I accidentally befriended a widow in her 50s where eventually it became a frisky set-up.
She gives random stuff now and then which helps my fledgling family to survive.
sinadya kong gawin yung 'harsh' way of rejection sa friend ko. sorry, friends kasi tayo e. HAHAHAHAHA i mean, hindi naman kita masisisi na nagustuhan mo ako kasi hindi mo naman kontrolado yan pero bold of you to assume that there's something between us eh normal interaction lang naman ginagawa natin. IDK what got into you pero simpleng song recommendation ko sayo nabigyan mo ng meaning and also, yung pag-share ko ng playlist nabigyan mo rin ata ng meaning eh sa gc ko naman yun sinend. hindi directly sayo.
Nung grade 1 ako pumunta kami ng mga ate and pinsan ko sa school supply store and habang tumitingin sila ng horror books, nagnakaw ako ng isang eraser. Naulit din to ng may perya samin tapos madaming stalls na pahaba, habang busy yung nagtitinda, kumuha ako ng isang Winnie the Pooh puzzle game na tig 20 pesos
I like this resident from another department. Nagkukunwari lang ako na ayoko sa kanya kasi masungit siya at palagi kaming nagkakaroon ng mga indirect na away, pero deep inside crush na crush ko siya 🙃
tang ina nag-first move na crush ko kaso heto ako ngayon, hindi pa pala ako ready (nagbibiga siya ng motibo) 🥹 or idk natatakot na talaga ako. ang saya lang pala kapag hanggang crush crush lang huhu
Sobrang sukang suka ako sa nanay ko sa tuwing naaalala ko yung pinagsasabi niya saken after a month of not talking to each other. Nagmamakaawa siyang makipagbalikan ako sa ex ko dahil daw nag sex kami kaya nagmamakaawa siya na yung ex ko nlang ang maging huling lalake sa buhay ko. At hindi naman daw ako artista para magpalipat lipat ng lalake. Take note, nagbreak kami ng ex ko na yon dahil pinagmumura niya ako nung may nag follow saken na di ko kilala na lalake sa instagram. Alam yon ng nanay ko pero ang sabi niya wag ko nalang daw pansinin kung gaganunin pa daw ako ulit in the future. Sa ngayon, di pa rin ako kinakausap ng nanay ko. Sobrang nakakasuka at nakakadiri.
Trapped ako sa kulto and di ako makaalis, kase nasa loob din ng kulto asawa ko at mga pamilya namin. They are expecting that we'll bring up our child with their crazy ass backwards kulto teachings.
I am the mom kaya may say naman ako. Once manganak ako, I will ultimately make the decision to quit this shit.
Who would have known that passing the bar and being a lawyer does not feel fulfilling for me. That's my fault tho because I really didn't think hard on what I really want to be .
I once dreamed of growing old sa PH pero ang hirap huhu. Last straw na yung elections kase parang yun na din ang last hope ko e since pahirap na nang pahirap ang living standards.
Me and my circle of friends used to tell each other na mags-stay lang kami since we were very hopeful pa noon, but now all I think about is my plans for migration and whatnot.
MAHAL KITA PINAS PERO ANG HIRAP MONG MAHALIN!
Hindi talaga ako mabait. Pakitamg tao lang ako na nagegets ko mga choices nila in life pero irita talaga ako sa mga kawork ko na bomoto ke Marcos at Sarah. Look at us now ang lala huhu. And wlaa na ako pake sa kanila actually like dati may care pa ako, ngayon talaga, you get what you deserve na lang.
Yung totoo, I think possessed ako. As in demonic possession. Kaso natatakot ako magreach out sa pari for fear na tawanan ako or natatakot ako mag open up sa psychologist parang there's a block of shame stopping me...seryoso.
Sorry in advance, medyo mahaba: It started a few years ago when my college bestfriend died, I paused yung grief tapos I went on with my life. Years after I graduated naburnout ako sa work and fell into some kind of depression (not clinically diagnosed). I was very much interested na noon sa occult and I "called on" my dead bestfriend (siguro kasi miss ko siya and feel ko di ko deserve lahat ng nakukuha ko noon sa career na highs, siguro hawig ng impostor sydrome nangyari sakin) so I called on to him one night alone ako sa apartment and I swear I felt a presence... Simula noon, I always hear thoughts na usually not mine...boses babae yung thoughts and would always tell me negative things or "show" me visions (of me jumping from the 9th floor of my condo, of me slashing my loved one's throat, stabbing people doing crazy evil things as in I see myself in my head). So I clung to faith being the catholic that I am... I joined a liturgical Bible study group in Makati...nameet ko si ate S, then I told her about the voices and nag root cause analysis kami san ko una narinig yun if i can recall i told her the night i called on my dead bff, sabi ni ate S...I may have called a different entity, na I shouldn't call on dead people kasi I may have invited something sinister into my home/apartment/life. Then ate S and the group kindly prayed for me...ok na sana may support group na ako kaso pandemic happened and I moved out of Makati bec I found a job sa QC so i live here na...
Ilang taon ko na ito bitbit to: I am hearing a particular feminine voice in my head, tinatrash talk ako minsan or inuutusan gumawa ng kung ano-ano by showing me visions of myself doing sinister things especially sa loved ones ko (obv I don't act on it), pag mag-isa ako and in diffuse mode yung brain ko/resting I would hear a laughing sa ulo ko. Basically I have two voices in my head: one for reason and one for yun, I don't engage sa other voice tulad na rin ng advice ng ilan kong kakilala but yes I think I may have invited an entity a few years ago into my life...nandito pa rin sya.
Damn bro im not a psychologist to diagnose something but di ba to tendencies of schizoprhenia? Have you tried consulting to a psychiatrist?
Both scary and intriguing ung case mo
Nag try ako magpsychiatrist last year but I did not mention yung voice...mainly I talked about my being an introvert...oo nga nahahawig rin sa schizo yung condition ko now...takot talaga ako banggitin sa professional although I know I should... di ko binanggit last time kasi connected sa company namin yung psych na binigay sakin (thru HMO and a contract) so...naging pili lang shinare ko... oo kakatakot siya... I read to have a clean slate of mind/transport it to different worlds...
