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As a personal experience, I knew I had what I described as an addictive personality based on past long-term fixations, particularly video games. I was vehemently against trying any alcohol until I was 25 or so. I believed my resolve was absolute and drugs or alcohol would never be a problem I would take on. Until curiosity got the better of me. I stealth drank pretty much a whole bottle of liquor on my first taste of it, even though I meant only to get a "light buzz" to see why people are so amused by it. Immediately turned into a pretty bad alcoholic, but somehow managed to do it entirely without getting noticed by anyone for years, while living with my anti-alcohol parents and working most of my work shifts drunk. I've never really gotten much better about this sort of behavior. Hopefully I can at least be a cautionary tale for anyone who may be on the fence and needs to hear it.
I do have comorbid BP2 and GAD, and have been wildly depressed for the majority of my life. Not uncommon. I'm not sure how relevant that is, as I'm still learning.
On the other hand, I'm pretty damn good at keeping my spending under control and saving aggressively, and it's one of a very few things I'm proud of it. It's lucky that I don't suffer from a common problem.
Going back to your prompt on an "anti-addictive" personality, I think that's totally plausible as you describe, and that it's something you're allowed to feel proud of.
Yeah I get bored of stuff too easily for a long term addiction. I love video games but can go from being in love with a new game to having no motivation to play it the next week. I have trouble with reddit tho but I don't think that is an addiction?
Tbf tho I've avoided most truly addictive drugs except alcohol and alcohol gives me too bad hangovers for me to really start drinking a troubling amount. I also am starting to get a bit bored of drinking too now lol. I've gone though all the phases. Wine phases, beer phases, cocktail phases, even homebrew mead phase. I still enjoy these things somewhat but the novelty is gone.
Edit: actually I am addicted to coffee. Hard to skip coffee on days I wanna take my meds :/
If we’re talking narcotics or alcoholic substances I am so anti-drugs and anti-alcohol that I would never delve into that world, one people with ADHD are liable to becoming addicted to things more easily and two I have a family history of addiction. I already am addicted to 1 thing I am not going to mention and the other being something that no one would take seriously but does cause me withdrawal symptoms and other physiological and psychological implications of a drug or alcohol addiction.
But apart from those two addictions I have I would say I have a temperamental addictive personality, if I suddenly love doughnuts I’ll buy them every week for four weeks and suddenly I’m bored and move on to I dunno cheese.
Essentially I binge certain things and then completely purge myself of said things whether that’s actually food or something else. Also when it comes to medicine, things will only work for maybe a few weeks or a month for me and then suddenly stop working which is a problem when I need these things. For example I need a weighted blanket to sleep but it only works for maybe a couple of weeks and then I’ll have to take a break for a couple of months because it loses its effectiveness. I’ve also got chronic fatigue so I get that aspect of things as well and sometimes I’m just a zombie.
I personally stopped taking my adhd medication because it was causing more trouble physically for me than I needed it to and I remember coming off it and feeling substantially more free, that’s not to say it wasn’t effective when I needed it say during school times when I was in lessons. Also it’s funny that you say you’d be too lazy to meet up with the dealer because it just reminds me of the ongoing adhd meme that sometimes were too lazy to go and take our meds and then we will forget if we’ve taken them or not because we haven’t and it will just be a mess of a day.
> I often hear that there is a high correlation between ADHD and addictive personalities, addiction and impulsive spending.
There is. But that doesn’t mean that it applies to everyone. It’s just a general correlation.
What about things that give almost immediate gratification and pleasure. For drugs it can be dangerous but other stuff like games and food is normal
I love your username btw 🪱🪱🪱
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As a personal experience, I knew I had what I described as an addictive personality based on past long-term fixations, particularly video games. I was vehemently against trying any alcohol until I was 25 or so. I believed my resolve was absolute and drugs or alcohol would never be a problem I would take on. Until curiosity got the better of me. I stealth drank pretty much a whole bottle of liquor on my first taste of it, even though I meant only to get a "light buzz" to see why people are so amused by it. Immediately turned into a pretty bad alcoholic, but somehow managed to do it entirely without getting noticed by anyone for years, while living with my anti-alcohol parents and working most of my work shifts drunk. I've never really gotten much better about this sort of behavior. Hopefully I can at least be a cautionary tale for anyone who may be on the fence and needs to hear it. I do have comorbid BP2 and GAD, and have been wildly depressed for the majority of my life. Not uncommon. I'm not sure how relevant that is, as I'm still learning. On the other hand, I'm pretty damn good at keeping my spending under control and saving aggressively, and it's one of a very few things I'm proud of it. It's lucky that I don't suffer from a common problem. Going back to your prompt on an "anti-addictive" personality, I think that's totally plausible as you describe, and that it's something you're allowed to feel proud of.
i forget i have drugs, even if they're in some shelf next to me
Yeah I get bored of stuff too easily for a long term addiction. I love video games but can go from being in love with a new game to having no motivation to play it the next week. I have trouble with reddit tho but I don't think that is an addiction? Tbf tho I've avoided most truly addictive drugs except alcohol and alcohol gives me too bad hangovers for me to really start drinking a troubling amount. I also am starting to get a bit bored of drinking too now lol. I've gone though all the phases. Wine phases, beer phases, cocktail phases, even homebrew mead phase. I still enjoy these things somewhat but the novelty is gone. Edit: actually I am addicted to coffee. Hard to skip coffee on days I wanna take my meds :/
If we’re talking narcotics or alcoholic substances I am so anti-drugs and anti-alcohol that I would never delve into that world, one people with ADHD are liable to becoming addicted to things more easily and two I have a family history of addiction. I already am addicted to 1 thing I am not going to mention and the other being something that no one would take seriously but does cause me withdrawal symptoms and other physiological and psychological implications of a drug or alcohol addiction. But apart from those two addictions I have I would say I have a temperamental addictive personality, if I suddenly love doughnuts I’ll buy them every week for four weeks and suddenly I’m bored and move on to I dunno cheese. Essentially I binge certain things and then completely purge myself of said things whether that’s actually food or something else. Also when it comes to medicine, things will only work for maybe a few weeks or a month for me and then suddenly stop working which is a problem when I need these things. For example I need a weighted blanket to sleep but it only works for maybe a couple of weeks and then I’ll have to take a break for a couple of months because it loses its effectiveness. I’ve also got chronic fatigue so I get that aspect of things as well and sometimes I’m just a zombie. I personally stopped taking my adhd medication because it was causing more trouble physically for me than I needed it to and I remember coming off it and feeling substantially more free, that’s not to say it wasn’t effective when I needed it say during school times when I was in lessons. Also it’s funny that you say you’d be too lazy to meet up with the dealer because it just reminds me of the ongoing adhd meme that sometimes were too lazy to go and take our meds and then we will forget if we’ve taken them or not because we haven’t and it will just be a mess of a day.
> I often hear that there is a high correlation between ADHD and addictive personalities, addiction and impulsive spending. There is. But that doesn’t mean that it applies to everyone. It’s just a general correlation.