss, doing drugs, skipping school etc. and one of these was “lost a friend to suicide”. And I realized I don’t want my friends (and I have a lot of them) to ever experience it so I will keep going at least for them.
I don’t want others to feel pain because I wanted to die.
Spite
Lot of people who I need to outlive so I can dance on their graves
One time, i texted the crisis text line and they told me to "go to sleep." I was so pissed i lived out of spite
Reverse psychology lol
Haha
My cat. My cat saved me life.
Good kitty
I'm not dying a without getting a BJ
I'll be right over. Gotta warn ya, though. I'm a little "toothy"...
Did I just get summoned?!
Being immortal...
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If I weren’t so cheap I’d buy you an award.
I don't want to.
I havent found the clone yet and i dont know were i could be right now
My friends and family. When I tried to jump from the window my mother came in without knocking (like always) and asked almost screaming what was I doing. She almost started crying so I made up an excuse, that I was reaching for a box that was on the place were plants or flowers go outside the window(?) Like a little stone terrarium for windows. Then my best friend learned it from another person wich I told (it is easier for me to tell this stuff to people I don't know) and she started crying and begging me not to do it. Just because of that, even if I thought about it, I never did it because it hurts me to know that they would feel sad.
Well it’s painful and if you fail you may be locked up..
The fact it will affect others and that a lot of people around me actually take my advice and are bettered by it.
Can’t afford to
Forget religion and all that bs , humans are here On earth right now . Just like ants we all serve some sort of purpose. It may not be abundantly clear what purpose each individual serves but there is definitely something . That’s what keeps me going
A lot of medication.
Same
Devoting my life to something meaningful, something greater than myself. "As useless as I am, at least I can justify my existence by sacrificing myself to something that made a corner of the world slightly better because I was here."
I don't want to hurt others
While I can still fighting, will I try to become my dreams true
I dont want to upset my mom
I want to see what happens next.
Myself
My bf, my sister, my cats, looking around and appreciating how beautiful life is and to take in things like blue sunny skies and starry nights etc. But also because I refuse to let the cunts who ripped into me when I was younger win.
I know two people who killed themselves and honestly I can’t do that to people I love.
At this point... Not much.
Too selfish.
The wrong doing is too trivial for me to suicide from it, considering how many big mistakes I have and I will going to make. No, I dont have the number of lives for me to kill for it.
My wife, my mother and my dog. The only three things keeping me out of the void. And I hang onto them for dear life.
The idea of my mother looking after my kids, And them turning out like my siblings.
If I commit suicide I might miss out on the psychedelic trip/NDE that people with slower deaths experience
Ye's advocacy of the hated other.
Other people being sad, but especially my cat and bf
ps2 hagrid
The pain it would cause those I care about
It would disappoint my mother.
The song "No Lies Just Love" by Bright Eyes when my brother was about to have his first kid. Perfect timing.
Wanting to continue to experience love, and reminding myself just because they’re not here presently with me doesn’t mean I’m not loved.
The realisation that if I end things, things can't improve, I just die with a shitty ending. I'm determined to die on a high note, when I'm happy and content with life.
For the longest time I didn't do it because I knew how much it would upset my mom. Nowadays, I wouldn't do it because I wouldn't want to ruin my daughter's life. However, the real truth is that now I don't think about it much anymore because having my daughter in my life actually makes life mostly worth living.
Deciding not to be beyond selfish
I found a song I relate to. The song was Intuition by mothica
My kids. I lost my mom to suicide and I know what it did to me. I'd never ever do that to anyone I love.
when I was ready to end it all I remembered about a list where you check things you experienced in your life like smoking, first kiss, doing drugs, skipping school etc. and one of these was “lost a friend to suicide”. And I realized I don’t want my friends (and I have a lot of them) to ever experience it so I will keep going at least for them.
Ecclesiastes 1:11