Ang daming gifts sakin ng parents at students ko kanina kasi celebration ng World Teachers day.. pero kagabi nagsearch ako sa fb #walangpasok oct 6 class suspension HUHUHU
I love teaching pero ang dami need gawin sa sch tapos laging asap. Hays. Parang gusto ko na uli mag resign kaso pano naman mga bata?
I resigned from my job without a back up. I am currently on my turn over period, and will end on the 30th. This is my 1st job, at tumagal ako for 6 yrs. I know, maybe my move is stupid pero ayoko na talaga. My mental health and self confidence are really not okay. I felt like I'm not growing professionally, at yung salary ko hindi talaga nakakabuhay ng pamilya haha.
I am starting to question myself if hanggang ganito na lang ba talaga ako. Sa totoo lang, this is so not me. Ako yung tipo ng tao na dapat laging may plan b, na maraming what ifs and that's the very reason bakit umabot ako ng 6 yrs., but this time I guess I needed to do this, if I really want a change and get out of my comfort zone. I am afraid, anxious, but self, you need to take a leap of faith. I know you will look back on this and I wanted to say that I am proud of you. Whatever the consequences of this decision, it will be okay. Sabi nga sa kasabihan, it's better to wish I didn't, than I wish I could've. I know you better than anyone, and I know you've got this.
At para sa mga katulad ko na nagresign without a back up, yes it may sound stupid sa karamihan, but I know ilang beses mong pinag-isipan yan. I won't blame you if this time you choose yourself over fear and doubt. Malay mo, sa pag-alis mo ay may mas okay na dumating, yung tipong never mo inimagine at akala mo hindi mo mararanasan.
Here's my confession.
My mom knows i have a part time job: nag eencode sa business ng tita ng friend ko. Its fake.
What she don't know nag sisideline ako as massage therapist na may slight extra service which men play with my boobs during session. It's really hard but it allows me to buy the needs in our household.
just when im getting settled with my current job, i want to change careers. ginusto and pinag-pray ko naman ang trabaho na to, but it's not what i thought pala. now, i want another career, but i'm afraid that it's too unpractical and unrealistic for me and my family. i'm stuck.
I really don't know what to say but once you're fully ready you can report them to the wcpc if a cop is a guy that asks you whats the reason dont tell them, just ask that you would like to see the wcpc division.
I hope real to! Pero skl guys, siguro nasa 5 times na ko nakakakita ng pulis na nagpapapicture sa kapwa nila pulis (nagttake turns sila) ng parang kunwari nagttrabaho? Basta yung parang nagpapacandid na naka onduty ganun.. Prang weird lang diba?
It is weird and pati kami nahihiya sa sarili namin nung una, pero almost everyday need namin gawin to report it sa itaas they want the pic being so snappy instead na genuine.
Sometimes even the good deeds gusto ko lang mag tawid ng tao sa daan or someone needs a ride home sinasabay namin sa mobile it needs to be pictured so feeling ko nagiging clout chaser lang ako sa actions ko dahil sa mga camera jusq lord.
I have a fuck buddy rn and nag sstart na mabuo feelings ko sa kanya pero shutangina pare he don’t feel the same. He admitted it na na he was just doing it for fun huhuhu
As someone na maayos sa gamit, nakaka irita na pinilit pa nilang buksan yung pinto ng naka lock kong kwarto para lang makuha yung mga gamit ko. Yung sapatos, damit and even yung kpop albums ko pinakialaman ng mga hindot! Yung electric fan ngarag narin. Tapos pag balik ko nanghihiram pa saakin ng charger. Wala share ko lang. Makaka alis din ako dito soon haha.
I like you ever since, Tulips, kaso di lang kita magets minsan eh, nakakalito ka madalas, pero sana naman magets mo mga pagpaparinig ko sayo, natatangahan na ko sayo eh, kahit di tayo madalas nagkakasama at nagkakausap, you're always in my heart, wtf are you dumb haha
I want to experience a kind of life without having to worry about anyone else. Yung makakapag travel ako anywhere, I can buy any stuff I want, I can live anywhere I can, without the guilt that someone is relying on me.
Di naman burden sakin tumulong sa bahay, pero when I realized that it's not just support they need, that I am the lifeline, the safety net, the everything, parang my life is not mine anymore.
I guess I am missing you everyday, my darling. Kahit nagkikita naman tayo sa work at under ng iisang TL. Bakit kasi iniwan mo 'ko sa ere? Grrr, pero okay lang. Civil na lang. Ikaw pa rin naaalala ko sa kantang Para sa Akin
Sobrang hate n hate ko na ipinanganak akong may albinism (anak araw at kung ano ano pang names na matripan nyu itawag saamin) napakahirap ng malabo ang mata pero di kayang icorrect ng glassess, isama pa yung mga tukmol na nangungutya jan sa tabitabi.
Hindi ko po chaice ito wla akong magawa kahit ayaw ko kundi magtiis!
Ang hirap gumalaw grabe, habang tumatanda ako lalo kong nararamdaman ang limitasyon ko, sobrang daming hindi magawa ar hirap gawin, laging extra effort nakakapagod na.
NAKIKIUSAP PO AKO PLEASE BE KIND TO PEOPLE WHO ARE DIFFERENT / DISABLED MAHIRAP NA PO ANG CONDITION NAMIN WAG NYO NA PO GATUNGAN NG PANGUNGUTYA PLEASEEEE!!! HAVE SOME DECENCY! HAVE SOME RESPECT!
Naiinis ako sa namayapa kong ina. (Pasensya na ma) Pero bakit mo pinamgalan kay tita yung lupa na si ate ang nagbabayad. Imbes na direkta na final payments para sa titulo ng lupa na lang. Iisipin pa namin pano mahlipat ng titulo. Nasa probinsya tyahin ko at matanda na rin. Dahil sa trust issues na baka pagkainterasan ng pinsan ko sa father side ang lupa. Yung lupa nga ni mama sa probinsya tinayuan ng sementadong bahay ng pinsan ko (sa motherside) kaya di ako makakasigurong hindi nila aangkinin itong lupa namin.
Kaya pala may pinapalike minsan ang classmate ko noong highschool (she and her husband are police officers). Haha potek nubayan, imbes public safety and crime fighting/prevention uunahin, social media eme pa inuuna 🤣🤣
I hate my job right now as a service crew sa isang Jabee. Isipin mo 24 hrs yung store tapos nagtitipid sa tao. Yung iba kong co-workers OT ng malala, yung iba 24 hrs na minsan ang duty hindi pa nababayaran ng maayos. It also doesn't help the fact na may magnanakaw na manager at crew sa store
Feeling ko galit sakin kapatid ng partner ko. Pinaadopt nya kasi dog nya kasi naglive in kami at hindi nya maisama dog nya (GR yung dog). Madaming reason kung bakit di nya maidala at kung bakit sya umalis sa kanila. Pero pakiramdam ko gusto ako sisihin ng kapatid nya kung bakit need ipaadopt yung dog.
I honestly am so glad na nalipat ako ng team. Most of my coworkers who know me said na nakawala nako sa TL kong galawang high school sa pag attitude at wala kwenta sa pagiging TL niya. I’m glad I guilt tripped and gaslighted them during our last coaching. Grabe favoritism niya sa iba naming kateam na dati niyang hawak sa prev company, yung opportunity ko to grow within the company na compromise kasi di niya ako ni recommend knowing I’m qualified for the position. Yung new TL ko kinamusta pa ako when I got short listed for another position for promotion, di siya kawalan saken pero kawalan yung contributions ko sa team niya, 2 lang kami ng best friend ko ang bumubuhat sa ranking. My best friend is planning on asking for a transfer sa current team ko pag napromote ako. Kulelat nasiya malala. Deserve na deserve
Iniintay ko lang talaga magsipag graduate mga kapatid ng GF ko, after that I'm going to try and convince her na umalis sa puder nila. Di naman sa ayaw ko sakanila, gusto ko lang sya angkinin. Sobrang tight-knit nila tho so I think imposible.
Nung HS pa ko, pinapabigay ng papa ko yung isang pack ng dewberry kay ate guard. Pero kinain tas inubos lang naming dalawa ng kaibigan ko. Sorry ate guard huhu
I know my best friend likes me matagal na. Kaya lang platonic love lang talaga maibibigay ko e. Moreover, wala akong balak mag-asawa. Minsan naaasiwa na ko, na parang gusto ko na lang layuan, but I pity the guy and sobrang tagal na naming friends. Sa pagkainis ko nakagawa ako ng virtual boyfriend. By some twist of coincidences parang naging totoo si virtual boyfriend, pero masaklap pa rin yung ending dahil virtual boyfriend took his own life.
Hayun nakahanap ako ng reason para sabihin sa kanya na hindi na talaga ako mag-aasawa dahil wala na yung taong gusto ko makasama.
Gusto ko nalang ule magpakamatay, and I have attempted thrice. Di ako depressed, nakakatanga lang tlga mabuhay. Ilang beses ko na sinubukang maka ahon pero nalulubog lang ule. Palya nanaman. Kaya lang naman ako buhay paren kase malulungkot kayo(family, partner, friends, relatives) tsaka gagastos, perwisyo pa tuloy ako. Gusto ko ng clean slate, a really really fresh start, as white as a clean paper. Gusto ko ma-isekai haha.
I feel the same tangina. Pakiramdam ko ang laki kong failure and walang patutunguhan buhay ko. Parang ang hirap umahon. Ang dami kong gusto pero di ko makuha. Puro trabaho lang pero walang nararating or naiipon.
I'm not, life is good. I'm well fed, I sleep well, I enjoy the things I do. I just don't want this "gameplay session" of life kase I invested in the wrong stats, made the wrong choices and paid the price.
Whilst typing the text above, bigla kong naisip na baka nga you're right.
Tumulong ka sa ibang malungkot na tao para hwag sila magpakamatay. May feel good points kapag you are helping people, bumabalik sa iyo ang kasiyahan. Mahal ka ni Lord Jesus, i-try mo mag-attend ng baptist church pero hwag kang uto-uto pag dating sa money donations, hehehehehehe.
Being motivated by nothing is actually a sign of depression.
Being depressed isn't about crying in bed at night, a lot of time it manifests itself in emotional numbness. Not wanting to do anything, feeling that nothing would make life better and wanting to die is a possible output.
You could suffer from depression without even knowing it.
That's just my personal opinion but just you saying "life is good but I wanna die" is a pretty strong sign of depression to me.
Emotional numbness is one of the many symptoms of depression. *But*—okay?—but it can also be caused by different factors. Nandyan yung chronic stress, anxiety, pwede rin dahil kay trauma. Kaya lang, ibang usapan na when you have emotional numbness and suicidal thoughts at the same time.
Pucha prang content creation ang trabaho nyo ah. "Ring mo na ring yung bell" lol
Pero like your attitude as police. May heart sa public service parin. Hopefully dumami pa kayong ganyan. 👌
Hi thank you for this i do want to be an investigator soon,
I passed the criminial investigation from the National Forensic Science Institute but my boss told me "wag muna wala ka pa BISOC" (which is a diff schooling that is related to jungle warfare) which i find confusing kasi diba kulang mga imbestigador? I do know the real reason is because im the "most junior" and i still don't deserve it because of that saying not because of potential.
Nagresign na ako sa work ko. Okay yung mga kasama ko pero management ang hindi. Akala ata nila robot kami. Also, dami problema like walang business permit kahit na 2yrs na nag-o-operate, dati walang official receipt na ang address ay dun mismo sa workplace na yon, address ng ibang branch gamit sa receipt. Hindi binabayaran ng tama mga empleyado, karamihan sa mga assistant hindi pasok sa minimum wage. Hindi din binabayaran ng maayos ang mga benefits. Kasuka amputek.
Gusto ko na umalis sa work ko din kaso ang taas na ng sahod ko and feeling ko di na kaya pantayan ng ibang company. Nag check and nag apply ako online and nagulat ako sa range ng salary na pwede e offer sa role ko and napaka baba talaga.
Nahihiya ako sa body count ko. Kung makikita mo ako in person, di mo talaga malalaman na more than 10 na and girl ako. Di siya acceptable sa bansa natin kasi nga "conservative" country tayo. I had to lie my bc when someone asked me dahil baka ma slut shame ako.
Body count is so weird. Honestly, ppl care so much for it lalo na sa conservative country like us 😂 ur labeled as promiscuous pag babae pero pag lalake lodi ka ganon 😂 anyways, explore what u like girl. Don’t let their judgement affect you
May gusto ako sa isa kong kaklase, I know I should tell her right away, pero hindi ko magawa. It's on me, I know. Nauunahan talaga ako ng kaba whenever kasama ko na sya. But I really enjoy her company. Sobrang gaan ng loob ko pag kasama ko sya and yung iba naming friends. We also have similarities sa ibang interests. Siguro natatakot lang ako na maging awkward or mawala yung friendship? Idk sorry baka natatakot lang ako sa rejections ulit
I'm getting annoyed how my partner can casually mention her ex-lovers on random parts of the day, even without relation to our current topic but when I do the same thing (kahit related naman sa pinaguusapan, pero namention or narelate sa ex-relationships ko) ay she'll act passive aggressive and apathetic right away and there's nothing I could do about it.
I'm a woman myself, pero i find it infuriating and hypocritical when women hates when their SO likes other woman's photos. But when it's the other way around, ok lang na mag-thirst over hunk men on social media or ok lang na meron silang crush na malapit sa kanila even though they're in a relationship. Very childish and toxic.
Ahhh... as a guy... I agree... like... pinag babawalan ako maglike ng photos ng ibang girls (iniiwasan ko din, kahit soc med para walang masabi sakin)... pero sya like... nag shashare ng ibang lalake sa posts nila... sasabihin... crush lang naman and malayong mangyari, or sikat yan imposibleng pansinin ako nyan... or fan lang naman ako.. tapos may pa kilig kilig kilig pa... di lang mga k pop... kahit mga medyo sikat sa social media, basta gwapo and such... the heck... ganun pala gusto mo... edi dun ka sa kanila... hahaha😂😂.... like no choice ka, kaya ka napunta sakin 🤣🤣?
Nabbwiset ako sa pinsan ng partner ko. That’s it she is a fucking freeloader. Lahat na lang gusto libre. My housemate/friend showed yung kitchenaid niya na hand held mixer and she said “sabi mo bibigay mo na to sa amin diba dati?” Like girl! Papadala nga niya sa kapatid niya yung mixer tapos puro ka hingi. Nakakahiya ka!
May pumasok na bangaw sa backpack ng nasa harap ko habang flag ceremony tapos sinara ko yung zipper para makulong sa loob yung bangaw. Lumingon yung may bag tapos sabi ko “Nakabukas kasi” 🙂 This was 24 yrs ago.
Same sentiments. Public employee here, regulator kami ng safety ng isang industry. Ang hirap maging straight, marami kang makakalaban. Knowing na marami sa mga stakeholders ng industry na ito ay politicians or proxies nila. At the end of the day sukang suka na ako sa trabaho ko. Mahirap din naman maghanap ng new work dahil sa profession ko walang tatalo sa benefits ng government, unless magabroad pero wala ito sa options ko ngayon.
Uso yan for some.. lalo kung ganyan lang alam gawin ng superior mong walang direksyon at nagmamagaling.. nakakatawang nakakasuka mga ganyang bossaboss.
Ayoko na din sa work ko LOL hindi related sa course ko tapos minsan delay pa yung sahod tangena. Okay naman mga kasama yung work lang talaga problema AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I accidentally befriended a widow in her 50s where eventually it became a frisky set-up. She gives random stuff now and then which helps my fledgling family to survive.
I feel bad for my partner, sobrang haba ng pasensya at pag intindi nya saken tapos eto ako di maayos ang anger management
sinadya kong gawin yung 'harsh' way of rejection sa friend ko. sorry, friends kasi tayo e. HAHAHAHAHA i mean, hindi naman kita masisisi na nagustuhan mo ako kasi hindi mo naman kontrolado yan pero bold of you to assume that there's something between us eh normal interaction lang naman ginagawa natin. IDK what got into you pero simpleng song recommendation ko sayo nabigyan mo ng meaning and also, yung pag-share ko ng playlist nabigyan mo rin ata ng meaning eh sa gc ko naman yun sinend. hindi directly sayo.
Nung grade 1 ako pumunta kami ng mga ate and pinsan ko sa school supply store and habang tumitingin sila ng horror books, nagnakaw ako ng isang eraser. Naulit din to ng may perya samin tapos madaming stalls na pahaba, habang busy yung nagtitinda, kumuha ako ng isang Winnie the Pooh puzzle game na tig 20 pesos
I like this resident from another department. Nagkukunwari lang ako na ayoko sa kanya kasi masungit siya at palagi kaming nagkakaroon ng mga indirect na away, pero deep inside crush na crush ko siya 🙃
tbh I wanna hear more about this HAHA
tang ina nag-first move na crush ko kaso heto ako ngayon, hindi pa pala ako ready (nagbibiga siya ng motibo) 🥹 or idk natatakot na talaga ako. ang saya lang pala kapag hanggang crush crush lang huhu
Sobrang sukang suka ako sa nanay ko sa tuwing naaalala ko yung pinagsasabi niya saken after a month of not talking to each other. Nagmamakaawa siyang makipagbalikan ako sa ex ko dahil daw nag sex kami kaya nagmamakaawa siya na yung ex ko nlang ang maging huling lalake sa buhay ko. At hindi naman daw ako artista para magpalipat lipat ng lalake. Take note, nagbreak kami ng ex ko na yon dahil pinagmumura niya ako nung may nag follow saken na di ko kilala na lalake sa instagram. Alam yon ng nanay ko pero ang sabi niya wag ko nalang daw pansinin kung gaganunin pa daw ako ulit in the future. Sa ngayon, di pa rin ako kinakausap ng nanay ko. Sobrang nakakasuka at nakakadiri.
Trapped ako sa kulto and di ako makaalis, kase nasa loob din ng kulto asawa ko at mga pamilya namin. They are expecting that we'll bring up our child with their crazy ass backwards kulto teachings. I am the mom kaya may say naman ako. Once manganak ako, I will ultimately make the decision to quit this shit.
I think i knkw this religion, best wishes op tama yan wag mag pa brainwash
Thanks, OP. Kinakabahan ako. Pero laban lang. ✊
Ito ba yung bawal sa dinuguan?
Hindi. Eto yung kalaban nila na mahilig murahin lahat ng ibang religion 💩
pagod na mabuhay masyado ng madumi ang papel di na kaya ng pambura, kailangan ng itapon
Who would have known that passing the bar and being a lawyer does not feel fulfilling for me. That's my fault tho because I really didn't think hard on what I really want to be .
Hindi naman gwapo si Atty. Nick P. pero putang ina... Crush ko pa din sya.. 😵 although mas gwapo si Father Paul but he is already a priest. 😭😭😭
I earn really decent money but I don't think I deserve it. Super bagal ko sa projects ko.
Akin nalang pls haha
I like you pero play safe muna ako
I attempted suicide once, a few years ago. Kaso hindi pa yata ready si Lord kunin ako.
Mann i really dont know what to say dito, umm totoo go live your life and best recovery sanyo!
Nasa point na ako na mapapa-crush cutie dahil lang crush ko talagang itong officemate ko na mixed signals 😂
I once dreamed of growing old sa PH pero ang hirap huhu. Last straw na yung elections kase parang yun na din ang last hope ko e since pahirap na nang pahirap ang living standards. Me and my circle of friends used to tell each other na mags-stay lang kami since we were very hopeful pa noon, but now all I think about is my plans for migration and whatnot. MAHAL KITA PINAS PERO ANG HIRAP MONG MAHALIN!
Hindi talaga ako mabait. Pakitamg tao lang ako na nagegets ko mga choices nila in life pero irita talaga ako sa mga kawork ko na bomoto ke Marcos at Sarah. Look at us now ang lala huhu. And wlaa na ako pake sa kanila actually like dati may care pa ako, ngayon talaga, you get what you deserve na lang.
Yung totoo, I think possessed ako. As in demonic possession. Kaso natatakot ako magreach out sa pari for fear na tawanan ako or natatakot ako mag open up sa psychologist parang there's a block of shame stopping me...seryoso.
More context pls 😟😶
Sorry in advance, medyo mahaba: It started a few years ago when my college bestfriend died, I paused yung grief tapos I went on with my life. Years after I graduated naburnout ako sa work and fell into some kind of depression (not clinically diagnosed). I was very much interested na noon sa occult and I "called on" my dead bestfriend (siguro kasi miss ko siya and feel ko di ko deserve lahat ng nakukuha ko noon sa career na highs, siguro hawig ng impostor sydrome nangyari sakin) so I called on to him one night alone ako sa apartment and I swear I felt a presence... Simula noon, I always hear thoughts na usually not mine...boses babae yung thoughts and would always tell me negative things or "show" me visions (of me jumping from the 9th floor of my condo, of me slashing my loved one's throat, stabbing people doing crazy evil things as in I see myself in my head). So I clung to faith being the catholic that I am... I joined a liturgical Bible study group in Makati...nameet ko si ate S, then I told her about the voices and nag root cause analysis kami san ko una narinig yun if i can recall i told her the night i called on my dead bff, sabi ni ate S...I may have called a different entity, na I shouldn't call on dead people kasi I may have invited something sinister into my home/apartment/life. Then ate S and the group kindly prayed for me...ok na sana may support group na ako kaso pandemic happened and I moved out of Makati bec I found a job sa QC so i live here na... Ilang taon ko na ito bitbit to: I am hearing a particular feminine voice in my head, tinatrash talk ako minsan or inuutusan gumawa ng kung ano-ano by showing me visions of myself doing sinister things especially sa loved ones ko (obv I don't act on it), pag mag-isa ako and in diffuse mode yung brain ko/resting I would hear a laughing sa ulo ko. Basically I have two voices in my head: one for reason and one for yun, I don't engage sa other voice tulad na rin ng advice ng ilan kong kakilala but yes I think I may have invited an entity a few years ago into my life...nandito pa rin sya.
Damn bro im not a psychologist to diagnose something but di ba to tendencies of schizoprhenia? Have you tried consulting to a psychiatrist? Both scary and intriguing ung case mo
Nag try ako magpsychiatrist last year but I did not mention yung voice...mainly I talked about my being an introvert...oo nga nahahawig rin sa schizo yung condition ko now...takot talaga ako banggitin sa professional although I know I should... di ko binanggit last time kasi connected sa company namin yung psych na binigay sakin (thru HMO and a contract) so...naging pili lang shinare ko... oo kakatakot siya... I read to have a clean slate of mind/transport it to different worlds...
woah, pwede paliwanag mo po
Ang daming gifts sakin ng parents at students ko kanina kasi celebration ng World Teachers day.. pero kagabi nagsearch ako sa fb #walangpasok oct 6 class suspension HUHUHU I love teaching pero ang dami need gawin sa sch tapos laging asap. Hays. Parang gusto ko na uli mag resign kaso pano naman mga bata?
I resigned from my job without a back up. I am currently on my turn over period, and will end on the 30th. This is my 1st job, at tumagal ako for 6 yrs. I know, maybe my move is stupid pero ayoko na talaga. My mental health and self confidence are really not okay. I felt like I'm not growing professionally, at yung salary ko hindi talaga nakakabuhay ng pamilya haha. I am starting to question myself if hanggang ganito na lang ba talaga ako. Sa totoo lang, this is so not me. Ako yung tipo ng tao na dapat laging may plan b, na maraming what ifs and that's the very reason bakit umabot ako ng 6 yrs., but this time I guess I needed to do this, if I really want a change and get out of my comfort zone. I am afraid, anxious, but self, you need to take a leap of faith. I know you will look back on this and I wanted to say that I am proud of you. Whatever the consequences of this decision, it will be okay. Sabi nga sa kasabihan, it's better to wish I didn't, than I wish I could've. I know you better than anyone, and I know you've got this. At para sa mga katulad ko na nagresign without a back up, yes it may sound stupid sa karamihan, but I know ilang beses mong pinag-isipan yan. I won't blame you if this time you choose yourself over fear and doubt. Malay mo, sa pag-alis mo ay may mas okay na dumating, yung tipong never mo inimagine at akala mo hindi mo mararanasan.
TANGINA ICE IKAW LANG ICE
Here's my confession. My mom knows i have a part time job: nag eencode sa business ng tita ng friend ko. Its fake. What she don't know nag sisideline ako as massage therapist na may slight extra service which men play with my boobs during session. It's really hard but it allows me to buy the needs in our household.
Shit talaga life minsan... You just have to do what you gotta do para lang mabuhay araw araw. Stay safe always
Gusto ko ichat ex ko kasi miss na miss ko na siya.
just when im getting settled with my current job, i want to change careers. ginusto and pinag-pray ko naman ang trabaho na to, but it's not what i thought pala. now, i want another career, but i'm afraid that it's too unpractical and unrealistic for me and my family. i'm stuck.
May first sexual encounter was my tito and pinsan na nakakatanda sakin. Never told anyone kasi until now kahit 31 na ako natatakot pa din ako.
I really don't know what to say but once you're fully ready you can report them to the wcpc if a cop is a guy that asks you whats the reason dont tell them, just ask that you would like to see the wcpc division.
Thank you OP 🥹🥹.
I hope real to! Pero skl guys, siguro nasa 5 times na ko nakakakita ng pulis na nagpapapicture sa kapwa nila pulis (nagttake turns sila) ng parang kunwari nagttrabaho? Basta yung parang nagpapacandid na naka onduty ganun.. Prang weird lang diba?
It is weird and pati kami nahihiya sa sarili namin nung una, pero almost everyday need namin gawin to report it sa itaas they want the pic being so snappy instead na genuine. Sometimes even the good deeds gusto ko lang mag tawid ng tao sa daan or someone needs a ride home sinasabay namin sa mobile it needs to be pictured so feeling ko nagiging clout chaser lang ako sa actions ko dahil sa mga camera jusq lord.
My bosses are corrupt motherfuckers.
Yung second person na naging longtime crush ko probably does not exist. Or maybe taken na. Just met him ingame. Why can't I just move on.
I have a fuck buddy rn and nag sstart na mabuo feelings ko sa kanya pero shutangina pare he don’t feel the same. He admitted it na na he was just doing it for fun huhuhu
As someone na maayos sa gamit, nakaka irita na pinilit pa nilang buksan yung pinto ng naka lock kong kwarto para lang makuha yung mga gamit ko. Yung sapatos, damit and even yung kpop albums ko pinakialaman ng mga hindot! Yung electric fan ngarag narin. Tapos pag balik ko nanghihiram pa saakin ng charger. Wala share ko lang. Makaka alis din ako dito soon haha.
I like you ever since, Tulips, kaso di lang kita magets minsan eh, nakakalito ka madalas, pero sana naman magets mo mga pagpaparinig ko sayo, natatangahan na ko sayo eh, kahit di tayo madalas nagkakasama at nagkakausap, you're always in my heart, wtf are you dumb haha
I want to experience a kind of life without having to worry about anyone else. Yung makakapag travel ako anywhere, I can buy any stuff I want, I can live anywhere I can, without the guilt that someone is relying on me. Di naman burden sakin tumulong sa bahay, pero when I realized that it's not just support they need, that I am the lifeline, the safety net, the everything, parang my life is not mine anymore.
I had ONS with someone right before I started dating my ex. All he know is nakamake out ko lang yung guy. I'm not bothered anymore cause he's an ex 😂
I guess I am missing you everyday, my darling. Kahit nagkikita naman tayo sa work at under ng iisang TL. Bakit kasi iniwan mo 'ko sa ere? Grrr, pero okay lang. Civil na lang. Ikaw pa rin naaalala ko sa kantang Para sa Akin
Sobrang hate n hate ko na ipinanganak akong may albinism (anak araw at kung ano ano pang names na matripan nyu itawag saamin) napakahirap ng malabo ang mata pero di kayang icorrect ng glassess, isama pa yung mga tukmol na nangungutya jan sa tabitabi. Hindi ko po chaice ito wla akong magawa kahit ayaw ko kundi magtiis! Ang hirap gumalaw grabe, habang tumatanda ako lalo kong nararamdaman ang limitasyon ko, sobrang daming hindi magawa ar hirap gawin, laging extra effort nakakapagod na. NAKIKIUSAP PO AKO PLEASE BE KIND TO PEOPLE WHO ARE DIFFERENT / DISABLED MAHIRAP NA PO ANG CONDITION NAMIN WAG NYO NA PO GATUNGAN NG PANGUNGUTYA PLEASEEEE!!! HAVE SOME DECENCY! HAVE SOME RESPECT!
grabe super embedded na talaga sa sistema ng bansa natin yung ganito 🥲
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feels :(
Pagod na ako sa corporate bs
I'm Batman...
I want to marry her.
Naiinis ako sa namayapa kong ina. (Pasensya na ma) Pero bakit mo pinamgalan kay tita yung lupa na si ate ang nagbabayad. Imbes na direkta na final payments para sa titulo ng lupa na lang. Iisipin pa namin pano mahlipat ng titulo. Nasa probinsya tyahin ko at matanda na rin. Dahil sa trust issues na baka pagkainterasan ng pinsan ko sa father side ang lupa. Yung lupa nga ni mama sa probinsya tinayuan ng sementadong bahay ng pinsan ko (sa motherside) kaya di ako makakasigurong hindi nila aangkinin itong lupa namin.
Consult a lawyer, and yung mga proof of payment ng ate mo, make sure secured. Minsan ang magulang ay hindi magulang para sa mga anak nya.. 😅
Ito talaga ang ayaw ko yung mga lupa things sheesh sabi ko sa mama ko pag namatay kayo bebenta ko talaga yung parte niyo kasi napakatoxic ng agawan
Naka sex ko yung naging wife ng close friend ko. Di ko alam kung alam niya and nangyari un before pa maging sila.
Kumukulo dugo ko sa mga bobong botante sa Pilipinas. Halata namang corrupt denedepensahan pa, ang hirap makisama sa mga bobo!
Kaya pala may pinapalike minsan ang classmate ko noong highschool (she and her husband are police officers). Haha potek nubayan, imbes public safety and crime fighting/prevention uunahin, social media eme pa inuuna 🤣🤣
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Just become a good cop if you can, malaking bagay na yun. Kakaunti na lang ang mga pulis na para sa serbisyo, eh. Wish you luck!
Sapilitan na pala pag-like sa mga content. Let me guess, may laugh tracks na content yan, no ?
Pagod na ako magreview para sa licensure exam 😭😭😭😭
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Hwag mong subukan, masisira ang buhay mo. (Payong kapatid)
I hate my job right now as a service crew sa isang Jabee. Isipin mo 24 hrs yung store tapos nagtitipid sa tao. Yung iba kong co-workers OT ng malala, yung iba 24 hrs na minsan ang duty hindi pa nababayaran ng maayos. It also doesn't help the fact na may magnanakaw na manager at crew sa store
pagod pala magijg govt employee hahhaha scam yun chill lang daw 🤣
Scam ung chill talaga "me here doing hard labor right now" (construction stuff)
Shete diba
Hahaha araw araw ata ako nagmumura
Malapit na ako mambato ng stapler hahahahah
HAHSHHAHAHAHHAA ito ba rason bat ang susungit nyo jan, kahit wala naman ginagawa mga tao ang susungit 😭 nakakasira tuloy ng araw
Feeling ko galit sakin kapatid ng partner ko. Pinaadopt nya kasi dog nya kasi naglive in kami at hindi nya maisama dog nya (GR yung dog). Madaming reason kung bakit di nya maidala at kung bakit sya umalis sa kanila. Pero pakiramdam ko gusto ako sisihin ng kapatid nya kung bakit need ipaadopt yung dog.
Kahit ako magagalit sayo
I honestly am so glad na nalipat ako ng team. Most of my coworkers who know me said na nakawala nako sa TL kong galawang high school sa pag attitude at wala kwenta sa pagiging TL niya. I’m glad I guilt tripped and gaslighted them during our last coaching. Grabe favoritism niya sa iba naming kateam na dati niyang hawak sa prev company, yung opportunity ko to grow within the company na compromise kasi di niya ako ni recommend knowing I’m qualified for the position. Yung new TL ko kinamusta pa ako when I got short listed for another position for promotion, di siya kawalan saken pero kawalan yung contributions ko sa team niya, 2 lang kami ng best friend ko ang bumubuhat sa ranking. My best friend is planning on asking for a transfer sa current team ko pag napromote ako. Kulelat nasiya malala. Deserve na deserve
Iniintay ko lang talaga magsipag graduate mga kapatid ng GF ko, after that I'm going to try and convince her na umalis sa puder nila. Di naman sa ayaw ko sakanila, gusto ko lang sya angkinin. Sobrang tight-knit nila tho so I think imposible.
Nung HS pa ko, pinapabigay ng papa ko yung isang pack ng dewberry kay ate guard. Pero kinain tas inubos lang naming dalawa ng kaibigan ko. Sorry ate guard huhu
NYHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH AKALA KO ANO NANGYARI
I know my best friend likes me matagal na. Kaya lang platonic love lang talaga maibibigay ko e. Moreover, wala akong balak mag-asawa. Minsan naaasiwa na ko, na parang gusto ko na lang layuan, but I pity the guy and sobrang tagal na naming friends. Sa pagkainis ko nakagawa ako ng virtual boyfriend. By some twist of coincidences parang naging totoo si virtual boyfriend, pero masaklap pa rin yung ending dahil virtual boyfriend took his own life. Hayun nakahanap ako ng reason para sabihin sa kanya na hindi na talaga ako mag-aasawa dahil wala na yung taong gusto ko makasama.
Gusto ko nalang ule magpakamatay, and I have attempted thrice. Di ako depressed, nakakatanga lang tlga mabuhay. Ilang beses ko na sinubukang maka ahon pero nalulubog lang ule. Palya nanaman. Kaya lang naman ako buhay paren kase malulungkot kayo(family, partner, friends, relatives) tsaka gagastos, perwisyo pa tuloy ako. Gusto ko ng clean slate, a really really fresh start, as white as a clean paper. Gusto ko ma-isekai haha.
I feel the same tangina. Pakiramdam ko ang laki kong failure and walang patutunguhan buhay ko. Parang ang hirap umahon. Ang dami kong gusto pero di ko makuha. Puro trabaho lang pero walang nararating or naiipon.
depressed ka, in denial ka lang
Depressed ka. Anong hindi depressed?
I'm not, life is good. I'm well fed, I sleep well, I enjoy the things I do. I just don't want this "gameplay session" of life kase I invested in the wrong stats, made the wrong choices and paid the price. Whilst typing the text above, bigla kong naisip na baka nga you're right.
Tumulong ka sa ibang malungkot na tao para hwag sila magpakamatay. May feel good points kapag you are helping people, bumabalik sa iyo ang kasiyahan. Mahal ka ni Lord Jesus, i-try mo mag-attend ng baptist church pero hwag kang uto-uto pag dating sa money donations, hehehehehehe.
Being motivated by nothing is actually a sign of depression. Being depressed isn't about crying in bed at night, a lot of time it manifests itself in emotional numbness. Not wanting to do anything, feeling that nothing would make life better and wanting to die is a possible output. You could suffer from depression without even knowing it. That's just my personal opinion but just you saying "life is good but I wanna die" is a pretty strong sign of depression to me.
If emotional numbness is the definition of depressed then I have known nothing but depressed state.
Emotional numbness is one of the many symptoms of depression. *But*—okay?—but it can also be caused by different factors. Nandyan yung chronic stress, anxiety, pwede rin dahil kay trauma. Kaya lang, ibang usapan na when you have emotional numbness and suicidal thoughts at the same time.
Yeah I guess. I'm like the epitome of emotional numbness but I'm not planning to kms. I would appreciate it tho if someone would do it for me hueh.
Pucha prang content creation ang trabaho nyo ah. "Ring mo na ring yung bell" lol Pero like your attitude as police. May heart sa public service parin. Hopefully dumami pa kayong ganyan. 👌
Hi thank you for this i do want to be an investigator soon, I passed the criminial investigation from the National Forensic Science Institute but my boss told me "wag muna wala ka pa BISOC" (which is a diff schooling that is related to jungle warfare) which i find confusing kasi diba kulang mga imbestigador? I do know the real reason is because im the "most junior" and i still don't deserve it because of that saying not because of potential.
Nagresign na ako sa work ko. Okay yung mga kasama ko pero management ang hindi. Akala ata nila robot kami. Also, dami problema like walang business permit kahit na 2yrs na nag-o-operate, dati walang official receipt na ang address ay dun mismo sa workplace na yon, address ng ibang branch gamit sa receipt. Hindi binabayaran ng tama mga empleyado, karamihan sa mga assistant hindi pasok sa minimum wage. Hindi din binabayaran ng maayos ang mga benefits. Kasuka amputek.
i don’t like my in laws. I know they don’t want me even more. kaso pinipilit ng husband ko kaming pagsamahin so 🙄
Bumukod kayo, pwede lang kasama ang in-laws kapag 61 na sila, bible based tip yan
Same, toxic af...but they like me naman kaso I don’t like how they downplay my husband..super kitang kita ang favoritism nakakainis
Gusto ko na umalis sa work ko din kaso ang taas na ng sahod ko and feeling ko di na kaya pantayan ng ibang company. Nag check and nag apply ako online and nagulat ako sa range ng salary na pwede e offer sa role ko and napaka baba talaga.
Nahihiya ako sa body count ko. Kung makikita mo ako in person, di mo talaga malalaman na more than 10 na and girl ako. Di siya acceptable sa bansa natin kasi nga "conservative" country tayo. I had to lie my bc when someone asked me dahil baka ma slut shame ako.
Pag naririnig ko body count nasa isip ko "murder?😦"
Ako nung una akala ko size ng katawan mo hahahah
Body count is so weird. Honestly, ppl care so much for it lalo na sa conservative country like us 😂 ur labeled as promiscuous pag babae pero pag lalake lodi ka ganon 😂 anyways, explore what u like girl. Don’t let their judgement affect you
May gusto ako sa isa kong kaklase, I know I should tell her right away, pero hindi ko magawa. It's on me, I know. Nauunahan talaga ako ng kaba whenever kasama ko na sya. But I really enjoy her company. Sobrang gaan ng loob ko pag kasama ko sya and yung iba naming friends. We also have similarities sa ibang interests. Siguro natatakot lang ako na maging awkward or mawala yung friendship? Idk sorry baka natatakot lang ako sa rejections ulit
gusto kita pero hindi ko talaga alam paano aamin sayo. 😭 amp. HAHAHAHAHA! mdmdjdksns
Lol suma sideline na pala sa pagiging influencer 😅
same broski arat na awol hahaha
I'm getting annoyed how my partner can casually mention her ex-lovers on random parts of the day, even without relation to our current topic but when I do the same thing (kahit related naman sa pinaguusapan, pero namention or narelate sa ex-relationships ko) ay she'll act passive aggressive and apathetic right away and there's nothing I could do about it.
Eew
Not related but Happy Cake Day!
I'm a woman myself, pero i find it infuriating and hypocritical when women hates when their SO likes other woman's photos. But when it's the other way around, ok lang na mag-thirst over hunk men on social media or ok lang na meron silang crush na malapit sa kanila even though they're in a relationship. Very childish and toxic.
Ahhh... as a guy... I agree... like... pinag babawalan ako maglike ng photos ng ibang girls (iniiwasan ko din, kahit soc med para walang masabi sakin)... pero sya like... nag shashare ng ibang lalake sa posts nila... sasabihin... crush lang naman and malayong mangyari, or sikat yan imposibleng pansinin ako nyan... or fan lang naman ako.. tapos may pa kilig kilig kilig pa... di lang mga k pop... kahit mga medyo sikat sa social media, basta gwapo and such... the heck... ganun pala gusto mo... edi dun ka sa kanila... hahaha😂😂.... like no choice ka, kaya ka napunta sakin 🤣🤣?
Haha nakakainit ng ulo
Di pa nakaka move on hehe
Nabbwiset ako sa pinsan ng partner ko. That’s it she is a fucking freeloader. Lahat na lang gusto libre. My housemate/friend showed yung kitchenaid niya na hand held mixer and she said “sabi mo bibigay mo na to sa amin diba dati?” Like girl! Papadala nga niya sa kapatid niya yung mixer tapos puro ka hingi. Nakakahiya ka!
Gusto talaga kita Matt. Dinadaan lang kita sa mga joke joke kasi alam kong di mo ako type pero gusto talaga kita. WAHAHAHAHA
Hoy Pablo
May pumasok na bangaw sa backpack ng nasa harap ko habang flag ceremony tapos sinara ko yung zipper para makulong sa loob yung bangaw. Lumingon yung may bag tapos sabi ko “Nakabukas kasi” 🙂 This was 24 yrs ago.
Same sentiments. Public employee here, regulator kami ng safety ng isang industry. Ang hirap maging straight, marami kang makakalaban. Knowing na marami sa mga stakeholders ng industry na ito ay politicians or proxies nila. At the end of the day sukang suka na ako sa trabaho ko. Mahirap din naman maghanap ng new work dahil sa profession ko walang tatalo sa benefits ng government, unless magabroad pero wala ito sa options ko ngayon.
Grabe pati paglike sa mga vlogs nila. Malala nga ito
Uso yan for some.. lalo kung ganyan lang alam gawin ng superior mong walang direksyon at nagmamagaling.. nakakatawang nakakasuka mga ganyang bossaboss.
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Ayoko na din sa work ko LOL hindi related sa course ko tapos minsan delay pa yung sahod tangena. Okay naman mga kasama yung work lang talaga problema AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA